Quiet Saturday

Nice quiet saturday today, and this week has been a good one for me.
Lots of good things happened im pleased.

The weather is changing and getting cooler, our fall is here. I even had
to put a sweater on and wear a heavier skirt..My stumps I find get cold
really easy and sometimes i find i can tell almost when its going to rain
and be ugly outside because they ache so bad, and then even the rubbing
doesnt help.

I chatted with a friend discussing phantoms and just how they really feel.
Sometimes it hurts so bad, my left heel feels like an ice pick is being
stabbed into it. It has hurt so bad sometimes the whole stump will move.
The feeling of my invisible legs is so strange..They are there, but they
feel shorter and more compressed? or like they are being pushed up from
the bottom and pushed down from the knee.. I can move the invisible too.
I can only swing it side to side..but not kick the leg out in front..but I know
when i was a rbk, (right below knee) i had horrible time to straighten out
my stump..was awful..

When i lay down i notice that sometimes my invisible legs are kinda bent
and over to the side.. sometimes i lay there and they ARE out straight ,
but they are still very short feeling.. Its hard sometimes when they really
ache to know just what part is aching the real or invisible. The stump that
is there will hurt too off and on .. but the invisible hurts all the time.. I
have to say,, if i stop and think about it..there is NOT a time that they do
not ache and let me know they are gone..but still there..

I dont remember how soon after they were taken when the phantoms
really started..i guess were always there. I dont take any kinds of meds,
pain or other wise but the pain isnt THAT bad really,, but its constant.
it NEVER stops..they ache, or flat out HURT. sometimes they feel like
they are asleep is how i describe it..like if you cut off circulation sometimes
and that picky tingly feeling as they wake up..the right one feels like that
most of the time..Its been 4 years soon for my left. next month the 22nd
to be exact..amazing how a person can remember dates of bad things..
when its best not to..Will be 5 for my right in jan. then again for that one
in feb.

I had my right leg taken twice. below first..then above. Was interesting
to find out how much a leg weighs.. Just before i had my left leg taken
they weighed me..and right after i got back to the nursing home..Guess
how much it weighed?? got any idea?

Hmmm might be a fun little way to get u to comment so everyone
knows this IS being read..OK..hmmm lets see...whoever guesses right
in a post here..I'll send a really nice picture to you, even if more than1
guess right.. I KNOW..lol so come on..hmm nobody guesses then no
one wants a picture of me well thats NOT good!!! LOL..and THEN i
would really feel bad... :-( cuz im GORGEOUS !!!!! lol...

Well im off to see what kinda food i can fix thats quick and fast. I got
some great roast beef I have been wanting shrimp so bad..and the
store here doesnt have ANY fresh ... any other time they would..
i think its cuz i want them. ever get a craving for some kinda food
and just cant stop thinking about it? thats like tryiing to remember
the name of a movie or song and u see and hear it but your minds
a total blank. i hate when that happens..

Hope your weekend is great and happy and ill be watching and waiting
ill comment on each post..they let me know when u do..so..lets see how
many know what a amputated leg from just behind the knee weighs..
be interesting to see what u all think..but in pounds..!!! lol.

y'all have a good one now y'hear? nite...
always, Lois***