~ Not Well Today~

I am not well today at all.. I think I am trying too hard.
Gail, my nurse was here and said today was the worst
she has heard my heart beat and we seriously discussed
my going into assisted living somewhere... I need to
think about this... I like being alone, but it is so scarey
when you are so ill... I have not been this sick ever
before and I will be honest I am very scared to be
alone..I have my boys but I have NOT been able to
teach them how to dial a phone in case I need 911...

The boys have not left my side, every where I go they
follow..The hardest part that puts the most stress and
strain on me is the transferring.. If I didnt have to do
that I would be better.. Just to sit up from laying down
is hard.. I have a long piece of ribbon tied to my chair
and when I have to get up I use that to help me..with
no legs I have no leverage...

I was laying in bed and decided to come out here and
write this for today I almost didnt but I took a little
nap earlier as I didnt fall asleep last night till after 3am.
I had even taken a sleeping pill...trazadone, 25 mg..
not strong enough.. But the nap helped..Penny came
and went to the store so I am all squared away until
she or someone can come by..

Thank you for all the wonderful comments, I just
dont have enough stamina to reply today as soon
as I sign off here I am headed back to my bed..
but thank you so much ..Y'all are my strength and
I am most grateful for all of you..

I am still a most GORGEOUS WEEBLE and I will
be back tomorrow hopefully..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...