~Every Day I'm Better~ :-)

Every day I'm feeling a little better and I am glad. I was

so tired of laying down all the time. It does get old. Well,

specially if you can really only lay one way in any kind of

comfort. For me on my back, and im finding the flatter I

can lay the better. I can't really lay real flat as I have a

hiatial hernia which means no laying real flat for any

length of time.. Mine gives me fits a lot of times. Even

if I drink liquids that are too cold, I did that once in a

store on a hot day, I ran in to get a Pepsi and I opened

it, took a big gulp and immediately started to choke. The

only thing that helps is to just relax and it will go down ..I

bet I coughed and gagged and choked what, to me, was

like forever, but it did stop. Its a scarey feeling though. I

learned not to drink ICE COLD stuff, well not if I don't wanna

choke and make a fool out of myself anyway..

I made some rice today and put the sauce that Penny

made over it and it sure was good..sort of like a Spanish

rice.. she did really good on that sauce, Shes a very good

cook..We had planned on her making a meat loaf for me,

as that is one of my very best favorites next to fries and

gravy. My ex mother in law would ask us what we wanted

her to fix for our birthday dinner that she had for each of

us on our days, and of course mine was meat loaf and

poppy seed cake. She made THE very best, and what

was great we each got to take home the leftovers.. I made

sure that everyone only got a sliver of a piece of cake too.
I wanted the rest to take home~! :-)

I stayed up too long yesterday and when I did finally go back

to bed I was over tired and was so restless I just couldn't

fall asleep, I havent been waking up every 3 or 4 hours tho

like I was before.. I hate when I do that. But then too I havent

been really eating or drinking as much as I did before all

this flu mess.. There are a lot around here that are sick with

this stuff, I know I sure wouldn't wanna get it back that's for

sure.. I had my share..

ITs a gloomy dark rainy day and cold too. The guy across

the street has an old cutlass over there that hes working on

and I swear sounds like a jet taking off its so loud..The body

on it is wonderful..its an older one but I don't know what year.
I would say 70's..He has lots of older cars over there that I

think he buys and fixes up then sells them..he never has them

there for long I notice..He started that up at 7:30 this morning

and we were NOT prepared to hear that car start up and I
mean scared all 3 of us.. I jumped..good thing I was already

up, and both the cats ran! :-) scaredy cats they are...

This isnt real long- its early again..but I cant help it.. I want

to watch TV and maybe later come back on again..Do this up

and down in short shifts- then maybe they will work out in

to one longer one.Wasn't a good idea to start out with one long

one. But I hope I can get back again later before today is over,

then I can keep up on my inbox, and get some replys sent ..

Thanks for all the get well wishes and good suggestions for

feeling better, I need all I can get..Its greatly appreciated :-)

Time for my famous GORGEOUS weeble words again ...

"nitey nite " :-D

Y'all have a good one, Now Y'hear? love ya! and thanks..:-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Feelin' Better~ :-)

I do feel better today, and I have eaten a little more. I cant

say that I feel 100% I don't, but I don't feel as bad as I did

yesterday, so I am improving, and needless to say, I am

very glad, I am so tired of being sick! I don't think any one

likes being sick though. I know from laying so much, my

tail bone is getting a tad raw, I have some excellent stuff
I used to use when I was in the Hellhome, and I have only

used it very sparingly and was just about out. I asked my

Dr about it when I went and they called the pharmacy but

they had never heard of it.

When Lori came from Keystone I was telling her how mine

was running out and how good it is..and smells great..like

cloves..and its like a blue gel.. I told her I got it from the hell

home. She said how her mother has trouble sometimes

getting raw spots and that they had not found anything that

really works, so I told her that I bet this stuff would really help

her..When she left she came back a few minutes later, and

handed me a new tube of it..she had gone to the hellhome

and got 2 tubes of it..and was only about $3.50 for this huge

tube.. This stuff works so great its amazing.. It stops the

pain instantly almost and its a protectorant against wetness,
it almost heals overnight its that good.. I highly recommend

it..But I did not see it online either..Which as good as this

stuff is..you would think it would be out there..and I could not

find it anywhere..I was glad the hellhome still had it and that

they would sell it.. When I called over there about it ..I had

to laugh as I had to talk to Heather,, and would you believe

she remembered me ? :-) but then HOW could she possibly

forget me. I bet they still talk about me to this day over-
there, I aint easy to forget let me tell ya, not too many
like me, ain't ya glad?? :-D

Penny got us all squeaky clean, she does a really good job.

She stays steady busy while she is here and of course the

boys love when shes here, they get so sick of looking at me.
Only time they get upset is when she uses the Beast, the

big vacuum then LB wont come out and Dutch ignores her

when he finally comes back out..They do NOT like that thing

at all..but it is noisey...I had to call the garbage company

again today about the garbage can lid being jammed down

in the garbage can again..This is the 4 or 5th time I have

told them about this...and this time Penny said they had the

lid so crammed down in there that she could hardly get it

out..It had been like this since Wednesday when they pick

up the trash and I explained I had no way out there to fix it

myself and I didn't understand why they could not pick up the

lid, take out the bag and put the lid back on! they just cant

seem to do it..so I called and told them AGAIN! so lets see

next week what they do. For their sake I hope they can get

it right.. I hate when I have to keep calling about people

not doing a good job..and they sure arent..

Penny went and got us some cini-minis from McD's..and I

have to say they were really good! I even had some coffee

today..didn't stay with me long but it was good while it

lasted lol... I am posting early again as I am wearing down,

I have been up longer today than I have in 4 days now ..and

I don't wanna overdo cuz I sure don't want this stuff back..I

havent been this sick in a long time.. Penny made some good

Spaghetti sauce for me and hopefully later I will feel like

making some angel hair pasta and eating some..if not I can

have it tomorrow. I love spaghetti. Its my next best fav to

Fries N Gravy :-)

Well this partly sick GEORGEOUS weeble has got to go and

lay it down, I have got to rest for a while. I appreciate all the

get well wishes and the tender loving concern..means a lot to

me that you care. But its that time to say "Nitey Nite".. :-)

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? Love ya, and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Im Tryin~

I am very seriously trying to feel better but not doing

a very good job. I got up early this morning and hoped

I would feel better..As the morning wore on I could feel

my self fading and longing to go back to my bed. I did

stay up for a while and did get my inbox cleared out

and said hello to some friends...but I had to go back

and lay it down.. I have been taking my pills so I had

to eat something before I do, the one pill says to take

with food.. I had some left over mashed potatoes so

I had that and then went to find my bed again..

My boy called last nite, said my phone rang 7 times

before I answered it and it was right next to me. I

must have been in a sound sleep, I did have the TV

on though..and the ring is not very loud on my phone.

He said if I hadnt answered he was prepared to come

over here to check on me.. Hes such a good kid.. He

did go back to work..but a desk job so to speak..hes

not up and walking around a lot.. Hes been back to

the Dr and the graft doesn't seem to be sticking like

it should so they are keeping a close eye on it..

I noticed since I have been in bed so much these

past few days how badly my right stump aches..It

goes into this sleep as I call it..and it really does

ache.. I wish I had a better mattress I think that is

the real problem.. Ive tried laying on my side but

that gets uncomfortable since my left stump is

bigger and heavier and puts more weight on my hip

and that makes my hip ache.. I have more problems

it seems :-) I will be glad though when I don't have

to spend so much time in there..

My boys have enjoyed mom being in bed so much

though since that's all they do themselves is sleep.

LB whines and meows and even brings his girl

friend up on the bed with us.. Dutch hes a day sleeper

and prowls quite a bit at nite.. He still chases shadows.


I Had an appoint ment today with THeresa from CMH

and I canceled it as I didn't want to give this to her and

then she take it home to her family.. I think that's how

all this stuff spreads so badly... I know I have heard

from many that there are a lot of people sick with this.

Some have ended up in hospital..and as badly as I

feel I can understand why...

I want to thank you all again for the get well wishes ..I

am trying VERY hard to do just that. But I really do

appreciate your TLC.. means a lot to me.. Its time to

head back to my bed again..Hopefully tomorrow will

be a better day.. "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..And thanks!

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I Was Up For A Few~

I made it up for a little while..I still am not well at all.. I did stay

awake while Penny was here which surprised me as I havent

stayed awake that long in 2 days now.. I have no idea what it

is. I think it is just a flu..I got a serious chill when I went to the

Dr as it was cold out..and there have been quite a few

people here as well.. so there is no telling what I have been

exposed to.. But this is the sickest I have been in awhile and

needless to say I don't like it a bit.. :-(

I got the risers delivered today, I was glad UPS delivered

them while Penny was here as the just left the box out on the

porch .. I got them for my bed..but if I can get my new bed

I will use them for my couch so that I can sit on that.. I have

THE most comfy one ever..Its old but to look at it or sit on

it you would never believe its 40 years old..Was my mom

and dads..When Stanley comes the first thing he does is

lay down on that couch and go instantly asleep and tells

me every time how comfortable it is..its 8 feet long and

he can stretch out totally..to look at it ..you would never

know how old it is.. I miss sitting on it..and many many

times I have slept on it..

I did eat a little today when Penny came.. I told her these

trips to the potty are just awful..so I have been afraid

to eat anything to make me have to make even more

trips in there.. But I did eat some mashed potatoes and

gravy and she got me my favorite ICEE..I love those things

and it sure tasted good.. I just have NO appetite at all

and I know I need to eat or I will get weaker, then pulling

this body of mine into this chair a dozen times I have to

keep that strength up, Ive not had anything since sunday.

My boys have been sticking to me like glue..LB makes

sure he has his favorite spot between my stumps and if

the boy tries to lay down there he makes him move real

fast..Dutch has been sleeping on my chest right under

my chin..They got into a serious fight to day and would

not stop..Penny noticed the clumps of hair in the living

room so she knew they were fighting.. THey fight horrible

make each other scream..and then are all licks and pets

on each other ..Kids..:-)

I am headed back to my bed..and again sorry for the

early post but I have to do this while I am up and "on

my feet" so to speak.. My right stump in all of this has been

a real buggar ..aching and sleeping as much as me..It

has woke me up a few times even its bothering me so

bad.. I go to the vascular Dr on the 3rd so I will be asking

some questions..this just doesn't seem that it should be

like this..Anyway..

Thank you so much for all the get well wishes and offers

to come and help me.. I sure wish you could and I deeply

appreciate your loving concern..it makes me feel better,

it really does to know you care.. thank you..Time for

this Sickly GORGEOUS Weeble to go back to bed..

"Nitey Nite".

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Not Up and Runnin Yet~

I pulled myself out of bed for the dozenth time and came to

check mail and comments here and I decided I would write

tonites post and post it now while I can.. I got up so many

times last nite at least every 2 to 3 hrs..nausea and other

major malfunctions I wont give details..lol.. I have the chills..

and a fever.. I am almost certain its the flue or some virus

thingie..

Ive been exposed to a lot of people, more than usual lately

coming by and then I went out to the Dr and I know I got a

chill..it was cold out and I didn't wear a warm jacket.. I don't

think its my pills.. I tried taking them a bit ago..and well..was

a waste of time and effort as they didn't stay down.. Ive been

sipping on some tea though, just in small amounts..I don't

need other problems on top of what I already have. :-)

I got a call from the boy and hes doing ok. and gets to go

back to work tomorrow only on light duty.. Hes happy and

sad as he doesn't like the idea of a desk job..he likes to

stay busy...well makes the time go a lot faster if you are.
Id rather be steady going, doing something..the more you

watch the time the slower it goes..

I also got a call that the risers for my bed will be here on

Thursday I hope they will put them under my bed for me..

then again that will be a major job I Have so much stuff

in there that would have to be moved..and I think its

being delivered by UPS so I don't think they will..not part

of their job description..

My up time has run down..and I Have to head back to bed.

THis is early again but once im down , no telling for how

long and I don't want to go back on a promise of writing

every day.. Don't worry ..some bed rest will help..Now

if anyone wants to come and be my nurse..?? well..

that would be most appreciated.. :-) "Nitey,,Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya ..and thanks..

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Not Feelin Good Today~

I woke up at 4 this morning and felt good..Penny got here about

10 ..she had to go and do laundry because of all those towels..
Its not cheap to go to the laundromat at all.. Then about noon..

as Penny was leaving just as Lori from Keystone came by..She

is so nice..and pretty too..a tiny little blonde about the same size

as Penny.. We talked for quite a while..shes going to help me get

some of the things I need, well still need.. Shes doing a good

job.. Penny went to the store for me and restocked my water and

Ice tea.. that's the main thing..

As today wore on..I did take all 6 of my pills today, but by 2:00 I

was deathly ill..I was throwing up and sick as a dog.. I have to

publish this and go to my bed..Im taking my little potty pot with

me and staying there for a while.. Idont know if its the pills or

what..I know my blood pressure is up..its 192/96..kinda high,

but I could tell it is... I think that is why I am so nauseous but

I think maybe it is the pills as well..something is too strong

for me is what it feels like.. When Ive taken medication that

is not right or too strong my shoulders and arms ache..and

I know then something isnt right.. That's why I took my BP.

So I think by going to bed that should stop the nausea..I

did have Penny bring me an Icee..I love those things and

they are t he only things that seem to quench my thirst.. I

hope that isnt a sign of diabetes that is all I would need

now..its something else added to the list..

My stomach is not good and I apologize for this short post

and only about whiney me.. But I just cant sit here and have

to lay it down.. I will be back tomorrow..or later tonite If I

feel better later..but now..well.. I have NO choice or I

will be typing with my forehead again.. see you later!

Always,Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Nuthr New One~ :-)

I took a few new photos for today..I hate the cluttery back

but If I take the photos any other direction the light from

the windows is so bright behind me..So y'all will just have

to suffer with these..theres another at the end of this post..

haha make ya read all the way to the end..no fair just

scrollin either lol.. But I look at my photos..and for my age

and all Ive gone thru even these past 6 months I honestly

don't really look too bad.. And what really surprises me

is that Ive not really changed in looks, Im still GORGEOUS.

lol. I can never take just one..well it may not be right..so I

have to take 6 or 7 or 8 :-) then I can pick which I like the

best and don't look totally bad..I know its not possible

for anything gorgeous to ever look bad..but somedays I

have a bad hair day :-) Some days its so bad I say that

im going to shave my head and wear nothing but wigs,

I dug out some old plates and Im going to hang them

up I think they are so beautiful..I had a couple more but

sadly they got broken in the move and so badly that to

even glue them back together it would look iccky.. I

have had quite a few things get damaged in the move

here. As we undid these boxes and sorted through I had

forgotten so many of these things as they were up so

high in the cupboards or on the top that I didn't get to see

them and had more or less forgotten about them.. I think

though that I am going to get rid of a lot of it .. I don't need

it and no one really wants the family things I have..as

after me..there is no one..other than my sister in Hawaii

and she only has the one son..But I am not leaving the

family things to them..If my cousin Ronnies kids wanted

it then I would give it to them..Theyre carrying on my dads

name..and there are so many on my mothers that I don't

need to worry about the few things I have..I think I would

rather see the antiques and things I have go to a collector

as I think they would really appreciate them more..Im going

to put them all together then the rest of the stuff Im gonna

have a nice big yard sale..

Was a pretty nice day out today I sat well WE , the boy and

I sat and looked out the kitchen window and the lady across

the street and 2 houses down was outside working in her

yard..I could see her doing some rakeing and carrying stuff

she had picked up out of the yard.. So many are working out

in their yards with this nice weather..ITs not real sunny today

but its a good day to be outside.. The people across the

street to the west have 2 labs..one is black and the other is a

golden..I never see them wander even near to that road on

the front or on the side..Ive seen the black one out front but

not anywhere near the road.its such a busy street out there

on both sides...on the far side of that house is where the

water tower is and its in the middle of a huge field.so those

two have a lot of room to run.Ive watched them run and play

the black lab seems older than the gold..I can tell by the

way he walks or he has some kind of leg trouble...

I did NOT cook eggs in the micro today..I did make a really

good steak sandwhich with sauteed onions.. THat was so

good.. I like those thin little steakies..and fried onion ..well

that's a big favorite.. I was going to make some spaghetti

but I didn't have any ground meat in the freezer, so I then

made these sandwhiches.. I can keep them easily as they

are so thin and flat..they don't take up a lot of room.. I love

fried onions on and in anything..I put lots of onion in every

thing I make.. Cuz I like them..I DONT put carrots tho..ick..

These lunches they bring from the COA they have those

darn carrots I bet every other day..or its peas and carrots..

I did eat some fruit cocktail today tho..Was pretty good and

was really cold..I like peaches and pears if they are cold,

cold, cold...

Ive been working on a plan of attack for my kitchen as well

as my bedroom and I don't know which to tackle first.. I am

thinking of finding out if they will just get me a regular size

fridge..with a freezer on the top..Not a big one..no..but at

least then I would have a bigger freezer and be able to

keep stuff..If I get rid of one of my tables..I could do that.

The one the micro is on is smaller than the other one

that you can see behind me in the pictures and its not

really doing anything but sitting there..its a drop leaf they

both are..but the one behind me is wood, and its bigger.

I don't know where I would put it..It was my mothers table.

It has 2 leaves that go in it so it gets quite big..Its got to

be at least 40 or more years old..She had it before I left

home..so its quite old.. but she took such good care of

everything and she bought only the very best..She looked

at read and studied almost as to which was the best buy.

My mother was very frugal..She kept records of every dime

she spent to the penny..But I guess that's what going thru

the depression does to you...She never wasted anything..

I know if I don't go and eat something I will just waste away

to nothing myself ..I know ..NO way that will happen..lol.. Im

not really hungry just tired..I didn't take a nap today and I

just did some cleaning and deleteing stuff I knew I didn't

need on this computer..and that's tiring~!~ lol..Tomorrow

Lori from Keystone will be here about noon or so..Shes so

nice..Time for those words "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good now now Y'hear? luv ya and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Cleaned The Mess~

I got some of the mess cleaned from yesterday, It sure was

NOT easy to wring out all those towels. I bet was at least 12 of

them..Now Penny will have to haul them off to the laundromat

and wash them for me.. I sure hope they replace that floor in

there.. its really bad..and whomever painted in there didn't give

a flip if any paint got on it, and I think that's because they had

every intention of replacing it.. He better..around the toilet is

so awful..this toilet being smaller that linoleum around it is all

pulling up ..there is like a metal stripping that is going around

the base of the tub..its so bad the screws in it are all rusty..

there are nails that are actually sticking up ..Penny had to go

thru there and pound the nails down..she had to do that in the

door facings on the floor too..they sure havent been taking

care of this house.. Im telling Kenny when he comes Monday

I want that floor fixed in that bathroom and if its not Im going

to call CMH and tell them..In fact Lori with Keystone will be

here Monday and I will let her handle that..the floor in there

and these walls in here in the living room AND that window

still in the kitchen that isnt done yet.. This isnt right then

Chris calls and says I owe him over $200.oo for rent..well

he needs to fix stuff THEN I will consider giving it to him..I

take it out of my ickky book every month but I havent given

it to him just for this reason.. I just don't understand why he

didn't get this place done before I moved in since he had

from august to October to do it..plenty of time..I think these

guys go to one place ..do a little bit..then go to another and

never get any of the jobs finished instead of staying at one

till its totally done.. That's how it should be done..finish one

job before the next one...

I had a chat with a friend and we were talking about day

dreams..which I think every one has.. They are just dreams

we have while we are awake..I don't think the day dreams

come true any more than the night dreams do.. But we all

have them..maybe its something we all really need to keep

us striving for more..to make us think of what else is out there

that we dream would be better for us.. I know many times my

day dreams..when I just sit and look at really nothing and let

my mind wander to a place where I have all I need..Im happy,

Im in a house that meets my needs..in a place that Id love for

it to be..where I can see the birds..the water, a place I can

move around..have enough room so I don't bump into every

thing.. A place I can see my self cooking all those good

meals that I used to make, a nice screened in place for the

boys to almost be outside yet not be .. I wonder why tho we

do have these daydreams when we really know in reality

that they will never be-yet every chance that we have-quiet

peaceful time our minds wander to these places, maybe it

is our way of escaping.. I guess we all need something to

really hope for, to wish and dream of times when everything

will be right, easy, and we will be happy, even though we

know they will never be..

Ive advertised for months now for someone to come and visit

and stay with me for a week or so and help me.. Ive not gotten

that first response lol..Geez..what a bunch of lazies.. I was

sure I would hear pounding at my door right away or get at

least one email asking if they could come and help me.. I
havent even seen my KNIGHT! I think seriously someone

has kidnapped him or drugged his horse and they are

wandering around heaven knows where! they SURE have

NOT found me.. I will have to replace this candle I have in my

window that's burning pretty soon or it will catch my beautiful

curtains on fire lol.. :-) I guess I will have to advertise some

where else..Hmmm maybe on EBAY? lol.. Offer a week here,

spending all that time with this GORGEOUS weeble..BUT

they have to help me fix some things..Not hard stuff I could

probly do some of it..just hard to move furniture and someone

stronger and TALLER sure would come in handy..could be

a fun time too~!~ :-)

I said I was gonna start eating a little better, and I made my

self a couple eggs this morning..well Ive not made eggs in

my microwave before..I usually use a frying pan on the

stove..well to get my hot plate up and running I would have

to move a dozen different things..unplug the micro and find

the cord to plug in the hotplate..then reach the frying pan

that's on the bakers rack..and and and..so I just grabbed a

bowl..put 2 eggs in it and put it in the microwave.. if you have

used a microwave and made eggs then you KNOW what

happened yes? Well I NOW have to clean up my micro

wave..those yellow centers of the eggies? well those babies

EXPLODE and make the inside of your micro all ickky/!!!!

Did you know that? I sure didnt!!! and NO ONE told me!!!!

Ive NOT made eggs in a micro before..and I will tell you

what I bet I don't again! I didn't KNOW you had to break the

yolk first or those puppies burst and just go all over..that was

fun.. the inside of my micro wave looked like it was growing

egg !!! and THAT was the start of my going to eat better..sure

increased my appetite hey? made me want some more eggs

real soon :-D.. well I learned.. just the way I usually do..the

HARD way lol..but I sure do LEARN.. :-D...

Ive learned too that when I almost start typin with my fore
head that I need to take a rest or go to bed lol..and If I don't
all you will read from here on will be jibberish..so this eggy
but totally GORGEOUS Weeble is heading over to that bed
and I say it every nite . that im gonna watch TV and never
see nuthin..I woke up with my phone in my left hand, my
clicker in my right, the TV on and LB snugged down between
my stumps and the kid was running back and forth across
my chest felt like I was getting a heart massage, I don't
remember but just laying down.. I musta hit all 9 zillion of
those lights out buttons on my clicker..I wonder if there are
some hidden ones on my phone too..Boy I hope I wasn't
talking to anybody..I don't remember..oh well they'll call
back if I was :-D..read about us crazies here and no wonder
no one wants to take me up on my offer :-D I dunno if I
would either!!! We're a bunch here I tell ya.. Cat in love
with a clock..One that talks.. And a GORGEOUS weeble
that don't know how to cook eggs in a microwave :-D
"Nitey Nite" :-D

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Castrophe Day~

Only one week left in this month.. I dunno but these months

are seeming to be flying by..and I don't know where the

time is going.. Had a major catastrophe today.. The toilet

was leaking..then it stopped up and I had a bathroom floor

full of water.. I called Chris and had told him was leaking ,,

then I flushed it.. and well the whole floor got drenched as

it really started to leak and then overflowed~!!!! I saw that

water start heading toward the heat register and I didn't

know what to do.. That cant be a good thing if that water

runs down there ~!~ And to make matters worse..ya...of

all times for a toilet to act up..well...I have had a horrible

upset stomach the past 2 days, I don't know if its from

the pills or what..but this is NOT a good time for my

potty to break down... So Chris came, not Kenny that

put it in.. I figured something fell down the drain when

they changed it.. or its because like I said last nite its

such a much smaller toilet, I dont use alot of toilet paper,

Im very fussy , I keep those baby wipee things in there

for me..theyre alot better for you and keep you cleaner,

so I was surprised when chris said it was clogged up..

I know it was leaking from around the connector at the

tank before all this.. That bowl filled up and Im watching

that water run towards that furnace vent..and I mean

all I was imagaining was that light going out on that gas

furnace and the gas leaking and this place being blown

sky high... Talk about Drama..

I called Dawn as Donnie called this afternoon and said

she would be coming by this evening, she answered the

phone and I asked her if she had a plunger and would

she come over..she and Donnie both came right away

and she helped me to clean up the water and the mess

Good thing she brought the plunger cuz Chris sure didn't

bring one.the boys wouldn't go into the bathroom and

wade thru the water so by the time that all was cleaned

up they were about ready to explode just like I was !!!

Then Im sposta avoid stress~~!!!! this is like a story

out of ripleys believe it or not I think ..

Donnie was so glad to be out of the yard as he put it..

He said now he knew how excited the dog was when they

took him off some where. :-) We all talked for a while

and every 3 or 4 minutes Donnie would say, "ok, I'm

ready for a ride before dark, lets go", Dawn and I just

kept on talking .. He kept saying that till Dawn finally

got up and said lets go too and he was ready..He was

tired of looking at the same yard, lake, trees and house

for the past 2 weeks.. Hes not good when he's confined,

and plus being crippled hes not good at that..

THEN to make matters even worse.. I decided I had no

choice to but to break down and balance my ickky book

as I call my checkbook.. I knew better..specially when I

am already stressed out.. but like a big dummy I did ..

Well first I was only 1.00 off ..I thought wow..that's not

too bad! well rat poots.. ya.. I had the little dot in the

wrong spot..move it over 2 spots..100. I looked at it

and I started to laugh and took my ickky book and put

it right back into the drawer and I am NOT looking at

it again until monday..I had enough for one day..this

could wait :-)

So anyway it was exciting day and I didn't get a nap,

and Im tired.. Im not hungry either so Im just gonna

go and watch TV ..I hope this potty is fixed, This is so

tiring :-) something steady falling apart, well as long

as its not me I guess its ok.."Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one, now Y'hear? luv ya and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I Cant Go~ :-(

Today was a pretty good day and I promised myself I would be

nice and try to stay calm and not let things get to me. But that

was not to be, and there was no way I could stop it, and it was

not even my fault. I was feelings were hurt badly today for no

reason..and sadly I cannot do anything about it.. I could..but

I have decided it is not worth the time and energy to do any

thing, that the person was just an insensitive clod, and is not

worth the effort to do anything about it.. I could but I wont..
But I wont go and hear that concert of the Highland Parks

Strings Orchestra in Chicago either.. sad to be denied

acess to a public concert because of personal feelings I

think..and to be lied to that the building was not acessible

and it is VERY much accessible.. not very fair, and by the

general manger of the Orchestra..i feel is discriminaton

against me and thats not very fair...really hurt my feelings..

My poor sister is having the worst time..She bought a lot of

new appliances , stove, fridge, washer, dryer, from Menards

and they are all Maytag..They are only months old and all of

them have fallen apart and Menards wont fix them or let her

return them and Maytag says the same thing.. I can remember

when there used to be an ad on TV about the Maytag repair

man and how he would be there right away to fix their things.

that shows you how things have changed.. She spent all

that money and now they wont do anything for her that's so

sad..and my sister is MAD.. shes worse than me when it

comes to MAD.. we both have horrible tempers..

I called and checked on my boy today and we had some

laughs.. He lives on a lake you know.. and he is SO bored

being stuck at home.. he cant drive is his right leg that was

burnt.. He was telling me the ice is off the lake..so he went

down onto his dock and was going to fish..He took the dog

with him..this is a big Chocolate lab now.. Donnie said..he

was sitting on the dock and he had his crutches laying next

to him and Jerky almost knocked one of them in the water!

He said "gran hes a retriever but I don't think he would have

gotten my crutch back for me, and I woulda been stuck out

there till Dawn came home at 5 oclock!" we laughed.. I

could just see him out there trying to hobble back to the house

on one leg- one crutch..and then try to explain what happened

to his other crutch that it was at the bottom of the lake! hes

so miserable being cooped up in that house.. Good thing

he has a computer..

I woke up and I really felt pretty good these pills seem to be

doing their job..I know its too soon to really tell, but I think the

neurontin..which is really for neuropathy helped.. when I

opened my eyes and saw what time it was..7 am.. I was

glad I had slept so late.. Theresa came about 10:30 from

CMH..shes so nice..and I told her of my 'conflict' this morning

over what was just a simple inquiry as to the accessability

of a building.. and wanting to hear a noted violinist play.

I was very upset when she got here..and of course she knows

my medical history and all of what is going on ..she keeps

tabs kinda ...as she said to just let it go and not let it bother

me or hurt my feelings which it already had.. But I did agree

with her.. I have too many other things that I need to think

about and things that got me upset I desperately need to

avoid.. and I agreed ..The boy wasn't as much of a pest today

and only just laid by her side..usually he pulls stuff out of her

pocket or lays on her paperwork..and is just a pain..I think

she enjoys it tho.. LB just sort of winked at her from over on

his chair of course..

We had violent storms this morning and then the sun came

out and dried up all the rain and the itsy bitsy spider went

up the spout again lol..that's such an old song.. but I think

of it every time it does rain...it turned out to be a really

nice day.. the sun was warm and the boys love to lay in

it and get all heated up...and its hopefully maybe spring.

I look out the windows at the yard and boy..theres a lot of

yard work out there.. I get my power chair in time I could

do it.. At least TRY to do it.. I will need some tools tho..

rake etc..I bet I could do it..just be a slow job lol.. but I

bet I could.. the word is TRY.. :-)

I know this is not my usual LONG drawn out post but I

am really tired and getting upset wears me down even

more.. and I do need to go to bed.. lunch was awful..so

I am gonna eat a cookie..:-) they always make me

feel better :-) "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? love ya. and thanks!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Stump Aches~

Its rainy here today and I don't know if that is the cause or

what but my stumps are actually driving me nuts. They are

hurting so bad. I cant sit comfy, I cant lay comfy, no matter

what I try to do they refuse to give me any relief.. I have no

idea what it is. I hesitate to call my doctor for this since I

have an appointment with the vascular Dr on the 3rd. I can

ask him then, I don't remember a time when they have hurt

me this much with no relief at all. I know the weather has

a lot to do with how they feel but its rained before and I

was not in this much discomfort with them.. I sound like

such a whiney thing these past days I think .. :-) I took one

of the phantom pain pills the Neurontin..says 3 times a

day and will make me drowsey..well I stay drowsey so I

bet this will shut me off like a light switch :-) I should think

about getting a lap top then I would just do most of my

writing in bed ..now that is LAZY lol...but I wouldnt mind

having one as a stand by though just in case something

did happen and I was bed bound for a few says, If I couldnt

get to this computer I think this poor thing would actually

cry :-) I know I WOULD :-D

I can honestly say that the Drs that amputated my legs

offered no details of what to expect or what I would feel

or experience as an amputee, but then I guess they

really wouldn't know as they arent, and could only go by

what their patients tell them.. There are 3 Drs that are

together, the main one that amputated my legs is no

longer with them and they have replaced him with a new

man.. I don't know him at all.. I only know really just one

of the other two..I had to go for a follow up visit and I

was sitting there waiting for the Dr I thought was going

to see me that I had met before..This man walks in and

I looked at him..he asked how I was and I told him..he

asked to see my stump and I looked at him and asked

"who are you?" and he told me he was Dr Jain..one of

the 3 vascular surgeons that took care of me.. I had not

seen him before that I knew of anyway.. He was very

nice but I was surprised since I didn't know him at all.. I
had seen him come into my room and ask a few times

how I was..but I had NO idea who he was , I thought was

just a orderly or something that was just checking on

patients.. I had NO idea he was my Dr until I went to that

office visit..Then I realized I HAD seen him before..We

both laughed about it..but really he should have introduced

him self to me when I was in hospital, so I knew who he

was.

A while back I was having trouble sitting and laying and I

think we decided it was the bed..and perhaps I needed a

new cushion and I know I do need a new bed and I am

wondering if a new cushion might be in order as well.. I

have one of the gel..but I cant use that at all, I sit too long

and to sit on a wrinkle well that just really hurts and gives

me all kinds of grief... I think my brother in law, Stanley has

a friend that can get foam and I may give him a call to see

if he can get a piece for me, I would get it a lot faster and

not have to go thru all the red tape like I usually do.. Im so

glad that Carolyn agreed heartily that I did need a better

bed..she is a very understanding person..I like her a lot

better than the young Dr I saw last time.. Carolyn is not a

Dr Dr she is next to being one..I know she has a lot better

bedside manor than Dr.Johnson.. But shes young too so

perhaps in time she will be more at ease .. shes got to

be no older than 18 ..no she just looks so very young. I

don't think she has been out of college very long..

I dug out my pill container that separates them into days

4 times of the day, I honestly don't like pills I have to take

more than once a day but these new ones and my BP

pills I have to take twice. I forget..and usually by late after

noon lately Im so tired that as soon as I post I go straight

to bed..watch TV and go directly to sleep :-) I'll keep the

container right here on my desk and It will be right in

front of me for a reminder..Lets see if THAT works.. I

wonder if they have some with alarms that ring to let

a person know "HEY! PILL TIME" that's what I need.

I did have a nice surprise to day though.. I did get a new

potty. Lewis and Kenny came by with a new toilet for me.
It seems small and its not up against the wall which Im

not familiar with the do's and don't's of installing pottys.
I would think tho by moving like I do on and off that it not

being supported by the wall it would cause it to wobble

or move when I move on to it.. I am very careful but it

does seem that being up against the wall would be

better.. I am glad though I have this new one..I had to

stay in there before and make sure it quit flushing, if

I didn't sometimes it would run forever.. quite a few times
when I went in there in the morning it was still running

which as expensive as water is , its not a good thing..

Now at least I don't have that worry. They didn't replace

the tub spout tho so Im hoping they will..Neither one of

them mentioned the kitchen window so Im hoping that

wont be long before they put it in.. Probly by the time

our winter is over and I wont need to worry about the

cold air.. :-)

I have some leftovers from lunch that was pretty good to

day for a change and I didn't eat it all at noon..so Im kinda

hungry and I may eat that and have one of those good

soft sugar cookies out there in the kitchen.. The rain has

stopped and Im hoping that I can get comfy and watch

some tv..but then I think that Im gonna watch TV every

nite and don't see nuthin.. I still think its Dutch he steps

on that eyes shut button on my clicker. :-) But I am ready

for a lay down, and time to say "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya, and thanks !

ALways,Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I Went To The Doc~

Well I made the trip to my doctor and it turned out well..was

kind of serious..she is very worried about my health.. It seems

my thryroid, cholesterol..potassium all are extremely bad, One

she said..the normal count is 1 mine was 149..not good. She

is seriously concerned that I am headed for a major melt down,

which is a serious heart attack, and the biggie is I am very close

into going into diabetes which she is very concerned about. So

she upped my thyroid and gave me potassium pills and for the

cholesterol.. I had to promise I would eat better as well.. I told

her how the past 4 or 5 days Ive been right in bed..which she

said "I am NOT surprised, and right now that is the best place

for you".. I told her about my bed..and she heartily agreed that

I do need a hospital bed with a railing and one that will adjust

to my chair.. I explained how hard lately it is for me to lift and

pull backwards..and she was very concerned about the strain

on me, she said she would make all the necessary arrange

ments so I can get a new bed.. I didn't see that new Dr I saw

Carolyn I like her so much ..shes very easy to talk to..and I am

very honest with her.. Poor Penny goes in with me, to help me

remember what all is said lol.. She got very scared and is so

worried now..Shes such a dear tender heart.. I almost wish

she hadnt heard. In 2 months I have to go back for more blood

work to see if things have changed.. My blood pressure was

not bad at all..a little high..but lower than last time..152/101 its

still high but lower lol. well was a lot higher last time ..I got

smart this time though I took my blood pressure pill early this

morning so I knew it would be down..:-)

So anyway.. I feel ok..I admit I am tired..very much so..and I
have been really moody, not too bad..but kinda sorta..:-) I

do that whether my stuff is out of whack anyway .. I think that's

one of the rules of being an amputee..we are allowed our

bad days.. at least that's my excuse :-D works for me :-D

And I don't think honestly there is an amputee that doesn't

have them..for what ever reason. I wish they would come up

with something better to help with the phantoms. I take

neurontin..and honestly it makes no difference when I do or

don't.. I see no change at all.. It does nothing for me. I have

heard of others that do take it and it does help.. I think its

just that we are all so different what works for one does not

mean it will work for someone else. From what I have been

told they wont ever stop..they may lessen a bit..but I have

a friend that has been an amputee over 25 years and she

said her phantoms have never stopped. I sure wish they

would though..Sometimes they hurt so bad it feels like my

foot is being stabbed with an ice pick.

My boy just called.. He had to go to the Dr to get the dressing

changed on his ankle, and where he had the graft..Apparently

he had to go yesterday and the nurse put a dressing on it, he

woke this morning to calls from her telling him she put the

wrong dressing on and he had to remove it immediately. He

looked and was not a pretty site he said..He has staples as

well and I didn't have the heart to tell him how bad they hurt

when they are removed..Sometimes its best not to know.
He is getting very antsy and doesn't like being home.. Its

his right ankle so he cant drive and that upsets him really

bad..If it was his left, I have no doubt he would be out and

about.. I did offer again for him to come spend the day

here with me..Dawn could drop him off..get him out of a

day..but he says the phone steady rings with someone

calling to check on him..hes got a lot of good friends.. I

told him to call me..so I wasn't added to the list of all the

calls he gets and then he can phone when HE has the

time..he will..he knows I worry..

Well anyway, I have my 3 new prescriptions and I also

have my other 2 I take.. so Im set..Penny wouldn't leave

until I had these new ones here. She wont be back until

Friday and shes a tad worried, but I told her I would be

just fine. I have food and my boys so all is ok..and my

puter..so..im good to go... Speaking of going..was a

kinda hetic day and I am tired, so its time to say those

famous words of mine "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? luv ya and thanks:-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~We're Clean~

We are all nice and clean, Penny does such a good job.

The boys were just SO sloppy all week end and just did NOT

pick up after themselves at all..Its so cute when Penny gets

here the boys just are all over her as if to say "YIPPEE, we

are so tired of Mom"...She plays with them which they love, I

should play with them more but to go all thru the house dragging

a string is not that easy to do. They enjoy when I have company

though.. Only thing they really run from is the beast..The big

vacuum sweeper, they both hide. I cant hardly use it at all, it

wears me out totally, its so loud I know why the boys run from

it..it sure does a good job on the carpet.

I havent heard from Chris so I have no idea when he plans to

replace or fix the toilet.. It even rocks..its not stable and I keep

thinking every time I slide on to it that one of these times I may

end up in the basement, well that would be one way to see

what all is still down there though.. I can only peek from the

top of the stairs and only see a small part of the basement, I

havent seen all of it.. I was going to have Penny take a snap

shot of it..so I could see where everything is.. I know when I

moved in that there was water down there..so that is a steady

threat, not only for the wet but the damp smell that was there

before. Its gone now.. I worry about my things down there,

well the material..that worrys me..I have some lovely pieces

in those boxes..

Today is rainy and cold..and I can really feel it.. My right

stump woke me it was aching so bad.. I did my usual body

scan after it woke me up and its so hard to tell sometimes

which is actually aching..the visible or invisible parts.. If I

put my hand over the end..and rub across the end back and

forth sometimes then my brain will know that there is not

anything past there and then the ache will subside.. I had

been laying on my right side, for a different way to lay, on

my back all the time just gets so old..and I think the pressure

of my left stump being bigger and of course heavier is

what makes the right one ache.. I think most of what I feel is

really from my hips.. I notice they ache when I do move or

do my stumpercizes.. I still do those every day ..at least

when I lay down and then again when I wake up..It helps I

think when I do..

I think I may get some veggie plants that grow in pots and

put them on my front porch.. I can get out there and not

worry about the boys escaping If I make sure that outside

door is secure and locked. I think they would have a good

time out there.. I had screens on my windows at the apt.

but I had to take them off as Dutch when he was little

would climb them all the way to the top and hang there,

trying to get the birds..then the screen would come loose

and fall out.. Luckily it fell into the lvingroom not outside.

So I just took the screens off and eliminated the temptation

for the boy..was safer too..I never did need the windows

open as I always had the air conditioner on..

THere isnt an air conditioner here in the house..only a fan

in the ceiling here in the living room..I think I will have no

choice but to get one though.. I just cant take extreme

heat..It takes all the air it seems and I have a hard time

to breathe.. I think just a small window unit here in the

living room or in the bedroom would work fine.. and be

plenty for this little house.. I don't know about the wiring

for one though..and If I start to watch I perhaps can find

a good deal on one.. But the way our summers have been

so horribly hot I am fairly certain that I will have to have

one.. I don't think just a ceiling fan will do the trick..

Tomorrow I have the Dr. Appt. I am very leary as to why

she insists I go IN there to see her.. I sincerely HOPE it is

NOT just for her to tell me the importance of taking my

medications.. I would be very upset..as she could tell me

this over the phone , and not make me go down there and

go thru this hassle of a ride, and every thing else..So I am

sort of apprehensive about that tomorrow.. But I have no

choice but to go..since the Dr. insists..


RIght now I insist on heading to my bed and turning it in..

I didn't see too much last nite but I think my show is on

tonite..Prison Break. I hope they have re runs so I can

see all the ones I slept thru :-) Its that time to say what

I say every night..:"Nitey Nite" :-)

Y"all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya ..and Thanks.

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Some Days ~

Would you believe some days I wake up in a bad mood? :-)
I know, me of all people, but sometimes that happens, that

I do and I don't really know why because I cant put my

finger on any one thing that makes it that way... I think for

today was because I bet I had to get up and go potty 3

times last nite. that sure got old real fast..enough to where
I was tired of fighting to get back into my chair. Its really

not easy.. Then I had to wait, it seemed forever for the

toilet to stop running, jiggling that handle doesn't work,

it does sometimes but then I have to take the lid off to get

it to really stop, which is not easy to do since I have to do

it from the side. I cant while Im sitting on it..as I cant reach

to put it anywhere. I bet ive called Chris 4 times on this at

least and not heard that first word back from him.

I was looking through some old photos of where I was

raised.. My mother kept some old post cards..its so sad

that now the 3 little towns are no longer there, they have

been made into just one now. The main streets of them

are still there, but it sure has changed.. So many things

have.. The town I remember was so alive and full of people,

but then that was when there was work there and jobs for

everyone..The iron ore mines are what kept that area of

the Upper Peninsula alive and everyone had a good life

as they paid so well, now I think there is only one left up

there and its not where I lived..

There used to be the old mining shafts that you could see

all over..very interesting to see.. I can remember many

times hearing of someones yard caving in..or even the

road, and cars not knowing the road was gone drove in

to the pit.. no one was hurt which was very lucky.. But can

you imagine to wake in the middle of the night to feel the

house shaking and look out side and see an enormous

hole in your back yard? So much of the area up there is

all undermined there were so many mines up there. In

a one town there is a mine that is open to the public, and

you can ride in a car on tracks that takes you down into

the mine.. Not for me..I have a thing about closed in

places and tunnels.. I don't do those very well.. The life

and times back then was a good time.. its sad that

things have to change like they do..and sometimes not

for the better.. Its still beautiful country..God's Country

as I call it up there.. I do miss it..

I have been thinking of what I will be able to do with the

yard when the weather finally goes into Spring.. I don't

know if I should try to do a garden or not.. Im hoping that

I wont have trouble finding someone to come and cut

the grass .. from what Ive been told the city frowns on

yards not being kept up..and if the grass gets too long

they will give you a ticket..just like they will if you don't keep

the sidewalk cleared in front of your house.. I don't know

if the snow remover guy Robert does yard work. I can

just see me out there with a riding mower lol.. If I drive

that as badly as I do or have ..my power chair I could be

in trouble, since there are trees out there :-) I know if I

got out of control and cut all the neighbors yards I bet

they would be pleased..:-)

I phoned the boy, hes doing good..very restless, he still

is house bound but knowing him he will think of a way to

get out.. He can drive..its his left ankle.. but there really is

not a lot you can do on crutches, his house is a tri level

and that is giving him problems, I told him I know what its

like..and had to remind him of how long I had gone with just

one leg before I lost the other..so he knows I know what hes

going thru.. He said.."Gran, Im having such a hard time with

just this one not being able to use it.. HOW do you do so

well not having any?, this sure isnt easy" I told him I just do

what I can..and try..Donnie knows better than anyone how

hard I do try to do stuff.. he yells at me a lot and says to call

him to fix stuff..but hes finding out, how hard it is to steady

ask for help.. its not easy..specially when you are used to

doing for your self, hes so lucky to have Dawn .. she takes

wonderful care of him.. Shes a doll..

Well today has gone by slowly I took a desk rest earlier and

I sure needed it...but I still am tired and ready to go back to

bed and watch TV . I did see the whole TV show of Cops

last nite I was glad.. Not often I see a whole program :-)

I wonder if I will make it through another one tonite.. I know

I did NOT drink ONE Thing so I better not have to get up

a zillion times tonite..at least I hope so..but its that time

again like every nite to say "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

Ps.. The photo is one I took last week, my cam isnt working

right, I took about 4 different ones..good thing I didnt delete

them like I have most of my photos..Its just a different pose

of this GORGEOUS WEEBLE.

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I Was Green~

Today is St.Pattys, Day and I don't even have green on. I

think earlier I did when my face turned that color when my

stomach got horribly upset..does that count? :-) I don't know

what I ate or did, but something really upset the applecart

so to speak, and what did, I have NO idea. Didn't last long,

but I hate when that happens. Dutch is notorious for that.

Hes so active and if he runs around too much after he eats.

well he pukes! Then of course , mom has to clean it up.. He

will get to playing and the next thing is, I hear him erping

and then I dash off to try to put something down for him to

puke on..well then I scare him cuz Im in a rush to get to him,

he takes off and yes..leaves a trail..I will learn one of these

times to just wait and then go to help him..He doesn't turn

green though, he does his trick and then still goes on his

merry way! LB isnt a erpy cat..hes too mellow and easy

going..he eats sleeps and plays..that's it, he can get wound

up but not after he eats, then he SLEEPS..then plays..

Ive been planning a way to redo my bedroom to move things

around in there to make room so I can put my sewing machine

in there and do some sewing again.. I really miss it.. I have

some wonderful silk material downstairs and I was telling

Penny the longer its down there the more chance it has of

getting ruined. I would like to make something out of it before

it does.. I think she and I could move things, If I use the other

power chair they rented for me I think I can move most of

the stuff myself just pushing it where it needs to go.. The

only thing that I think will give me grief is the bed.. That

carpet is so loose in there that's why I have such a hard time

to roll in my manual chair. I have a path from the door straight

to my bed, and that's about all the rolling I do.The closet has

my summer things in it so I have no need to get to it..Im glad of

that. But I would like to have a spot to be able to sew again..If

I don't make a spot in there the only other place would be the

bathroom, its big bathroom, and a bare floor..might be better.

That chair around my potty has turned out more than once

to be a real lifesaver..Ive been using my old manual chair,

its so broken in and loose from having it for 6 years that

it rolls easier than the new manual I got last year..I

was using the new one..but since I moved in here with this

carpet the new one was hard to use.. I got into this old one

and it moves a lot easier..the brake on the right side is very

loose.. When I lock it down I still have to hold it down or it

will unlock.. I didn't realize this until I was going to move on

to the potty chair.. As I was going to go across I reached

out to grab the arm rest and just as I got hold of it..the brake

gave out and my chair moved backwards.. If I had NOT had

that arm of the potty chair to hold onto I would have hit the

floor. I am really glad they finally put that in there for me, I

feel so much safer, specially moving on and off there now.

Donnie is doing good. Hes not the happiest camper..but I

think hes doing better than we thought he would being so

confined and limited. I know the joys of crutches.. I tried

them many times..they let me keep a pair of them while I

was in the Hellhome, in my room. I did use them off and on

it was good exercise for me and my remaining leg. I did

use a chair too, but when I used the crutches and started

down the hall I had to make sure there was no one or

anything in the way.. I was not the best at using them. If

I went past something, not having any depth perception

I would either be too close to it..or the crutch would hit it,

and many times I came close to hitting the floor. A couple

times I was glad there was someone sitting in the hall

as I almost would end up sitting with them!

When it was mealtime..there was almost a parade of us

as we all made our way to the dining room..Each of the

aides would take the slower ones first..Some of those

dearies were NOT the fastest on wheels and if 2 or 3 of

them got in a line it seemed to take for ever to get to the

dining room..Many times.. I helped some of them to roll

their chairs.. I would pull up behind them ..ask if they

were ready to ROLL..specially my friend Ceola. I think

sometimes she waited for me to help her.. She would

tell me "come on Lois..lets get rollin" and lift her feet

and put her hands on her wheels..she did help.. I would

put my chair behind and push her with mine..we did

some good fast rollin in there let me tell ya.. She and

I got teased a lot of times, we looked as if our chairs

were stuck together. Ceola would laugh, she was my

very best friend in there, she was a love.. she passed

away 2 months after I escaped..

Many times I get so mad..things I run into or get stuck

and takes for ever for the front wheel to move so I

can move..and I will sit and almost YELL.." I HATE
THIS CHAIR"..then I sit and shake my head and know

I don't hate this chair at all.. I am so grateful to have it..

I think honestly what I HATE..is that I Have NO choice

but to be in it..That's what I really hate. . so much has

changed..when I look back to the life I had before , 7

years ago before all this.. The total turn around, that its

like it was not even me back then, it was someone else.

And really I guess it wasnt..Im still me.. but now Im just

a GORGEOUS WEEBLE.. :-)

Its that time again..and I am really going to TRY to

watch some TV.. I say that every evening.. and I

never make it.. I liked the summer reruns..cuz then I

get to see the parts of shows I slept thru :-) Time

for my daily banana..and hopefully show time.. but

its time now to say "Nitey Nite"...

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~What To Write~

Can you believe it I just have NO idea what to write about

today.. My mind is a total blank..well, no ..Im sitting here

thinking how tired I am and its only 430 and when I post

this at 5 which ive been trying to do..and I go to bed by

6 or so, depending on how many replys I have to send in

email..which lately havent been that many. I don't really

email as much as I used to, but I only get mail from a

certain few..and then not but maybe once a week if that.

I enjoy email though.. I use that Incredimail program, I

like it.. I did learn the hard way on that like I did my other

stuff on this computer .. NEVER upgrade ..I found out

real fast.. I upgraded my Windows Media..and I had to

do a total systems restore to get my Incredimail back.

and with out that ..well I would be most upset..Its a fun

thing.. all you can do with it.. and it keeps me out of a lot

of trouble too..I really don't get into trouble though not very

much anyway lol..

I had been thinking of my cousin June up North and the

family still up there. I have a cousin Ronnie, that well hes

been a favorite cousin of mine since I was a little girl. Hes

so handsome..always was .. and the sweetest man. Hes

like a bigger version of my dad. His father was my dad's

brother Richard. Ronnie has always been an out doors guy,

he worked for the county and plowed roads in the winter

and did the cutting on the sides of the roads during the

summers..He and my dad went hunting a lot or fishing.
Ronnie built a log cabin up on a hill overlooking a lake..

and built a bunk house and all the other buildings himself.
He cut the trees and took them to his father in laws saw

mill and built his cabin..The lake..Cable Lake..is a trophy

lake.. which means you can only take HUGE fish..over a

certain size ..they do that so the smaller ones can grow to

be huge and then when you are lucky to catch one you know

its going to be a huge fish..mainly Northern Pike..Like the

one I caught only even bigger than that..They get big. Many

times Ronnie has had to cut trees or plow the road to get

to his cabin..very few live on this lake as most of it is privately

owned. Its a wonderful place, very remote..

I wonder sometimes since I became an amputee about how

I would swim, if I would sink like a rock.. I was a very good

swimmer before..and I would guess I still would be ..just not

have the 'kick' power I did before and do like I do now..just

use my arms more to keep myself afloat..I know how to do

that and that doesn't take legs..so I would think I could.. be

interesting to find out.. I don't and well wont go to that health

club down the road to use the pool.. I cant do that. If I had a

pool of my own..or knew someone that did have a private

one..but im not going into a public pool..no way..Ive heard

too many ugly stories about that and as easily as I get Crap,

infections etc . no Im not going there..

As sensitive as the scar is on my left stump I wouldn't dare..I

can just look at that thing wrong and it will flare up and get

red and mean looking..so I don't temp fate with these things..

specially my left.. I have never had that first bit of healing

trouble with my right..well yes I did..where they had done a

angio gram and gone in thru my groin..it got infected and I

had to have that cleaned and scraped.. I was in hospital

for that though and I don't remember a lot of it.. That first

year of hell as I call it..in 2000 , I honestly don't remember

a lot and I cant put months or dates on what happened

that year like a lot of stuff in 2001, I remember what did

happen but lots seems like I dreamt it and I wasn't sure if

it was real and did happen.

I know just after my 1st lower amputation..when I had just

had it done.. I woke up in the middle of the night..and

I had to potty..well I looked around for the nurse..saw the

door to the bathroom and got up and hit the floor..I woke

up and had, I guess just forgotten that that right leg was gone.

but its like now..I still feel them, I know where my feet are all

the time..most of the time they feel cramped and just plain

hurt..well not plain .but HURT lol..and ache..sometimes my

toes, I can feel each one and they each hurt and feel so tight

and cramped that I have to concentrate on them really hard

as that is the only way I can get it thru to my brain, "hey,

the toes are really GONE!"

Donnie is doing ok..not a happy camper. I knew he would

not be. I called and checked on him tonite and he was in

the tub..hes so active and this is hard on him to sit still..I

think he has his computer up and running so he may get

on line for something to do..and too he has the dog and the

cat to keep him company while Dawn is at work, when she

gets home she just baby's him..but hes a good guy and he

deserves it..I hate to see him hurt..but I guess all moms are

that way..I had to yell at the boys here today for the stuff

they were getting into and Dutch tore down the curtain here

on the window by the couch.. I hate when I have to yell at

them I feel so bad and guilty..makes me just wanna take

them off so it wont happen again..thats why I sleep with the

light on now ..just to stop his shadow chasing and its working

good. I get to sleep for longer lengths of time..and the light

on doesnt bother me at all, im used to it..when Im tired my

eyes close so I dont know its on :-) Im off so is it :-)

I said at the beginning I didn't know what to write and well

I think I found something as this is the seventh paragraph :-)

I can go to so many different thoughts in such a short time

that then when I try to remember what the very first one is.

I don't remember! I hate when that happens :-) well I know

what I have to write now..cuz I need some of that chili that

Penny made for me today and then Im gonna TRY and

watch some TV ..I say that EVERY nite and never get to

see a whole program :-) but I do know what to write now,

and that's "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now , Y'hear? love ya ..and thanks. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~It Got Us AGAIN~

We woke to a nice surprise today, when I went to bed last nite

was not one bit of snow on the ground..This morning we are

covered again..It must have snowed all night.. Was really

pretty out though . all sparkly and clean looking.When I roll up

to my desk in the morning he makes a B-line to the window

and will almost tear the blind off waiting for me to pull it up so

he can see out. The birds were out there in force too, all over

digging up that bread they knew was there yesterday..Dutch

had the best time watching them and I think they enjoyed

provoking him and flying past the window so he could just

about reach out and grab them..

There were squirrels out there too this morning and between

this side window and the one behind the couch he ran himself

to totally tired and had to take a nap.. You can see the little bird

down there and if you could see Dutch as he is watching this

his tail would be going back and forth just twitching madly..When

LB sees and hears him he comes running to see what the boy

is looking at.. By the time I get my cam booted up LB is gone,

He looks for awhile but then goes wandering off to other things

like looking for his girl friend or doing a few circles before he

curls up over on the recliner.. But they both enjoy looking out

side..and this being such an active area they have a good time.

I think the birds and squirrels know the boys cant get at them,

and then almost taunt them as if to say "neener neener" :-)

I wish that screen was off that window but Lewis hasnt taken

it off like he said he would.. I did call today to Chris to find out

when he would be here to do the things needed in the bath

room and to replace the kitchen window. The screen on it is

what causes the tiny squares that can be seen or the wavy

lines.. but it was pretty out there and by this afternoon most of

the snow had melted.. We were not expecting this..not till

next week..isnt that little bush there pretty, all snow covered.

I did manage to get a photo of LB on the bench, isnt he a big

boy? so pretty and soft, I think hes angora, He very seldom

sits still long enough for me to take photos of him.. I did get

a few of him and the boy fighting up here that I may put here

tomorrow.. kids..what would I do without these two? cry a lot

I bet, and just be really lonely... :-)

I didn't get a call from my boy last nite so naturally I phoned

first thing this morning to find out what happened.. I sort of

knew that by the time they got home neither would feel like

making a ton of phone calls to all of us to let us know how

he was.. Apparently the surgery was more involved than was

first thought.. There was severe damage to muscle and nerves

in Donnies ankle..they had to take a patch of skin from his

thigh..They put a cast on him up to his knee and he is NOT

to put any weight, climb stairs..and has to be off work till the

26th.. needless to say my boy is not a happy camper.. He

hates the crutches..as they just are so hard on your arm pits.

I remember that since I tried to use them when I was a sak,

and everyone ran when they saw me come by.. He does

not like being still, I know this will be very hard on him..I did

offer him one of my chairs.. I know his insurance would provide

one for him but I could get my other manual to him faster, as

Dawn could come and get it. I even offered him my potty/shower

chair..he refused that one lol.. but well if it saves him from doing

stairs..he may reconsider.. I asked him if he wanted to come

over here during the day since this house is ok for a chair or

crutches..of course would mean having to put up with me..but

we have always gotten along.. we have the same temperament.

I think that's how you spell it..we understand each other..

I had a wonderful surprise phone call last nite..I was so happy to

get it.. Was from my very best favorite cousin..well one of them..

June.. My Grandpa's brother's daughter.. She and I have always

been very close..and kept in touch.. The past months since I have

moved and all, she got cards she sent to me returned, which I

don't understand since I had a hold and then a change of addy put

on my mail..anyway..she is 88 years old..and still lives by herself

does most of her own housework..shes an amazing lady..She is

the one I used to go to her house every Wednesday and do her

ironing to get spending money for Saturdays-she was a beautician

and also gave piano lessons, that to this day I regret not taking.

I would give anything to be able to play two hands.. She also was

the choir director and would pick me up every Wednesday nite

on the way to choir practice..I sang alto of course..

We talked for over an hour..and she confirmed the fact that we do

have cousins in the UK still in Cambourne..she is sending me

their addresses, in case I am fortunate enough to get to go over

there for a visit to meet them and some of the dear friends I have

over there as well..I am so anxious to find out if they have puters,

then we could get in touch now.. I would really enjoy that. I told

her of the man that had done a check on my grandfather (her

uncle) and that a friend of mine in the UK saw it when she was

doing a check on my family and he got in touch with her and

she informed me..when I gave her the man's name..she knew

him and told me where he lived..out by my cousins he grew up

with.. small world..computers are so wonderful..she was so

surprised at that too ..well she is not familiar with computers

at all and what they are capable of.. makes this huge world very

small ..

Talking about small this post is NOT lol..so I am going to end

this post for today, head to the TV see what I can watch .. I

have NOT done good on that all week..but well when your eyes

slam shut ..not a whole lot you can do except sleep, so that

means sayin..."Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and Thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..