~Do They Know~

I woke this morning to rain. But I knew it was coming.

Besides the TV forecast I knew. I sat here at the computer

and the rain had stopped but it was foggy out.. I watched

all the cars rushing to work and couldn't help but think of

all the times I did that very same thing every day. I do miss

it kinda, I think what I miss is the purpose.. I HAD to work,

I wanted a good life and I didn't mind working to get it. I

watched these people starting their day and wondered if any

of them knew how lucky they were.. they had purpose and a

way to get what they not only needed but wanted too. I took

it for granted that I would be able to go on with a full life.
I hope they know what they have.

I don't mean my life is empty, its not by any means, its just

not what I had envisioned for myself. When I started on

that first restart back in 71, I had plans, lots of them, of

what I wanted my life to be. All these years later, I honestly

cant say that my life is what I would call FULL. I have some

dear friends, family but its still not all I had hoped and had

wanted for myself and those I held near and dear to me. It

seemed the harder I tried, the farther away my dreams and

plans went.

When my health started to deteriorate I just accepted it,

like I do being an amputee now. I have no choice but to accept

this and this way of life. Some days I swear at this chair,

specially if I'm careless and bang my knuckles or pinch my arm

or specially when I fall out of this thing. I get so discouraged

sometimes because I cant do what needs to be done, I have to

ask someone , "will you come help me?" before, I could do it all.

I wonder sometimes do those that have legs, cars, nice homes,

a sufficient income do they appreciate it? Life can change in

just the blink of an eye, or a matter of seconds. I know I hope

they appreciate what they have, what they can do, where they

can go.. I have to call ahead, "are you wheel chair accessible?"

before I venture to go to a place. I loved yard sales.. my sis

would pull up outside, honk the horn and I would run out and

off we would go. In and out of the car, steady walking... I

figgured I would always be able to do that.. Sure I can now,

but I cant run out to the car, she has to come in and help

with the doors, she has to load my chair in to the trunk,

and unload it. Our outing now would be a job for her. I don't

think she would hesitate to do it if I asked.. but then its back

to that same thing... "ASKING".

I'm not shy by any means, but some things are just hard to

do or say, and for me that's one of them.. I feel bad some

times when its just something small.. ok.. like the smoke alarm.

Its been beeping now since yesterday after Penny left. I

cant reach it to stop it.. The battery is going dead so every

10 minutes or so I hear "BEEP".. Penny called, she has a

funeral tomorrow, so she wont be here. so.. I will have to

wait till Thursday when Rebecca will be here to ask her to

shut that beepin thing OFF! .. This is what I mean.. I could

just reach up with my grabber and knock it off the wall

just to stop the beeps but then I would have to replace it.

The joys of being short. :-)

Well anyway, I hope these people I see out there appreciate

what they have and can do. What I can do right now is go out

to that kitchen and eat some of those green grapes I have

sitting out there. Theyre so good. I'm glad I had Penny get

them for me. I have a net flix due today so when it gets here

about 3 or so .. you KNOW what I will be doing :-) So until

tomorrow this GORGEOUS WEEBLE says "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, y'hear? love ya! and Thanks!

Always, Lois ****


"God Bless You", is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again ....