~Happy Halloween~

I loved Halloween when I was a kid..I can still remember

getting all fixed up..usually I DRESSED up.. a princess

or a queen or a fairy..always something nice..and of course

pretty.. I grew up in a small town, where everyone knew all

the other people practically in the whole county..When you

saw some one you knew, and they didn't quite place who

you were it was "I'm Lois, Stubby's daughter, my dad is the

weatherman", most would recognize me.. We all knew

everyone and Halloween was a safe happy time of great

candy that you didn't have to worry that someone out there

was going to hurt us..every kid in town was out..

I think the most devastating thing I can remember, I was on

my way home and a kid told me about Rachey's house that

they were giving good 5 cent candy bars, which back then,

those were the kind you pay a dollar for now. So I climbed

the steps to go up to the front door and as I got to the top

step, I heard running behind me and laughing and as I looked

to see who it was I felt my candy bag being jerked out of my

hand and they grabbed my bag of candy and ran off.. I was

so hurt.. I knocked on the door anyway, all teary I had a whole

nights walking of getting candy and I was upset.. The lady

answered and asked where my bag of candy was and I told

her "two big boys came running up and stole my candy" I was

so unhappy, big tears in my eyes.. This dear lady said

"just a minute" and left, when she came back ..she had a

nice size bag and it was full!.. She said "we cant have you

going home with no candy now can we?" as she handed

me that huge bag..

I thanked her a dozen times and practically ran all the way

home.. When I got there I told my mom and dad what had

happened.. I told them, "I was at Jimmy Mathews house ,

and some big kids stole my bag..Mrs Mathews, SHE

GAVE me all that candy, she said I couldn't go home with

out any" ... They were both pleased and surprised.. When I

opened my goodie bag..she had put in fruit, candy, and

even a comic book.. I was very pleased.. what could have

been a sad memory turned out to be a really good one...

As an adult I had been invited once to a Halloween party

and you had to wear a costume or you could not go..The

food was going to be great and it was a really special

party.. I called my friend and told her I could not think of

one good costume that everyone else hadnt thought of..

She assured me if I thought long enough I would come

up with something.. I did.. I got this body stocking type

leotard.. I looked naked but nothing showed.. Where

my belly button would have been I glued a raisen..

What did I go as? can you guess? I went as a raisen

COOKIE :-) Needless to say everyone wanted to eat

the cookie !!! no no..just kidding..but it was a cute Idea

I didn't win best costume but I sure had fun...:-)

Penny came today, Heidi came today and Traci came today,

oh and Chris brought lunch.. was a busy day.. Penny went

to the laundromat for me and I am all clean, house , clothes

everything..and she made a meat pie for me..The smell in

here is wonderful...Heidi came and we talked and she is

really going to try very hard to help me find a place to rent.

Shes a good kid..and so pretty..and just as nice.. Traci, is

my nurse, but she didn't come here today for that reason..

She asked if I would do some sewing for her.. She has a

daughter that needs her jeans hemmed.. There is not ONE

person in this town that does alterations..

When I had my sewing up and running when I lived in Indiana,

I made quite a bit just doing alterations.. Plus I also made

clothes for large size people.. At one time dry cleaners would

do sewing and mending..from what I am told no one does now.

Sewing, other than making quilts is a thing of the past.. Quilting

is easy, there is really no pattern, its squares and angles...but

to put a dress or a shirt together you have to follow a pattern

and if you don't cut it right much less put the pieces together

right well.. you end up with nothing...surely not something you

want to wear..I think that's why I like sewing so much.. I KNOW

no one else has what I have..its one of a kind..just like me...

I will really be glad when I get a sewing room set up again..I

am so anxious to make some things for this new baby that's

coming soon..

I have decided if I don't move..that I may get rid of that bed, its

driving me nuts with the mattress and even though its electric

its only for raising the bed..not the head and foot.. If I get rid of

that and start to sleep on the couch I can have my sewing room

back.. and then maybe I can make a little extra every month

and then that will help me to live better and then that will help

me to get a better place ... I have to have a plan of attack if I

am going to do anything.. I think this one is a good one.. The

only reason I go into my bedroom is to sleep..that room is

empty the rest of the time..as I stay here at my desk and at

the computer..so if I made it into a sewing room I could get

more done, and then maybe make that extra money I need

every month.. I just don't know how else to do it.. If I don't do

something then I will just have to settle for what I have and I

am not ready to do that.. I am not satisfied with everything

YET..But if I have my GORGEOUS WEEBLE way, I will

have a better place.. A little help from my friends and well

I can do just about anything I set my mind to.. I don't think

my Knight will EVER get that horse of his to go in the right

direction so I just have to keep moving and hopefully he

will eventually find me.. But if he doesnt..well at least in a

new place I would be more secure, safe and happy even

if its only me and my boys that are there.. :-)

That meat pie is calling and I have NO will power..I will

HAVE to break down and eat some of it.. I just have NO

choice, Penny went through all that trouble to make it for me

I at least HAVE to eat some of it.. :-D... And I am NOT

telling Donald I have meat pie.. he would burn up the road

to get here.. I gave him some leftover soup..he and Dawn

loved that..and it was good..VERY GOOD.. Besides the

meat pie yelling at me my butt is doing the same thing but

its screaming..to get OUT of this chair.. I have to listen...

Meat pie..tv.. and I know after I eat that I wont see too much

of the TV oh well.. the joys of good food.. can put you

right to sleep :-D "nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks!!!

Happy Halloween.... Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~A Good Quote~

"Each achievement you pursue is an Opportunity to bring

out the best that is within you. Do that, and whether or not

you win the battle of the moment, you will have something

of real and lasting value." ...Ralph Marston quote...
I read that today and that is very true. Everything I try to do

and when I accomplish it, no matter really even how long

it takes, but a challenge, that you try to conquer, the trying

is bringing parts of you that sometimes we forget we have.

I think it makes me, for one, stronger..And everything that I

do manage to do or even really TRY hard to do.. I feel better

about myself..a confidence, a feeling that will stay with me..

So if the need arises again..I will have that already..and able

to face what ever it is that is facing me... Ive never backed

down from a challenge, I don't care what it is unless it was

something life threatening and then I am NOT stupid ..just

to prove a point :-)
Ive been asked many times, how did I seem to readily accept

my amputations..and just keep going on..where so many use

them to get their way and act helpless so they DONT have to

do anything...I cant do that...I accept me, I like me.. I like how

I am, I like being honest and very open, I love being a woman,

and I try to act like a lady all the time, I just have shorter legs

now is all.. Not ONE other thing about me has changed.. Well,

I don't know.. Theresa asked me if even before my legs were

taken was I always so outspoken and determined..and yes,

I was.. but I honestly think now, being in this chair, I am even

more outspoken than before.. I am still VERY capable..Im

just short, that's all... I like me..and if no one can accept me

like I am..well then they can go farther and smell better then.

I accept me.. I would accept myself no matter what my out

ward appearance is...

I am INSIDE, the outward shell is just that.. sure it is very

GORGEOUS..it always has been , since I was a little girl..

nothing will change that no matter what is taken away from

it..legs, fingers, arms..what ever.. Im INSIDE this shell.. Its

inside my head that helps my fingers to type this.. what my

fingers look like have no bearing..although they are Really

GORGEOUS too :-) you knew I was gonna say that :-)

What is on the outside has no bearing... sometimes I will

say the outside dressing does sometimes discourage contact or

what ever..and you can tell by that sometimes what a person

is like too... Yet, I have seen some people, talked to them

that have scared the beejeebys out of me, but they were

sweet people.. If I had ran, well I wouldn't have known they

really were.. So kinda in a way it does matter, what the out

looks like, not body wise though...

So anyways, I took some photos today, the black squirrel

was back and he sat so nicely on the fence for me.. I missed

a beautiful blue jay that was out there.. Its so neat to watch all

the birds..they eat and drink..and I saw one take a bath in that

little bowl of water out there.. That photo of the birds is right

out side the side window in the kitchen..the birds, 6 are there,

they sit in that tree and watch Dutch as he goes totally insane

wanting to catch them.. They deliberately torment him I think..

I wouldn't be a bit surprised if it wasn't the Same bunch of

birds that laughed at him from the fence over at the apartment

when he ran from window to window.. :-)

I am back into my habit of getting up at 430.. I knew if the kid

kept it up I would wake up on my own at that time.. I never set

an alarm clock when I worked..well yes I did..but only as a

back up ..which I never needed as I set the alarm in my head

and that would automatically go off and I would wake up...I

always had to get up at least 2 hrs before so I could take my

time and have a coffee or 2 and I smoked ciggies so of course

I had to have a couple of them too..I think I get up too early

because I have no control over what time I fall asleep once

I get up on my bed to watch TV..

The past couple nights tho I have gotten off here earlier and I

have stayed in my chair for a little while so I can watch some TV..

Every nite that show Two and a half Men is on from 7 to 8 and

that is one of my favorites.. Charlie sheen is a riot..they all are,

and the kid is hilarious... I love that show..that and Prison Break

are my favorites.. Its Donnies too.. I asked him the other night

how did Michael end up back in prison? I had missed some ..so

he explained it all to me and now I am up to date.. Its a really

good show.. I love that Grays Anatomy too.. its really good I used

to like ER..but I just like this better... There are some good shows

on.. I know I watched 2 hours of bull riding from Las Vegas last nite.

One poor cowboy got knocked out.. they carried him out on a

stretcher.. How they ride those bulls.. well I wouldn't do it.. no way..

but I love watching it though..

Time to watch TV again..and have some crackers... I love the PB

crackers.. PB is peanut butter... I have some home made straw

berry jam that Theresa brought.hmmm ... that sounds better! ok,

its that time again.. My GORGEOUS WEEBLE WORDS.....

"Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya and THANKS!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~A New Picture~

I have a new photo on my wall in the kitchen over by the window.

Isnt it just the neatest picture? I couldn't resist this.. LB is up

on the fridge, that mirror was perfect to get him in that to make

it look like a picture in a frame...Doesn't my fake plant look real?

Its the only kind I can have..Dutch doesn't allow any other living

things to live here.. just us.. other wise he eats them.. A few

years ago I had a friend that sent me flowers...just because, it

was wonderful..just a short while back I got flowers..and I have

to hide them from Dutch...he eats even my rose petals

that I save..he gets wind of them and he WILL get to them ..I

have 2 containers of rose petals on top my desk and they have

to be sealed or he will get into them... LB is not like that at all.

He has taken over the fridge though...Dutch isnt real happy

about that...Thats a mirror.... :-)
You can see LB up on the fridge and then over there on the

wall..I thought this was so neat...I have more fun with a camera..

I bet If I sat outside, between the goofy neighbors and the cars

and animals out there I would steady be snapping away..I have

always liked to take photos then write a story about them..Every

one of my photos I have I could write a story to go along with it.

Sometimes I look at my photos and that gives me ideas of

what to write about.. I would like to put all my stories along with

the photo into a book.. My ex sister in law is writing and getting

a book published from what I hear.. I would like to find out..I

think its a childrens book...She and my ex Willie are due to come

up and see Kelli and her new house..Kelli plans to tell him

then that he is going to be great grandpa.. He will be very pleased.

Penny came today and we are all clean again and set for a few

days.. I am so waiting for the first.. My slow cooker being done in

I miss not having it...I used it alot...but payday is still a few days

away, and I don't know whether to splurge on a new slow cooker

or look for a winter coat.. I think I will use the slow cooker more

than I will the coat.. :-) I didn't have but a heavy sweater last year,

and I got sick a couple times.. I don't want to this year.. I was

going to get a flu and pneumonia shot..I was sposed to last year

but I didn't get one..probly why I got sick those couple times... I
have such hard decisions all the time :-)

I hate being sick or not feeling good..To me its really scarey..I

stayed in bed and to drag myself out of it..sure wasn't easy.. I

know when I had legs and had to get up and had to almost run

or freeze to death..and being in this chair I almost do, it takes

so much longer to get in and out of bed..Everything is hard to

do when your sick and have legs..so quadruple that for some

one like me... Ive been pretty lucky lately and have felt really

good.. I have some days when I don't feel the greatest but then

even people with legs have those... a lot of my aches and pains

have a lot to do with the weather I think..and too how long I

spend in this chair without getting out of it..Too long in it and I

sure know it.. doesn't take me long to find out either...when my

sitting time is done..there is nothing I can do to extend it either,

and there is no way to sit that works either..the only thing I can

do is get out of it and on my bed.. Which is just as well as

saying time to sleep.. I have good intentions when I go in there

to really watch some TV shows..Well 3 hours later I wake up

and the show is already done I wanted to see.. I cant win :-)

I was up at 430 again today its my own fault.. When I have

before, I feed the boys...this new food and they eat every bit

of it right away so all they have left is their dry..they eat it..

but they like this new can stuff.. I shouldn't ever feed them

before 6 then they wont wake me up so early.. But its time

to feed me and time to get out of this chair again..today

went really fast and I didn't do anything..just sat all day ...

what a life..I LOVE IT..:-) Food, TV and sleep, I hope in

that order anyway.. and "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Different Angle~

I always seem to take photos over by my other desk and I got

to thinking its been awhile since ive taken any here by my desk

where I spend all of my waking hours.. :-) You see the boy HAD

to get in the photos.. LB is up on top the fridge, He seems to

love it up there and stays up there most of the time lately.. I

did manage to find a skirt that I don't think Ive worn for a photo in

a long time too.. Im running out of different ones :-) Disaster!

Heaven forbid I don't have a new skirt or outfit for a photo.. I

would be so sad :-) I seriously doubt that would happen...I

will have to take care to see that it doesnt tho :-)
The window there is the one I take most of my outside photos

from of the birds and squirrels and people coming and going.
Im glad I have that window there. Do you notice I have my hair

down today too.. I got that new hair piece that I really like and

I noticed the last few photos Ive had it on..So you know me, I

have to keep changing things... Its getting very long though ..

I called to find out about a beauty shop that is prepared for a

wheel chair and would you believe I cant find one? Not in this

town.. What do other women do that are in chairs if there are

no beauty shops for them..
I used to go to the beauty shop once a week when I was in the

hell home..This sweet woman would come in, they had a shop

right in the building and it wasn't but a few dollars to go.. She

was really good with those dear ladies, she would put some

make up on them and lipstick and just get them all dolled up

and they just loved it.. A lady came in to do nails too...I had

long ones then like I do now.. Im amazed every day I havent

broken one, I shouldn't say that cuz probly that will be the

first thing I do now..
I woke up at 430 this morning and it was freezing in here.. I

was wide awake and got up, made coffee and of course fed

the boys, that's a must first thing..Im surprised they let me do

anything before that..They whine and meow until I feed them.

I got online and looked at the radar and it was 34 degrees

out side. No wonder I was cold.. I had to turn the furnace on,

I sure hated to but It was just too cold for me so I know the

cats had to be freezing... It didn't take too long to warm up

and I sat by the register in the bathroom and that warm air

sure felt good...

I read back to my post of the other day , the anniversary of

being in this house.. I don't want to sound like I did all the

work myself to get to where I am today, I could hardly have

done anything by myself.. I think the one thing I do quite well

is nag and yell and complain which gets noticed and then

other people get things done for me.. I don't see where I do

a whole lot and sometimes I sit and wonder just what my

purpose is..just what am I intended to do now that so much

has changed.. and some days I cant see anything that I do

that I could say really accomplishes anything.. But.. I have

started to knit while I am sitting here..Im making some dish

cloth's .. I have a lot of yarn and I should use it up..so I am

accomplishing something... :-)

Im going to go and get some dinner, I made myself some

breakfast which I normally don't do..I usually just eat lunch

then a snack for supper..I have some braunsweiger that

Donnie got in Wisconsin, since you cant get it here, its

so good..I think I might have to have a sandwich..then

get up on my bed and see how much TV I can watch before

that clicker button gets me and I shut my self off.. Time

to get out of this chair too..been a long day..But was a

GORGEOUS WEEBLE day and Im glad its almost over

and time to say "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and Thanks!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Click The Button~

I love animals.put into your browser, ANIMAL RESCUE

SITE.. there is a purple button, it doesn't hurt, trust me, I

go there every morning after I boot up and click..That one

click will help animals get food and shelter.. Its a good

thing.. They have a store, that you can buy things relating

to animals and you can also send ecards..free.. Its a

very good thing.. If you have time please do that and go

to their site. Many animals will be very grateful.. If I could

I would love to be a half way home for animals that have

been abandoned or their owner passed away.. Its just as

traumatic for an animal to be lost or to lose their master.

I truly believe that...I know I could tell the difference in my

boys when I got them back after that month away from me.

It was like they were stuck to me like glue making sure I

didn't leave them again, which I hope I never have to..I have

made arrangements for them though..Becky will take them

she knows them and I trust her to find them a good home

if the need ever came up.. I owe that to them for all the good

things they have given me, and sometimes bad, but that's

the joys of kids... :-) But if you can go there and click on that

purple button, I would be very grateful and I know all those

animals will be too...
The photo up top of LB I think is just so pretty, he has such a

beautiful face. This one here is the boy, Dutch, I think it is so

nice, it looks almost like a painting of him.. I have NO idea

what I did to get it to look like that but Im glad I did..I really

like it.. Playing with photos and taking them is a nice hobby

and one I enjoy. Im enjoying a trip through europe right now

thanks to a dear friend sharing all the photos that were taken

during their holiday .. I love photos.. and to see what others

see as a good photo is always so nice..Raife is a wonderful

photographer and shares many photos that I have on my

desktop they are so gorgeous..

It rained all night, thunder and lightening and it has most of

today too.. I think putting bread and seed out there is what is

triggering it.. Like it does when you wash your car, you know

its gonna rain on it real soon too..never fails... The musty

moldy smell from the basement is so strong when it rains.. I

know that bucket in the de humidifier is full...and It wont be

emptied until Monday.. Donnie came by last nite and he did

go down and empty it..even though Penny did when she was

here... It was full...So I know its full again..

They delivered my food from Angel Food Ministry's today and

I am really impressed with it..Everything I have tried has been

super good..and a nice variety of stuff.. and for only 25 dollars

you get a lot..I have yet to taste anything that wasn't good. Every

month is different, and I was surprised to find it is in every state.

so I know it will help every one..And anyone can buy it..its not

just sold to disabled or to the needy, anyone can buy it, many do

to donate it to their church to be given away or donate it to a

local food pantry.. These places that provide this for us that are

on such limited budgets this is such a life saver.. I am grateful

for the food. I wish they would have a place that would donate

the other things that we need, like personal care items, and

paper products, soaps, cleaning supplies..those things are

more expensive than food.. We have to pay cash for these

things, and when they run out they all seem to run out at the

same time.. when something goes it seems so does every

thing.. Like my slow cooker, my cordless phone, and my 1

cup at a time coffee maker, they all have decided to quit

working.. Why all at the same time, I have no idea but it seems

that's how things go..

Well this day is slowly coming to a close and Im ready to get

out of this chair again.. Im eager to get in it in the mornings, but

by nite time I am VERY eager to get out of it..Im glad I have it

and then again at times I hate that I am in it..but oh well no

matter where I am..or whatever Im in..I am just a most very

GORGEOUS WEEBLE.. not too much can change that..and

boy am I glad..Time for food, TV and my bed, oh and I cant

forget my "nitey nite"... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Up On The Fridge~

You see what the boy started? Now LB is getting up on top of

the refrigerator. It was cool in here this morning and I think the

air from the back of the fridge maybe is why they go up there. I

know they like heights. They both did the same thing when I

was in the apartment they got up on top of the fridge then went

even higher and got on top the cabinet. You can see my lemon

cookies up there :-) I cant hardly reach up there so its a good

place to keep them .. If I really need something sweet I will

remember where they are, if im just looking for a snack usually

If I don't see anything and Im not having a sugar attack I

wont think of them up there and then I don't eat the sweets and

usually end up with crackers which are really less fattening, So,

There IS a method to my madness :-)
Look at my tree, its steady changin..That's Pennys van there,

you can see all the leaves out in the street.. I bet the neighbors

wonder why we, well Penny keeps taking photos all the time of

the outside, I wonder what they would say if they knew how many

times their house has been in my photos.. :-)
You can see the nice size yard. way in back by the side of the

van you can see a white square, its on the neighbors shed, so

you can see how deep the yard is..and all the great trees.. I

have to say this Is a nice town for keeping the trees ..they just

need to keep up on them, keep them trimmed then what happened

on this street the way they butchered those trees wouldn't have

had to be.. Note the lid is on the garbage can :-)
This street runs along side if you look way down to the end as

far as you can see, about 2 blocks there is a huge catholic church

and just a half block past there is the Hellhome. They arent a

nursing home anymore from what I gather they are more into a

Recuperating and therapy type place, just temporary people not

like they were with full time 'residents' as we were called. But right

down that street if you go about 5 blocks maybe, maybe 4 you will

be just across and up a bit from my apartment before I moved

in here... also down this street is the COA..they go right past me

to deliver lunch yet I am the last to get it..when I lived at the apt. I

was last then too.. So I guess it doesn't matter where you live,

close or not, you get your lunch when they decide to get it to you.

Heidi came today, I wasn't sure if she was or not she didn't say

for sure last week when she was coming..She is going to help

me look for a better place too and agrees with me that this house

is just not ME.. Its so cluttered and just not nice.. Plus the fact I

really would like to have a real kitchen..one I can cook in..not have

to only use electric hot plates and crock pots. They do in a pinch

but.. a stove is the best... She is going to check the stuff they have

at the shelter and see if she can find a crock pot for me.. I was in

the middle of my soup and mine quit I had to dig the hot plate out

and then transfer everything out of the crock pot into the regular

stock pot so it could finish cooking..She is pretty sure they have

one there, if so she will bring it..that would save me from buying

one. I priced them on line at walmart and they arent too bad. A

nice one is about 30 dollars. I know I use mine a lot, I think I got

it from Laura, my ex's Sister one year for my birthday so I have

had it a long time.. so it just got wore out...

I have had my front door open all afternoon to warm it up in here

as Heidi said it was warmer outside and was cold in here. Its a

nice day but we are sposta get rain I think.. My stumps havent

told me yet...Im sure they will.... I am telling me to get some dinner

and then to get out of this chair. My butt is telling me too.. Food,

TV..Sleep..and my GORGEOUS WEEBLE WORDS:

"Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and THANKS!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Winter Stuff~

Ive been trying to figure out my Christmas list and I have

no idea what to get anyone.. Things I had seen farther back

would have made nice gifts but I didn't, like a dummy, get

them then, now I wish I had. I need a winter coat and with

a gift list.. well how often do I plan to go out that I really need

a coat and too when I go I only am out in the weather for the

amount of time to load or unload which isnt very long.. I have

a heavy duty sweater coat that my sis gave me but it really

wasn't warm enough last year, and I had thought of getting

a new one this year, well depending on my budget.. I may

just call my sis and see if she is getting a new one which

she does quite often and just put dibs on her old one and

make my list :-D We always need winter stuff :-)

If I cant sell this chair I think I am just going to give it to some

one just so they get it out of here. If I can get my machine up

and running soon I can make my Christmas things.. Well,

not for Donnie, hes not easy to buy for, I got him last year a

nice case full of barbeque stuff, tongs, turners, everything

to grill with.. He really liked that and takes it with him all the

time in the trailer when they go to races and grill out even

at home.. It was a nice thing that I knew he could use.. This

year I have NO idea what to get him, hes got everything..

I want to get the boys one of those red lazer lights or a remote

control car .. I think they would have a good time with that.. If

I even look at my flashlight and they think there will be a light,

they are ready to chase it.. I think one of those red lights would

keep them amused for a long time... I need to get them one of

those scratching posts.. I noticed in the kitchen by the base

ment door are some scratches on the wall.. it can be no other

but Dutch.. LB doesn't do that.. he has one place to claw and

that's at the end of my couch which hes been spanked for

doing that and has done pretty good lately which Im glad..The

scratches in the kitchen are no biggie I just have to paint over

them.. I guess they were too lazy to strip the wall paper and

just painted right over it.. I have to admit..the longer I look at

my navy blue, white and yellow kitchen the more I like it .. its

so clean and fresh looking.. Chris did do good when he

used the navy blue on the walls.. Im glad he did now...

I had to mop my kitchen floor today and I couldn't get to it, the

mop that is.. Penny hangs them in the stairwell to the base

ment.. I cant reach them at all... I think we will or she will ..or

SOMEONE hopefully will put a couple nails in the door then

I can reach them if they are hung there.. I was making my

coffee this morning and while its brewing I go to the table and

feed the boys. Under the table is where I keep their food, they

have 3 kinds of dry down there and the moist, and a bowl of

water.. well I rolled too far in and hit the bowl of water with

my wheel and of course it tipped over and the water started

to run towards a box I have under there. The floors in here

are all slanted. I quick grabbed my grabber and some napkins

and had to use that to mop up that whole bowl of water.. I bet

I went through half a package of napkins.. but I didn't have a

towel handy, I need dish towels too..so the only thing I could

think of to use was paper napkins or have a wet box.. I do

this to my self..make more work for me..I don't guess I will

ever learn..but I did get it mopped up with no other bad

effects from it. the box stayed dry...

I did learn how to make some good beefy barley bean soup

though.. I sat and ate the biggest bowl I had, full of it.. I hadnt

made soup in a long time...and I truthfully had forgotten how

good I do make it.. I enjoyed every bit of it..and I have some

left for tonite.. I have blueberry pie too.. I have to say I had a

nice dinner last nite.. I did watch some TV for a while... I only

woke up once during the night and that was because I was

cold..Its really cold in here today and I may have to break

down and turn on the furnace.. Dutch, the unholdable cat has

been in my lap all morning sleeping, LB comes over and

wants in it too.. I don't have hardly enough lap for one cat

let alone two! Why they are liking to be held I don't know,

as they hated it before..LB would get so indignant when I

tried to hold him he would almost growl at me.. Dutch just

puts his ears down and claws and tries to bite when I

would hold him..Now these two are fighting over who gets

to lay in my lap..even during the night they both lay one on

each side of me, theyre changing for some reason.. I know

they arent scratching today like yesterday so I am hoping

that bug well flea stuff worked.. I checked them but didn't

see any so I hope it killed them all.. I hate bugs..

Its that Time again to say my GORGEOUS WEEBLE words,

Food, TV, and sleep, oh and "Nitey Nite " :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? Love ya and thanks !

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~One Year Ago Today~ :-)

My boys are having big fun. Penny got some birdseed and we

improvised a bowl for the birds to eat it out of..She sort of shoved

it into the ground so it wouldn't tip over..then she filled it with bird

seed.. We 3 have been anxiously waiting and watching for the

birds. Today Penny put out some bread as well..Surprisingly

the first to the bird seed was guess who? Oh.. please note the

lid is on my garbage can? today is/was garbage day.. Bless

their hearts I knew if I stressed the issue enough maybe they

would teach their collectors how to do just what you see.. to

put the lid back on the can.. They get a star for good work...I

just hope they keep it up...:-)
Well you see who the first visitor was to the bread and to the

birdseed.. I have decided since everything is ruined down stairs

that I may as well bring that chair up from down there and put

that outside for the food for the animals. Was so cute my sister

at her new house said they have so much wildlife, deer and birds

that the animals are eating better than she is ..she spends more

money on them! :-) For as much enjoyment as these animals

give us, to me it is well worth it.. I wish I had some nice bird feeders

but to be totally honest I really don't think they care what sort of

container the food is in as long as its out there...
You can see the black bowl with the water, then next the little

white one by the squirrel.. It seems to be working good. I will

say they sure are messy.. This squirrel every time he got a

certain something, he would run up the fence and sit there

I thought this was so cute, look at that bottlebrush tail..I

am so glad I have these guys out here cuz there are

some boringly dull days and if I didn't have them I would

NOT have a single thing to write about.. and look how

cute these guys are..that tree right behind there that will

soon be red is where I think they live. I think they watch

us as much as we do them..

they sit right up and look directly at me or the boys like they

know we cant get at them.. My nurse, Jane came today and

as she got out of her car she saw the black one ..it ran as

fast as it could to get away from her..She said she stood

there and waited and he came back..he wasn't leaving all

that good bread and seeds...

When I look outside, see the leaves on the street..that deer you

see over in the neighbors yard is a decoy. The man is a bow

hunter which I am quite familiar with the rules and ways of a

outdoorsman.. He uses that for target practice.. I only saw him

shoot from the ground with his bow, where David used a tree

stand and when he practiced he would climb up on the roof..I

never saw my neighbor do that and he had a nice spot there

where he could easily do that..

Today is the 24th of October..do you know where I was 1 year

ago today? I was moving into this house.. I had a bed, a ice

chest for food, a coffee pot..and my computer and of course

I had my boys with me again.. it was so good and.. I was set.. I

had escaped from Keystone.. It was a good thing that I had

there to go to..but what that experience did to me I don't think I

can even put into words... It was such a deep inside heart ache

I cant describe it.. Was awful.. I cried myself to sleep every night

when I was there.. The first night in this house, I remember.. I

laid in my bed, listening to the cars and trucks outside, I reached

out and felt my cats laying so close to me as if they were making

sure it was really Mom back with them.. I cried that night too..but

for a different reason.. I WAs starting all over again.. ONE more

time I had pulled myself up and out and was making a life again.

It was a happy cry. What a big difference though in just one years

time .. how a life can change so drastically..Im glad it changed

for the better..and if I have my way that's the only way it will keep

going..getting better and better.. :-)

I put on a big pot of soup today and I havent made a soup in a

long time.. It smells great..and I cant wait to get out there and

sample it.. Lunch? well.. you name it and you can have it.. I put

it where it needed to be..in the trash.. So some soup..crackers,

some kool aid and TV.. don't ask what I saw last nite cuz I have

NO idea.. I think prison break was on but Im not sure ..Well I

was tired I went right to sleep .. almost as fast as I did the other

night when I had the wine.. :-) no wine tonite tho.. just sleep..

Oh we debugged the boys.. I am so glad they have stopped

scratching... I hate bugs... "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~No Event Day ~ :-)

Today was an uneventful day and I am glad. My phone

only rang three times and all were from good friends.. One

was Donnie, he had to go to Wisconsin for his job to get

some parts or something and amazingly the town he was

sent to was his hometown.. He got his work stuff done and

was waiting for his parents to get home then going to get

pizza at one of the best pizza places in Wisconsin... I cant

remember the name of it but I ate there once or twice as

my brother Kenny used to live in the same town..In fact I

met Donnie through my brother. His wife, Yvonne has a son,

Billie the same age as Donnie..I went to visit my brother and

I met Donnie when he came there to see Billie..He wanted

out of the home town rut and we offered him a job and he

came to Indiana to live with Willie and I ..this was back in 83.

Ive known the kid way back when...and look now..hes a grandpa.

going on 4 times... So much time has passed and so fast.

I did not have one thing to do to day but play on this computer

and I got tired of playing spider solitare.. I have my bag right here

with my yarn and needles, knitting needles and I am making some

dish cloths for dishes.. They are so easy to make and just great.

In fact my ex, David, wouldn't use wash cloths like normal people,

he had me make him some of these cloths and I have to admit

they are 100 times better..they are all cotton yarn..and they soak

up 10 times their weight..they arent flimsy either..Ive made them

since I was in school.. I know the pattern by heart I made so many.

The yarn is 100 % cotton and comes in all sorts of great solid

colors and even variegated of all kinds of colors.. They don't take

long to make either, which is a plus for me.. Long drawn out

projects take too long to do.. That's why I was so fast when I did

sewing...

When I worked for the sewing companies I didn't want to sew 300

or 400 of the same thing over and over..so I steady worked on

getting my speed up so I could zip right thru the ones I had to do,

the other ladies stayed at their same speed, and the more bored

they got the slower they went. I learned lots of short cuts and I got

mine done in no time and I very seldom got burned out on seeing

the same material over and over again..Long drawn out stuff to

me is too tedious... and then it is like a JOB.. I try to learn the best

way to do something that's fast yet a good job..then it doesn't seem

like a job..to me anyway.. and that got me thru the day better and

it got me the faster jobs and onto other stuff so I didn't get bored.

There is always a plan of attack as I call it .no matter what it is you

go to do.. I have to have one...

If I don't go over every detail of something I want to try to do I

could get myself in trouble.. I have to look at all points of it or right

in the middle of something I could get in trouble and then just make

a mess or make things even worse.. To do almost anything , for

me. I have to look it over really good..its the same if I want to go

anywhere..the first question I have to ask now is "is it wheel chair

accessible?" and hope it is..Before I just went..I jumped up .ran

to the car and off I went..Its a totally different game now.. I still

can go but it just isnt as easy and when I had legs it seems I

always had someone to go with..now I dont...but I do like to go.

Where im going now I KNOW you have NO idea but ..well lunch

was ickky and Im hungry and I got up early again and im tired.

I get just as tired doing nothing as I do doing something.. go

figure :-) Time for food, TV and sleep... oh and of course....

"Nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya.. and THANKS!!!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Ouch ~

If you look at the 2 arrows one up top by my finger, the other

there above my thumb sorta..Know what caused them? Well..

last week I mentioned Chris brought a bottle of wine..I thought

I had a corkscrew..I didn't, I have no idea where it went..So
Dawn said to use a screwdriver..I used a ice pick..See that nice

round hole there? I stabbed myself so hard and deep my thumb

doesn't work right and talk about SORE! it really hurts.. the

little gash up on the finger was just like sliced across where

the other is a stab.. I got my right hand once too..not bad tho..

So I did find out something I did not know..Well it wasn't a

cork , cork..it was a plastic cork.. I dug, twisted, and after about

a half hour I finally got that cork out.. If I hadnt run out of kool

aid I wouldn't have been trying to get that wine open to drink.

I didn't want plain water..so I figgured this would do and may

be even make my day a little better... :-)

I poured myself a glass of this wine..its a very dark wine..I

really didn't like the taste..it was bitter and dry. I like sweet

and juicy ... So I figgured out how to not really taste it..and

that's to just drink it real fast..and while its super cold.. I

finished that bottle of wine just about the time I logged off

of this computer.. I remember closing down, rolling into

my bedroom..even getting on the bed and laying down..

But HONESTLY, I don't remember one thing after that

till I woke up at 4:30 with Dutch walking all over me and

tapping my face.. I looked at the time and I was amazed.

I thought I had just dozed off ..I guess I did.. I know I went

in there about 730 or so..I had a good sleep..but then..

all I did was cover my head, lay back down and I didn't

roll out of that bedroom till 8:20 this morning.. I think that

wine did more for me to help me sleep than anything.. I

just wish it was sweeter..I am NOT a wine person so I

have NO idea what is what.. I do have a friend that makes

his own and promises to send me a bottle but that's been

every year now for 4 years.. That wine sure is ready to

drink by now.. . :-)

When I was married the first time, we bought a house, Danny

was my first husband..We lived in Pennsylvania.. A steel town,

outside Pittsburg... Next door were a husband and wife, Mr.

and Mrs Rossi..VERY Italian.. Mr. Rossi made homemade

Dego Red wine.. He would see one of us outside or both and

yell over to us... "Hey, come taste my wine"..we didn't hesitate

and went straight over there..Mr. Rossi had a wine press out

in his garage and made some wonderful wine.. His idea of a

"TASTE" was a drinking glass FULL...that was a taste..It was

so good.. My husband being Italian loved it.. Mrs Rossi was

the one that taught me to make my own pasta..she was an

excellent cook... and I wanted to learn...

She came over early one morning..and she had with her what

looked like a long , maybe 3 foot, stick..or pole.. That was her

rolling pin.. She got the flour, dumped it on the table..then made

a hole in the center and put in her egg and water and mixed..

and rolled, flour everywhere.. and she whipped that stick out

and proceeded to roll out that dough..She was an expert..She

cut those strands of noodles and floured them and told me to

keep dusting and moving them around so they dry out..then

she gave me the directions on how to cook them.. Needless

to say..they were THE best..anytime I needed to know how to

make something Mrs. Rossi was more than willing to come

and show me.. I can make some killer pasta and sauce... I

was taught by an expert...

I wanted to say thanks for all the nice compliments on the photos

yesterday.. Im so glad you liked them..Those that asked for

the video I hope you enjoy it.. I have the most fun doing that.. well

taking photos or making the videos..its something for me to do.

My days are long, specially when no one but the lunch girl Chris

comes in.. I decided I am going to start to do some knitting.. I

just need a refresher.. I can still sit here at my computer but I

would at least be doing something constructive, besides I need

some new dishcloths... :-)

Penny came today thank GOD!!! I was SO ready for her to get

here.. Dutch was so mad at her he wouldn't even pay her any

attention at all..Hes so moody... She did go and get some

kool aid for me though..I also had her get me some wine

coolers.. I heard wine is good for you so..I think I will find out..

These Seagram's wine coolers are really good..sweet too..

and GORGEOUS WEEBLES need sweet to stay sweet..

She did get me a blueberry pie too..so 3 guesses where

I am headed? yup..to the pie, to the bed, to the TV and

lets hope tonite I remember seeing something.. I hope

anyway . then to sleep, then to "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and Thanks..

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~TADA!~ :-)

TADA! See? I did it.. I took some photos in the leopard

PANTS! Now, I tried it, wore them..want my opinion? I

don't like them worth a hoot! I never had to work so hard

to get pants on EVER!.. I figured I would try them for a

while..see what its like so I can say from my own trial of

wearing them as a Dak, which I have never done..Well..

I will tell you what.. I wont wear them again..what a pain

in the patootie..These amputees that wear them ..well I

don't know why they do.. I think skirts look a lot better

than pants anyway!...Its too much like work to me.. I like

fast, easy, safe..To me..pants are none of them...
I just don't like the look of empty pants legs, no feet to

be seen. Strange.. I look at that photo..I know its me..but

wheres my legs that I don't see? my brain Sees them there.

I feel them there..all the time..but theyre not there...its

really an amazing thing...I probly will never understand it.

But I still say this set will look a lot better, to me, as a

skirt.. not pants..
I had to laugh at my self as I tried to get these pants back

up over my butt as im sitting on it, and on the potty. I had

to decide which would be the easy way. sitting there or back

in my chair. Well I backed into my chair and tried getting

them on that way. It wasn't easy pulling first one side,

then lift up..then pull the other, lift up, then again 2 or 3

more times till I could get the blooomin things where they

were sposed to be and not feel like I was being cut in

half.. If these pants hadnt been satin..well I bet I would have

just left them off and not tried to fight getting them back

up...Doesn't that just look totally weird? I look like im totally

double jointed :-) I thought was a fun photo :-D
Of course the boy had to check mom out in these weird

pants..they were so slippery he tried to go across my

lap and slid right off.. Its great material..and by wearing

it like I did for a few hours today I know what I have to do

to modify it..I need to do some alterations on the jacket

too.. The sleeves are too loose and I like a more tapered

sleeve not one flopping all over...To make a skirt out of the

pants will be very easy and the material I have left from the

pants legs I havent decided what to do with it.. I may make

a black top and trim it out with this material and make a

really nice suit..Now all I need is somewhere snazzy to

wear it.. I think I would look good wearing this to the casino..

be cool and kinda dressy since the material is so nice...

You can see how shiney it is..So, I wonder who is gonna

take me ? :-)
I took these photos from a video clip..If you decide you like

the photos and want the video just send me an email and I

will send it to you... Its nothing spectacular ..just me in all

my GORGEOUS WEEBLENESS :-)

After the fight with the pants for a few hours I decided I had

to check out the lumps in my bed..I took all the pillows off

and pulled the blankets back to find the sheet and a thinner

blanket I guess Penny had put on for padding, were all

wadded up and made my back sore laying on them.. It was

a major deal to fix this.. but if I am going to sleep tonite I had

to.. I pulled the sheet back over the corner, straightened the

blanket, then I had to pull my comforter up and back to where

it was..I then had to get onto my bed, and sort of hop over my

lumpy blankets and try to get them out from under me.. I had

to, I cant reach the far side of the bed unless I get on it.. I did

manage to get the blankets fixed, but I know they wont stay,

the mattress has a plastic cover, not cloth..no Matter what I

put over that it will still slide. Its a hospital mattress, one that

is more sanitary for a hospital in case the person has problems

and has accidents in bed..For me its not good since I drag

more and it being so slippery everything goes with me.. A

cloth mattress is better..for someone like me that is...

Well this has been an interesting day for me gaining knowledge

about wearing pants as a DAK. I don't like it and I doubt if I will

wear them again unless its by a special request..then I might

consider it..Im easy to get along with..But until then its skirts

for this lady .. I think they make me look more feminine and that

is VERY important to me.. I like looking my best, then I feel my

best...its only logical.. The best for me right now is to get out

of this chair for today..and have a light dinner..I hope Penny

comes tomorrow so I can get some more kool aid.. Food,

TV then sleep..GORGEOUS WEEBLES need all the beauty

sleep they can get ..."Nitey Nite"...:-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and thanks !!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~My Dear Friend Mary~

I would like to introduce my friend Mary and her hubby Bob.

They live in Kansas... Every day this sweet lady writes to

me and I sure appreciate it.. She reads my ramblings

here every day bless her heart and takes the time to let

me know she does.. Right now they are working on their

church that was damaged when it flooded there so bad.

Lots of work to do but with a willing congregation and

lots of energy they will get it done..The Lords work is

never easy but well worth it..All those dedicated workers

will have many stars in their crowns in Glory... Mary & Bob

they will have many many...
The past 6 weeks or so I want you to know I HAVE done one

thing for sure and there is the proof.. I grew NAILS! :-) its

kind of blurry but if I mess with the focus on my webcam

then it throws it off if I make a video which I want to do tomorrow.

When I have on the leopard pant suit.. I dug out my black

top and I think it will look ok..going to be a buggar with pants

I am so not used to them at all..will seem strange.. But any

how ways, my nails are so pretty even if they are mine.. I like

keeping them red too... Only hard thing with long nails is my

typing.. I can type very fast, but with longer nails I have a

tendency to hit 2 keys at the same time...that's not good..

I cant type and look at my hands, if I do I slow way down.

I know my keyboard by heart.. My little nubbies to tell me

where to put my fingers are wore down on this keyboard,

I need to get a new one..or maybe I can just put a piece

of tape on the keys ..the J and F keys ..those are the 2

keys that you place your index fingers on when you type

so you know where to place your hands by touch, then

you don't have to look... :-) every keyboard those 2 keys

have nubbies on them...
They grow pretty fast but I know some tricks that really

work..at least for me.. Seems the more I sort of buff the

tips with an emory board, the faster and stronger they

grow..They are really strong.. I had super strong toe

nails too..but they were UGLY..awful.. I hated my toes

they were such short little stubby things and the nails

were just that..NAILS..hard as one too.. I never wore

open toed shoes unless I had on hose, then the ugly

things didn't show at all..but bare foot? no..I hid those

things..and I can honestly say , I don't miss them at all..

I tried everything in the book but nothing worked to make

them look better..so I guess getting them cut off was one

way to solve that problem.. :-) I would never suggest it

though..it is bit drastic... :-) I don't think they would any

way take toes off cuz theyre ugly...from what I have heard

its very hard to walk without toes... I guess you would

walk kinda like a duck..flat footed... I never thought

about it.. but it hasnt affected me losing toes... I still

roll pretty good :-)By the way, I wear 8 rings on each
hand..16 total.. :-) I have empty spots too that would be
nice filled :-) *hint hint* :-) Christmas is coming :-)

I have been keeping up with the house and I have to say

we have been doing pretty good..The boys have been

ok..although they do have a problem..and Monday I

will have Penny get some of those flea drops.. I see

them scratching and I have seen a flea on Dutch.. I hate

those things.. they don't go outside, but I think so many

people that come here have pets that probly have them

if they go outside.. well now my 2 do..Penny priced the

drop thingies and its $6.00 for drops but if you want the

potent kind that kills fleas and any offspring they leave,

its $10.oo.. which to stop them from scratching its worth

it.. Dutch was laying next to me last nite and was scratching

so hard the bed was moving.. . no not quite..but it felt

like it..so Monday..they get debugged...

I made some good food today and its out there slowly

simmering.. I sliced potatoes and onion and friend them

then I put in some sliced brats, then I cut up cabbage..

and slowly simmered it until the cabbage is done..It is

so good.. I had wanted to have that bottle of wine that

Chris brought..well how do you open a bottle of wine

when you cant find your corkscrew? I ran out of kool

aid since Penny wasn't here to go to the store for me,

so I need something to drink... Its so hard when she

doesn't show up..teaches me to make sure I have enough

of everything from now on just for times like these when

this happens..from Monday to Wednesday isnt too bad,

but from Wednesday to monday..that's not easy.. I did

clean out the litter box which is NOT easy to do..the

constant bending is hard.. I have to stop every so often

or my stumps will go sound asleep and hurt so bad I

have to stop and sit way back to sort of straighten out.

This chair life is not easy..but the boys are happy I fixed

their potty for them..

My cabbage and stuff are done and I am starved and I

need to find something to dig that cork out.. well I could

call Chris and ask him to come open it for me and then

maybe he will empty the dehumidifer in the basement

and take the trash out for me... Naaa I can dig it out..

and that thing shuts off when its full and the trash..well

Im not real trashy so theres not a lot... Time to eat..

time to watch some TV and then Im going to sleep.. I

got up again at 5.. so Im ready to get out of this chair

so this GORGEOUS WEEBLE says "nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now, y'hear? love ya..and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Ok Day ...kinda sorta~

Was a very interesting day and I am pleased with the results.

First Traci was here, the nurse, my blood pressure was ok,

not great ..160/91..a tad high, but...not too bad for me.. My

day started off kinda bad though..at 10 minutes to 9 my

phone rang..When it does that time of day on a Monday or

Wednesday or Friday I am usually pretty sure its Penny,

and it was..shes sick...so she did not come here today,

which to be honest is really hard on me, its not drastic but

with the humidifier needing emptied and she was going

to go to the store for me and the trash needed to be taken

out...I was counting on her being here. When she isnt I have

to do as much as I can and make double sure I don't make

more messes that I will have to clean up since she wont

be here till Monday now.. I got up at 5 this morning too..I

did get lots done though..
I used the carpet sweeper and I dusted, if we don't every

other day with the boys and the traffic things get dusty and

I hate when I turn on a lamp and see dust on it..Mine, you

cant help but notice dustiness cuz theyre a dark burgundy

and it shows up really good... Kelli used to be a good duster.

She was so careful with everything too which for a 3 year

old that was good.. I still havent tackled the litter box and I

may wait until tomorrow, I did enough for one day...This is

work..I said I was glad I didn't have to anymore..I should

have been more specific..work OUTSIDE the home.... I

don't have to do anymore..Inside, well that's never ending...
Heidi made it today bearing gifts of some skirts and tops.

She gave me some good news that has really lifted a major

burden off my shoulders.. She cant put it in writing, but she

said I was not to worry anymore about my grant being re newed

that she was positive that it would be continuous.. She also

told me all this time I was supposed to be getting a utility

allowance ....which I havent been getting.. She also told

me that I can find a better place one that even is higher in

rent...up to 595.oo a month... I could get a bigger place and

the best part is..my amount of rent is now lower than what

it was..and if I move into a bigger place with higher rent my

amount will still remain the same.. Whomever figured out my

grant etc, did it wrong, I am sure glad she found the errors..
I can now not worry or have that hanging over my head.. She

and I talked about me buying a house through HUD.. She has

a little girl with Downs and she has done a lot of investigating

about grants to help people with disabilities that many don't

know about... I plan to find out what all she knows.. I know that's

how my caseworker , Julia, with DHS, she never offers any

info on anything.. I have to ask if she knows of things I can get

or do ..but she NEVER offers anything..Heidi is really good..

Im glad she is so versed in this housing thing..I think she will

be a big help to me to get the place I want..whether its to rent

or to buy...
Last nite was AWFUL ..as is VERY BAD..There were tornados

all over this end of the state that came up through Indiana and

across Lake Michigan..The photos are of Nappannee, that's

in Indiana..not far from here really, they had some major

damage..Kelli sent me the photos of the storm damage was

really a lot.. Amazing no one was killed from the way some of

the homes look. Totally gone. I was watching TV and I heard the

sirens go off which is our tornado warning.. I just sat there,

where was I going to go.. The TV screen turned red beeping

sounds and a man says "Seek Shelter Immediately" well ok..

where? I have that big basement down there but I cant get to

it.. There is really no place in this house other than maybe

that little passageway into the bathroom.. I would still be a

sitting duck..and what about the boys? I just stayed on my

bed and figured well one place is as safe as another and

the boys stayed right there by me.. We got up in the corner

on my bed and I had pillows around..but if it would have hit

well Id probly not be typing this.. We were very lucky.. I know

from what the TV said this morning..it was really bad and
I think 4 or 5 tornados had touched down .. I know there

was hail and the winds were as high as 70 miles an hour..

I hate bad storms.. rain I don't mind..but that lightening and

hail.. I had the windows broken out of my car from a hail

storm.. and usually it hails when there is a tornado...

Well Im relaxed and a major burden and worry has been

lifted and now I really CAN look for a better place.. I can

take my time too... Now I really have to start saving tho..

moves are NOT free, and these almost 5 week months

are killer..I keep saying how fast the time goes but when

it gets to the end of the month and payday is the first..

the time just seems to drag..for me anyway..

Im gonna drag me and this chair into the kitchen and get

some peanut butter crackers and make some kool aid..

then TV and hopefully sleep better than I did last nite...

Those lightening flashes drove all of us nutz, we 3 are

ready for some snoozes.. "Nitey nite"... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....