~First Thoughts~

I was asked "what did you first think when you saw

your leg was gone?" My first thought, when I sat up and

looked down at the flat space on the bed where my foot

should have been, I did one of those double takes. I

looked, looked out the window at the full moon, I

woke in the middle of the night, looked back and my

first thought was 'WELL, what ya gonna DO NOW!' I

was scared, sad, and worried. I laid back down and

went back to sleep. When I woke again later, I did the

same thing again, I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or

not, I saw again my foot was gone, threw the sheet back

put my hand on the end, hung my head down and cried.

I was so sad, worried, I didn't know what was going to

happen to me.. I was scared to death..

When I went for the above knee, that was hard too,

even though only a few weeks earlier I had had the

below knee amputation.. But when I looked and saw

the WHOLE leg gone, it was more real and seemed

to be much worse than the below knee.. Although I

have to be honest and say I HATED the below knee

amputation.. My leg would NOT go straight at all..We

tried every thing and I don't know if they cut a

tendon too short or what, but nothing anyone did

would make that leg lay flat. It stayed bent at the

knee and I didn't like it at all.. In fact I fell out

of bed when they did the bk amputation.. I woke up,

had to potty and just threw the covers back and

proceeded to stand up. Of course I hit the floor!

Bruised and cut my knee..That was another reason

I didn't like the bk, that bruise and scrape wouldn't

heal.. but that's because the gangrene had spread

so far they should have done a above knee and not

even done it bk ... That's mine AND my sisters

thoughts on that..

Before they did the bk, I had fallen, broken my leg,

just above the ankle.. by the time they did the

amputation my foot was black and full of gangrene.
I think it had spread farther than what they knew,

because it never healed and by the time they did

do the above knee it was a raging infection... It

wasn't a fun time at all. I wish I didn't remember

as well as I do, but I guess being such a traumatic

time, dealing with amputations, depression, heart,

divorce, was a bad time.. I KNOW I'm glad its all

in the past !! I don't need to worry about going

through that again ! Well unless they had to take

my arms or something, which if they did I still

would be better prepared than I was for my leg

amputations.. I KNOW what its like now to go

through all that.. not fun...

Well Penny showed up today, she is all better, and

of course she went to the store to get the boys

their treats.. They get so crabby and fight a lot when

I run out.. When Donnie was here with Jerky, LB

was hiding under my couch, Jerky made a dive under

it, half of that dog was under there and would you

believe that dog actually LIFTED that couch? I was

afraid it would come off the risers and smash not only

that dog but LB as well.. When that couch raised up

Jerky let out a howl and came backing out from under

there like he was on fire, LB came flying out headed

to the closet, hair up, ears back and growling. Jerky

jumped up on the couch and crawled into Donnies lap

whining and howling like a baby.. We laughed so hard.

What a scaredey cat dog.. and this dog weighs 80

pounds I bet.. but he was all upset..

I waited patiently for the mail today, Penny even stayed

later, we decided to hang up a calendar I got of kitties,

and put it in the kitchen to cover the phone wall outlet.

As I went through the calendar looking at the photos I

looked at January and then saw that today is a holiday.
I always forget that it is, so that means NO MAIL! I

told Penny she could go ahead and go.. she had forgotten

that too.. Being the inauguration tomorrow as well it

will be a busy day. I watched some of the preps on TV

for the ceremony and party afterwards.. I think the

only one I really remember watching was when they

put Kennedy in as Pres.. I liked him.. This day tomorrow

will go down in History and be remembered forever.

Time to post and wrap some valentines stuff I got for

my grands. Kids like to get little surprises.. Keeps them

happy...When I get this machine up and running or get one

that does, I am looking forward to making things for them.

Not counting the fact that it will give me something to do

and to feel at least partly useful.. :-) My use right now is

to post this, and of course write my GORGEOUS WEEBLE

"G'Day, G'Day".... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...