~No Kenny, No Word~:-(

It is 5pm Friday, and I havent heard a word from Chris or

Kenny so I am assuming that the work wont be done today

either.. This is what I mean exactly..No consideration for

anyone.. They could have phoned..said that Kenny wouldn't

be by yesterday or today.. I don't understand these kind of

people.. Say your going to do something do it.. Well I have

only to wait till next week when Lori gets back and I am putting

all this in her hands.. I cannot deal with people like this..It

just brings out the worst side of me. I have tried every way to

deal with Chris and have done all that was and is expected

of me.. I should be able to get the same from him I think..but

then slum lords have no consideration for people, only the

money end of it, and as long as that's coming IN and not

going OUT for repairs or whatever..to them, that's good. I

told Chris that I have such a hard time with the fact that he

said his own house is in the same condition as this..and

that he parks on his own lawn...well.. where I come from...

we have pride and try to keep our homes , communities

in a good condition.. I cant say that for Chris..not once can I.

Penny came today and I have to admit I had to apologize

to her today because I was so crabby and just in such a

bad mood..its from all of this.. We got a lot done tho.. My

new clothes rack seems to be serving the purpose.. but

what Penny and I had to go thru..well wasn't easy.. The

clothes rack we put into the bathroom..we had to take the

stackable drawers I had in there back down to the base

ment.. I hated that..this basement drives me nuts knowing

all my beautiful material is down there getting ruined if it

isnt already.. Then we had to re arrange the bedroom so

my new power chair could fit in there as I kept that in the

bathroom too.. We then had to transfer all the clothes out

of the closet onto the clothes rack.. They are so wrinkled,

its pathetic...

I found a steamer at wal mart..I looked on line to see if they

might have something..They built the new one next to Meijers

down there..and 99% of the people prefer Wal Mart as they

have a bigger variety and are ALOT cheaper on most of

their things.. Food, I don't know...But the steamer is 32.oo

which isnt bad.. Tomorrow is the first so I should be able to

fit in into- well take it out of my budget I guess.. Everything

got hung up and we noticed that there is a place for another

shelf in the closet which would be good for me to be able to

reach.. I drove my power chair today and I am just NOT a

good driver in that thing.. Im nervous around the boys in it..

They forget they cant go under it when they see me coming

at them..I worry I would get them caught between the chair

and a door facing..they could easily lose their tail like that..

Penny got me all squeaky clean as she wont be back again

till Wednesday now.. Since Monday is a holiday she is taking

that day off.. She has another client after me and she will be

seeing them tomorrow.. I will have to call Dawn or Donnie to

see if they will come by if they have no plans for the week end,

being labor day they might..but if Dawn has to go to the store

tomorrow maybe she can pick up a few things for me.. I don't

get my food stamps till then..and since Penny wont be here

for 5 days now..I will be out of stuff for sure.. If Dawn cant ..

well that's another one of the joys of this wheel chair life..I

do what I can and that's the best I can do.. I try.. I wont starve

if no one goes to the store for me.. My worry is the trash and

the cat box, that sort of thing.. I can clean the litterbox, but I

cant take it outside..It should be ok if I keep the bags closed.

I don't know the regulations about holidays and that..but every

one deserves a holiday.. I don't think she gets paid for it tho..

and will have to make the time up another day.. I guess I don't

know.. I should find out... they never tell us anything..

Im tired..we worked hard but got a lot done.. I got up early again

at 5 am.. LB woke me whining in my face.. They both think that

breakfast time is at 5 am.. How or where they got THAT from I

have no clue.. They get me up..eat and go back to sleep..I get

up, have a coffee and Im wide awake and cant go back to

sleep.. I did have a short nap tho today after Penny left at noon,

I had to.. I was so tired.. Stress and work..well it will make you

tired..it does me.. I hate being stressed out..and seems the

harder I try to get rid of it..the worse it gets..I don't know.. I guess

I can keep treading this water.. as long as I don't run out of it!!!

Now Im running out to the kitchen getting a soda and some

crackers and heading to my bed for some TV. Long holiday

weekend many will be celebrating.. I will too right here in front

of my wonderful computer.. "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and THANKS!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~No Kenny Today~

Right now is 4pm I have not heard from anyone all day. I really

don't know if Kenny still plans to come today or what, its late.. One

of these times I wish they would do what they say they are.

How can a person plan their day when you don't know what

is happening. I got up at 430 this morning, wide awake.. I

took a short desk rest about 10 till 11 but I am still tired and

could easily go back for a 2nd nap..I don't dare do that tho...I

guess Kenny is afraid since this mean lady "YELLS" at him..

what a joke... :-)

Penny went to Meijers yesterday as they had a clothes rack

on sale for twenty dollars.. to hang your clothes on.. Its quite

sturdy and has possibly 3 places to hang clothes if I can find

another rod long enough to go across it to make a lower one,

which would be so good for my skirts.. I know I sit all day but

I still hate wrinkles.. My clothes are jammed into 2 VERY

small closets right now and they can be wrinkle free when they

are hung in there but when I go to get something they are a

mass of wrinkles.. I am going to have Penny check and see

if there is a steamer of some kind that I can get, instead of

plugging in my iron and ironing on the table.. be easier to

hang what ever and just run steam up and down to get the

wrinkles out.. I think they have some small travelling kind. I
know I need something to get out the wrinkles..of my clothes

that is.. I don't think the other "wrinkles" I have can be taken

out by steam..I wish they could! :-)

I almost fell out of my chair today. I was going to open the door

to let some fresh air in and I got stuck between the couch and

the chair again.. I went to reach for the desk to pull my self to

get loose and my hand slipped off the desk and I JUST about

hit the floor, the recliner stopped me from going down.. THAT

would be all I need after yesterday.. I was so upset by evening

that I couldn't even count to 10 to wind down.. I think the last

count was 937.. :-) no but seems like it.. I cant remember being

that angry with someone.. or being talked to so rudely with no

consideration and to tell me this was his house whether I rented

it or not and he could do what ever he pleased here.. I hate to

differ with this little man..but HIS FATHER owns this house..not

Chris.. His father signed the lease when CHRIS didn't come here

for his money, he sent daddy.. I have never seen 2 grown men

afraid of a woman in a wheelchair? that's kinda sad.. I wouldn't

hurt them too badly.. :-D...just kidding.. I told Chris yesterday..

"if you don't respect others, how do you expect to get it in return"

This really has upset me..and I have to make a plan of attack to

deal with it.. and I need suggestions.. I cant take this from this

man.. Its his responsibility to make sure this place was rentable,

he had 2 months to do it before I moved in.. he didn't.. I think the

very smartest thing for me to do is to wait till Lori is back and

talk to her.. She is in charge of the grant from CMH that pays

part of my rent.. She is not happy with Chris as well.. When she

hears all this when she gets back I KNOW she will not be happy.

I don't want to be ugly I just want a nice safe place to live and

try to have a life... I thought this little house would do the trick.

Read back since last October when I moved in.. I have had

nothing but trouble with Chris.. this is not acceptable.. Lori I

am sure will think of something.. My next step is to find a new

place to move to.. I don't care what state, county or country, I

have to do something..and I am the only one that can.. I have

NO choice.. I cant keep going on like this.. I would end up back

in a nursing home drooling in a corner and doing uglies on the

floor..and I WONT do that.. well hopefully NOT for a VERY long

time anyway..

I didn't phone my Drs office I just didn't want a confrontation with

the nurses.. I will wait till tomorrow and let them know the anti biotics

are done , the cream doesn't work and this elbow still hurts like

hell.. I have a appointment next week with the bone Dr.. I don't think

that's going to help but I have to do something.. the pain has NOT

stopped or diminished.. The photo up top I took today, the white is

like blisters and I don't know from the cream or what .. It itches awful

and right on the very end tip of my elbow is where the pain is.. No

matter which way I put it.. no weight can be put on it at all.. I don't

know what the doctor will say and no telling WHICH doctor is at

the office .. Ive had a different one now the last 4 no 5 times I went.

This cream has cortisone in it..that may be the culprit.. I cant take

that.. My skin is super sensitive.. EVERYWHERE...

I know ONE place it is.. and Im sitting on it.. and it needs relieved..

almost 12 hours now I have been sitting and I need out of this chair

for a while.. plus im hungry ..COA lunch..well name it and you can

have it.. I will share.. no.. don't YOU eat it either..just don't look good.

like its already been eaten once..and that's super ICKY.. Well I made

it through another day, almost a mishap but I made it.. Time for food,

a soda..and some BED resting.. Thanks for all your loving concern..

It sure means a lot to me to know Im not alone..You have NO idea..

It makes a big difference knowing I have such dear friends.. thanks..

thanks..and THANKS :-) " Nitey Nite"....

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks!!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Cried Today~ :-(

Boy, talk about a day.. I mean I got so mad that I almost saw stars.

I let a man talk so RUDE to me in my own home that HE is very

lucky I did not slap him.. Im talking about my landlord Chris. He

ACTUALLY made me cry I got so upset with this man.. I had

Penny go outside to see if they were done out there, I gave her

my camera.. the following photos of what is OUT IN FRONT of

my house I was sick..My garage is a mess..and there are shingles

everywhere.. I called Chris.. and told him this wasn't right.. Kenny

could clean up his mess, he didn't need to park on the lawn, just

so he didn't have to walk from the driveway..
Chris said to me, this was on the phone, "that's my house and if

I want to park on the lawn I will, I own that place". BUT, I RENT this

place which makes it mine . . He is in violation of my rights.
Look at the mess that has been out there for days. . Penny has

picked up those empty white milk cartons 3 times already..
Look at my garage, they are using my electric.. and my garage,

messing up my yard, and I am paying for this.. and they did NOT

even ASK if they could do this.. Then when Chris calls Kenny to

find out when he will come over, Chris said "Kenny hates to come

over here, all you do is yell at him" well my response was, "then

tell him to clean up his act in MY YARD and ASK my permission.

Then while he is on the phone says to Kenny, "when can you come

over here if you can stand her screaming at you" He said that in

MY HOUSE, standing in MY kitchen...I flew HOT .. I was SO MAD.

How dare he insult me in FRONT of me? I told him to get out. .
He went outside and proceeded to clean up the yard. He spoke to

Robert, the grass man, he heard most of it..and he was very upset

the way Chris treated me.. Said I need to find a good lawyer, and

that Chris could be in serious trouble.. I just want this house fixed

and left alone! sheesh.. I don't see why that is so hard for this man .
I showed Chris these photos.. Look at that back roof..that's not

even done yet at all.. those shingles up there are ones they threw

there when they did the other side.. Do you know what kind of

hazard that is in a storm not only to me but the neighbors? I
further told him..I am recording every conversation I have with him

from now on..and If Kenny has to come here to work I will NOT

say one word to him.. HOWEVER, if he doesn't do his job HE
WILL hear from me. This is Bull hockey.. and Im totally tired of

it. well looky the next 2 photos... Little Kenny Man..
There is little Kenny, taking all the crap out of my garage. All you

see in that first photo he put into that trailer on the back of his

truck. I watched.. I bet he was mad..and that little man is due to

be here tomorrow afternoon now..to fix the ceiling here in the

living room..Im going to ask if that includes just patching the water

stains and the holes or painting the whole ceiling that was sposed

to be done BEFORE I moved in...and then again....
As crappy a job as Little Kenny does I don't know if I want him

painting in here with all my stuff in here.. Well anyway.. Chris

came back in after Robert and he talked and Chris came and

cleaned up the yard.. nice to have to pick up after your little

brother.. cuz hes a pig.. I don't understand this.. but I know his

attitude needs to change.. I pay rent.. this is mine.. he had NO

right to come and destroy my yard, my flowers, and have this

place look like a dump for 3 weeks almost.. Im tired of it..

Lori will be back Monday and she and I talked about this before

she left..that Chris has NOT kept his part of the bargain..He could

be in trouble with them as well.. If I am forced to move because

none of this is done, well they could make him give back the rent

they paid.. Robert said Chris needs to study his landlord/tenant

handbook.. Hes violated quite a few of my rights.. I cant even get

renters insurance till this roof is done..
Well anyway, Ive calmed down and took my blood pressure with my

new monitor that I got today, I guess my calling and filing a complaint

about my drs office did some good... I was sposed to get this back on

the 17th.. they arent doing a very good job, 1 day delivery..goes to show

you.. Robert came and cut the grass and trimmed, I can see those

stepping stones again, they were totally covered that's how long the

was.. I was glad to see him.. This yard could be so pretty..there is so

much traffic everyone sees this house since its on a corner.. someone

at one time liked it here with all the flowers planted all around.. I like it..

but well take a lot to really make it workable....

Sorry for the long post but well.. I had to show these photos to prove

Im not yelling about this crap just to hear myself..I don't bitch and moan

unless I have a darn good reason.. I told Chris off..he made me cry I

told him I have it hard enough trying to make ends meet and I didn't

need his crappy attitude to make it worse and made him leave again..

Arrogant little man.. I cry when I am so upset and so mad I could just spit.

And then I am NOT responsible for what I say or do.. Im glad he left when

he did..and I am SO glad this day is coming to a close.. I got up at 530

and well its time to slow down and find some food..Sorry for being such

a buggar but well they make me mad.. and I hate that.. Time for this

GORGEOUSLY MAD WEEBLE to say "nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? Love ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Had to Have A Rest Today~ :-(

I have been so tired today and for no reason.. I didn't get

up till 7:30.. and I even had to take a desk rest today which

I havent done that in awhile either.. Its not like I did a whole

lot to wear my self out.. I think the hardest thing I had to do

today was roll across the bedroom carpet two times more

than I had to.. It is so hard to roll in there..the carpet has

ridges its so loose..and that makes it even harder to move

across it..I forgot the phone and had to go back in their to

answer it when it rang.. I take it in there at night until I can get

the jack put in there and hook up the other phone I have, its

a land phone..well not cordless and wont go out if the power

does..as many storms as we have had Ive not lost power at

all.. I still say its cuz I live within site of the hospital...

Living so close to it..I can hear the helicopter sometimes and

I know its a life flight . I hear the ambulances going down this

street almost daily going down to the emergency room.. Ive

never been in this hospital here, I am always transferred up to

the medical center in Kalamazoo, they know me there. That's

where I had to go for my amputations.. There are two huge

medical centers there and both are great.. One is nothing but

private rooms.. The other though that I go to they always put

me into a private room..they did for all 3 of my amputation

surgeries.. It was nice, I really didn't feel like having company

back then anyway and for the first two amputations I don't

think I really knew what really was going on.. They kept me so

drugged that I have no time frame for anything...I believe the

reason was the depression, and pain... that was never ending.

I made a meat pie yesterday which I havent done since Ive

lived here..and it was wonderful..so good.. I was looking at the

calendar..its almost the first of September. I was thinking back

to where I was just one short year ago.. I was getting ready to

go to Keystone..crying every day, so sad, and I just felt totally

lost... I was about to be one of the Homeless statistics.. I still

have a hard time with that.. and it really bothers me to this day

that I ended up there. I am grateful it was there..but that was

one place I didn't want to be, just like a hospital no one wants

to be there either... But I had no choice and I hate when that

happens...

BUTTTTT... look at me now.. Im still kicking, though I have a raging

headache after listening to little Kenny play up on the roof all day.

I feel fairly good. I do have a few problems..but who doesn't.. I

wish I had a bigger place, true.. but Im grateful I have a place at

all..and I can function..just a tad hard but well its better than not

being able to function at all yes? I got food..a new roof.. and 2

finally WELL cats..Im totally GORGEOUS.. :-) you knew I would

say that.. so what more can I really ask for.. well a few couple

or three or five brazilion dollars in my checkbook sure would

make me feel a whole lot better.. and I KNOW that's going to

happen haha.. I did and do play the lottery now tho..once a week

I have Penny get a ticket for me on Fridays.. Ive hit 2 numbers..

so soon will be 3, then 4 and THEN..well this little short lady will

be even MORE GORGEOUSIER.. I know that's not a word but

that's the joys of writing you can make up your own :-)

Well im gonna make up my mind as to dinner and what Im going

to try to watch on tv..I saw my favorite show, Prison Break..all

repeats..but boy that one guy in it.. with the tats.. he is such a

DOLL!!! .. Its worth watching a repeat just to see that handsome

man with the bedroom eyes again.. I watch that guy in Baltimore

Duff Goldman..hes a baker and the cakes this man and his

company makes are amazing..what ever you want a cake to

look like he will make..even exploding ones.. I enjoy watching the

cooking shows..and of course animal planet..the funny videos

are so good..Laughing a lot then falling asleep make for some

good dreams, So anyway even though I napped... Im tired... and I

need to get out of this chair.. sitting for 12, 14 hours at a time

well more than my butt gets tired... "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and Thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

Ps: My arm is a tad better, the pain is less, the rash is still the same.

ITCHY ITCHY.. :-)

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~My Boy Is Sick~ :-(

My boy is sick. Dutch threw up most of the night and he has

the dribblies... Hes just not feeling good.. I woke up about 3

and realized he had not been up by me all night, I knew some

thing was wrong.. I have no idea what it can be.. I looked on

line and I emailed Becky, shes very good with cats. I know hes

not gotten hold of anything..theres been nothing here.. and he

and LB have eaten the same stuff and LB is fine.. Hes the

one woke me to go and tend to Dutch who was being sick in

the kitchen... I hope its nothing but a stomach upset.. On line

it said a cat can get very stressed and Donnie & Dawn brought

their dog Jerky with them last nite. hes a good dog.... :-)
Dawn and Donnie came by and had their dog with them. hes

a massive animal, and just beautiful.. a chocolate lab. He is

a sweet but very hyper dog.. he totally messed up the kitchen,

ate all the cat food and deliberately antagonized Dutch.. LB

stayed up on the back of the recliner and didnt budge, he did

not care in the least that dog was here.. On the other hand..

the boy came out from under the couch doing a sideways

dance hair all down his back standing straight up ..ears flat

on his head and he started to sidestep up to that dog.. I knew

what he was gonna do and I hurried up and tried to grab

Jerky and move Dutch to the side.. Jerky is used to cats, they

have one.. I was worried since Dutch has his claws that he

would scratch the dogs eye or worse..so Donnie finally made

Jerky lay down and Dutch just sort of strutted into the bedroom.

He was so mad he didnt come out at all.. So this could be a

part of it..Dutch is so high strung and as mad as he was.. well

hes a senstive kid.. I just hope he gets to feeling better soon.

Kenny was here today, I sat and watched him clean out the

back of his truck for 30 minutes, take a tool out, look at it..

set it down somewhere else.. His cords he uses I can not

see how he can stand it. He pulled out just a knotted mess.

So much easier to do it up right. He worked for about 2 hrs

or so..then left for lunch and never came back.. Some of his

stuff is still out there so I have NO idea what his plans are..

I do wish this would end...

I did call my Dr. and gave the report my elbow was not any

worse but not any less painful.. I relayed the fact I couldn't tell

her the effect of this upgrade in my blood pressure med as

I have no way of knowing.. I talked to Cherise. She said it all

had been sent to a referrer and gave me the number to call.

I called that at 9 am and still have not gotten a call back.. I

sure would like a new blood pressure monitor..but if they arent

worried or concerned I guess I don't have to be either.. They

never did call and make an appt with a bone doctor either..

Cherise started to tell me things Erica was sposed to have

told me.. well about 3/4ths of the way through I stopped her,

most of what she had told me wasn't true as Erica had not

said any of what she was saying.. I think I need to have a real

talk with Erica..if this nurse has a problem with me then I

think she needs to say so.. I know they have a lot of patients,

but I think everyone of us deserves the best care we can get,

and should not be based on a nurses attitude or opinion..For

some reason they are not following through and I honestly

think Erica does what ever SHE feels she should and NOT

what the Dr has ordered.. So to be honest.. I really do not know

what to do.. I have seriously considered just changing Drs.

where every time I go im not dealing with a new doctor.. The

last 4 times? I Have had a different doctor EVERY time.. I

honestly don't like that at all.. Im going to give this some very

serious thought these next few days as how to handle this.. I

could just ignore it..solve quite a few stress points for me I

know..but I cant do that either I don't want to end up in a corner

somewhere droolin and doing uglies on the floor! :-)

My stumps are not hurting today, I think I have been laying on

my side too much and putting too much pressure on my hips.

By last nite I bet if anyone saw me the way I was fidgeting

around in this chair would think I had ants in my pants or

something.. I don't know maybe its the cushion.. The daily

things that remind me that I live a chair life are just constant.

I made a meat pie today and got stuck trying to get some

butter out of the fridge. I got wedged between the wall and

the fridge door. I couldn't reach my wheel to turn and when I

finally got mad.. well I shoved the whole refrigerator.. it was

all I could do.. or I would have been wedged, as the open

door was just at that spot it wouldn't go either way.. I had no

choice but to get free..I was glad that the fridge moves so

easy specially now since my freezer is full..

The meat pie is waiting for me..and I am MORE than ready

to try it out.. It has smelled so good in here all after noon that

I bet if Kenny were up on the roof he could smell it.. Im kinda

glad this day is closing down..Im going to get my boy and

make him a nice warm spot right next to me and hopefully

tomorrow will be a better day for him and I both.. "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~That Tiny White Thing~

I was looking through my photos, which I do a lot..:-) and

I got to looking at these.. That one there is me with Nikki

and Amber, Donnies step daughters, Amber in the pink,

was here not long ago with Kelli, and had Kirsten..Does

Kirsten look like her mother... I think Nikki was 4 here and

Amber was 2.. Kelli was around somewhere..just not handy

for the photo.. My point to putting this old photo here.. well..

do you see what is in my hand? my left one there..That little white
thingie? yes.. a cigarette.. this photo was taken probly in 90...
I smoked easily 2 packs a day...
I used to run a small motel in Pasadena, Tx. this was in '77. I

am sitting out on the lawn with my ex Willie, that's his knee,

and I think this was a barbeque..Willies brother Al could fix

some wonderful ribs... I wore my hair up a lot then.. but I didn't

do it.. I went to the beauty shop at least once a week then.. I

miss that.. such a nice treat.. Again though.. do you see what

is in my hand? a cigarette...
I used to go to see my brother Kenny when he lived in

Racine, Wisconsin.. nice town.. right on the lake too.. Hes

since moved from there now.. I drove there every few weeks

to spend the week end there.. we would have a great time and

always went to their favorite bar..which was fun.. everyone knew

everyone.. kinda like Cheers. I have a drink there in front of me,

and that black case there, that's my cigarette case, and again

you see what is in my hand... this was in 83 or so..before I lost

my eye... shortly before ...
Im pretty sure Ive put this photo here before.. Willie and I had

driven from Houston to see his daughter in New Jersey.. that's his

Granddaughter, Diane.. I was working back then.. oh..and those

shoes? those were a pair of my very best favorites.. That's how I

dressed to go to work every day when I was a Marketing Support

Specialist for an Export Crating Company there.. I loved that job.

But again.. you see what I have in my hand? this was taken I think

in 71 or so.. maybe 72.. im not sure.. I wish I had taken the time to

date my photos.. I have said that so many times..

I see myself in those photos..and I think I look pretty good..happy,

and I had NO idea that little white thing that I am holding in all of

these, what it would do to me.. what it would cost me and STILL

yet may cost me... I wonder sometimes if I had known would I have

stopped? I knew back then that ciggies could 'possibly' cause cancer

yet I still smoked them.. so I wonder if I had known.. that I would lose

my 2 GORGEOUS legs, would I have quit? And I would say.. " YES"

I would have quit.. I would have quit them 30 years ago. I sometimes

wonder.. why they don't warn that this is a possible outcome.. I love

going to a restaurant, and I ASK for smoking.. I sit..and announce

LOUDLY as I roll to my table to whomever my companion is..was

Raelynn then.. She had a ciggie in her hand too.. I state to all in

there " See Raelynn your not the only goofy one taking chances of

being like me and losing your legs..look at all the smokers" and

smile and go on my way.. I did get some looks tho.. I saw one

man..look at my missing legs..look at his cigarette, and put it out.

that made me feel good.. I wish he had asked about it.. but hope

fully just seeing me was enough.. I hope so.. I will be honest I did

enjoy a cigarette.. I enjoyed smoking..every puff.. but well. it wasn't

that great to be like this now.. I would have given them up long ago

not one year before I lost them.. I quit in 2000 after I had my heart

bypass... but was too late.. both my beauties were gone by 2002..
Well anyhowways..there is me and what Im like now, and the boy,

he rides back there.but Im still kicking legs or no legs..that's the main

thing.. and some days arent so bad..some arent too very good but

well hell who doesn't have crappy days? If one person says they

don't I shall say "FIBBER"! :-)... but now.. this GORGEOUS

WEEBLE has to say " Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Trapped Kittie~

I was in the kitchen this morning I had just finished washing up and

changing clothes which I do in the bathroom..all my summer tops

and all my skirts I keep in the closet there..then I get dressed while

im on the potty... its easier.. I wear only skirts that I pull over my

head, and just pull them down and back up into my chair..well I do

put a top on too :-) well anyway, Im sitting at the kitchen table day

dreaming looking out the window at the rain..LB jumps up on the

table and nudges my arm with his head really hard.. then he meows

at me.. This cat says Mom.. many have heard him.. well after he

does this.. he jumps down and runs to the bathroom..so I watch, I

see him lay on the floor in front of the closet,there you see him

digging under the closet door...
As I am watching I hear a commotion in the closet and I knew right

away what I had done.. When I was getting my clothes out..of course

the boy went in there.. I got my stuff closed the door, and went into

the kitchen.. There you see it.. proof.. Good thing LB loves Dutch..

no after a while..Dutch would have let me know himself.. I closed

the door on LB a while back and locked him in there, well he let me

know real fast he screamed so loud.. These two cats are worse

than kids.. even Theresa said that, she loves these 2..well most

that come here do..you cant get past them..they meet you at the

door! That's how I know when someone is close, they stare at it..

then the closer whomever it is gets, the closer they get.. all they

don't do is bark and let me know :-)... but a cat is a good watchcat.

And mine are armed, they have their claws...I like my fingernails..

well..I bet they like theirs too :-)

I was up so many times last nite it was pitiful.. Between my stinkin'

elbow, well don't stink but.. hurts like a son of a gun.. a lot...

anyhowways.... Then my left stump its hurting alot....something

inside there is NOT happy..Hurt? wow.. Its still hurting.. I have to

keep moving it.. its right on the very end of the bone it feels like..a

stabbing kind of pain...and its so strong..that my stump will actually

move from it...its like a spasm.. I don't know if its this constant rain

or what.. but the past few days they both are acting up..but last nite

this left one..well.. I didn't need that to start too.. I have enough right

now, thank you.. I don't want NO MORE...:-)
I got the food today from the Angel Food Ministries..and I am VERY

impressed.. I don't think I will need to buy meat for 6 months! Its a

great variety too. pork, beef, chicken. Those 4 boxes were full.. You

see I even got something for the boys.. They have had the best time

with that box. They have taken turns inside it.. The basic food came

in that, the white one was steaks, the one under was pork and the

one on the left was chicken.. all full.. each piece of the beef and pork

are individually wrapped..and those popcorn chicken thingies ..well

I KNOW those are gonna be good.. I told the kids, well D & D, that

I got this today and I plan to share with them, they gave me a great

pork loin strip and some ribs I know Donnie would LOVE to grill...

I told him I will trade him some of this for some of his fish he got in

Canada.. He brought home some nice fish..So it will work out for

both of us.. and Donnie I know will share with Kelli..we all got to

look out for each other.. Im hoping to lure him over here with food

and then I KNOW he will put in my telephone jacks for me.. He

knows how to do that... Then I don't have to worry when the phone

rings and im in the bathroom.. Boy..that will be nice.. I used to

think..a PHONE in the bathroom..how ritzy ditzy..but I changed my

tune.. Its a necessity.. for me it would be a treat..

I got all that new food..and I don't know what I want to have for my

dinner.. Is that a nice feeling tho..to have a lot to choose from.. I

like it.. now I just have decisions decisions :-) But I have decided

its time to say "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and thanks bunches!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~We Had A Bad Storm~

We had a bad storm last night.. trees down and lots of people

without power.. Penny, Donnie, even Chris the lunch girl are all

without power.. Im kinda glad I live close to the hospital..Chris

said she heard they probly wont get power back for a few days.

I guess some trees went down across some lines.. I don't worry

about Donnie, he has a generator, and can supply his house..

It was really bad last nite.. Donnie had called about 8 and asked

if I had power, which I did, they didn't so I reminded him NOT to

open the freezers till he knew the power was back..or if he did

use his generator.. He takes that thing with him when he goes

to the races..easier than using gas for the lights and stuff, and I

don't think they have places for hook ups ..

My yard looks like it rained leaves and sticks and branches..

First thing I did was see if that tree across the street made it..

across from it are branches down under the row of trees over

there it was that bad.. Penny came today and went out and got

up some of them, I guess someones trash got blown away too

as some of it was in my yard as well...My tomato plants took a

beating, while she was out there she retied them up..My two

babies out there the branch got broken so she brought them in.

They look so nice and I KNOW are going to taste even better..

Ive been taking my anti biotics twice a day and my arm is some

what improved..still VERY hot..and red..the rash is worse and I
am wondering if I am allergic to this cream...The whole end of

my elbow..the skin has peeled off.. It felt rough last nite and I got

out my mirror, its the only way I can see it unless I use my cam..

I looked and the whole tip was peeling off.. I very carefully removed

what was safe to take off.. I didn't want to chance making an open

spot..that would not be good..it is still very sore and I cant put any

weight on it.. and the swelling is there.. No one has called me to

give me an appt date and I have no idea who or whom they plan

to send me to.. Ive not heard about the nurse either.. I called again

yesterday late, and the girl that was left there apparently the 2 main

girls left, she had NO idea what I was talking about..so.. I waited

today to see if they will call me.. as of 2 pm..they have not called me.

I decided I didn't want to fight with anyone today and then have a

stressful week end and no way to fix anything so I don't stir the pot

so to speak on friday..If I find out crap on Fridays then I worry about

it all week end and theres no way I can do anything specially if its

phone calls to places.. So Fridays I leave them all alone..then I can

sleep late on Saturday and wake up not worrying about a lot.. I still

worry about stuff ,,, that's my middle name.. If I get a call and some

one says they have something to tell me I always ask if its some

thing I need to worry about.. when they say "no" then I tell them they

can tell me :-) I worry about everything.. I always have.. I make the

kids or company always call me so I know they have made it home

safely.. When Willie was here, Kelli got so upset..she said "Gran,

Papa didn't even call and tell me he made it home and knows he

is supposed to". I reminded her that we all like knowing that.

Tomorrow I get the Angel Food Ministries Food.. I am anxious to

see and try it out.. From what I hear its very good.. If it is I will

order next months as well.. I want to try it first.. It doesn't have to

be reordered for 2 weeks.. Right now im gonna try to get out to

my kitchen without bumping this elbow again.. I got it good last

night when I got up to potty, storm woke me up...and I was sleepy

and I hit it on the door way going out of the bathroom ..there are

nails or something sticking up and I got hung up ..when I reached

back to get more push I hit it.. that hurt ! I couldn't go back to

sleep after that smack for quite a while.. so CAREFULLY this

GORGEOUS WEEBLE is going to roll out and get some lime

kool aid.. Thanks again for all your loving concern.. means so

much to me.. I appreciate the comments too.. Y'all are great..

"nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and THANKS!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~They Got Mine Too~

That's the foreman of the tree crew standing at the end of the

flower box there, looking at my tree.. that came this morning and

deformed my tree out front. I havent been out to see how they did,

but well I raised a stink today about how they did the neighbors

across the road.. When I heard them outside there, I opened the

door and that man standing right there I told him straight out they

better not butcher my tree, if they do, they will come back and totally

take it out..remove the stump AND REPLACE the tree.. I asked

him how long he had been doing tree work..he said 25 years.. I

asked him to be honest about what they did to the neighbors tree,

and he agreed it did NOT look good at all..but according to the

power company the branches have to be 20 feet away from the

wires.. well ok.. but then take the whole tree..don't leave something

as dangerous as what I see next door!
You see him and his bucket man, pointing to what to cut and not to.

Well they butchered the tree from what I could see from the porch..

I called the AE electric company that hires Asplundh Tree Service to

trim their trees..they passed my call down the line till I ended up talking

to a guy not far from here.. Well about 1 or so..that man pointing and

the guy I talked to from the electric company came by and talked to

me..both were very nice... Jason I believe was the power company guy.

Well I told him what I thought..and I said its a shame that they can do this

to the trees.. That if they had kept up a regular maintenance program

this may not have had to happen.. He admitted this street looks pathetic

the trees almost raped.. its a shame.. look at the difference in the next

two photos..
That's Robert cutting the grass but look across over next door,

I know I have other photos but I just didn't feel like digging them out..

I still don't feel the greatest..But you can see that tree there.. They

went back over there today after they got mine.. I cant believe BOTH

those guys admitted what a crap job they have to do..HAVE to do..

Aslplundh does.. and the power company says..they have the right to..

I told them to move the lines underground.. save us from our monthly

power outages... Look at the tree..then..scroll down now to the next
There you have it.. Is that pitiful? Do you know how that lets the

hot after noon sun here? If we get a storm..well I wouldn't vouch for

that tree.. If they don't ask for it to be removed..well.. then they must

not care too much for that house.. Look at the top? see it needs

topped down.. you cant see all the dead wood in them all.. People

don't take care of them.. Trees are such an asset..add value to a

property..but they need care just like the grass needs cut..they need

deadwooded.. you find branches on the ground after a wind storm?

they need thinned..so the wind can get through during a storm..or

they can be twisted right out of the ground.. they need topped..see how

high up and tall skinny branches? it needs cut down.. shaped..and a

tree will out live generations.. They are so needed.. I guess being

raised in the middle of a national forrest I love trees.. and seeing this

well it makes me sick..and I told that nice Asplundh guy..don't brag he

works for them and does the horrible bidding of the electric company

to ruin something so beautiful... shame..

Well enough of the tree saga.. but it makes me mad.. Theresa was

here today when those 2 guys came to talk to me .. When they left..

she laughed.. she said " Lois..look at them shaking their heads out

there..I bet they wish they had never come in here for all you told them"

we laughed..well I hope every one complains.. She gets a kick out

of me and how I just say what I think and I wont accept less than what

is right.. Ive always been like this.. I told her..If someone doesn't like

the way I look..don't look at me.. if you don't want to hear what I have

to say..well then don't include me in the conversation..I wont lie and I

always reserve the right to say what I think.. Right is right.. wrong is

wrong.. Period.. anyway....

I got a call from Carla at COA and they have started a program that

will provide frozen dinners on the weekend.. Their frozen dinners

are NOT the left over ones from lunch.. thank goodness..but from a

company and I have had them before..theyre really good..in fact I

have to say better than some of the stuff you get from COA.. Since

Ive had this infection I have just NOT felt up to par.. I get so tired..

and just no energy... So until this is gone..these dinners will help..

Good thing this not feeling good hasnt affected my mouth hey?

Geez those 2 guys wouldn't have ringing in their ears then would

they from me ? :-D..

Im wearing down..and need to get out of this chair..Thanks for all

your loving concern.. My arm is a tad better in a way and in a way

the same.. its still sore and red and very hot.. but I think the color

is not as bad.. Ive still not gotten a call about the nurse or the bone

doctor..so guess what that means tomorrow? Right now Im getting

some lime kool aid and mixing it with sugar of course, in a bottle

of water.. I have a kool aid jug and I dump 2 packages of lime kool

aid and a cup or so of sugar..then I have a scoopie ..and I use 2

and half of those dumped into the bottle of water..shake it and drink..

good stuff maynard.. I love lime.. There you have it.. "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Little Stressers~

Today was sort of an aggravating day full of little tiny things that if

you let it will put you into a snit. :-) so.. about 3, 4 times today I have

had to count to 10 and just sat back and relaxed. Little stressers can

be worse than big ones sometimes... I had today all planned for

mine and Penny's attack on the basement.. well I guess she had a

power outage by her, which we didn't, and anyway when she wasn't

here by 9:20 when she is due by 9 I phoned..and she had overslept.

That happens..most alarm clock radios.. mine does..has a battery

back up just for that reason.. and me, I don't need an alarm.. I set

the one in my head and I get up... so she was late..the start ....

The other little stressers were, I havent heard from the home nurse,

so I don't know what the problem is .something about a referrer or

something.. well I called Erica and questioned as to what was up. this

was to have been done Monday, or at least by yesterday.. so I guess I

don't need to worry about anything since obviously my doctor doesn't

seem to be as concerned as she was when I was there..That was two

times of counting when I talked to the office.. So I again mentioned my

BP monitor is broken, would they send a prescription to my insurance

or aps or someone so I can get a new one..well Im not holding my

breathe on this either..THEN I had to call my insurance lady, Deborah,

who is on vacation till next Monday, she had a replacement but she has

yet to call me back...

So THEN.. I GET a call from the Farm Bureau Insurance I called two weeks

ago for a renters insurance policy.. She informed me that she had gone by

and seen the roof being repaired and that she didn't think she would be

able to write a policy until it is finished.. I told her I wasn't insuring this house.

MY belongings.. she said didn't matter..bad building could cause damage to

my things and then the insurance pays.. I told her..if something happens to

MY things because of this roof or any part of this house being bad MY

insurance would NOT pay.. I would see to it that Chris and his father did.. I
have this place too well documented on their lack of upkeep and the condition

this place was in and STILL is.. But well I guess when they are done with the

roof, then I can get insurance..hell of a note... Oh..and NO Penny said they

only just barely have HALF of the roof done!!! *SIGH*
The top photo shows what was going on all day out there. The

electric company is cutting trees, no they arent they have a tree

company that goes out and butchers the trees! What they did to those

next door.. well I hope they don't do that to these! Look at the photos.

Do you see what they did? they took all the limbs OFF the wire side

of the tree, thus leaving all the weight on the side where the house is!

They would have been better off to take the whole tree down.. I sat

and watched what they did. I had a tree service with Willie, I can look

at a tree and tell you what needs done to it.. What they did.. well.. they

are doing that to everyones trees and I think its a shame.. That's Chris

my lunch delivery girl..shes very nice..and that's her jeep parked there.
They finished butchering that first tree and went to the second..

Its bigger than this first one.. Look up top of that tree..see all

those tall branches sticking up? that tree needs topped.. rounded

taken care of.. so many people don't realize that trees are an

asset to property not counting all the great things they provide...

People only think about caring for them when strong winds or

worse go thru and rip them out or much worse drop them on

their houses.. The machine behind the bigger truck is the chipper.

They can take branches and put them in on that left side and you

can see a chute type thing aimed at the back of that bigger truck

it chops everything up and shoots it into that and then a lot of the

tree services sell it for mulch or what ever.. They cut and stacked

the wood at the bottom of the tree. If they don't want it.. I know

someone that will take it.. Donnie.. Hes always looking for wood..

Well, I did and didn't get a lot accomplished today and I will HONESTLY

admit I have been in a really bad mood..then after Penny left..well before

she left she used the big beast vacuum cleaner that LB is terrified of..I
always make sure I see both of the boys after someone has been in and

out of here.. Well LB hid..and would NOT come out for almost an hour.

BY then I am thinking the worst and in a panic.. I had NO idea where he

could be.. I looked everywhere.. Well the phone rang, was the heart scan

place and while I am talking here he comes out of my bedroom..and I
looked under there..well I didn't look but I used my long grabber to feel..

I was mad, and glad all at once.. Kids..


My little stresses day is just about done ..and I think I need to just get

away from this puter and go and watch tv..Wednesday nite..hmm LOST

used to be on .. oh well I probly wont get to see much of anything any

ways.. I find that shut off button for me too fast that's on that clicker !

The arm is not better but it is not worse..not to worry "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks.. :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~A Nice Quiet Day~ :-)

Was a really nice Quiet day today, kinda stress free, I

waited for the hospice to call to set up a time for the nurse

to come but I didn't hear from them at all..so I don't know..

The Dr didn't call with a appt with the bone guy or set up

the heart scan.. I can wait..I am enjoying this calm kinda

really relaxing day, Ive not done really anything, well I did

spend some time fixing my kitchen a little..not alot.... I have

just enjoyed NOT doing one thing.. all I did do today was

get dressed and make coffee and reply to my emails..and
I am all caught up on that.. I think.. I really don't get very

much mail.. I wish I did.. I enjoy it.. specially when my friends

send me photos of themselves or their family, home..or pets.

A friend just got a new dog, a golden retriever, beautiful animal.

I miss not having a dog.. they love you so good.. they do.. no

matter what.. they are always there ..tail going..ready to let you

know they love you and just want to please you and make you

happy.. Ive had some wonderful dogs.. I was told I am eligible

to get a helper dog.. I would love to have one..but I just would

be so scared to let him outside here ..and not be able to go

out with him.. the yard isnt totally fenced.. and that's not safe.

I sure would like to have one .. but as small as this house is..

well me, 2 cats and a dog.. I don't know.. well depends I guess

on the size of it.. Brandy was a Maltese and a love.. if she

couldn't get outside to do her business, bless her heart, she

had NO pride..she would use the CAT BOX..made the cats

so VERY mad, but she had to go and knew mom would be

up set if she let go somewhere else.. I never trained her to do

that either.. My ex sister has a cat that sits on the toilet ..uses

it..she has no litter box.. I think LB could learn to do that he

hates the litter box and if its not totally clean ALL the time he

will scream and meow until I go and notice its dirty.. I don't

think Dutch would have the patience.. hes too much of a live

wire..

I tried working in my kitchen today, not alot..as I still don't feel

the greatest its got to be from the infection.. I put some of my

tea pots back up on the bakers rack and tried to make my

kitchen look a little more like one.. I will gradually get it to how

I want it to look.. I only have one more year here, and I will have

to find another place, that's why I think going thru everything

and sorting out what I absolutely don't have to have anymore

will help when the time comes that I have to leave here.. If

Ken will get this house HUD certified then I can continue to

rent it.. if he doesn't and my grant from CMH is not renewed

then I will be in trouble and house hunting again.. So THIS time

I am going to be prepared and I wont get caught like last time

and end up in Keystone..

I have to give Keystone every bit of credit though..the staff there

was great..96% were... and their follow up program is super..

Lori will be coming once a week now to make sure all is ok and

to see if I need anything that she can help me get..I hope..ok

wish that they could extend the grant..which Lori said my being

like I am they may keep renewing it..if I KNEW that were true, It

sure would ease a lot of my worries.... I don't like uncertainties

hanging over my head..I want to face them straight on..and deal

with them..

My boy came over after work and I sure enjoy his visits.. he usually

tries to every few weeks..and if he doesn't he always phones...

hes a good kid.. I phoned him yesterday evening..he had gone

to the races somewhere here in Michigan and it rained for the

whole time he was there, they had fun. a whole bunch of them all

go 5. or 6 couples..each with trailers.. they plan this from year

to year..next years reservations are already made.. Donnie was

so disappointed as the race is supposed to be today but the

way the weather is.. I doubt if they will have it today..Everywhere

its raining.. Im glad..just for the fact, in case my roof isnt finished.

and I don't have to hear that pounding.. I was really getting bad

by last Friday afternoon ,, I was ready to pull my hair out.. I sure

needed them to go home..if they hadnt stopped when they did,

I think I would have asked them to ..It was awful.. . . I know they

had to do it.. but well if this ever happens again..well motel 6

here I come ..

I had leftover meatloaf, some creamed corn and a biscuit, for

lunch.. leftover meatloaf is so good.. Penny did great on it.. I

told her so before she left.. Saturday I get the food from that

Angel Food Ministries.. I am anxious to see what and how it

is.. Penny has and says its reallly good..not much longer to

wait.. What I cant wait for is to get out of this chair for today,

I didn't get up till almost 7 today, but it wasn't a restful sleep,

and I almost had to take a deskrest today.. I didn't but I sure

coulda used one.. im ready for some bed rest.."Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, y'hear? love ya and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Called~

Well I called the Dr and filled her in on all the poopyscoopy.

Explained about my BP monitor and my arm .. everything..

A few hours later Erica phoned me back..and said they are

calling me in the morning to start having a visiting nurse come

every day, possibly twice depending on what my pressure

is running.. Julie, the Dr, wants to keep a close eye on it..and

I guess having to have a nurse come again it will be monitored

better, I still would like to have my own..but then it may be ok its

just that its so high it wont register..it did that one time but it wont

do it again.. I even put in new batteries again that Penny only just

bought today..still reads EE...so its me or the machine... I wonder if

the nurse will be the same guy I had before... he was nice..well all of

them ive had have been really nice.

So- I told her my arm is only worse as far as the pain..today it has

been a real bugger.. just constant..and no place that I lay it will it

NOT hurt.. so Erica said Dr, wants me to see a bone dr..a ortho

pedic? no that's feet.. well what ever theyre called..and she will

make an appt and let me know or they will when my appt is.. This

is JUST what I knew.. Im gonna have to start draggin my butt to

all these different Drs.. This bone guy,, then watch..the next is

gonna be the cardiologist..then the next will be the vascular..so..

I know the routine.. I don't like it one bit.. If they could all see me at

one time I would be extremely happy.. I do worry tho..in all honesty,

If I said I wasn't or not concerned then I would sound kinda..well..

stupid.. and Im not.. I can take chances.. I have to take care and

do what Im sposed or this fat lady will be singing too soon and I

don't want that.. I see me at at LEAST 90 years old STILL giving

everyone HELL.. :-D.. I saw this old lady on TV they called her

the fruitcake lady and bless her heart she had an opinion on every

thing and it was logical and made sense.. she was so cute and

just really funny.. some of the questions they asked her it was just

hilarious.. She used to be on one of the late nite shows..jay leno

or somewhere.. now I cant see the early shows let alone late

ones.. I fell asleep really early last nite..I bet by 7 I was snoozin..

AND.. we have RAIN today.. do you know how badly I prayed for

rain today? I DID.. all I kept thinking about is that they are coming

back to pound and bang on the roof again..they only have half done.

Lori saw it today when she was here.. so they will be back.. By the

time they left Friday nite..I was at my wits end.. I felt like I was losing

it.. I couldn't escape that pounding.. drove me nuts.. when I woke up

this morning and saw the rain.. I was so glad.. I was..what a relief...

Lori came today with great news.. she got married Friday nite..to her

boyfriend of the past 4 years.. hes from Canada but will be moving

here. Shes so happy. shes working this week then the next two weeks

she will be off and going way up by the bridge to camp out ..shes so

looking forward to it.. camping as in TENTING.. which..well I don't like

tenting..trailering is ok..tents in bear country? no..Im NOT at ease..

I hope she has a good time.. Shes so happy and had a lot on her

plate too with getting married and her leaky roof.. I will miss her..she

comes faithfully every monday..the boys were waiting at the door

for her.. she really likes them and they like her..

Penny came today and made the best meat loaf for me.. It is just

great.. I LOVE meatloaf..my fries n gravy are first..then meatloaf..

My ex mother in law would make what ever we wanted for a dinner

on our birthdays, of course I picked meatloaf and poppyseed cake.

boy did she make some excellent loaf and cake..that poppyseed

cake was so good.. She was amazed that I wanted something so

easy to fix and not some elaborate thing she makes.. or something

that takes her hours to fix like my ex had to have lasagne..which

takes a while to fix.. well if you want GOOD stuff... I enjoyed that

meatloaf.. I had the ground meat in the fridge and asked her if she

would make it for me..im sure glad I did..I will have some of the

best sandwiches tomorrow..cold meatloaf..little catsup on the bread?

yessss that's good stuff Maynard.. ...

Im tired.. I worked hard today too.. well not really hard..strenuous..Im

clumsy in the morning and I dropped the coffee grounds again..thank

goodness was not hardly anything in it so it didn't make a mess..The

other I had to clean up ..well Dutch eats too fast and too much some

times and he throws up..I know "eww gross" well he did during the

night and I got up to potty once last nite..I don't turn the lights on ..thanks

to Pennys garage over there..well when I got up this morning was still

dark..I turned the kitchen light on ..and going back and forth across the

white floor I have I saw I left tracks..I looked at my front wheels..well

they have grooves in them..the one on the right at one spot on it..well

was NOT the greatest thing to see stuck all over my wheel..and being

spread all over..I had already gone to the bathroom..so Im tracking

this all over the kitchen too~! well I wiped up and I got most of it off

my chair..but I couldn't stay bent over like that for any length of time..

well I got dizzy :-) ok DizzIER.. :-) so Penny, she dug it out and

cleaned it all up for me.. I just have a daily reminder I think that I

am in this chair.. the tube of cream..Penny did finish getting that off

all the stuff down here I couldn't reach.. she laughed at me.. when I

described what happened as I saw all that cream just SHOOT out

and all over everything.. I told her I just sat for a minute . counted to

ten and said "WELL SHIT".. I did.. I couldn't help it :-)

Im posting a bit early..and going to lay it down for the rest of this day..

do you see the date? its almost September.. I told Lori today..well

these days just FLEW by this year..said time flies when your having

fun...well hmmm I didn't see them days very too much.. I sure missed

a lot this year.. oh well Im making it through it..that's the main thing..

its the hardest thing..but well where there is a will there is a way..he

hides on me sometimes..but I find him again.. Thanks for all your

sweet concern..Not to worry.. all is well..just a little extra care time..

I aint done yet are you kidding? nope too much I have to do yet..

and one is saying "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~He Did Work~

I forgot I had these 2 photos of Chris, see? he did help.. I want to

give the kid credit and not make it look like he was the official

ladder holder or something... He had the yard duty. they threw

all the trash just down on the ground, Chris picked it up and you

can see the end of another one of those trailer dumpster trash

thing haulers .. :-) well what ever they are..to put crap in..:-) He

is being supervised as you can see by the 2 boys.. They had

fun watching all the activities out there.. They have so many

windows here all with views of different parts of the yard they love

it..they had windows at the apartment but all they saw was the

parking lot of the apartments next door..Before that they loved

watching that great field they ruined to build those... Now they

have a great time..
See.. Chris is carrying stuff.. That blue truck is Kennys.. Chris has

a black one.. I noticed he had to have a jump start off Kennys the

other day when he was leaving for lunch.. The boys never know

what they are going to see when they look out... specially this

window.. We woke this morning to some bad storms..We were

all asleep, LB was laying in my left arm pit..snoring..that's why I

was awake..yess he snores.. I think he has asthma..he coughs too.

Well there was a BRIGHT flash, and a LOUD BOOM!! he jumped

straight up and by the time he landed he was halfway out of the

bedroom.. :-) he hates storms...Dutch he just hides his head..he

was asleep laying in my other arm pit..good thing I don't stink

hey? they would just find another spot.. :-) I don't stink :-D
Now you see why they like looking out the kitchen window that

faces the back yard.. The birds go right down below to that bowl

we have out there to drink I think one even took a bath in it..:-)

There were more than that out there, but by the time I went and

got the camera ..well only 3 were left..I thought was cute tho..

Theyre little sparrows..We had a morning dove out there the

other day and theres a squirrel that lives out there..we have a

regular nature preserve going on.. I keep forgetting to ask

Donnie about my cement birdbath that they had of mine.. Its

really old..my mom got it when my nephew was 9 months old,

he was born in 1957.. and its still like brand new..well its made

out of cement.. I wish I knew where it was.. It would look so nice

out there.. IF the grass was cut... Those stepping stones out

there would be perfect for it to sit on.. Kenny, Donnies ex land

lord may still have it.. I wish cuz I would ask for it back! ..

I bumped my arm twice yesterday and once during the night.. It

is so sore today..and just hurts no matter which way I put it.. up

down sideways.. it just plain hurts.. If its not better by Tuesday, I

think I have waited long enough for the antibiotics to start showing

some affects I would think.. So Im going to give her a call and up

date her and see what she thinks.. I cannot take ANY chances

with this..specially since my fingertips were dark already from the

bad circulation..and now with this..well it cant help it, I wouldn't

think.. I cant lose this arm too.. I don't know what I would do.. I

think about it though I'll be honest, well hell, I have NO choice but

to ..NOW... Im going to try to be more protective of it and not use

it as much.. I do notice if I type a lot that doing that will make it

ache a little more.. Always something boy.. never fails....

I am glad that I got 4 tubes of that cream for this rash..and 3

guesses why? well.. I have already gone through ONE tube of it..

and you get 3 guesses on how I did THAT so fast.. Guess?? :-)

Well.. I knocked the tube off my desk.. and I didn't notice it fell..

ahead of me?? Do you know what happens to a closed tube if

you roll over it with a wheel chair tire? it squishes OPEN and

just squirts all over!!! yup.. I made a nice mess for myself..do

you know how fun THAT was to clean up? I didn't do it all, I just

couldn't.. I gave out , but I got a lot of it up...it really made a

mess.. I wasn't in the mood for cleaning that but I had no choice.

Leave it to me... GORGEOUS WEEBLES just do some of the

MOST usless and work causing things!! :-D
I didn't take a new photo for today as I am not really GORGEOUS

today..well I am- but not enough for a photo..I know I put one here

like this back in June, when I took this, but I am pretty sure was a

different pose.. I think.. if its a repeat? well ..write and I will find

another one and send it to you.. Ive been tired all day too.. I tried

to take my blood pressure and its just a no go..all it keeps saying

is EE..meaning error..I will call the Dr. tomorrow and tell her its

broke and I need another one to monitor it better.. I know its got

to be above 170 cuz it pumps up to there.. so.. I don't know.. It

sure gets discouraging tho.. One of these days..by law of averages,

I HAVE to have it GOOD.. at least that's what they say..

I was too tired and lazy to cook today so Im just going to fix a can

of soup or maybe my favorite PB&J..wish I had a banana..sure would

make it a lot better.. Time to get out of this chair and rest and see

how much TV I can watch.. Thanks for all your loving concern..sure

makes me feel better to know Im not going thru all this by myself..You

are all so deeply appreciated.. thank you for being my friends.. I could

NOT do this alone..trust me.. " Nitey Nite".. :-)

Y'alll have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and thanks !!!! :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....