~Made Me Upset~

This will be a short post today as I am most upset besides

being in extreme pain.. Rebecca was here, shes my case

worker with Keystone. Apparently my grant has changed.

They will no longer be paying my rent on a monthly basis,

but a yearly.. which means, I will have to move. Without

their help, I could not pay this 550.oo a month rent. I

got so upset I thought I was gonna puke..


I don't even know what to write because I am in such a

state of pain and confusion.. Rebecca always said my grant

would never change because I am disabled.. She lied. I

got so angry at her when she couldn't even give me a reason.

I have NO idea how long I have much less what I am going

to do now.. Needless to say this is a very bad day...

I didn't sleep much last night either and this has taken a

serious toll.. I can feel how draggy I am.. I don't like it..
The phantoms are not much better and the pain when it

does hit is very severe.. I told Rebecca that this pain is

what put me in hospital a while back, because it puts such

a strain on my heart, then she proceeded to say "Lois, I

have something to tell you". I don't need to tell you what

happened to my blood pressure.. And when something gets

me so upset I cry, well.. God help the person that made

me cry...

I knew things were TOO perfect here.. So now I am in a

wait game.. I told Rebecca to leave when she was here I

couldn't hear anymore, I was that upset.. So I have no idea

what the time frame is on this.. But see? Always some

thing.. I'm going to post this now and try to calm down before

I DO have to call 911.. Penny is here, she heard it all.. Shes

not saying a lot.. but she sees how upset I am and that makes

her worry... I will do what I have to.. what that is.. right now

I have NO idea.. I need to get rid of this pain first, THEN

go after and try to solve this other CRAP...

Hope your day is better than mine.. I'm not sayin "g'day,

g'day" today though.. cuz it aint.. not for me.. but I do

hope yours is.. Post time, and I'm upset, hurting , mad,

but STILL a GORGEOUS WEEBLE ! :-) "see ya.."

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? Love ya and Thanks..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today.

I'm honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...