~ I Are Tired~

Well, this woman is tired, I was going to take a nap and

just never got around to it.. I got up early this morning, at

2:45 am, I woke up with a bad stomach and spent the next

hour in the bathroom and by the time I rolled out of there,

hell, I was up ... I did try to lay back down for a while till I

just couldn't stand it and I Had to get up.. I did fall asleep as

soon as I went to bed tho, which was about 830. I don't think

I saw any TV, I don't remember any anyway, so that could be

cuz nothing anything any good was on.. I hate that cuz then

all I do is keep flicking to my favorite channels which is the

Animal Planet, travel channel and the food network lol..I did

watch QVC for awhile, but there were just too many neat

things on there, it was a good thing I didn't have a credit

card when I did watch it..The food they sell on there I know

for a fact is excellent..My sis gets stuff from there all the time.

But I don't remember seeing anything on TV, and I don't

remember shutting it off. so I may not have even turned it on

at all.. I know I did sleep.for a while anyway...

A friend asked me how do I sleep... I usually, most of the time

lay on my back, at times when my tail bone seems to ache

really bad..I pile all my pillows up in front of me, grab the top

one and just lean forward..its really comfortable. I think about

doing that when I had legs, it wasn't that easy, well not and be

comfortable, with longer legs, they almost need to be bent to

be comfortable in a sitting up position..Me, with out my full

leg I can fold right in half..to do that with legs was like an

exercise, its not now.. When I was in the Hellhome, I slept

sitting up alot, I had alot of trouble breathing and my legs

ached so bad all the time sleeping that way helped.

I dont sleep on my right side very much and I cant lay on my left

at all.. I have a abdominal bypass that goes down the side of me.

It was my 2nd. When I lay on that side it hurts so I dont.. To lay

on my right isnt too bad for a short time.. but I have to have the

pillows just so between my stumps or my hip will ache on the

left side.. I think its because my left stump is bigger and longer

of course, if I dont keep it propped up straight it puts too

much pressure on my hip and thats why I cant stay that way

for long..Lots of times I do lay sort of half way on my side with a

pillow under my left side,then one under my left stump and

thats kind of comfy..I know I used to like to sleep laying on my

back with my knees bent, this is close to that feeling...

My left stump being so much shorter I cant cross them at all.. I

try but they wont stay that way, usually with the left longer I

will try to put that over the right, which is not how I always sat

when I crossed my legs, it was always right over left. I will say,

I honestly do miss that I wish I could do that again..sometimes

here at my desk I will pull up close and raise my left stump up

and rest it against the desk.. I used to sit like that sometimes

at night to watch tv.. to just hold it up there not propped against

anything doesnt work..Its not relaxed, like it is with a whole leg.

At least thats what Ive found...When I prop it up here I bring my

keyboard up close, I can now, cuz its a cordless one and so is

my mouse, I lean back in my chair and really relax while I am

on here..usually when I am playing spider solitare.. I like that

game..I can beat 2 colors..not too bad..I like it cuz its kind of

like a strategy thing..if I move this here, I can move that there,

then this goes over there, I like it.. Once I get started though

its very addicting..I say "one more game" at least 3 dozen

times before I actually STOP playing :-)

Well the boy is off to Canada, his brother David,that looks just

like Barb, their mother, is babysitting Donnies house while he and

Dawn are gone for this week. He goes every year and looks so

forward to it..Hes not doing a fly in one this time though, just the

camp kind somewhere up there, me ? camping is good if its in

a motel or hotel..or a nice trailer..thats good camping for me..

Tenting? in the woods? no..been there done that little tidbit and

I am NOT a camper, tenter person. But I am a hungry person

and very very tired, this is a tad early but I am logging off early

tonite and watching tv ..I say that every time.. Time to say

"Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya and thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..