~Bad Lookin Thumb!~

There is a photo of what my right thumb looks like today. The date

and time are there.. I got up this morning and you see how red,

the dark spots are where it has cracked open and was bleeding..

its spreading more to the top of my hand as well as under the base

of my thumb.. It is really sore and hurts.. I sat and I looked at my

hands and arms.. and I honestly have NO idea what has caused

this OR what it is..and NOTHING I can do seems to be helping..If

I use just warm water to wash over them, after they dry off they

dry so badly that causes the cracks when I use my hand to push my

chair..No matter what kind of cream or ointment I put on makes it

even redder. But I am getting worried,, but the bad thing is I am so

discouraged that I cannot get in to see this dermatologist until

JUNE ..the 5th of June.. that's 2 months.. what am I to do in the

meantime? Julie refused to give me anything.. ask Penny..she

heard her...Why didnt Julie KNOW? read on.....

I found out that Julie is NOT a doctor.. but a physicians assistant..
So perhaps that's why she had NO idea of what it is. So, now, get

this.. I found out TODAY, they DO have a Dr as in Doctor

come in there once a week!..So, why did she wait until today, this

is Janelle at the clinic, to tell me this? When I called today I told her

that I will not go all the way up to Kalamazoo and since that clinic

doesn't feel my hand condition warrants an immediate visit to a

dermatologist so they squeeze me in that I felt I may have NO

choice but to go to the emergency room. I have to have some relief

and I cannot take any more chances that this would spread all

over my body which it IS.on my left stump I noticed..in 2 places..

Janelle says, "Lois, I can make an appt for you for NEXT Wednesday

when the doctor is here and you can see him".. NOW..why did she

not suggest this 3 weeks ago? Why didn't Julie when she refused to

give me ANYTHING because she didn't know what it is... That we

are treated like we are nothing because we have such poor health

care is awful. . There is NOT ONE doctor in this town that will take a

medicaid patient.. or what ever it is I have. They will medicare.. but

not me.. Isnt that discrimination? We have to get sub standard care

and are treated with such discrimination..this is awful.. and just think..

if I was some quiet mousy woman that didn't raise hell..these people

would let me ROT! ! What is wrong with this??

And- to wait almost 3 months to get a rash taken care of? THAT

really amazes me...If you have a rash NOW, what do they think

it will just go away? The more goes on and I see how I am being

treated with such disregard for my health.. upsets me.. That I

cant go to just any Dr, I have to settle for this clinic that only has

a Dr once a week and they don't even know your history or what

ALL your problems are.. This assistant comes in asks what the

problem is today and doesn't even bother to look at anything

about you ..and the bad thing is they don't really care.. I think this

is where the bad students are sent for punishment for bad grades

or something..

I know you can tell Im upset about this..that they have such little

disreguard for ME.. I am nobody.. A welfare person..low life..living

off the government as they see anyone that gets SSI.. doesn't matter

Im disabled.. or that I have numerous health issues..Im a free loader

living off the government.. that's why we get the sub standard care.

Boy have I gone on about this hey? but I am worried..and I am really

stuck.. I could go to the ER..but unless they deem it a real emergency

after I get there..I could end up having to pay for it.. I cant take that

chance either ! So you see.. Im stuck.. I have another week to wait

to get some sort of relief from this.. Ive tried everything, trust me..I

have called every one and their red headed cousins.. and I have

still gotten NO WHERE.. Boy .. that sure makes me feel great.. Then

they wonder why we are depressed.. isnt this a good reason??

Enough on this for today I am posting this..gonna soak these hands

for a few and get out of this chair.. I will admit I am slightly down in

the dumps today.. but this lady hasnt sung YET and this is FAR from

over.. I love a good fight.. and well this isnt right.. I don't know what I

can do maybe a good law suit might help.. I need a good lawyer or

something :-) Maybe I need to call my sister..:-) Between her and I ?

Well no one would want to take both of us on let me tell ya :-) Time

to get a snack and say my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks !! :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....