~January Isnt Easy~

I got up early, about 5:30. I did my normal routine of

feeding the boys, which by the way, Dutch is much

better today, I think he just was having a off day

yesterday. I turned my puter on and drank a coffee

while I did my daily send of elders and answered

some emails and messages left for me on Yahoo..
I put music into every thing I send.. One of the

songs I was listening to was John Denver's "Some

Days Are Diamonds". I don't know why but that

song just made me so sad.. I started to cry and

that feeling of loss just took over. January is

really a hard month for me....

I get a bit down during the holidays being my myself,

but I honestly think January is worse for me.. I don't

mind having a birthday at all.. In fact I'm MOST

grateful I still have them, means I'm ALIVE ! :-) But

well, what makes January so very hard, is.. 8 years ago,

January 18th to be exact, is when I lost my right leg

below the knee.. This was the start of all of this...It

still makes me cry and very sad.. I miss my legs, I miss

the life I had, the being able to do things.. I miss that.

A lot.. and it makes me sad.. I compare the feeling of

the loss of my legs to that of my parents, or someone

that you really love, family.. well, my legs WERE family,

very much a part of me.. And their loss changed my

life Drastically.. It makes me sad, even after 8 years,

but I don't think that will ever stop. And I think feeling

like that can really be a good thing too.. Tears are

cleansing and CAN make you see better :-)

I don't stay at these places.. when this happens you

know what I do.. I sit then and count my blessings,

and now having this new place, even though it means

a much tighter budget, this place is a blessing.. I have

some of the dearest and best friends, great family,

well .. counting them, makes the sad stuff go away..

at least for a while.. But I know I need these sad

times too, to cry and to FEEL.. but mainly so I count

my blessings and am grateful that I have them to

count.. :-)

I was fixing my state quarter collection today and I

still need a few more so I have a complete D set and

a complete P set.. Stands for Denver and Philadelphia,

where they were minted.. I saw a ad on TV the other

night for a complete uncirculated "not touched by

human hands" quarter set, for sale for 99.99.. I wonder

who put the quarters in these books if they were never

touched? :-) But I am not missing very many. 4 from the

P set and 3 from the D set.. I started a set for Donnie

and gave it to him a year ago for Christmas, I havent

asked him if hes kept up on it.. I hope he has.. These will

be valuable I think, specially since they stopped making

them.. That will increase their value.

Well I'm having some left overs from yesterday, Penny

made some hamburger helper that's really good.. Was

enough for both our lunches yesterday and lunch for

me today.. Something different.. We are sposed to get

a major storm with blizzard conditions and as of noon

the sun was shining and it was blue sky.. So maybe we

wont get it.. The weather did say its going to get VERY
cold as in WAY below zero cold.. I will just shut all the

blinds and we will stay warm.

I'm hungry and its post time and for my GORGEOUS
WEEBLE "G'day, G'day" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and Thanks!

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....