~Joys of Winter~

It was 35 degrees outside this morning when I got up at

5:30. And it WAS cold in here. I still havent turned the

furnace on and I really should.. The boys little feet are so

cold.. Dutch tapped my face this morning and wow.. I

mean they were freezing.. I didn't turn the furnace on, I

waited till the sun started to shine, now, since they cut my

trees I get the morning sun and I get late afternoon on

the other side of the house.. It did warm up... If the temp

drops tonite I may have to turn it on just to take the damp

chill out.. I just dread the gas bill.. It was outrageous last

year and now, well the prices are even higher so I know my

bill will be more.. Joys of living in the north :-)

Only bad thing about winter and the cold are the fires.. I

watched 2 fire trucks and a ambulance rush down the

street this morning and that sends chills down my spine.

My first thoughts is that no one got hurt. I was in a fire,

a long time ago and I know the devastation and the feeling

of loss.. I lost every single thing I owned when my house

burnt down. We had thought Mark started it while I was

asleep as he was always fascinated by my lighter. We

found it in the kitchen on the floor.. The fire started in

the cupboard tho, the house was so old, and the wiring was

bad.. My dishes sometimes were even hot when I got them

out of it.. I woke up to flames one morning before I told

the landlord about it..

Luckily I got Mark and I out.. wasn't easy but I did.. Richard

was with his dad and Mark refused to go. I had gotten a

phone call and had to get up to answer it.. I laid back down on

the couch to wait for Mark to get up to make breakfast.. I

fell back to sleep to be slapped awake by Mark screaming

"Mommy! Mommy! Fire!" I opened my eyes and when I looked

at the kitchen it was like looking into an inferno.. I grabbed

Mark and ran to the door.. First try it wouldn't open.. I pulled

and tugged at a dead bolt I had to have put on since my ex

kept breaking in... in a fire, the heat made it expand and I

had a hell of a time twisting that knob.. I got it open and felt

the rush of AIR... I remember going across the street to

the neighbors and I don't remember anything after that for

weeks.. Shock I guess... I lost every single thing we had,

I had 2 little boys, lost my home, everything, it was an awful

time.. 3 weeks after the fire I had to have major surgery...

was a bad bad time.. not to mention I even totaled out my

car.!.. Its like nothing was right and every single thing was

wrong.. horrible time and all contributing factors to my

leaving... Fires bring back a lot of memories.. and sadly not

good ones at all....

I forgot to have Penny get a new filter for the furnace and

I hate to turn mine on till I do.. Plus I didn't ask her to make

sure nothing was up against it.. That lady moved all the stuff

down there away from the walls to paint.. which, the smell is

still there.. has gotten even worse I think..but that could be

cuz of the 4 days of rain we had too.. If I have to I will

call and ask Penny cuz she goes down there every time shes

here to empty the de humidifier down there. Its full every

time too... I know once I turn that furnace on with that

smell down there will blow it up here.. and I already smell

it through the register vents in the baseboards... Theres

so much on my to do list for this house its pathetic..and

the bad thing is the list doesn't get smaller but bigger!!

The boy did write me in his book in INK he said.. I made

sure yesterday cuz Dawn came by while she was in town.

So I asked her to remind him.. which I know she will...

Well I've got a pork roast cooking out there in my crock

pot I wish you could smell it much less taste it.. The smell

is wonderful... I put it on last night before I went to watch

TV.. they had pork roast and steaks for dollar nineteen a

pound which is very good... Penny picked out a nice one for

me and my mouth is watering ready to go and eat some of

it :-) That means its time for my GORGEOUS WEEBLE

"Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again..