~Not a Happy Holiday~

We got snow yesterday..and it was cold.
Poor GrayBelle, her little ears were just
freezing.. Whenever I open the door, she
will scoot right in if I don't catch her..
Shes a sweet cat but shes filthy and has
gotten something on her and I have to
change clothes after I hold her, its so
bad.. Shes been here since the day I
arrived here so that's 4 years now...I'm
trying to fatten her up for winter..

I had a very sad thanksgiving.. My
brother Kenny died at 8:30 that
morning, he was 73.. He had a massive
stroke a few days before and didn't
come out of it.. There was a photo of
him in the newspaper obit.. I didn't even
recognize him.. but then Ive not seen him
in over 9 years, even though he only lived
an hour away, so does my other brother,
Frank.. Kenny is in a better place...

As for me, well I start every day off
lately with a nitro.. I found that if I
put one under my tongue, before I
start all the moving, after I drag my
self into my chair, I take one and it
sure helps! These attacks are getting
more and more frequent and I had a
really bad one last Tuesday during the
night about 3 or so.. scared me... My
nurse came the next day, she could
tell something was wrong by just looking
at me, I was very pale she said... So I
keep my nitros handy and my Dr said he
was gonna get the nitro patch for me, I
still can take the pills if I have to... I'm
gonna try it...

Its so maddening watching myself just
go downhill.. I cant even lift a gallon jug
of water...If I move around a lot, or lift,
just peeling and cutting up potatoes, it
will make me have chest pains... This
ticker is slowing down... Penny cooked
a turkey Wednesday with all the trim
mings, it was great.. we ALL enjoyed it..

I am getting the joystick fixed and new
batteries for my chair in a week.. I have
to use a pen now to stick into the hole
where the rubber button was to turn this
on and off.. Then when the fix it guy
comes hes going to put these batteries
into my old chair for me so I have a
backup power chair instead of a manual,
which I just couldn't do now I know...so
I'm glad.. I'm always afraid when I stick
that pen in there I'm gonna zap myself :)

Time for a cuppa tea, I'm not drinking
as much coffee, its not sitting good, so
I have some Yorkshire tea, straight from
the UK, my friend Audrey sent it, and Its
better than Liptons!! Its just wonderful...
I have a cup every night when I'm done
for the day and watching TV.. :) Its helping
me stay this GORGEOUS WEEBLE :)..

Y'all keep well and God Bless...
Always, Lois ****

   "God Bless You", is my prayer today,
  I'm so honored to call you "friend"
  I pray the Lord will keep you safe,
      until I write again.....

I know, I'm bad, not written in ages.. I
do apologize and I hoped nobody worried.
Its been really hectic here with lots goin
on steady stream of doctors and people
checking on me.. My heart is not good at
all.. I have attacks daily and some days
more than one.. Thank God for nitro, they
stop the pain..

My brother is not well.. he suffered a
massive stroke 3 days ago and is in ICU.
The prognosis is not good.. this is his 3rd
I think.. Kenny is the oldest of us 6 kids,
only 4 of us left now, me and Shirley and
Frank that I never hear from..  In fact
Donnie called to tell me about my brother.
I'm not sayin nuthin... I was told- that's all
that matters.. by whom don't mean nuthin..
right? that's what I say tho when I tend
to think about it and get upset... I know,
all that matters...

I have no plans for turkey day, Fanesse is
bringing a pie and cheesecake on wed. She
brought a small turkey and all the trimmings
when she was here Thursday... Shes a good
nurse and a friend... Shes concerned but like
my doctor said as he patted me on the shoulder
going out the door, "Lois, you KNOW theres
nothing more we can really do but make sure
you have everything you need".. I thanked him
and he left.. what do you say?  I just said thanks.

Not like I don't know myself.. I can feel it..
And the more my heart acts up its triggering
the phantoms.. They are so bad that my
stumps actually jump... It is so painful that
its about all I can take and I try everything
to stop them.. Some times if I grab the
ends and squeeze till it almost hurts it
tells my brain "HEY! THE LEG STOPS HERE!"
They feel like an ice pick being stabbed in
to my heel or big toe.. Phantoms are awful
and I sure wish theyd go away, funny they
don't tell you that your gonna have them..
Not ONE of my drs told me, a nurse did...

Well, I'm gonna say it again, I will seriously
try to get here more often, really, I'm still a
most GORGEOUS WEEBLE and I wish you a
happy day and THANKSGIVING...  Keep well
and God Bless...

Always, Lois ****

   "God Bless You", is my prayer today,
  I'm so honored to call you "friend"
  I pray the Lord will keep you safe,
      until I write again.....



~House For Sale~

There is a house for sale just around the corner
from me.. Its 4 bedrooms, 2 baths, 2 car garage,
full basement.. AND... a inground pool... Guess
how much? $25,000.oo... I need someone to
lend me the money!!
There are so many houses here for sale at
dirt cheap prices, but the sad thing is, there
is no work here.. The RV plant as you come
into town is just now picking up a bit and it
did call some workers back last week.. But
this area here is mostly for resort people
because of the lakes...

There are 3 houses in the block this house is
in.. go out my driveway, take a left, then a right
at the corner, go down half a block and its right
there 2nd house on the left.. I didn't say it has
a fenced in yard too... It is a 2 story, but there
is a den downstairs that could be made into a
bedroom...

Id love to have my own house.. I have owned 2
houses in my life, one in Texas, and one in Indiana.
The one in Indiana had lots of potential and I, well
we. got it in 84. paid 15, 000 for it, my ex got it
and sold it for 4 times that... I had to run so I
got nuthin but freedom, which worked for me,
but Id love to have my own house again.. then
no worries with crappy landlords....

My heart is not good, ill come right out and
say it, but theres nothing I can do.. well yes,
I could start remembering to take my pills
every day, boy, when I forget... I pay hell
the next day ...I'm keeping them right in front
of me by my keyboard, but I still sometimes
forget.. This was a week with no appointments
but, not a good one at all.. Ive had at least 2
attacks every day.. Scares me.. I worry I'm gonna
be in the wrong place when this ticker stops.. How
embarrassing to die sitting on the potty ... !!! ... :-)
well makes you worry! I wish that flippin doctor
had kept his mouth shut.. hes lucky I don't see him.

We turn clocks back tomorrow, Ive learned I do NOT set
nuthin... I was an hour behind last time all day cuz I changed
my computer not knowing it does it all by itself! DUH!~ So,
I leave it up to Penny to change the clocks, besides I cant
reach them anyways!

Have a good weekend, I'm still a GORGEOUS WEEBLE!
Keep well and God Bless.. Say, if you lend me the money
to buy this house, you can come live there too!! :-) hows
that for an offer you cant refuse hmmm? :-)

Always, Lois ****

   "God Bless You", is my prayer today,
  I'm so honored to call you "friend"
  I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

      until I write again.....