~Slow Improvment~

Today I do feel a bit better and have stayed up longer than I have the past 3 days...This stuff lets you think you feel no too bad..so you get up..and then it gets right back and says"JUST FOOLIN" and back I go to bed...I had some good soup and watched tv and fell asleep real fast...I just dont sleep long at one time. I used to mainly sleep on my right side..well now it is really hard to do and if I am not laying just right the weight from my left stump, it being a bit longer than the right puts pressure on my hip..even with a pillow between them.. I miss sleeping like that tho..every once in a while, I don't know what I do, but I can sleep that way for awhile.. It gets very hard on my back steady sleeping that way..that's why sometimes I sleep sitting up just to have a different position... I got used to doing that in the hellhome. . They had a major issue there about side rails..they were not allowed to use them as they were considered restraints.. There were so many of the dearies that started to fall out..they would put their beds as far down as they would go ( if they had electric bed, not all did) and put a 2 inch foam mat the length of the side supposedly to help cushion the fall...well didn't work real good..They went thru and tied all the side rails down so you couldnt pull them up..well I needed mine to sit up or to roll to my side..so i cut mine off so I could use them.. I only used one side anyway..but I wanted mine ..they of course told me i wasn't allowed to but well they never came and tied it back up...I would have just cut if off again.. I thought of how dangerous to not have them for the patients , not able to use them anymore..Some people really had to have them and they said no..i did cut some others off too for a couple other people i knew..oh we weren't allowed scissors either ..if they had gotten mine they would have taken them..too dangerous.. . when i had to turn or sit up that side rail sure came in handy..just to sit up now is really hard..but i did put a rope..well a strap..and tied it to my bed frame and I use that now for leverage to help pull me up..Some times i would try to get up and almost pull my shoulder out..I can get a hospital bed..electric if I want one then i could have the trapeze over top to help me get up. I had thought about getting one but its only a single bed and alot smaller than what i have now..and I like the room i have its only a double but big for me..works good..and this strap i have now helps alot. . Well i still feel crappy, but i expect to for a few days yet.. I was so glad Dawn came over this morning and went to the bank for me..and she vacuumed..Kelli had to work today.. They are so good to me.. Dawns birthday is tomorrow..they are having a dinner and invited her parents. They will have a good time Dawn is such a sweetie.. . I'm going to get some water and go back to bed.. thanks again for all the sweet birthday wishes..so nice to get. . Y'all have a good one y'hear? LUV ya... Always, Lois *** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...