~What a DAY~ :-(

Well today was a crap day. I didnt get anywhere. I called a

lawyer with legal aid and they said to call back Tuesday, the

25th.. Well I got a summons in the mail today to be in court

on the 29th at 9 am. to be evicted. If I move out of here before

the court date I will save my HUD. I dont know how in 10 days

I can get this place packed up and moved, plus find a place

to move to.. I am just screwed I guess.. The man at Legal Aid

said that I can call on the 25th and a lawyer will tell me what to

do in court. I cant do that with no guarantee I will win and not

be evicted.. I will have to move... I just dont know where to or

HOW.. This is so awful and I did this all to my self.. I guess I

deserve every bit of this..

There is an apt. complex in a town about 25 ;miles from here,

and its HUD, only thing is they only allow one cat, how do I decide

which of my boys I keep? They dont know anyone but me.. Plus

the fact I will have to have a deposit..etc.. I know I will lose the one

I had here because I didnt give 30 days notice. I just cant win...

I was thinking today that it seems the harder I try to clean things up

and make things right the more falls apart. I can understand why so

many that are like me get so discouraged.. I worry constantly so I

can imagine how others feel.. To pack all these things up, then to get

them all moved..How will I ever get that done? all before the 29th ?

I dont see how it is possible..I could just kick myself..

I sit here and look at my boys and feel so bad that I have jeopardized

their home..and now have to face the fact that possibly I will have to

give one of them away, and to who do I give them to? and HOW do I

choose between them as to who gets to stay with me and the other

goes to someone else..that may not spoil them like I do or treat him

nicely .. I am such a horrible mother...

Well my nurse didnt show up today either and I have no idea why.. I

plan to call Donnie and see if he can get some boxes and maybe

Dawn & kelli might come and help me pack... Raelynn said she

would help me.. That apt complex is not as nice as this one and it

is not one floor like this.. it has elevators.. I just dont know what to do

I cant understand why I cannot find a lawyer in this whole state of

Michigan that would help me and not charge me a fortune.. I :have

NO idea how I will make this move..rent and deposit? I dont know..

but this sure is scarey.. and I dont like it at all...

I am not tired but I want to try to sort thru some things and maybe get

rid of alot so its less to pack and I dont have alot of time to do this.. I

better not waste a minute of my time..I better get started..time to say

"Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya and thanks...

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..