~Not Much Sleep~

I don't think I have to write the fact that I did NOT

get very much sleep last night. I did decide that today

and this week end I am just going to sit back, relax and

enjoy my friends, some music and not think about all

this other stuff until Monday. By then HOPEFULLY I

will be able to meet all this head on and plan my attack

on what would be my best course of action.. I cannot

afford to make any mistakes for any reason cuz I KNOW

what the consequences can be for me IF I let things go

too long. So.. Come Monday.. I will start to investigate

as to what course of action will be best for me. so- ANY
HOWAY....
Ive been watching the trees across the street. They are

just beautiful.. Look at the photos.. They didn't even do

them justice they are so pretty. There are lots of trees

here in this little town which is good to see, only thing

that bothers me is that the owners arent keeping them

in shape, which when you have trees in your yard, take

care of them or they can do some damage. Mine here

in this yard arent too bad. The biggest is the one here

in the side yard.. But I have LILACS!! I LOVE those!
I was at the kitchen sink and I looked up at the window

and saw that big bush out there and its lilacs.. We didn't

notice when we were outside. It will be so pretty when

its all bloomed out.. I wont be able to pick any and bring

in sadly, cuz of the boy.. Well I could, but I would

have to hide them at night when I couldn't guard them.

Dutch eats them till he pukes.. Think he would learn as

many times as hes eaten fresh flowers.. But nope.. he

still does every chance he gets lol...
The lilacs are so pretty out there and that tree is just

full.. The smell of lilacs is so sweet. Look at the other

pine tree out there. There are 2.. the other one is the

pine cone dropper.. this other one, has those long hanging

branches almost like a weeping willow, which is one of my

favorite trees next to a white birch. Up north there

are lots of birch trees. It's what all the Native Americans

made their canoes out of them. At Chicagon Lake there

are some or there WERE some very old ones that they

kept, since there is an Indian burial ground there at that

park.. Its a beautiful park and I went there many times.

Was too far to ride on my bike, be ok going.. but the ride

back would have been killer it was all up hill :-)
Its a rainy rainy day, so I don't need to put here that the

pains have not stopped. They arent as bad since I am

finding different positions that help to ease it. Lots of

this seems to be radiating from my hip.. But I know when

it hits my foot, well lets put it this way, it hurts SO BAD,

that if that foot wasn't missing Id SERIOUSLY consider

cutting it off my self! I couldn't but.. that's how intense

this pain is.. I tried to explain that to Rebecca yesterday,

she just doesn't understand how its possible to hurt and

not be there.. I don't understand it. but its true! I know

where my feet and legs are ALL the time.. just like if

they were there. I told Rebecca, that the bad part of

these pains is what it does to my heart.. THATS the

problem... This isnt good.. So.. enough of this .. and on

to NOT worrying till Monday. I cant do a single thing

about it, I say I wont think about it.. but I will- I KNOW

me :-)

I KNOW now, I'm hungry and I need to get out of this

chair for a while... Sitting in this or on my bed, my bed

is better, I can change positions better than I can just

fidgeting around in this chair- Looking like I have ants

in my invisible pants :-) I still DO have those big black

ants out in the kitchen though, but from what Penny

says everyone has ants, uncles, cousins and all of them

like I do.. :-) Post time, lunch time and This GORGEOUS
WEEBLE, says "Don't Worry, Be Happy".. :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and Thanks!
Always, Lois ****


"God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you "friend".
I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...