~Nice to Know~

I like knowing that what I share here... about me and my life,

and how I live, is appreciated.. Means alot to me.. To hear

that the pictures I put here of my self and my family that others

like to see them and know a bit more about me, means alot to me..

and I enjoy sharing them and thinking back to those good times..

and even sometimes the not so good..but then even those still can

be good-they cant hurt you now..but remind you that HEY..

you made it.. :-) and where you have been...

I was chatting to a dear friend today and telling things on my

self, which I am REALLY good at doing..things Ive done.. I have

to say some were extremely hard to do..but at the time I had NO

choice.. The times were so bad and overwhelming I decided the

best way for me to fix it was to RUN... I put my birth certificate and

my photos I wanted into my purse, got dressed..walked to a truck

stop restaurant ..and walked up to a driver, said "where ya going?"

and asked to hitch a ride.. Thats how I ended up in Houston... I had

no choice.. I had to walk away..or I would have sunk..and done things

that I knew I would eventually live to regret..a lifestyle that I KNEW

was NOT for me. The only recourse was to Re-Start.. That was the

best thing I could have done.. By the time I got to Houston.. I had a

job and a place to stay waiting for me thanks to Bill, the sweet

truck driver that let me ride along with him..But then too , I had on

a short mid thigh white skirt..white boots up almost to my knee and a

white a purple striped top on..blonde hair down to my waist....well..

I dont think Sweet William hesitated at all.. and bless his heart- he

was a perfect gentleman ..that whole trip from Jackson Mississippi

to Houston, he was one "just passing it along" and he really helped

me when I really needed it..

That was such a good movie..such a good plot..about passing on the

good deeds done to you and doing something for someone else.. I

try to do that.. Ive been helped so many times along the way..times

when I had NO where to go..or food. nothing..but seemed if I turned

JUST the RIGHT way.. there was someone that gave me a helping

hand.. I cant give the help to someone else like the different kinds of

generous things done for me.. but I do have a hand..well 2 of them..

and I sure dont mind helping or encouraging or just giving someone

a Good PUSH if they need motivated.. Thats the only way that I can

"just pass it along" and If everyone did that just think of how much

better it would be. So many just take advantage of people, are users

and only to benefit themselves, no one else, and what really gets

me is when they lie, to get what they want, pretend to be something

they arent.. Thats so NOT good.. and I cant do that.. I wont do that..

Its so much easier to HELP than HINDER...

I am finding as time goes by that I am losing my independence..and
I think THAT is the biggest hurdle for me, that there are just some

things I cannot do and I just have to break down and ASK for some

help..and I will HONESTLY admit.. I would rather rip my tongue out

of my head than do this..but I just HAVE no choice, and the more

time that goes by I see this more and more, and It, for me is very

scarey and I know I wont like it when and IF this really happens and

I lose what independence I do have now, Lord, I dread that thought,

but I DO see this ahead....not soon..but its ahead of me, and just

how does a person really prepare for that? I dont think I really can,

because I have NO idea when it will happen or truthfully IF it will ~!

I hope not..but then again, WHO knows..ONLY the shadow..lol...

I loved that old radio show when they said that.. ONLY THE
SHADOW KNOWS.. was some mystery theatre that was on the

radio years ago.when Sargent Preston of the Yukon, or Sky King

were on..or Amos and Andy and Jack Benny that my parents

really liked... We all had our favorites and we each had a turn to

listen and sat together as a family to listen...wonderful times..the

kids today and families dont really realize how great those times

really were...The good old RADIO DAYS.. :-)

Well What is ahead of me right now is a squeaky clean kitchen that

Raelynn cleaned up for me today and I am going to go out there and

fix some dinner.. I am really hungry..and of course lunch was NOT

what I felt like eating after I looked at it, I dont know really WHAT I

want tho, trying to decide what wont take forever to make and what

will not be just wear and tear on my arms, they get SO heavy when I

have to keep holding them up..like to stir or fry something- I am really

hungry for some chicken and rice with to-ma-toes..lol...thats really

good. it takes awhile to fix and I dont think I can wait THAT long lol.

SO ............ I think I will just go and stare into the pantry and freezer

for a while and see what jumps out at me.. BESIDES DUTCH lol.
Hope you have a good dinner, I need a COOK.. :-) Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? luv ya...and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...