~I Felt~

When my eyes opened this morning.. I just laid there for a short

little while and just FELT.. me..all of me..a body scan again , guess

what ? I had NO pain.. No aches. No phantoms. I felt NOTHING..

My legs felt like legs.. not long, short, or otherwise.. I laid

there and really enjoyed that feeling.. I was really not expecting

to feel that again and I have NO idea why I did.. I made a guess as

to why..just out of a normal wake up I felt..like I was ALL of me.

That I was THERE... then slowly..I mean S L O W L Y. the shortness

and the sort of ache that is always there in my stumps..came back..

I could feel the feet gradually go where they wanted and the usual

way they felt slowly returned, this is the 2nd time in almost 5 yrs...

I have NO idea why..I guessed what could possibly have caused

that.. Maybe I was in such a deep sleep and woke suddenly? I

didnt think I was.. just my normal eye open thing.. they just open..

lol.. I usually dont even remember my dreams..Once in a while

a few times a week.. I do.. but they seem to be all the same sort

of dream.. I am looking for usually a place to live.. I find some

where but then I look for something else..Very seldom do I know

any one in them, but I take a tour of houses and then see them

and live there but then am looking again... like its a habit or

something..lol.hard to explain.. But I dont remember dreaming last

nite..and to wake that way..well I just dont know how to explain it..

so I have to guesstimate lol... it was nice though..I really enjoyed

that... even though wasnt for very long..I guess even a few seconds

of a good feeling is worth not having it at all.. I would say so .. :-)

There is an elderly man, so I am told..lives next door to me on the

right of my apt..he has a 2 bedroom apartment and his and my

bedrooms are on opposite walls...His stereo is SO loud all the

time.. and there is just no need..get earphones then . I guess hes

deaf...I dont know..BUT I DO know I am sick of listening to this

THUMP THUMP THUMP of his music or tv or what ever it is.. I

have asked Chris (apt Mgr) to please do something..he assures

me "I asked him to turn down the music, its the grandson" is

what he says.. welllll it hasnt done A BIT of good..and the week

ends are the worse.. It happens during the week..but I think the

young grandson comes and stays with him then on the week

ends when its louder and more often and worse.... Hes a DAk

like me... He was a police officer Im told..I have only seen him

once in the hall.. I HATE to be a gripey neighbor I KNOW what

they are like..I have one on the other side .. that gripes about

everyone...and I hate to be like that.. I dont mess with ANYONE

in here just for this reason...its like a small city when you live in a

apartment building ..and I just like my privacy..Ive NEVER lived

in a apartment other than when I lived in Green Bay, and for a

short while in Buffalo NY...I just dont like it.. But well you have to

get along. I do..I just dont get involved..that way it keeps the peace.

But this is getting so old... I am really sick of it.. I did write out a

complaint..again..this will be the 3rd.. So something better be

done.. I just hope they dont come over here and start anything

THATS my biggest fear..I HATE trouble.. and HOW hard is it to

keep music to a decent level when you have people next door..

Seems there is just so little consideration for others anymore..I

get so discouraged... I hear so much stuff and its all just DRAMA.

and all anyone needs to do is just respect everyone else.. I just

dont understand all the hatred and all this horrible stuff going on.

People that use other people, taking advantage of generosity

or just want to make trouble and cause problems..all this CRAP

with the schools and the difference in nationality's.. All the damn

FIGHTING..why fight..when is so much easier to LIVE and LET
LIVE.. This world is so wonderful.. there is NOT one place that

is NOT beautiful..but look at the conditions..not just here but all

over the world..there is so much hate and fighting and just so much

awful things.. people dying because someone hated them.. There

are so many bad things that kill us... diseases..cancers..isnt that

enough? I dont know... but hey..if I cant HELP someone why

would I want to HURT them? Thats like that movie..Bambi..the very

best part of that movie..when the mama says to that baby.. " If

you cant say something NICE..dont say anything at all"..Now...I

isnt that the same thing as DOING something for someone?

cant do something NICE..well then DONT do anything. :-)

well I had no idea what i was gonna write about.. and as usual I did

think of something .. dont say "well..you ALWAYS DO!!!" either lol

sorry its a bit of a gripe..but well Hey..its alot easier to get along..just

say " I luv ya baby" and give a kiss and hug..well..that does wonders

try it. :-) wanna kiss? lol..ok ..hug too :-) well you know what I mean..

Well now Im starved, all this climbing up and down on this soap box is

hard work and I deserve a treat..well ..I do..just because ..well.....
I deserve a treat...BECAUSE-- I'm GORGEOUS... :-) You knew I was

gonna write that :-) Nitey Nite..

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear..Luv ya..and thanks. :-)

ALways, Lois ****

Ps..I dont hear the music!!! Yippeee!!! :-)

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...