~Knives~

I was going thru some of my stuff as usual and came across
my little knife collection.. I have some more but couldn't find
them.. These 4 were my dads.. I have another one of his that
the outer part came off..My dad always carried a little knife..
The one he took fishing is the ivory one on the top..his fav
that he carried most of the time is the 2nd one from the top..
They all need to be cleaned really bad and the blades too..
My favorite of my collection is the next one..its brass and
very old
That's the backside of the knife..and the date says 1913. I think
this knife belonged to my ex's grandfather, I cant be sure..when
he packed my things he over looked a lot of things that were his,
but he kept a lot that were mine so I am glad I have this..not
counting the fact I think this knife is beautiful..that's a bull with
one of those Fez hats I think theyre called.. Interesting hey?
Its so pretty and the front says Ismailia Patrol, A.A.O.N.M.S.
Raife and I looked it up online and it was very interesting to read
about it.. I never did follow up even more to see just what this
knife is for..Probly a reward or something I would guess.. I really
should keep digging since its as old as it is.. The camera doesn't
do it justice either..Its very shiney but the blade needs to be
cleaned really bad..

Now, I promised an update on my hands too..so ..you see me
holding the knife..The rash is better..It will seem to be almost gone
some days and then other days it seems to be red again ..like
you see today...But it is better..the left is too I think its below..
This left hand is like the right ..at times it looks almost gone..then
like now..its red..its better and I am sure glad.. And here my
appointment for them is the 5th.. Should I go or not? They stall
people this long I bet they lose a lot of patients , yes? :-) I don't
think I really need to go now..but maybe I should just to find out
exactly what it is.. Bet he doesn't know either tho..oh well..
Now, look in the middle ..see that arrow? its pointing at a ROSE
BUD!!! This rose and the one on the other side are coming in so
nice..And you can see by that bud im gonna be rosey pretty soon
here.. I love roses.. I was taking the picture of that squirrel when I
looked again and saw that rose bud.. I was so pleased..everything
is just growing and blooming so good.. I enjoy it even if I cant get
out there .. I am gonna risk it one day and hopefully Penny can
handle my chair pushing it back up that ramp out front..I tried before
to do it alone and its just too hard.. I would stroke out by the time I
got to the top..The ramp is too steep and every time I moved my
hands to get another grip on my wheel I would roll backwards..Its
like trying to stop on a hill and then go.. has to be just right or you
roll back... Its not easy. I will give it a try tho.. Im not used to my
power chair or I would try taking it outside.. I always use my manual
which I should give my power chair more use..I just can maneuver
so much better and faster than I can in that power chair.. I was
ground level it would be totally different.. Anyway I have flowers :-)


Today went fast.. a friend sent me a site to where you can put jigsaw
puzzles together and LORD~~!!! I LOVE those things.. I cant put one
together now with these cats.. I tried and LB is worse than Dutch when
it comes to puzzles.. He gets right in the middle and lays and rolls
and scoots around till all the pieces are on the floor.. So I went to that
site took me 20 minutes to put that thing together but I had fun.. I am
going right back there too after I post this..If you want the URL let me
know and I can post it in the comments or send it to you in email..its
fun and its easy.. So Im off to play a game.. not before I write my
GORGEOUS WEEBLE " nitey nite".. :-)


Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and THANKS!!! :-)
Always, Lois ****


God Bless you, is my prayer today,
I'm so honored to call you "friend";
I pray the Lord will keep you safe,
Until I write again.....

~Meet My Brothers~

I would like you to meet my 2 brothers..They are gonna spit if

they saw this..well its MY photo and MY blog..so I can do what I

want .. yes?? On the left..in the red shirt we have my oldest

brother Kenny..He is the 2nd oldest..MaryJane was the oldest

of the 6 of us..she passed away 3 yrs ago on my birthday..Kenny

was never adopted like the rest of us were..he was sent to one

foster home after another..He had it really rough..He knew our

mother though as she found him or he found her I don't know.

but from what I can gather he and our mother were very close..

She lived in Milwaukee and he lived in Racine..very close..I

got a call a few months ago and Kenny is starting to have some

trouble with his legs.. He had to have a bypass..which I remember

quite well having my self.. Worries me.. Hes a strong active man

and is doing quite well..Hes retired now and lives only a few

miles from my sister and my other brother up there on the right,

that's Frank...

Frank is a year older than me.. He and Kenny and my sister

Shirley all live with in a few miles of each other but sadly they

don't see each other very often...which is sad..we need our

family.. I try to stay in touch with them as often as I can.. Frank

drives semi, has 3 grown children and I think probly about 12

grands by now..His daughter Punky blessed him with 7 or 8

grands I think..Frank is a diabetic..like Shirley..Im not, neither

is Kenny hes like me with PVD..I think they look a lot alike

and I think my sister Shirley looks like them.. I don't know WHO

I look like although Ive been told I do look like our mother but

Kenny said our sister Rose that also passed away is the one

that most resembled her...But those are my 2 brothers..good

men..stinkers at times..but good guys..
I was sitting here yesterday after I posted the blog and I hear this

mower..I look out to see who it was and it was Robert coming to

cut the grass.. I was so glad..it was really getting long! was looking

really shabby..He rides on his mower then goes around the edges

with lawnmower and does the edges..He uses a weed whacker

to trim around the trees and poles..
He had a guy help him yesterday I didn't see him come with him ..

but after I looked at this photo I think it might be the guy that lives

next door on the east side..<>

blow the grass off the sidewalk and I know Robert doesn't have

one.. He had been sick and went to hospital with food poisoning.

said he got it from subway up on main street..yet his wife ate the

same thing and nothing happened so I think maybe it was some

thing else.. I was glad he was better so he could fix my yard...
That bowl the squirrel is eagerly eating out of is full of the sun

flower seads that I had Penny pick up for the animals.. The

squirrels LOVE them.. This squirrel is so funny..he will see us

watching him and he will deliberately turn and look right at us,

then run up the end post on the fence and sit there and twitch

his tail at us.. He acts like hes mad cuz we spied on him.. I

know the rabbit came up to try to eat and that squirrel ran him

off.. I don't think the birds like him too well either..the way he

twitched that tail at us he might be a squirrel with an attitude!!!

I sent Penny to the store today to get a new hose and apparently

that's not the problem..Penny said the pipe is bad or something.

it may need replaced..she said when she turns the hose on it

sprays all over where its connected..she thinks something is bad

cuz it did the same thing when the new hose was connected too.

So hopefully when and IF Donnie comes tomorrow to put in my

AC for me I can have him check it..I don't want a water leak cuz

then my water bill will go sky high and then it may leak into the

base ment and I already get water down there I don't need to

add more!.. If Donnie doesn't come tomorrow I will call Chris,

he will probly send little Kenny and he may not know how to fix

it.. Kenny was sposta come and pick up all the branches out

in the yard for me too and he hasnt.. These guys never keep

their word.. But my morning glories are doing great .. I cant

wait for them to go all over that fence..

Now, Im gonna go eat my lunch that I didn't eat before..its fish

today which I do like but this..I dunno but I will check it out..if

Dutch doesn't eat it when I offer him a taste I know then its not

very good.. and I aint eatin it either !..I got up early too and my

butt is telling me to get out of this chair for a while..So..that

means I have to write my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite"!

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Love Comments~ :-)

Ive gotten some nice emails lately commenting about this blog. I hope when you read something I say that you realize its my opinion and how I feel.. Im honest I guess to a fault, I tell it like it is.. I want you to know, those of you that read me, and then leave such interesting comments, I sincerely appreciate that.. If you don't agree with me which some don't, its ok to say that .. We can start a nice discussion in the comments on here ... I wont take offense, as I said we all have opinions and ideas and who really is to say who is right or who's wrong? We all, at least I do, I think about what Im going to say before I say it ... Words can hurt more than a knife.. I know the power of words.. But I appreciate different views.. and ideas..like Momar that always has something so interesting to say.. I still say you should write a book Momar..your very interesting.. And dear Mary.. shes a good egg she is.. such a blessing to me to know every day I will read a few words from her.. Means a lot to me.. Words have power.. Everyone that reads and lets me know I sincerely appreciate it.. Just remember if you have a question, or want to know something..just ask.. Don't be afraid of the comment section..I promise not one bad thing will happen to you.. So if you feel like responding to what I say ..Let me know.. I love reading the comments every morning when I log back on...we could start a nice discussion group...:-) I mentioned about writing a book..and I had asked a very dear friend that was in the advertising business if he knew some publishers..The reply was "yes, but they don't bother with amateur writers".. Ive been writing all my life..does that make me an amateur? I take that word as being new but learning.. How do you ever get past that level if no one publishes you so you are no longer considered an amateur? I only asked in regards as to getting information as to just how to go about writing a book..not asking to be published...But I took that offensively by those people.. Good thing I hadnt inquired of those publishers in person hey? Amateur.. my butt...I bet at one time Mark Twain was an amateur too but someone said ok..hes no longer that now hes a professional.. so whats the difference he wrote the same way... One day I shall be a very famous writer have a best seller then I can send a reply to that friends publishers..that I wouldn't LET them publish me now... Arent I mean? :-) no..right is right.. we all deserve a chance, we all have to start somewhere...we may do a lot of starts..but its all a beginning... I can remember when I had a lot of pen pals in school from all over. I remember one in Japan..Very good friend..we wrote a lot.. I always over the years kept in touch via the mail..Now with these computers Ive found I cant hardly hold a pen in my hand! Im so used to typing.. I just wrote a letter to my cousin June..telling her the good news about my sons.. I typed it in notepad and printed it out then signed my name. Is that lazy or what! These computers spoil you I think...Over the years Ive always stayed in touch with my cousin, when her husband died quite a few years ago I wrote her a letter..she still has it.. she has told me all these years since high school I was a talented writer and I should write about my amazing life.. I can see her shaking her head and telling me "Lois, how did you survive all your life?" Which like I say if I really did write all that I have lived through it would read like a science fiction novel that no one would believe.. Was a very interesting one I will say and Im surprised myself that I have made it this far and still going strong.. A few flaws but.. Im still rolling along.. in more ways than one ! :-) I had 2 visits today. one from Theresa and one from Rebecca..They both are so nice..The time flies when we sit here and chat. Dear Theresa brought me a icee today from DQ..she knows how much I love them and I have it here sitting by me.. They are so good..and I have to say are about the only thing that does quench my thirst... It was such a nice thing for her to do..Shes a sweetie..So is Rebecca, we talked about my getting a 2 bedroom house to rent..She assured me again that I have nothing to worry about on my grant when the 2 yrs are up this October. Its a sort of relief..but I still am leary with not one thing in writing.. I have no proof of anything. makes me nervous. I wish I did have a bigger place, but if I cant this house will do .. Shes going to talk to Chris about it..She said they told her 1 person could only have a 1 bedroom.. They state they do inspections according to HUD regulations.. well HUD does NOT descriminate on how many bedrooms you have .. So..my logic now..how can Keystone pick and choose which HUD rules they want to follow? That just rings very odd to me.. So shes going to find out.. Id like to know.. Lunch today was meat loaf and I sure can tell that its a new cook and she sure changed the recipe..I ate it anyway I was hungry but it wasn't the greatest.. So I will fix something later maybe a PB & J. My lilacs are still smelling lovely..Theresa and Rebecca commented on how nice it smelled in here. I agree- I love lilacs.. Time for me to post this..and remember- wanna say hi or comment- please do so.. just lets not be ugly tho..keep it nice :-) Cant post until I put my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-) Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and Thanks!!! :-) ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Lilacs~

Do you see my lilacs? Arent they pretty? Last year they didn't do

near what they have this year..They are not even fully open yet.

They are right between my 2 windows..The one on the right is

the living room by where I sit..that window is here on my left .

The window up there on the right..that's the kitchen. The table

is up to it..and if you look closely I think the boy is sitting on the

table..The branches there on the right are the Rose of Sharon

buds ..it will bloom all summer..
Penny went out and took the photos for me so I could see them.

Then she proceeded to tell me how wonderful they smell..So,

I had her go out and cut a few for me and bring them in..
There were some of those purple flowers like last year out back

and Penny brought in a few of those and with some branches

of the lilacs.. The smell in this house is better than any incense

you could buy and I love that stuff.. I wish I could put a scratch 'n

sniff on here so you could smell them...its heavenly.. :-)
Penny dug out a vase and put them in it for me.. I have them

right here on my desk as they cannot go unattended at all or

the boy will get them instantly...He would eat every bit he could,

I know from experience when Ive had real flowers in here..That's

why I only have silk flowers in my kitchen~!! He eats them then

he pukes..so I get a double whammy, my flowers disappear and

then who else is gonna clean up after this pukey cat? well ME,

of course..who else? So we have no living things in this house

other than me and these 2 cats.. house rules :-)..
Penny fills this bird feeder up I know at least once a week..These

birds and squirrels and rabbits are starving.. I wonder if they get

food anywhere else? They don't act like they do.. I bet by tonite

if not tomorrow that feeder will be half empty..I did have Penny

get them some sunflower seeds too.. I hear they like them too..

Penny looked for a birdbath but didn't find anything under 50.oo

and I just cannot afford that..so the birds will have to bathe in the

drinking water bowl out there..best I can do..My morning glories

are doing really well.. I cant wait till I see them all over that fence

there...

Well I might as well confess as to my stupid for today.. I had to change

this cardiologist appt before cuz they cancelled.. Well I got all ready

to go this morning for my 915 appt.. I sat and waited and waited.. and

then it dawned on me.."maybe you didn't book a ride, Lois"... and

guess what? that's just what I did.. I did not go to the doctor, I did not

pass go I did NOT collect 200 dollars.. I want my own vehicle then I

wont have to keep going thru this with the musical appointments.. I

am really fed up with this.. Joys of being dependent.. Its a reallly hard

thing to get used to... For me anyway..its a daily challenge...

My challenge right now is to finish this and go and have some of those

ice cold peaches I have in the fridge.. They are so good and just enough

I open a whole can I cant eat them all at once and I don't like to have to

eat them 4 days in a row so they don't go to waste.. Im gonna enjoy the

smell of my lilacs and relax and hopefully I can sleep better tonite I had

that stupid drs appointment on my mind.. lots of good it did hey? oh well

I called and re scheduled..I told them I had a temporary brain malfunction

and they gave me a new appt.. So..peaches, TV and sleep..in that order..

I hope :-) This GORGEOUS WEEBLE wishes you a "nitey nite"...

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Summer Memories~

At the start of summer, I think of this place. Was a great cottage on Sunset
Lake. Beautiful lake and it had some great fishing. Almost directly across

the lake from the cottage was the public beach and most of the time

all summer there were a lot of people there. My parents bought this

cottage in 1961 I think.. My Dads mother had passed away and they

inherited quite a bit of money, they bought this place and it was worth

every dime.. I never did know what they paid for it though. Whatever

it was it was money well spent for the enjoyment we got out of it..Not

just my parents and I but the family as well..Usually every week end

someone came by to swim or fish or to just sit and visit...but of course

ALWAYS a great meal..whether it was called a snack or not..it was

great..Usually if a few members of the family came at the same time

it was usually where everyone brought something..Made it easier

for my mom ..who didn't mind the cooking but she liked to be out

there in that yard and lake too...
They didn't keep it for a lot of years after I left home in 63, We went

back in 65 for a visit with the boys and had a great time.. Richard

was about 2 as Mark was still a tiny baby. Was a good time..

..That's my dad with my oldest son going for a ride. They didn't

go out very far since they didn't have life jackets on but If I think

back I don't think my dad had too much of a choice but to take

Richie out in that boat, soon as my dad mentioned it Richard

stuck to my dad like glue asking When Grampa , when?

Those windows there facing the water on the right is the dining

room and on the left is a small porch and another door that

goes into the living room..There was a big kitchen and a bath

room down stairs and 2 bedrooms upstairs.. I had the best time

out there, specially when I got to have a friend or a cousin come

and stay for a week or so..Those were some great fun times..We

used this place in the winter as well..that long dock in that picture

my dad would back his jeep up to it..and pull it out of the lake

with that.. You cant see the big huge wheels that are on each

side to help it roll in and out..Those big wheels that look like

the kind on farm machinery.. Probly where my dad got them

was from my Uncle Stanleys Farm, I know he made that dock.

We, mom and I stayed all the time and didn't go back to the

house in town at all which I was glad..so much nicer on the water.

I look at that cottage and think if it would be accessible for me..

which I do that with every place I look at..I have to. The down

stairs of course could be accessible for me, Not the upstairs.

And you see how high that cottage is off the ground, even

tho there was no basement..It would have to have ramps to

get in and out..Over on the right side of the cottage is another

door to go thru a small foyer and then into the kitchen.. I think

at one time this was a year round cottage which many of

them are... I sure would love to be in that cottage and looking

out at that water, my little porch will do for right now tho..

Lunch was, well I have NO idea what the meat was.. I did

recognize the broccolli and mashed potatoes tho.. I ate the

brocolli it was good and there was more than what they

usually give.. I love that and brussel sprouts..Sometimes I

will fix one of those for a snack sometimes.. I like most

veggies..except CARROTS!! ICK..and I DONT like that

slimy stuff..Ocra..I just cant handle that..I used to cook it,

but I did NOT eat it..Willie loved that stuff..so being a

dutiful wife I fixed it for him..Im glad he didn't make me eat

it.. I would have been upset!..I have some peaches out in

the fridge and nice and cold.. That sure sounds good so I

think that's my dinner for tonite..Im not really hungry..I have

to go to the doctor tomorrow and I hate that it always gets

me sorta antsy when I know I have something scheduled..

I was sposta see this guy right after I got out of hospital..

oh well better late than never... So its time for my very

GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and Thanks!!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Guess Who?~

Im not gonna tell you who that photo is of, not till down farther,

until then you can guess who she is. Pretty isnt she? :-)

I got a mail from a friend and we are disussing food and how

some is good for us and some is downright dangerous for us.

So many things that we see advertised and think they are good

for us..I got a mail the other day about Soy, and that is not good

at all to have added that there is something in it that builds up

and does uglies to your system.. Food I think and plants were

what kept us going centuries ago..Sure we live longer but look

now at all the diseases that kill us..or will give us crap that even

comet cleanser cant wash off..


I have a friend that truly believes that vegetables in the right

combination can cure any illness that is in your body..She is a

firm believer. Many times I talked to her and would mention

that I felt bad or had a ache or ailment.. She would get out her

book and look it up and tell me what bunch of veggies to eat.
She used a juicer and what ever veggies her remedy called

for she would put them in her juicer and drink it.. She had a

dear friend that was diagnosed with cancer.. This is true..I

know this for a fact..and I know these 2 women they are God

fearing Southern Baptist and would no more lie than they

would fly... She gave her friend a juicer and a few bunches of

fresh carrots..told her to drink 3 glasses a day..until it was

gone...

Of course we all were skeptic..but after 3 months and our mutal

friend came back from having xrays..Guess what? There was NO

cancer to be found!~! I read in a tiny little notice from the FDA..

about different things to help prolong and better your life.. In this

tiny article..and I quote "for many years, researches have known

that CARROTENE is a cancer retardant" In other words it STOPS

it from going from bad to worse.. I know my friend got rid of hers..

We sure said our prayers after that..And as far as I know it has

never come back..

Many people today believe that fresh veggies or herbs with no

contaminating spray on them are what we should be eating.. I

have a dear friend in the UK ..ok Raife... His wife has the greenest

thumb of any woman I know.. Everywhere around their house are

flowers..their veggie garden provides them with fresh veggies all

year!.. Ines very much has a green thumb.. I keep inviting them over

so I could turn Ines loose out in my yard.. I bet she would make it

almost as beautiful as her yard . Shes very talented at cooking

these veggies too..Raife agrees, I know :-)

OK..the photo..cant guess? I wrote the other day about me getting

in touch with my sons after all these years.. I also mentioned that I

had never had a chance to meet my birth mother.. That is her..Her

name is Mary Ellen .. She was Chippewa Indian according to my

sister who gave me this photo of her.. I enhanced in in my PSP 9

and I was amazed at how nice it turned out..She was killed in a

car accident outside of Chicago..hit by a Semi on the skyway..I

never got to meet her and I wish I had.. I had so many questions.

the main one of course why... I never got a answer.. I couldn't let

my boys have that kind of unknowing about me.. I have talked to

both of them and I have nothing to hide and have answered all

their questions I hope so they understand all the whys and whats

of all those years ago.. The future is what counts..and Im hoping

that they will have a little bit better one now that they don't have

to wonder anymore and can hear both sides of the story.. So

anyway .. That's my birth mother. Mary Ellen ..mother to me and

5 others.. and there are only 4 of us left now...

Being a holiday today I called Penny at 930 since she wasn't here

yet to find out if I had given her the day off and didn't remember

since its a holiday here..She assured me I hadnt but that she had

over slept..which happens quite a lot when eddies home..I told

her to just take today off and to come in earlier Wednesday as I

do have that drs appt at 9:15.. I will call tomorrow and make sure

Im remembering right tho..Ive it written down, but I did the other

too and I still got it wrong..so a phone call is in order..

My order now is for food..Its after 2 and ive not eaten today..so

its time for a lunch dinner combination, so Im off to eat..what,, I

have NO idea..but I know I will find something :-) So its time

for my usual GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and Thanks!!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Keep Everything~

I was looking through some files that I really need to just get

rid of.. I keep everything.. I have photos and videos like crazy

and for why I have NO idea..I hate to delete a photo I guess.

Well that photo up there the date says Nov of 2006..I have

to say my desk looks neater..That had to have been shortly

after I got all my stuff as I don't see my flowers there on the

end table and I don't see the photos on the wall either..and

there is nothing in front of the window behind me.. Looks

totally sloppier now ! I just keep everything in case I MIGHT

need it which of course I NEVER need it.. What I get mad

at my self for is when I put something away where I am SURE

I will remember where I put it..Well..that don't work either. Its

gone forever when I do that...

I had the best supper last nite..I had shrimp..They had buy 1

bag get 1 free..So I got them.. I love shrimp.. I put them on a

paper plate on a coffee filter and put napkins under that..To

soak up the water, these are frozen shrimp, last time I didn't

and tipped the plate and that water went all over everything,

me included and it was HOT...I put the plate in the microwave

for 2 minutes and get my cocktail sauce and have a feast..

Last nite though I had to make some fries to go with them..It

was honestly so good I wish I had someone I could have

shared them with..I had to eat them all..which I had NO trouble

doing tho... I said to my self quite a few times in between

the MMMM's "this is SO GOOD"... it was too..and I think

that's what I may have tonite too...I still have some left...

Its my dollys birthday this week, the 28th..She will be 24..I

don't know where the time has gone..And now she has this

new baby..Dawn said he is so cute and very good I hope

he is for Kelli's sake..Its hard enough to be a new mom

without having a cranky baby.. Hes very good though and

looks even more like his daddy. Grandpa goes by and

sees them every chance he gets from what I understand.
Kelli and Jorge and Alex were at Donnies the other night

I wish they would have had time enough to come by so I

can see baby again..They grow so fast..This is the best

time...

Was a beautiful day today, sposta be up in the 70's but I

don't think it really got up that warm.. I had the door open

with the screen up and Dutch of course has figgured a way

over, or under that thing so he can get out on the porch..I

havent tested those screens and I would cringe if he fell

outside through one..When he gets out there he knows just

how far I can go out the door and he will stay just far enough

away..hes smart.. I should just get that porch kitty proofed,

which maybe this week I can.. I am hoping, if I make an

appointment, Donnie will come over and put my AC back

in the window..From what I gather he is off all next week that

its just very slow where he works.. Its getting so hard for every

one..At least they settled that strike here, I don't have to listen

to those bloomin honkin car horns now..

Time to have my late lunch early supper..Y'all can come and

have some shrimp and fries with me..that's what im having

again..Some good sturff...then some of those Dibbies, those

are a great desert...Time to post this and cook but I havta

write my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love and and Thanks!!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Dawn Visit~

Quiet, nice day today. Not much going on. Dawn came by

and picked up some things I had Penny get and then she

was going to go and join Donnie at the races. That's her red

truck and if you look closely you can see a light spot in the

window and that's Jerky riding in the passenger seat. He

loves to ride, but today Dawn was taking him swimming,

she has a hard time keeping him out of the lake.I was looking

outside and even with the price of gas going to over 4 dollars

a gallon it hasnt stopped anyone..There is just as much traffic.

I got to thinking about the race cars and what it must cost them

for gas to race around proving whos got the better car ... Im

not a real race fan I do watch it though..specially when I would

be forced to when I stayed with Donnie and his then wife

Shirley..Racing was on you knew where to find him..its not

changed at all ..If he cant watch it on TV he will be at the race.

Can you imagine how much it costs them now just for gas?

I heard yesterday that they may stop the meals on wheels

being delivered every day..The gas has just gotten to high

and they cant afford to run all these vehicles for nothing..
They have 3 vans for rides and they deliver lunches all over

town and out farther in the country..The COA says they have

no choice. I bet if they didn't have all those people there

getting paid for doing nothing they could afford the gas.
When I call anymore I never know whos going to answer

there are so many different people..and what they all do,

I have no idea..I wouldn't think there would have to be

that many different departments to run that place :-) I guess

they will send notice if they decide to stop the lunches.. It

will affect me a bit, as I do eat some of the lunches and

it saves me from cooking..but I know there are lots that

really depend on that lunch..not counting the visit of the

driver. It will really affect a lot of people very hard if they

stop the meals on wheels... I hope they don't... Since

they cut my food stamps by 100 and now no lunches It

may affect me more than I think..

If gas keeps going up I cant see how we would get our food

delivered to the stores..how can truckers afford to drive those

huge rigs with diesel gas even more expensive.. My brother

and Pennys boyfriend both drive and they have said how hard

its getting.. I can see why people are now planting gardens

and living farther out so they can have a small mini farm.. A

mini farm could be totally self sufficent..except for things like

sugar or flour, salt etc.. Many people are using the windmills

and going solar..Have your own cows and some chickens...

a nice garden.. pigs... you could reduce your food expense

by 90% I bet..Nothing better than farm fresh anything..and

far better for you... Everything is getting so expensive ...

I got some of these Edy's Ice Cream Dibs. They are little chunks

of ice cream covered in chocolate.. They come in individual bags

with about 10 or so in a bag.. Good? They are WONDERFUL.

The ice cream is great..smooth and tastey..I used to like those

Klondike bars something like a ice cream bar..These are just

smaller versions..Try them.. They are really good..They have

them in chocolate ice cream too..Only bad thing is some times

ONE bag isnt enough..good thing theres 10 bags in a box !

So now you know what my snack is gonna be after I get in

there and turn on the tv..Time for my GORGEOUS WEEBLE

"nitey nite" first though... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? Love ya and Thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~ASSuming~

I was looking for a home care provider and had contacted

a place out of Kalmazoo.. I explained that I needed someone

to clean, shop, run errands, do laundry. The woman there told

me they do not allow their aides to do grocery shopping as

it is illegal for someone else to use someones card. Well my

previous care giver used mine..So, I told this lady I very seldom

go out.. She politely told me and I quote " I see no reason that

you cannot ride with your care giver to the store to shop for

your self. All you have to do is just scoot across into the car."

end quote.. I got SO mad.. How did she know just how bloody

EASY it was to SCOOT? she had legs! I told her off royally.

How dare she assume what might be easy for ONE person

to do that it would pertain to ALL of us? She over stepped

her bounds as far as I was concerned..THAT was a very

crappy attitude when your dealing with disabled people..I

called her supervisor and told her what she said and that I

would no more hire a worker from their company than I

would flying.. These agencies are anxious to get clients

like me..its guaranteed paid and the highest pay..They

get 16.oo and hour ..the aide only gets 8..Go figure....

But I thought how dare she assume what was easy for me

to do and what wasn't, she had NO EARTHLY knowledge

of how hard or easy it is.. I was really upset by her attitude.

And I will be honest I turned RED and I told her off I really

did.. I took that as so rude and know it all.. She or anyone,

I don't care if they are a nurse, doctor or what ever..until

THEY are an amputee they CANNOT know... I can explain

and try to describe feelings I have in my stumps..and to be

really HONEST.. I cant.. Its like nothing I have ever felt

before..and its hard to describe accurately..Plus.. we don't

ALL feel the same, or have the same reactions to things..

Another woman, same age, she could respond totally

different than I would.. In fact I KNOW that.. I knew from the

second I opened my eyes and saw my leg gone that I had

a hell of a job ahead of me and I better brace myself for

the storm.. I didn't even think about how others would react

to me then or if I could find a man .. Those were the least

of my worries...... I needed the assurance I was going to

be able to survive and what the HELL did I have to do to

make SURE I could live...

Ive seen some movies..in fact that Clint Eastwood movie

with the woman boxer.. I thought that was a pretty good movie

until the end.. She ended up toally paralyzed..and she asked

him to kill her.. I shut it off.. I dont know if he did or not.. but I

heard that and I got mad.. How can anyone just give up... Look

at Superman..God love him.. what a trooper.. he didnt give

up.. That movie really made me mad..People that write that

stuff dont think or even have the slightest idea as to how some

real person was like her.. In fact I KNOW a guy..young too only

in his 40's now.. From the nipple line down he is paralyzed..
He and I used to chat all the time on MIRC before I knew about

Yahoo.. He and I compared notes...as to him having legs..but

cant feel them..and drags them around when he moves... For

me.. I dont have legs..and I dont have to drag dead ones

around.. I asked him had he thought of that and did he think

it would be easier if his were amputated.. He agreed with me,

he said I had no idea how really hard it is to drag lifeless

legs around..But they wouldnt take them... I still see him on

Yahoo and hes still going strong..That movie woman made

me mad... She was still alive.. isnt that the important thing?

Penny came today and went shopping for me..They had some

good sales at Meijer on Pork and some beef roasts.. I had

talked to Donnie last nite and asked if he needed anything

as Dawn is due to come by tonite. He asked for MEAT.. They

are on a strict budget..and only get just enough..So I had Penny

pick up some things for them..and I got a bag of shrimp for

myself..well it was buy 1 bag and get 1 bag of shrimp free..

well I cant pass that up as much as I love shrimp..so If Dawn

wont let Donnie have any shrimp I told Penny I would give

the bag to her..Shes hoping Donnie cant have them :-)


She got us all clean after I had a nice mess waiting for her

this morning..Usually I take the whole thing with the coffee

filter and grounds and empty it ..today I got smart ,so I thought,

and I took the filter with the grounds OUT of the container

thingie.. and YES.. just as I got up to the refridgerator..YES!

it slipped and I had coffee grounds even on the door of the

refridgerator not to mention all over the FLOOR!!! I tried

to get most of them up but to keep bent in half does NOT

feel good after a while..so I had to leave some for her to

clean up.. she didnt mind.. So we are all clean and ready

for the holiday week end.. Penny said the store was jammed

with people..I should have remembered that and had her

go wednesday.. oh well.. Im having some shrimp for my

dinner and thats where im headed. so time for my usual

GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? Love ya and Thanks!

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Morning Dove~

There is one of the morning doves that you can hear cooing

out there. Its a gray color with black spots on it.. Some people

I think eat these little birds..Well look at those Cornish hens

we can buy to cook.. Theyre good..I don't think I could eat one

of those doves though..That's like rabbits.. I cant eat those

either..There is a huge outdoor sports store down the road

that has a restaurant in it..they serve buffalo. rattlesnake and

all sorts of wild game there.. Im kinda glad im more of a

vegetarian than a meat eater I think..plus I like fish too..Some

of the fish they have here in these lakes are excellent. The

lake Donnie lives on is an excellent fishing lake. That's why

his dad likes to come down in the summer so he can take

Donnies pontoon boat out and just float around and fish all

day..It has a canopy so its out of the direct sun...That can

do you in..ask me how I know!!

One summer day, my ex and I and his brother and his wife

decided to go down to this huge lake, rent a boat and fish

all day..We got a nice 16 foot boat that had plenty of room

for the 4 of us and all our junk plus the fishing tackle..We

loaded up the boat and Davids brother said he knew the

lake and where the good fishing was..Mark and David

fished a lot they were brothers but good buddies as well.

Marks wife, Sheila and I were good friends too.. By the

time we got the boat out and launched and started to find

a place to fish it was about 8 am..early..and it was going

to be a beautiful hot sunny day...

As the day wore on we must have went around that lake

I know at least 3 times.. by 2 oclock I started feeling really

kinda bad.. I was so HOT.. I looked at that cool water all

around the boat and all I wanted to do was jump in so I

could cool off.. I started to get nauseated and I told the

others I had to go ashore and get in the shade..I was too

hot.. Mark started the engine and we started to head

back to the boat launch where the car was.. We got

almost there and the last thing I remember was David

saying.."are you ok?" ... I woke up sitting in the back

of an ambulance.. I had heat stroke ..I don't think Ive

ever been so sick from the sun but 1 other time and

that was when I fell asleep on the jettys in Galveston

for about 5 hours ...I learned NEVER to fall asleep if

you are laying in the sun!...the hard way...but I learn,

that's the main thing...

Rebecca came today from Keystone..she has 11 clients

she has to see in 3 days..shes busy.. She just moved into a

nice new duplex that's a lot bigger..I talked to her about

finding a bigger place for me so I can get my sewing up

and running again so maybe I can make a few extra dollars.

I explained to her I cant do it the way it is in here I just

don't have enough room..for cutting and sewing its just

wouldn't be easy..Shes going to keep an eye out .. I

would like to make some extra money while I work up

enough courage to fly again then I could afford a trip

to the UK.. I have a son and so many friends there I think

it would be a great holiday..If I could do some sewing it

wouldn't take me long to save up enough to take a holiday

there..I would like that..One of these days I will muster up

the courage to go.. I think the hard part is flying by myself.

If I had my legs..I wouldn't hesitate to go alone.. but like this

I just feel safer if I have someone with me to sort of ride

shotgun so to speak..

I have some leftover meatloaf and you KNOW how good

it is when its left over and made into a sandwich..VERY

good..trust me :-) so that's what Im gonna do..and then

watch TV for a while..Penny will be here tomorrow but

we don't have a lot to do.. I was going to make arrange-

ments for a ride to meijers but Curtis wasn't available

to take me.. so Penny and I will go next week one day.

She has a easy day tomorrow not a lot to do..and we

have been good no big messes thank goodness! Im

off to get my sandwich and relax so its that time again..

for my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite".. :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~This is Good~ :-)

Want to read something really good? I probly shouldn't

tell on my self but I will..I have nothing to hide, even if

it shows me to be a tad off :-) I was sitting here looking

at my monitor planning what I would do to be ready in

time for when Curtis came to get me and take me to the

doctor.. Well I looked up and saw the appointment card,

and the DATE said June 11th.. hmmmm.. I sat and thought

for a minute thinking I had gone totally brain dead..and I

decided to call the office.. well its true..my appointment

was NOT for today but for the 11th.. I do NOT remember

the appointment being changed.. So real quick I call the

COA to make sure that I don't have a ride set up and if I

did to cancel it.. Well they didn't have a ride booked for me

either.. I was the one having the brain freeze.. I don't know

WHY I thought I had an appointment to day..

To be REALLY honest I will tell you, I sat here and while I was

looking and deciding this morning on plans I had SERIOUSLY

tried to think of a good excuse to get out of going to the doctor!

Well I feel good.. sure I have that hernia but its not bothering me

at all so why mess with it.. The rash on my hands is better and I

do have the appointment with the skin Dr on June 5th anyway..

So I was sitting here trying to think of a good excuse to get out

of going there today and here I didn't have to do that at all..Once

I saw the appointment card, I will be honest and tell that I really

actually smiled thinking how great I didn't have to go.. :-)

I sound like such a hermit..but Im not really.. I sat in the doorway

last nite watching the world go by as I call it and thought about

all the times after supper that my ex and I used to go for a ride

in the country..stop and fish or just enjoy the nice ride and see

where a road we had never been on took us...We always came

up here to Michigan and rode the back roads as I call them..There

are so many lakes around here its almost like up in the U.P. Lots

of lakes up there..and here its just the same..So all the back roads

go by a lake usually there are so many around here. But I loved to

ride I was always the navigator and if needed I had the map..Some

times we had to look at it as we had NO idea where we were we

had enjoyed the scenery so much we didn't pay attention where we

were going..


We had gone on a fishing excursion to find a new place to fish..

We were going down the back roads way out in the country..We

came around a bend in the road and there was a lake ahead..We

saw 2 men in the boat fishing.. We rode past, came to the end of

the road and had to decide which way to go..left or right.. Well we

decided to go right as that was south and would take us back to

Indiana or so we thought.. We followed the road for quite a while

every so often we got a glimpse of that lake.. We came around

this bend and down this little hill and there were the 2 guys in the

boat we had seen before ! we had gone in a circle.. So we came

to the end of the road and decided to turn Left..we did..followed

the road..and decided the next left should take us south and back

into Indiana.. We came around a bend in the road and down that

little hill AGAIN..and there were the 2 MEN in the BOAT!! We

must have gone by that bloomin lake and those 2 men I KNOW at

least 4 times.. Every time we came to the dead end..we tried both

ways..but the road we needed to get out of that area was such a

small dirt road we kept passing it.. We did have fun..but the irony

of this is.. we were looking for a place to fish..as many times as

we went around that lake..well we never found the road that went

down to it EITHER !!! Joys of back roads.. But it was fun...

I see how nice it is after supper and Sunset is my very best time of

day..Its the time to relax and listen and wait for the world to slow

down ..You can hear the lawn mowers or the kids out playing..I

loved when we got to baby sit my in-laws house on the river..We

would take the pontoon and cruise slowly down the river.. have

some nice music on the radio. the sun had just sunk down and

the whole sky would be lit up and the sun seemed to set in the

water. It was my favorite time to ride that pontoon.. I love sunset.

Sitting in my doorway I thought about that last nite..and how

much I would love to go for a ride in the country at sunset again.

One of these days..you never know...

Well its time for me to have some of that meatloaf Penny made

today..Poor girl had a lot to do having missed Monday, but I

bought her a burger from Wendys today since she left here just

in time to go to her next client.. Her birthday was Sunday and

she doesn't look a day older :-) Meat Loaf..and some TV.. I

might wait awhile and see if my son will get online tonite.. It is

so nice to say that you cannot imagine.. Like I told them...we

cant change the past.. but we can the future..we can make it

better... and It will be.. I have faith..and we can do anything..

Time for my GORGEOUS WEEBLE words.."Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and Thanks !! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Not Sleepin Good~

I did not sleep worth a flip last nite.. I sat up and laid back

down so many times I bet I looked like a yoyo.. I could not

get comfortable at all.. no matter what I tried to do..Maybe

I got too much sleep the other night and that threw me off

schedule.. Usually I sit and lay and watch TV till 11. but

lately I noticed I have dozed off a few times for an hour or

so.. But anyway I woke up at 230..wide awake. I turned the

TV back on and watched starship troopers.. One of the guys

in the movie only had one arm.. It was an old movie but on

all the other channels that time of night are nothing but paid

commercials and I hate those.. I counted the commercials

between segments of that movie and I counted 14 different

ads that I saw.. I hate commercials.. I did fall back to sleep

about 5 or so..last time I remember looking at the time. I

got up up at 730... I was wide awake again...but I stayed

up this time..

Since all this with my sons It got me to thinking about family

Where they are and that I sure would like to meet them all.

My Dad's parents grew up in the Grand Rapids area.. not

that far from me.. Both of them are buried there, they requested

that even though they lived their adult lives in Upper Michigan.

Ive looked on a map and there is a historical farm that belongs

or did to a cousin of mine. I looked but couldn't find a record

of it on the listings, but on the map there is a road named

after our family..

I know I have cousins there as I remember every winter at

deer season my cousin Russel and a few others would come

up and stay for a few weeks to hunt deer with my Dad..The

meals my mother made for all of us then were amazing, she

loved to cook and trust me we all appreciated her talent..I

know its possible some of their family could be living there

in that area still... I dug out our family tree to look up the

names of some of my grandparents family. I have a family

tree that my grandfather took 20 years to put together and

trace our history. The family tree goes back to when the

first member of our family came here on one of the boats

with Colombus.. and every family member is listed.. They

first settled there in Salem but then migrated to lower

Michigan . What is so interesting is the detail my grandfather

went to to investigate and list what every male member of

the family did..Its very interesting.. To see my name on it as

well made me feel rather special.. My grandfather worked

very hard putting that together for us.. The only ones I know

to carry it on is my cousin Ronnie and his 2 sons.. I have a

cousin somewhere in California my Uncle Richards son,

but I have NO idea where they are...be interesting to find

out.. But I would like to take a day trip to Grand Rapids..

If I had my own van I could !

Lunch was awful today it was some sort of variation on

Hawaiian chicken I think..it looked horrible and needless

to say I did NOT eat it... I have a drs. appointment at 1

tomorrow if nothing happens again.. I hate them at that

time but its the only time the Dr will be there..Its a sort

of after hospital check up..plus I want to see what he

thinks about this hernia..be interesting to find out..maybe

I just don't want him to tell me anything ugly like the word

surgery or something..THEN I would be upset.. I will find

out tomorrow..more than likely he will send me to yet

another Dr.. Wanna bet?

Time to eat and Im gonna clean up that kitchen while Im

at it.. Penny not being here I get behind and I hate to

have a big mess when she does come in ..I don't want

her to think Im a slob or something.. So.. food time and

then relaxing but first I havta write my GORGEOUS
WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? Love ya and thanks!!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Lost Is Found~

I lost my ruby ring. I have been looking for it for 2 days.

Its a beautiful ring and I wore it on my index finger on

my left hand.. When I noticed it was gone I started to

look..and I mean EVERYWHERE.. It was kinda loose,

the past while, I noticed some of my rings have gotten

loose and would just fall off, but I found them right away

as I felt them when they came off.. This one why I didn't

notice it had come off was surprising. I was getting really

up set that I had lost it.. Ruby's are my favorite anyway, I

cant wear the ruby and diamond heart ring my sister got

me anymore as the band got so thin it broke, to get it

fixed would cost a fortune.. Years ago she and Stan got

that ring for me for my birthday. I picked it out and wore

it so much that I wore it out..

Anyway, I have been steady looking even asked the boys

but they ignored me... :-) Since I lost this ring I bet I have

been in and out of my fridge many times.. Well.. this morning

Im sitting there and open the door and look..THERE is my

RING! it was sitting on top of a carton that had salad in it.. It

was just RIGHT there! I did not see it all the other times I had

been in that fridge!.. It was cold as could be but there it was.

I was so glad to find it.. but now I will have to find a different

finger to wear it on...I sure don't want to lose it again...

I had 2 prescriptions to get refilled today, Im out of birdseed

and a few other things.. at just before 9 this morning, my phone

rang and it was Penny of course.. She woke up with a stiff neck

and it hurt her to move her head, so she didn't come in today..

I wasn't mad but a tad upset, I knew I should have gotten my

pills etc on Friday, I should never put off getting anything for

just this very reason that I don't know for sure what days that

Penny will miss.. Its so hard to be dependent on others and I

honestly have a hard time with it as I hate to ask anyone for

anything.. But I am learning to never put off getting anything

for me or the boys just in case something happens.. I hope

she will be ok.. Ive not heard back from her, I hope she is

here on Wednesday.. if not I will have to call someone to get

them for me.. which Im sure If I called Dawn she would come

and go and get them for me..shes such a sweetie..

When she was here last time she brought the dog, Jerky..He

is so huge! takes up every bit of space in here.. Hes a good

dog tho..just needs to go to obedience school.. Dawn says

she's taking HIM for a walk but to see them you KNOW that is

NOT the case as you see that dog DRAGGING Dawn down

the street.. Shes so tiny anyway and Jerky if I hold on to him

he can pull me all over with no trouble at all... I have this red

light laser I got for the cats and decided to see what the dog

would do.. He went totally NUTZ.. he loved it.. Dawn and I

laughed so hard at this dog and how wild he got.. it was

really hilarious.. I told Dawn I would buy one for the dog if

she would stop at Meijers and get him one.. He had the best

time with that thing.. She refused my offer but said she would

get one for him and the cat.. I know my boys love that thing..

they do fight over who gets to chase it tho...

It was so cool in here this morning that my furnace came on..
How do you shut the bloomin thing off? I thought turning the

thermostat down did the trick.. I was going into the bathroom

this morning rolling past the heat register and fell the breeze

from it! I was so mad, It wasn't that cold and plus the fact I

thought I had shut it off.. Well I came into the living room to

check the thermostat and of course I couldn't see it as I am

TOO SHORT!! :-) I lifted up and tried to see what it was

set on, my hand slipped and my forehead hit the door facing.

I have a nice knot on my forehead now.. Well I turned the

gage thingie down even more and I HOPE that will be good

enough to keep it off.. Im looking forward to smaller gas bills.

I slept late this morning, I got up at 5:30.. made a potty call and

went back and laid down and I was out like a light.. I wish I could

get on a good sleep schedule.. I guess so much going on the

past few days has disrupted that being Ive been not really stressed

but well.. excited I guess..would be a good word...I didn't eat lunch

when they brought it.. Before I got it about 130 or 2 even, now, I

get it about 10:30.. big difference..cant make up their minds.. Im

not complaining as I do need these lunches now that my food

stamps have been cut over 100. That sure has caused me grief.

Im glad I get these lunches and they have the food pantrys here

that really help.. They sure make it hard for us..

Well lunch was spaghetti with green beans and garlic bread.. the

bread I have learned NOT to eat garlic..tears my stomach up and

I can taste it for days later it seems...I didn't eat it at 1030 so I

plan to after I post this for today... Was so nice read a message

from my son saying Nite Mum...I havent heard that in years

and until I heard it again I didn't realize just how much I did miss

it.....Life is Good for this GORGEOUS WEEBLE and I am MOST

grateful. "Nitey Nite".. :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya and THANKS!!!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Re-Starts~

A long time ago when I did my first major restart on my

life I went from married and a mother to just being me.

I left everything I knew and loved dearly but in my mind,

I kept telling my self I would only be gone for a few weeks

and I would be back, even though I sold or packed up

everything I had. My sons were at their fathers for the

week end, I made a phone call to him to come and get

the boys things, that I was moving, but I would be back

in a few weeks. Which I really intended to do and just

start all over again.. I think a lot of my decision was

based on depression...and I wasn't happy with my life

at all.. I wanted a divorce, but with all the horrible things

that were happening the escape seemed to be the only

thing I could do to more or less save myself. It was the
first re-start on my life...

I was horribly unhappy in my marriage, it was NOT what I

had thought a marriage was like. I think it was because the

life style I entered into was so totally different to what I had

known. I married right out of high school while I was going

to nurses training, and moved to something very much

a different way of living..My husband was Italian..and a very

VERY close knit family. My husband was the first son, of

the first son, which made them all special. I was an out

sider and not accepted by the 'family' mainly because I

wasn't catholic and we were married the first time in a

Methodist church..We had to be married OVER again

in the catholic church or I would NEVER have heard the

end of that.. We had 2 sons.. 2 years apart.. a child was

miscarried between them.. I had totally changed from

what I had known...

When I decided to divorce my husband I moved out of the

house we were buying across the river to a small town by

the river.. I worked every day. One weekend when Mark

refused to go with his brother Richard to their dads.. I woke

up to the kitchen being totally on fire. Luckily Mark and I got

out.. I moved to an apartment and one thing after another

seemed to go wrong.. I had to have surgery, my gall bladder

removed, then I totalled out my car..a man ran a light and

broadsided my car, it was gone. The one I bought to replace

it was the one I used to make my escape that week end..

I traveled and ended up in Houston, TX, the years went by,

and I moved to Indiana in 1983 until I moved up here to this

new life in Michigan and as a amputee. The whole time I was

gone, every time I moved I mailed a letter to my ex husband

to tell him where I was and how to reach me.. I only got one

letter back, it was from his then wife, telling me to stay away.

I was adopted when I was 10 months old.. my whole life up to

when I met my real blood sister, Shirley, I wondered about my

birth mother. I wanted to know why, I didn't hate her at all.. I

just wanted my question answered.. When I met my sister she

had already died.. I didn't get to ask her.. I feel bad I didnt..but

theres nothing I can do about that now.. So when I got this

computer of course the first thing I looked up on Zaba was my

2 sons.. I only found my oldest son Richard.. But I never made

contact. Ive had this computer 5 years..

Lately I have been thinking about how I always wanted to know,

that I would have really liked to know my mother..and I got to

thinking about my sons.. I very seldom told any one about them.

It was a very private thing..and only my business.. A few chosen

ones knew.. my sister for one.. A close friend knew and has

been trying to get me to make contact and find out if the name

and phone number I had were my sons.. Finally .. Thursday I

made the call.. It was the right number and I honestly was VERY

pleased.. I talked to my daughter in law..she was so very nice.

But I have talked to both of them..The reaction is what I had

hoped it would be from one..The other needs time..but im sure

all will be just fine ..Im encouraged..and happy...

This is very much a re-start for me.. I saw a photo of Mark..and I

knew him.. I recognized him.. he looks the same as the 4 year

old boy I remember. I bet I would have known him anywhere. I

can hardly wait to see a photo of Richard. I would like them to

be a part of my life and I would like to be a part of theirs.. My

oldest son is only 5 and half hours away from me.. Mark, the

youngest is in the UK.. by London.. I had said not long ago

that I would LOVE to take a trip there, NOW I have even more

reason to go.. Maybe I will take up a collection to send this

GORGEOUS WEEBLE to meet her son...I have a lot of friends

in the UK not counting family I would love to meet.. which I

could do all that too!.. Could be a most enjoyable time there.

I will have to get over my fear of flying..and just DO IT...

Well ive gone on long enough, but I cant stand it.. I think I

am very happy :-) hungry too..and that's where im headed..

I may make some fries and gravy to celebrate :-) That

would be a double treat I got then :-) AHH life is good for

this GORGEOUS WEEBLE.. im happy..today anyway...

"Nitey Nite"...

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS! :-)_

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Was Up Early~

I want you to know I got up with the birds this morning.

4 am.. I just couldn't sleep any longer..I tried.. I laid there

for what seemed forever but I just did not go back to

sleep..I got up..made coffee and of course checked my

email and rebooted..but this was AFTER I fed the boys.
They have to come first..they only allow me ONE stop

before they start to nag me to feed them, and I don't think

I need to tell you where that first stop is.. :-)

It was so nice out last nite I sat in the doorway and watched

and of course listened to the traffic going up and down this

street out here.. I did enjoy listening to my chimes though..I

love those things, I can even hear them when the door is

closed, I didn't realize how much I missed them until I got

these put up..

I was going to take a shower today and boy what I have

to go through to get set up.. I mean Im already totally give

out by the time I get into the shower.. Gathering at least

4 towels..then pulling and dragging that shower bench

to where it goes is MAJOR.. I have to totally LIFT it up,

then swing it around and THEN put it back INTO the tub.
Part of it sticks over and then I have to get in there.. Its

not a very easy thing to do..and takes a lot of energy and

TIME...

I was tired before I started and by the time I got the bench

set up..the towels out..my clothes and everything I sat there

for I bet at least 5 minutes wondering did I want to just take

a bird bath or go through this whole ordeal of a shower?
I braved the doubts and slid across that cold slippery bench,

turned the water on and I will admit it did feel good.. I just

wish I didn't have to go through so much to feel that.. I cant

believe when I stop to think of all the little minor things that

I had to do with legs..it wasn't hard at all.. I am sure finding

out just how easy I did have it.. But I did get my shower ...

There are parts of my life I have never written about much less told

about..but in the past few days things have drastically changed and

I am sincerely hoping which I am convinced they are..for the better..

I know my life will be changing from what I knew.. A long time ago

when I was in my first phase of my life..when I was married.. I had 2

sons.. due to circumstances I have not been in touch with them

for over 35 years.. As of today, I have spoken to both of my

sons.. I have learned I am gramma to 5 wonderful children as

well.. This was a major step for me..but it was time..I was

adopted.. I never knew my birth mother.. I wish I had- I had so

many questions.. as do my sons.. Im glad I found them and

made contact.. its good for them and for me.. That's why I

was up so early this morning.. I have been so excited about

this I cant stand it.. This is such a good thing..Im pleased..

But now I am hungry.. So now I need food and I am gonna log off

this puter and take a 5 .. Im kinda tired...even though I didnt do ONE

single thing today..just getting up early makes me tired and makes

my butt sore from sitting for so long...You know what THAT means..

Time for my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite"... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and THANKS :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Bloomin'~ :-)

We're growin here :-) My flowers outside are doing so good. I

had Penny go out and take some pictures for me.. Hell of a

way to see your yard and flowers hey? Oh well at least I can

SEE them.. so Im not complaining as long as I can by some

way or means.. This Iris is just beautiful and Penny said there

are about 4 more that are going to come up.. This is on the

left side of the back door.. You see the basement window..

The corner of the house is just to the left.. Right at the corner

is my Peonie. Its doing great so I am anxious to see if I get a

flower on it..
This is the flower bed right below the kitchen window that I

look out of.. you can see on the right the start of the fence and

just at the corner bottom is where the bird feeder is.. My rose

is leafing out wonderfully and the hostas are getting really big.

Penny watered the morning glories that are planted there at

the bottom of the fence.. You can see the old door in the base

of the house that used to be the coal chute.
On the other side of the garage is that fence with the tulips ..4

red, 1 yellow and 1 orange and yellow.. 1 more than last year.

I bet if that flower bed along that fence was cleaned up and

tilled a bit I bet there are more flowers than that there. Whom

ever had this place and planted all this stuff sure liked to garden.

It shows.. Whomever it was I hope they know how much I am

enjoying all their hard work...which I really am...
There is the flower box with the double impatients planted in it..

Its doing really good.. I called all over to try to find some of those

plants and only Home Depot had them which I was really surprised

as they are really a great flowering plant all summer and do good

in the shade which so many dont..They have them in I think 4

shades.. white and red I know, pink and salmon.. not sure..but

I like them.. They seem to like where theyre planted.. :-) Cuz if
ya dont like where ya are, you aint gonna GROW! :-)

Penny came today and we are all clean..after she left I remembered

I didn't have her get any birdseed to fill up the EMPTY AGAIN bird

feeder.. There was one of the rabbits out there this morning too. I

know the birds are going to be angry that the feeder will be empty

all week end and its my own fault. I should have remembered but

I didn't have penny go shopping today..Fridays in the stores are

very hetic.. I don't plan to see anyone all week end as the kids are

going to a car race in Ft.Wayne and have taken their trailer and

the animals...They enjoy doing that. So it will be a quite week

end, but they mostly are...its the week days that are so busy..

I had a lot on my mind when I went to bed last nite and I got up at

4 am this morning.. I drank 3 cups of coffee by 6.. Im ready to get

out of this chair for today.. I have an important phone call I have

to make this evening about 7 and I am looking forward to it..Some

one I havent talked to in over 35 years I hope will be home so I

can say hello... I can make that call from sitting on my bed though

and NOT in this chair.. My butt says its time to say, ok, write- my

GORGEOUS WEEBLE.. "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....