~OK..Why? ~

Today is thursday. :-) you didnt know that did ya? lol..hey..some

times Ive gotten into arguments about just what day it is..I keep

losing the bloomin things !! any way..my point ..lol..wednesdays

they pick up trash..I have a question..WHY do they leave the lid

on the ground NEXT to the can..not On TOP where they got

it from? I mean it started to RAIN LAST evening..and it has NOT

stopped.. So guess whats going into my garbage can? yah.. rain

water..I know the logic as to why- they will say they leave the lid

off it so the can will air out..its 20 degrees out -frozen trash smells?

:-) Wellll no no no..They say you have to have a liner.. they will only

take 1 big bag.pull it out of the can and to the truck.thats it..what

they can carry in one trip..so they flip the lid off- grab the trash and

leave..Ive seen them.. They could just as easily reach in one hand

take the lid off with one, reach in and grab the BAGGED,

unsmelly trash..and put the lid back on the can.. My garbage is

bagged in here and then put into another bag out in the can!

I wonder why tho..it RAINS always the day after trash day it

seems to me!! lol..Sheesh..Thing gets me..last week 3 people

came in here and I mentioned to them my lid was left off the can

I looked out after they left to see if they would remember that I

mentioned it..they had to go right past it.. and none of them did-

lol..go figure..oh well Penny did last week, and tonite Dawn was

here while she waited for a prescription im only 2 blocks away,

and she said when she came in that she dumped the water out

of the can and put the lid on..making the same remark."WHY cant

they put the lid back on?" I said I have NO idea, cuz its the RULES

i guess..No lids do we put back on, i think thats got to be a

garbage mans motto lol. No offense :-)

I want you to know..now..this may be a delicate subject..it is to me

since it concerns a certain part of my anatomy that is VERY

sensitive .. ya.. My BUTT!!! lol :-) no no no..as far as sitting on a

Wrinkle.. I have a wrinkle in my chair seat.. I am still not back on

my cushion..well I have NO idea how this wrinkle got in there..its

right in the back..and about maybe 2. 3 inches from the edge..so

that hits me right dead center of my butt ! and that old fairy tale

about the princess and the pea? well it IS true.. Its driving me

nutz..ok ok Nuttier :-) I think its from folding it up. when I was

going out so much when I was at the shelter.. I still havent gotten

my state ID..I have no idea why..they said a couple weeks..

dont have it yet, might be a phone call day tomorrow..:-(

ANYWAY... sittin on a wrinkle ALL day is not a good thing..the

padding that is in the bottom of my chair is not very thick but it

feels like it may be cardboard in there and a thin layer of foam.

this wrinkle goes from one side to the other .. I may have to get

my other chair from down in the basement.. I still have NOT

heard anything about my powerchair..and well I guess its time

to start doing some real nagging..and just bug these people so

bad they ll do something just to shut me UP~!~ well hey.. they

need to get my chair Yesterday!!! I dont know how many times

I have to stress that but they still take their sweet time.. :-(

My therapyst came from CMH today..Theresa..sweet thing..

I see her every few weeks.. She commented on how nice

the house is looking but was concerned about no ramp yet.

I told her about my phone call from United Way..She was glad

for me.. I told her of my idea to put one on the back of the

house..with a nice deck..but boy the cost of that would be alot.

this place could be fixed up really cute tho.. and its not a bad

area at all ..just a busy noisey street out front..but I dont really

notice.. I did notice tho..that some of the car windows rolled

up tight but I can still hear that thump thump of a radio blasting

can you imagine how loud it is in that car? She and I talked

about what my goals were and what did I see ahead.. I told her

that I dont see what is ahead.. all I know is what I HOPE is

ahead..and that is, that I can live with no worries..no financial

problems..a nice place, I dont think thats too much.. She told me

she thinks that I am a survivor..that nothing gets in my way..that

I do what I have to do, and I impress her with my attitude of doing

what I have to do to live..and not afraid to go after it..That I should

be proud that i could go from a homeless shelter 6 weeks ago to

this great little house..and things going better because I had

fought so hard. !! ....And shes a professional giving this great

opinion of me !! I felt kinda good about that.. :-)

There's a yahoo group I just joined and I wrote and asked Susan

can I mention it here..She has this mail that waits for you in the

morning..and its just such a nice thing to read..well along with all

my other great mail.... She has some of the most gorgeous photos

and some cute jokes..and music..its just really a very nice way

to start a day.. I enjoy it.. check it out.. Susan's Daily Dose . a

yahoo group..Its worth it..trust me..plus she is very sweet..I wrote

and told her that I really enjoyed her sends..and that I would like

to mention her group here..so that maybe someone reading this

today might like a nice little fresh day starter..I do..I have so many

good new friends..Like CherryPie..thats what I call her..she makes

stationery for my very best favorite email program Incredimail.its

a great way to send mail..ITS FUN..These men dont understand

the need for a nice photo or music and a sparkly name for email.

just type it out and send it..lol..welll I LOVE incredimail.. CherryPie

makes some great ones and she does matching taggies IF you

ask right.. I get those group rules mixed up sometimes..thats how
I think I got to know Cherry..cuz I kept messing up on requesting a

tag with my name on it..all fun..and gives me something to do..

Anyway..check out Susans Yahoo Group..Get on her list..its very

much worth reading and seeing the great stuff she sends.. :-)

Well..Im gonna log off of all these programs..and head over to

my bed..I think I may grab a bite of pumpkin bread tho..Ohoh I

do have a mail to send.. its nice to get a good nite , sweet

dreams before you go off to your bed...I enjoy that..and i know

every one likes to get a little kiss and a sweet- Nitey nite :-)

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~An Old Cookie Jar~

We got alot done today and I am really beat.. I dont know

how many boxes we went through and sorted out.. I have

a set of my mothers china..Noritake, just beautiful.. I will

never use it again..Its quite expensive..I may put an ad on

ebay or somewhere..to replace even just a small plate

costs quite alot..Many people need perhaps just a few

pieces to complete their sets again.. I cant see in the near

or distant future that I will use it.. I cant put it in the micro

as it has silver around the edge..i have another set, its

all white..I dont expect a ton of company. I may as well go

through all this and what I am not going to put out or in its

own place can go back down the basement and sold at a

yard sale ... I would like to find someone that would really

appreciate my cookie jar..was my mothers..and its so cute.
I saw it on Antiques Roadshow..Shes called Winnie The Pig,

I have the matching salt and pepper shakers that look like 2

little pigs.. but they are still packed up down the basement.

I would like to sell mine..I have no one to leave her to that

would appreciate the fact that it was my mothers, then mine,

so a collector would appreciate her.

My mother and Aunt Ethel..back when I was very young, I

dont ever remember any other cookie jar, they each got

one..my Aunt got the boy pig, no s & p set tho..and my

mother got Winnie..All these years these pigs have made

it.. My Aunt has since passed away and her grandson, well

my cousin Bobby, said he has her pig cookie jar, he sure

likes it.. Mine is prettier tho. lol No..the boy is cute. :-)

They hold alot you can see by the side view of her..It was

kind of fun, AND hard work, to go through and see all these

things again..They all were up on top my cabinets at the

apartment and I could only see them from a distance..All

my tea pots n old milk bottles from home..The Iron River

Dairy .. I had a friend in school named Susie.. she lived

on a farm out in the country and every morning before she left

for school she had to help her dad and sisters deliver milk to

everyone.. That was when it was delivered to your door at

daybreak and there were cardboard covers and the tops of

the milk had cream on them.. I never did like milk..I still dont..
I had to drink a glass at every meal..RULES.. I hated milk tho..
It has to be ICE cold or it sticks right in my throat..If I eat dry

cereal like corn flakes or rice krispies..then I put a dribble of

milk on it..but cold cold.. My stomach I found out in later years

is not very good with dairy products..

My arms are sore.. from unwrapping all this newspaper and

reaching.. I am glad to say that my scorch is not too bad..Its

doing ok..its tender a little but I have to sit ..so its the under

part thats giving me fits..well not fits..but aggravation ..lol..I

PROMISE I will NEVER put another cup of coffee directly

in front of me..I had just even said to myself that that coffee

could be hotter than what it was, only a few sips before that.

so it was quite warm..but not HOT HOT...

The lady that filled in to deliver the lunch..oh I do have the guess

what it is lunches back.. came in and I knew her from before..she

raises german shepherd puppies that are just beautiful ..she

sells them as fast as they are born almost they are so wonderful..

huge animals..I love that kind of dog.. She commented on how

cute this place is..so cozy and inviting. I mentioned to her that

I would like to have a shepherd.. this small place I dont think it

would be big enough..she offered to train one for me..they do

that as well.. I saw 3 of her 5 week old puppies over at the apt.

she brought them for me to see.. I think I wrote about it..well..

they are just darling..and she is expecting more lol..she has a

kittie with 7 toes.. on its 2 front feet..dont see that very often..

She asked if I wanted a new baby..and I dont think I should.I

think 2 little boys here would be highly upset..They are both

fighting for attention..and each other.so a new baby I think

would really cause the 'fur to fly' so to speak..

Ive gotten some nice emails lately too..lol..thought I better say

that ..instead of whining about the ones I dont get.. I love email

to look every morning to see who's written or who has commented

here.. well I really appreciate that you let me know..If you dont

write and tell me how will I know? Gee.. I need to KNOW these

things !! lol..Anyway..thanks for the mail..and of course the phone

calls yes..from Australia lol..My dear friend Blue. I enjoy a nice

phone conversation ... I spend my days here usually in email..or

lately I have been listening to some great songs..I love music..

keeps these invisible feet tappin..Well - these invisible tappin

GORGEOUS weebles feet are headed to lay it down and see

how much tv I can watch before my eyes slam shut..lol..Not

long trust me.. I snuggle down in those pillows..get my blanket

pulled up..my pillows up under my arms along my sides..( holds

my arms up) and Im down for the count lol.. Nitey Nite..

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Peepin Kittie ~

As you can see Dutch likes looking out the windows..he was sitting there watching the wind blow the leaves.. in that bush out there the birds seem to like it alot.. and there are squirrels..big black ones.. I saw a gray one too..I wonder does he know what they are? lol.. he sits and watches for hours.LB does for a while.then he does a few circles..and plops down and goes to sleep in the sun.. That window faces west..so the hot afternoon sun comes in..and you can see the sunsets some are just so beautiful. I might get a bird feeder to put out there ..the boys would love watching that..look at the little statue of a cat I have there on the window sill..I did NOT put that cat facing out..lol..I have NO idea who did..I didnt notice that until I saw this picture lol..kinda cute tho :-) Dutch loved watching the birds at at the apartment..he would sit for hours there too..I would put out bread for them so the boys could watch them Sometimes the birds would sit along the fence and like stare back at them sayin "neener neener ..look the kitties cant get us " ..I know thats what they were thinking..You can see how Dutch would get excited..see the ears down? he was really gonna get him a bird.. he sure tried.. While Dutch was sitting there I happen to hear this loud SMACK! then THUD..I look out..and there are 2 trucks out there..the one ran into the back of the other. lol.. too much in a hurry .. I said the other nite about there are accidents here all the time..well today was another.. you can see water on the ground..where the 2nd truck hit his radiator..lol.. the guy in the first truck got out and is standing there just as he is going to look at he damage...lol.. Gee maybe I should set up a video thing just to record accidents lol..hmmm.. as many as their are lol..Well this is proof positive that there ARE accidents out there.. Remember this is thru the screen sure makes the photos grainy..The 2 trucks are headed north..the school bus is headed west.. give you some perspective which way everything is.. lol.. see all the leaves on the ground... just looks gold everywhere..even across the street on the other side of the bus..poor trees sure are naked..bet theyre cold! :-) I was going to paint today..and I decided not to..I really dont know why other than to just not feel like doing too much of any thing.. hmm i think thats just called LAZY lol.. :-) I will.. but I did get a phone call today that made my day.. I was very pleased.. I had called United Way..about a ramp.. Well a lady phoned me said a man from a local company was willing to donate his services to build a ramp for me..and that Home Depot would supply the wood.. NOW..its THAT GREAT???? I am SO happy. I was really hopin..I dont really go out.. but I like the idea that if and when I do..or NEED to ..I can.. Im really looking forward to spring..maybe I can fix a nice flower bed..the space between the house and garage is wide open..and very nice..raised beds I could do lots there.. and really enjoy it.. On the west side of the house from the back corner is a fence. stockade..the high wood kind..down below it inside..is a garden that is triangular with the house. i could plant some morning glories to climb that fence..I could see it thru the kitchen window that would be so nice..Yard work is alot..and I am worried about that a bit..and with the snow shoveling..I cant ask Donnie to come over all the time and do this.. I wonder what other people do? I should contact COA and see if they have some people that do this to help out for a few dollars.. The yard here is very big..and its so nice..some huge trees.. be lots of work..hmmm I need to think about this..I wonder if I could drive a riding mower? I could transfer over to it.. ..I am a terror in my power chair could you see me out in a riding lawn mower? lol..I bet i would cut half the blocks grass before I knew it ..they go fast lol..I heard a story a older man lost his drivers license..so to go back and forth to the store he would get on his riding mower and say he was cutting the grass along the road..cuz its illegal to ride them on the roads lol.. On one of his trips back from town.. he was already half drunk.. the path he left was all zig zag lol...he made it home tho..the police made him stop they caught on to him lol.. David got caught once with his 3 wheeler on the streets in town..pushing it..and the cops stopped him almost took that bike..it is not allowed..there are so many 3 & 4 wheelers..in the summer up there and in the winter its snow mobiles.. They have this snowmobile RUN..a bunch of them all enter into a kind of contest..and they have to get these proofs that they went to certain places on the route..well...ALL these places they had to stop and get their tokens were BARS.. talk about a bunch of toasted snow mobile people by the end of the race....and it was amazing no one got hurt sometimes as wasted as some of them were when they got back lol.. Some winter fun.. I have for the past few days been discussing this dev issue with some dear friends..we all can talk openly about issues the devs have.. and the ones the amps have.. Ive talked to amps and devs both. I want to see all the sides besides my own ideas and thoughts..which sometimes do over ride.. but I am open about it and willing to try to find well not solutions..but maybe ways to just let everyone know..HEY..it is OK to be WHO you are! no matter what it is..why these labels they have to put on things ..every thing HAS to have a name.. well me.. the name or label or what ever you want ..the one I put on ..is FRIEND...and until its betrayed.. I can be the best one you have.. really .. :-) o k ok ONE of the best ones you could have :-) everyone needs a GORGEOUS weeble for a good friend :-)...well thats my story and Im stickin to it.. now its time for a bedtime one for me.. Got a phone call from my dear friend Blue ..hes doing well and preparing for summer..amazing hes hot way down under there and we are gettin ready to be snowed on lol..I still think its so great I can talk to him and its a different day entirely down there lol.. I found an Australian Christmas Song for him that I really have enjoyed listening too..its so cute..called Six White Boomers. great song.. I love music ... :-) OK..Im done..time to watch some tv..and eat some of that pumpkin bread Penny made for me.. is it good.. Penny lives in a adult foster care facility and looks after the 5 ladies that live there..she said she had to fight them off to keep my bread safe lol.. I am SO glad she did cuz it is luscious !! Nitey Nite.. Y'all have a good one Y'hear? luv ya..and Thanks :-) ALways, Lois *** * God Bless you is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe until I write again..

~Progress being Made~

Penny came by today and we got alot done. We are progressing
She went to the laundromat, It will be nice if and when I ever

get my own washer and dryer. Then she wont have to

lug clothes to the laundry..before, we, my ex and I, had ours,

that was the real time the fight was on as to who had to go to

the laundromat..we both ended up going together only

way to solve that problem..that way we got to keep each

other company..to sit and watch clothes go around for

an hour or 2 is not my idea of fun.. When I lived in Buffalo

there was a drop off laundromat and they would do your

clothes for you..I would take them before work or during

my break..and then pick them up after work..worked good.

I prefer my own anyway..you never know whats been in

those washers before you, although some places they do

take very good care of the machines.

Penny brought up some more things for here and we put

more things away and hung curtains and a couple of

things on the wall..a small mirror over by the desk and

picture..its gold frame is the same as what is around the

picture and looks really nice.. I forgot i had this shelf, I

was talking to Raife about a shelf to display my tea pot

collection and showed him a shelf at a ebay store..I just

happened to think of this one I have.but its wood..color..

lol..I have the white paint..i will just paint it white..put it

well Donnie will put it.hopefully above my table and most

of my teapots should fit on it.. I hope anyway. Painting

it white will really look nice against the blue.. Its so hard

to try to help Penny do these things Im more in the way

than not.. This chair takes up so much room, and when we

are both trying to move around and do stuff shes very

lucky I dont get her toes.. Its funny Dutch knows he can

go thru under my chair..If and when I ever get my power

chair up and running he will probly try to do it on that one

again..He did a quick fast back up before when he saw

that big battery in the way to go through.. he learns fast..

My stump is ok..its red and tender..moreso under neath

where my stump was on the soaked cushion and I just

had to sit..cuz I was here at my desk..I tried to go as fast

as I could to the bathroom to get off the hot cushion and

get my drenched skirt off too..Was a mad rush..then had

to streak thru the house naked cuz all my clothes were

in the bedroom lol. I look at the floors speaking of

streaking..ya..There are so many chips of paint on the floor

in these doorways its funny..and all from me running into

them and chipping off that old dry paint ..comes off really

easy..just a light touch will do it.. Its a daily job to pick up

those paint wall chippies.. My own fault I make my own

messes.. then have to clean them up..Sometimes I just

cant help running into them. My poor knuckes steady have

the hide scraped or ripped off lol..The joys of a chair..

Penny brought a loaf of pumpkin bread she made for me..

its barbaric..but its from a BOX!!! lol.. its good I dont care

where its from lol..I know ..just what I need ..make this chair

shrink even faster..Well I figgure this way.. I enjoy this stuff..I

dont really have a WHOLE lot of joys..you know? so Food is

a biggie..if you can eat what you like then do it I say..lol If I

gain 50 pounds..I would not be happy..but I would still have

enjoyed gaining it LOL then I can have the fun of getting rid

of it..which sure aint easy and I SURE dont wanna lose any

more like I have been doing..thats for sure..NOT that way..

I still worry that something will go wrong..even though I know

its ok..I am waiting for a call about my power chair..they are

taking their sweet time..no news on a ramp either..I can wait

on a ramp..but I will eventually need one.. I just have NO idea

where or how to get one.. I know I cant build it myself..so I

honestly dont know what to do..these places arent helping

me like the commission on aging or the community action

agency- well neither is the United Way..I even called them!!

I dont know.. Maybe Santa will bring me one since it is on

my wish list..so hopefully.. . .I would like to be able to get

out if I have to..with out being carried.. Seems my prince

is just so lost he will never find me ..so..I better make camp

here and wait for the guy lol.. ya.. like im sure hes comin..

Well I am tired..its looking so good in here..really nice and

homey..wait till Dawn sees it..she will like it.. the dark blue

and white with the yellow is great..just cant find daiseys in

the winter time tho lol.. ratz.. Time to go watch my show. I

think its on tonite..Prison Break..boy that brother with the

tats..M M M..what a doll..those eyes will make ya melt..

Nitey Nite! :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya and thanks bunches!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I Got Scorched~

Lazy day, my right stump did get scorched a bit..ok..ok quite a bit..

lol...Its red and tender but not bad..I will survive..lol... It is making it
hard to sit comfy today as it got down under as well into the cushion
which got the underside of my stump ..thats where it really is sore..I
have to use a mirror to see it..Its ok..not to worry. The joys of being a
clutz...i'm very good at that you know..if you dont..then you havent
been reading lol...

I have been told by a few that the photos here are small.Thats because
blogger only lets us put in 50 kbs or lower photos.. Ive put some a tad
bigger but they do something to them I dont know. These 2 photos here,
I have them bigger..they arent the best, but if you want them in bigger..
send me a mail and I will send them to you. Ive been playing with my
cam as thats what I use to take my photos..you know..this is NOT easy to
take them of yourself lol..Its hard to set the focus up and you look at the
carpet under my wheels..you can see how farthey sink down, so going
back and forth..its not easy lol...

Looking at these photos you can see my living room is not

very wide..it looks narrow..it is a tad bigger than it really

looks Im not up close to my desk either.. With the window

right behind me I look like I glow lol.. Well GORGEOUS
people do glow dont they ? lol..You KNEW I would say

that lol.. But right there is where I am most of the day, I

have little groovies in the carpet already from parking in the

same spot every time lol.. And DONT look at my messy desk.

I really try to keep it straight..

Today, its Sunday..I got on that Do Not Call list 3 months ago?

well I got a call today about credit card debts..I dont have a

credit card...its maybe a good thing I dont! No sometimes I do

wish I had one because I shop online..and lots of places wont

take paypal..so Im very limited..I like that cuz its taken right out

and I dont get a bill later then have to pay it..I did have 2 credit

cards that I got in MY name from EDS.. ya..the Ross Pierot

company..Great company to work for..I got some wonderful

benefits..Well my ex decided to charge up the cards while I

was in and out of hospital and crazy, they were only in my name,

so naturally I am . was responsible for them..just like I am a

old phone bill from 4 years ago that I didnt make the calls..I

had a caregiver when I first moved into the other apartment,

she left a boyfriend..out west..she made almost $500.oo worth

of phone calls..then left.. My phone.. my credit cards..my debt..

and ON my credit history. I'm responsible..my ex is in Mexico,

and he sure wont pay them.

This telemarketer actually called me 5 times..I hit the 1 to talk

to a person..this man came on, I told him I was on the do not call

list..he said if you were we would not call you.. so.. I got mouthy of

course and told him I was on the list and he better not phone again

and I was filing a complaint. he kept on and on.. 5 times this jerk

phoned.. So I call the do not call place..they say you need to get the

name and phone number of these places.. well I didnt hear it.. so Im

going to re register again..It doesnt work.. I called the operator too..

and on a sunday? sheesh.. I am so sick of them ..why do these

marketers think anyone would be stupid enough to agree to some

thing they sell or want to give you over the phone anyway? I dunno..

I check online for stuff.. Anyway this man keeps calling me..doesnt

say a thing..and when I say hello.all i hear is beeping. this started at

3 ..and every 10 minutes my phone is ringing..its got to be that

person.. what a jerk...

I had to write replys to those 2 letters today, very hard to do..I was

sad, mad, hurt, yet, I did understand.. I can see all the sides.. I was

told a few times I am too logical.. which I dont think so.. I just take

everything into consideration- go from there.. This is their decision

not mine..so there is really nothing I can do about it..Sure I can be

and am upset about it..but..well.. Its the same as everything else..I

have to keep rolling on, the places they took up in my heart will be

there, waiting..but if not..I have put some good memories there..Life

goes on, and none of it is easy.. just pull up your pant legs..and step

over the crap..for me..I'll grease my wheels and just ROLL on thru..

what else ya gonna do? lol...:-)

I made a nice crock pot of ham and beans today, I love that.. I wish

I had my book so I knew how to operate my combo oven..so I could

make some corn bread..I have to admit..while i was going thru the

beans and cutting the onion and ham..I thought of Willie..my 2nd

hubby..He was from down south..raised in Florida..real southern

boy.. he LOVED beans and corn bread..collards and fried chicken

buscuits and gravy..all that good stuff . When I put that on the table

you could almost see the sparks fly lol. So Im off to try those beans.

no cornbread...but oh well.. still be good.. even better tomorrow..

Nitey Nite... :-)

Y'all have a good one Y'hear ? luv ya..and thanks..

Always, Lois ***

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Ooops..~

I did a major no no this morning.. I had just gotten a cup of coffee,

it was sitting here in front of me while I looked at my email .. I had

taken a sip, and thought to myself that perhaps I would see about

getting a brand new one as this really wasnt hot hot coffee.. I set

the cup back down, between me and the keyboard, arm on each

side..ive done this before.. I went to reach for the cup to take

another drink and didnt raise my hand up high enough, and hit the

cup of coffee knocking it over onto the desk and into my lap. It

wasnt HOT HOT..I did have to stop for a minute as it did take my

breathe away, it had gotten mostly on my left stump..between my

legs,and part of the left and of course my stomach..my cushion

is still soaked..I had my skirt on and it was dripping wet. it ALL

went on me, not a drop even got on the floor. If it had been hotter
I could be in very serious trouble..thankfully Im not. my right stump

and of course my belly are red..the left is a little but not bad..it did

a direct hit on the right.its tender.my poor cushion will never dry.lol

Ive been having some serious conversations about the Dev issue....

which to me should not be, but it really is. It does affect so many that

arent even aware of it.. I have a friend said " I am going to quit being

a dev" Honey, you cant.. . . . just sit back and enjoy the ride...lol.. In

the past few days, why I have no idea..but 2 dear friends..have said

they have to 'back away, then its the "its not you, its me" No..that is

NOT so! it is ME as well..it affects me..it makes me feel bad .. I have

feelings too.. Why do I have to be left out because of who and what I

am... Yet..I can understand..especially if the dev is married. . what I

think many dont see,, is that I am NOT a threat..to anyone..no.. I
could be friends with a Devs wife..IF she would let me! I would try
to help her to understand..to try to explain that its the same sort of
thing as being intrigued by horses or women with other good body
attributes..or any kind of thing that YOU are interested in..

Maybe since I am new at being a DAK, well its only 5 yrs..thats still

new...I can see both sides. a wife, or husband would feel threatened

by anything that took any kind of attention away from them. I think
so.. I mean my ex and his hunting drove me NUTZ . He had to have
ALL his camo clothes the same material now..ALL had to match
from his pillow he sat on to the cap on top his head....like you KNOW
the deer fashion police will get you lol...its the same thing..and
MONEY? wow..THAT is a VERY VERY expensive habit..specially
when you have to have a gun for every kind of season, small arms,
shotgun, rife, blackpowder and of course his favorite BOW hunting.
So whats the difference? A man, or woman even, collects photos of
amputee women? I see no difference my ex could sit and watch
hunting videos for hours..we didnt have a computer but his mom
did and she put a hunting thing on for him well guess where he
stayed when we went over there? see what I mean?

This does bother me though and I really try hard to explain it..and I
try hard to understand it .. I get so MAD sometimes..and I try very

hard not to..and see both sides of why some people do this.. I dont

think that it will ever be resolved..because we are all so different..

and there are good and bad in everything.. Im not saying my friends

decisions are bad ones..by no means..This is what they felt they had

to do..only THEY know what is best for them..Best for me..would be

to not lose them.but..well..this is NOT my doing.its theirs..and their

choice and their loss.. Heyyyy Im GORGEOUS here.. *wink* lol

After slopping coffee all over me, I got up at 5:30..every day this
week I have been getting up before the birds...I went and crawled
up on my bed and took a long nap..slept from about 930 to 1 ..and
sound asleep..woke up with the boys right next to me, so i really
didnt do alot today other than try to figure some peoples kids out
lol. People are just people..gotta luv em.. some I could just SMACK!
but..well...I am always here..and I dont hide..my mail is posted..so..
I can be reached anytime. :-) I hope they keep in touch.. I did get
a post from a dear sweet friend in Chicago..was so very nice to hear
from him again it has been a long time. hes been missed was so nice
to know all is well by him..dear man, and I was pleased he left a
comment..see? its easy to stay in touch with me lol...NOT that IM
easy now lol.. I have a nice pumpkin doughnut out in the kitchen
with my name on it.. I keep ice tea in the fridge (can) and I put it
into a cup, warm it..and have HOT tea! easy..no sloppy tea bags lol.
and with a doughnut, works for me!

Hope I didnt rag but well .. i get in these snits..so bare with me :-)
and its an interresting subject.. . . dont ya think?

Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~My Boys Fight~

My boys have been fighting really alot lately..I- myself- with my

degree in animal psychology, think- new house.Dutch feels he

can be boss ..well LittleBoy is NOT hearing it..HE is the Big

Kahuna (boss) around here. LB gets so mad when Dutch

shows his butt.. and lets him know it real fast..Today..they just

kept on..you will see ahead lol.. :-) they had a fight...Dutch was

being a pest..LB was gettin mad...

LB is on guard, he is ready to take on Dutch's challenge,

I can almost hear him say "come on little brother, lets see

what you got " If this was video..LB's tail is twitching back

and forth and hes slowly taking steps towards Dutch..

Look at how mad LittleBoy is..you can see it in his face..his

foot is up and he is ready to strike out and just slap the CRAP

otta Dutch.. LB is sayin.."lets do it...come onnnnn ... "

Notice LB's ears, his back is this way, his tail is twitching

so fast it isnt even showing up..Dutch has backed up..and

not taking his eyes off LB...The old man is angry with the boy.

I know LB is thinking 'Time to teach this kid a lesson'...he's

ready to pounce...

See them circle..they went round and round..look at LB's

ears..flat on his head ..Dutch is headed towards the bedroom,

he always hides in there..lol you know hes thinkin 'boy i'm

in CRAP now- I done pissed off the old man' lol.. :-)

They both want to slap each other so hard..During all this

LB is growling sort of..I could hear him , sort of like under

his breathe..as a warning hes mad...lol..My boys are

armed..they have their claws..I wont, dont, and cant do

that to an animal take their claws..you can teach them not

to claw the furniture, get them toys dont take their only defense.

They need them, just like we need ours..can you imagine not

having nails and a itch? ohhh no..well.. when my back itches

tho..I cant reach it..i have this LONG LONG knitting needle..and

it works really good..worked good too when I had that cast on

when I broke my right ankle.. that needle came in handy..still does.

anyway, my boys got their claws..now they are missing their little

furry padoobies.. I did have them neutered..I cried..when I saw LB

with out his pretty little furries when he'd strut through the room.

I felt so bad..but well to stop him from spraying ..It was best..still

has NOT curbed his DESIRE!! thats why he drags that bloomin

meowmeow stuffed cat around lol Ya! hes neutered I dont think it

took or something . :-)

This is like a stand off postion..LB says " ok 1 more time and

Im gonna hurt you kid " look at Dutch...like neener neener..

Thats the goodie photo..LB reaches out, slaps Dutch so hard,

hes up on his HIND legs and going to pounce..look at his paw,

the fingers are stretched out..his tail is a blur its goin so fast.Dutch

has his foot up ready to block lol..Dutch is mad but scared..see

his ears are down now? This went on for quite a while..they

jump down run to the bedroom then around into the bathroom

Im glad they still have room to run..they need the exercise..I

think if Dutch couldnt run and burn off some of his energy he

would explode lol..

I didnt do too much of anything to day..other than play with the cats

and of course take those pictures of them ..I like doing that..Dutch is

such a ham..Penny commented on how nice the wall looked and the

desk..D & D really like it..everyone says, they like it ..that its homey

and cozy,, warm welcome feeling..well for Donald to sit for longer

than 15 minutes ..he is comfy here..at the apt he used to pace, and

very seldom sat down.. only stayed but a few minutes..now he stays

and talks for awhile. and of course i just HATE that!! .lol..he and

Dawn are 2 of the finest ..I just cant say enough or give them all

the credit they are due for all they do for me.

I was feeling a little down in the dumps a bit ..a few days ago I wrote

about friends that stop contact for one reason or another for them

selves and I am not given privy to know why they stopped contact,

I heard from one of a few of these people..just out of the clear blue

there was a letter there in my email..saying i was missed and

thought about.but they felt guilty because of their feelings of being

attracted to someone with a disability namely a dak..I didnt know

really what to say but what I did say was I felt bad..that because

they felt this attraction to me they could not be my friend..and felt

they had to stay away because I stirred feelings they maybe didnt

want or i made them uncomfortable..I can still be a friend cant I?

Cant I be seen as just a woman.. a person..THEN as a woman with

out legs.. I dont know..I try hard to understand this.why a person
feels guilty about any attraction they feel no matter what its to.a
person, place OR thing..its an honest feeling.. I try hard to under
stand it.really..and I do feel bad that because someone does feel an
attraction to me or any woman ..or man for that matter, that has a
physically impairment that it would make someone feel guilty
because of inner feelings.. I dont know..but I feel bad that there is
any kind of guilt feelings when those feelings can make someone else
feel so good..and wanted and NOT a person with a physical
impairment... But until they can come to grips with this guilt..or bad
feelings..theres nothing anyone can do..its up to them to fix that
problem since thats how they see it..I have a problem..well you see.I
FIX it lol..at least sure try, i sure let everyone know when I have
one too!! And isnt just being a friend and there- the most important?
Thats ALL i ask anyone to be. . . . :-)

I will be really glad when they get my power chair or get this floor
fixed. my arms are about to fall off today maybe cuz I was stretching
so much yesterday to paint the kitchen wall in those 2 spots .and
then tried to pound that flippin ,droppin nail in the wall.. Dawn
laughed so hard when I described me trying to pound that nail in..I
do now too!! i sure didnt then! I'll figure out a way to do something if
I want it done bad enough lol..

Right now I'm figuring if I want to and eat leftover dinners..or eat a

pumpkin doughnut Penny got at the store for me..Penny brought

a great dinner over too.had 2 pieces of THE most wonderful pumpkin

pie.... I mean good ..when she went to the store for me she got some

pumpkin doughnuts.Im anxious to try one.Im all clean and ready for

the week end, got some supplies..ice tea and coffee and doughnuts

hey.I'm set I may initiate the house this week end too and make my

fries n gravy lol.. Im still counting my blessings..:-) Nitey Nite... :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya and thanks ..

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Happy Thanksgiving~

Todays weather update... lol.. FOG! Never know what your gonna see when you look out your window hey? Even headlights. these were taken at 8:38 this morning..AND...know what??? I woke up happy..I DID~!!!! :-) hey..thats good.. I got some of the nicest Thanksgiving letters in my email this morning with some of the most wonderfully kind words..just almost made me cry, all the kind things said to me.. to know that I am admired for having strength and honesty and for all I write here. Means alot to me, and to know I could encourage someone else ..well I am really glad that I do..Then I AM doing something arent I? :-) Not just rolling around in here knocking the paint off the door facings, and painting what is NOT ment to be painted.... lol I painted my wall in the kitchen I put the photo there as proof I DID IT ..finally.. and well..Ya, I got paint on me, the floor and did you know those roller thingies the paint goes up inside, then they drip? lol..hey! Ive never painted with rollers before..I used brushes, I wasnt allowed dangerous stuff like that..lol..I got some on my tablecloth, and on even the white trim..but this paint is washable.. just wipe it up..THANK GOD!!! See my hands ? I did not wash it just so I could tell on myself lol.. Hey ..the wall looks good..and I did it all my own self lol.. This wasnt easy.believe me.. but I like the blue. That wall looks nice, but it still needs something else,, I dont know what..But it has to have daisies..white ones with the bright yellow centers..I put that old bird cage stand in the kitchen and put a plant in it..No..not real silk.. I cant have real plants.My son does NOT allow me to have real plants.. I tried..no no..as the boy grew..he found there is DIRT in a REAL plant.. Many times I had to drag him out of my ivy, thinking he was hiding. Even if its hanging in the birdcage stand.. he WILL try to get it.. I had to pull him out of that even..he had jumped from the dining room table up into it.. Hes bad...lol.. so I have just learned what is allowable around this cat..These 2 are so different its amazing.They have been fighting quite alot lately that I have had to yell at them to break it up.. The comparison to children children is astounding..I get busy..and they want attention they know exactly what to do..Both will get in front of my monitor and walk back and forth..Dutch found out since I have this new slim one that now he can walk all the way around it..so when he decides its time for attention he goes round and round. till I yell at him to "GET OFF!!!" then he DOES run lol..Kids.. I did get alot done though..look at my desk and the wall above the chair..Do you have any idea how hard it was to pound that nail in to hang that bloody picture there above the desk? well..let me see. I tried from front of the desk, then I tried from the side, then I tried at an angle..THEN I had to figure out a way to hold the stinkin nail AND pound it in at the same time all stretched out from my chair! I bet I dropped that nail 6 times..now this is holding on to the nail with my grabber..so I take the grabber, look at it.. and realize..hmmm im holding this really hard, well so I wouldnt drop the nail yes? well also the stupid thing wouldnt pound into the wall I was holding it so tight!!! I couldnt hit it that hard now, so..anyway, I get it in..and I lift the picture up and the nail falls out..this is a sheet rock wall, the studs are not even..well I had to do another nail.DO NOT LOOK behind the picture lol..:-) anyway theres the proof the picture is hung, I hung my clock above the chair, and even my burgundy candles in their brass candleholders are all lined up on the desk as well..I kinda didnt like that picture and I hadnt planned on my candles there, but they look kinda nice.. so maybe for a while I will keep them there until I see what I can get for over by the mirror..that wall is next its just BARE..lol..So ok..I get a pat on the back now and a nice Atta Girl, I worked hard today.. :-) I think I may have to put risers under the legs on my bed..lol.. well its kinda hard to drag my butt up and back into my chair.. its not a huge distance, maybe a few inches..but when you wake up and have to make a potty call or just get up in the morning..well me, for one,, Im not at my strongest you know? so this GORGEOUS weeble butt kinda DRAGS..lol..even though its not much..it really is when you have to pull backwards..thats how I do it anyway..I honestly dont know how other amps do their getting into bed etc. I made up my own way..No one honestly really ever told me OR showed me how to do what I had to do..They did teach me how to use the board, to safely transfer out of the bed using it..which I dont..I only use the board to transfer into a car..not in here..But I taught myself really...specially the pottying part..I guess being a sak first for almost a year..that when I became a dak I knew how to maneuver in the bathroom..well..I just made up what was easy and safe for me.. I saw a dak young woman fall when she was in the bathroom, even before I lost my legs..I was in rehab in Indiana, and there were 4 daks there..The one girl..young..only 20's..a real sweetie..fell..she was trying to turn I guess .. but she got stuck between the toilet and the wall..AND got hurt.. so no ..I am NOT turning ..no.. who said the rules were you cant sit facing the back anyway? I havent seen them lol.. :-) My Dolly brought a dinner to me.. talk about good..wow..I mean.. Dawn did good today.. Then later..Penny came by with dinner! IT was excellent..I LOVE pumpkin pie..that is my VERY BEST FAVORITE.. ..well I like blueberry and lemon too..no its my fav. lol..I LOVE pumpkin bread too..MMM.. well now im on food.. why is it when you write about food you get hungry or even talk about it.. I talk on voice with my Dear English friend with the wonderful accent or Blue..and food is talked about I get hungry! amazing.. I think though that is a subject that ANY age grouping can always talk about..brings everyone into a conversation lol specially women with recipes..Although I do know some men that are EXCELLENT cooks that really like getting good recipes. Men make wonderful cooks I think because they are more avid eaters than women, not that they enjoy it more..but they are more seen showing their big appetites... I see these women that are cooking.. like this Rachel Rae, shes so pretty, lots of teeth..and talks very fast while she cooks..then flips her long hair around, and looks anorexic..she must not eat all this food she prepares! There is another one that does a show that is just SO pretty..some bash (party) dinners..she is SUPER skinny. I watch that Emeril.. too.. all these cooking shows make all this elaborate stuff that I dont keep in my fridge !!! lol..But I do like the food shows tho..I like the ones where they travel around going to restaurants and small cafes..or recommended places in small towns.I enjoy that, and THOSE places are where you get the GREAT full bodied meal..not one that should be up in a frame on the wall. lol.. I like fancy yes..but..I like plain and GOOD and lots of it.. lol..But then dont we all..in no matter WHAT it is lol... Well Happy Thanksgiving..I am not done counting my blessings and I know I will not have a day that I dont have at least one..I have my boys..thats a daily one..so is my computer..and most of all ALL my dear friends that live here in this machine..that I can visit with every day, that write or tell me all those sweet kind things.. Blessings never end.. :-) and this GORGEOUS weeble has Many,Many blessings..Nitey Nite..:-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks bunches :-) Always, Lois**** God Bless you is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe until I write again..

~Frosting~

We have frosting out side this morning..and it was only 25

degrees..or -2 C. Thats what I call when the ground is all white

and sparkly in the sun as it comes up..the trees, ground all the

rooftops..its really kinda pretty. Any live flowers still going like mums

I bet bit the dust though..thats not real warm..I took the 2 photos,

I wish that screen wasnt there..thats what makes the picture grainy,

the windows are painted shut on the inside here.. I wish they could be

opened, but I think that would be a big job. there are 2 windows in

every room so..only 8 in this house. I think once the windows

are covered right..and sealed it will nothing to heat these 4 little

rooms..There should be some sort of weatherization program ..
My friend Gray informed me on that..So I will make some phone

calls about that.. I dont mind doing what ever I have to do to

get what I really need.. Im not one to take something or do some

thing that wont benefit me just for the sake of taking or because

its free.. If I dont need it..well I wont take it..let those that DO need

what ever it is get it..Look at the ground and you can just see the

frost that was out there, I wish you could see the sparkles. This

is just a light frost..

I know I sure am ready to get my power chair up and running. This

carpet is killer..I dont know when they plan to get the runners..but

as thick as this carpet is..I dont know if that would work either..I

think the bare floor is best..Only ones walk around here in their

bare feet are the boys..and I dont think cats notice if their feet are

warm or not.. Funny. I dont have feet, legs..and they have never

seen me with any..but when someone comes here? LB is bad

about rubbing on their legs..or sticking his head in their shoes if

they take them off..He loves feet..lol..My sister in the summer time

wears these open toed sandals..LB sees her toes..and he takes

his little cold wet nose and tries to push it between her toes..drove

her NUTZ lol...he wouldnt stop..she laughed..she doesnt wear

sandals here much tho anymore either.. Stanley,,, well hes not

the greatest animal lover..he Tolerates them ..my cats especially,

he knows he has NO choice and better be nice or my sister will

RAG on him ALL the way home lol.. he did once..made the mistake

of picking Dutch up by his tail!!! I came unglued.. He was very

small..but still.. I got so mad.. I locked both cats up and told Stanley

I was protecting HIM...he mess with my boys again he was in

big trouble.. I could hear my sis just giving him all kinds of crap

about "WHY did you TOUCH that CAT! , you KNOW how she feels

about them STANLEY!!!" lol..Its funny now, back then, I was mad..

BUT I KNOW he heard it all the way home as well lol..tell him

Shirley lol... ;-)

She and I are really surprised how much we are alike even though

we hadnt been raised together and didnt meet until we were in

out 30's.. She loves to sew and craft..I do too..we are both very

accomplished seamstresses..we each have our own style you

could tell whos work is whos, we are both creative..and neither

of us..take CRAP..Ask the utility people in Elkhart..lol They knew

us both, specially the phone company for awhile it was bad..

I had to call about the bad way they installed my phone..I was

really mad,they said I should have watched the installer to make

sure he put that box thingie where I wanted..Ok..that was MY job?

no I dont think so..but the thing was..what made me so mad..is

this moron put that box thingie so I couldnt close my basement

door !!! now? HE didnt know enough to NOT put it there? Well
I called and this lady I talked to .was in the local office.. My sister

happened to be in there at the same time and this lady says..

"Some customers are just SO hard to please..never satisfied"

my sister could see the screen on her monitor,, saw it was ME,

her sister, this clerk person was talking about ..lol yeahhh.. My

sis says .."I hate to tell you this.but you should not be talking

about customers like that to another customer especially when

the one you are complaining about is my sister... " the woman

looks at Shirley , turned 4 shades or red and blue , excused

herself and left, another lady came and finished helping my

sister..LOL.. True story..lol..She is just like me..People need

to do their jobs..and do them right..and she is the same as

me with the "HEY..lets do this NOW" shes good.. I would put

her photo here but I didnt ask her..but i will, shes a good

sister..very good..I would be lost with out her ..Shes the one

stuck with me those 2 years of hell..came every week end, even

when I didnt know it or remember it.. she was there..shes one

of my blessings.. I may have them all named by tomorrow..I

dont know..im close but they dont stop..so I guess I cant name

them all can I? :-)

I made some killer sauce yesterday, like a spaghetti sauce, then

cooked it on low..its so nice at my little lower work area there in

the kitchen! Its not bad at all...My wheelchair fits up under close

to the table..and I dont have the pan in my face.. Today I added

elbow macaroni and corn to the sauce and cooked it for a

few more hours and made like a goulash.. its very good. Penny

was here today..let me tell you is my house getting cute.the kitchen?

I first saw that deep dark royal blue I said OMG..what the....and I

did NOT like it.. NOW? I do..lol...the darkness of the walls..the bright

white of the trim, doors and cabinet, windows..then I have the

yellow..bright yellow, curtains are small yellow and white gingham

check. . cute? yeahhh it is.. I happened to have a little thingie of

silk flowers of daiseys..one of my favorite flowers.. I had so many in

my garden..all heights.. I put those in a white vase, then I put the

same material table cloth on the table..I found a picture thats blue,

with daiseys..hung it above the table, you see.. Now..DONT look

at the white line still there lol..well I just didnt want to tackle the

paint thing again..but I will tomorrow..so look at that photo and then

you can see one tomorrow where the line is gone..just to prove

that I did DO it!!! lol.. well what im gonna DO now is get some

goulash , find my bed, and say Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks ! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Not A Good Start~

I got up this morning and got my little cup at a time coffee

brewer ready, poured the water in, put in the coffee, closed

the lid....turned it on..and rolled over to feed the boys that

were doing circles in front of their empty dishes..They are

eating alot lately.they HAVE to have food first, after I put

their dish down, .well I turn around to wait for the cup of

coffee to finish and I hadnt put the cup under the dripper

thing and the coffee was going all over the table..and the

floor and just every where!!! I grabbed a towel and sat

for a minute and SERIOUSLY considered going back to

bed.. If this was a sign of what was ahead today ..hmmm..

i dunno.. I thought twice let me tell ya.. but can you believe

it? I didnt put the cup under? DUH!!! Bad Start! :-)

I honestly didnt do a whole lot today, I tried to empty some

boxes and just was moving stuff from one place to the

other and nothing where it should be.. I was just re arranging

clutter lol. I did clear off the little table next to my desk so I

can hook my 3 in 1 back up and scan some photos so I can

have some more stuff to write about lol.. Like I dont have

enough already lol.. I did make a big pot of spaghetti sauce

though..It smells so good in here..I have it in my wonderful

crock pot..I use that thing so much..its really handy..its one

of those double kind thats easier to clean, just take the

bowl out..and wash that..lots easier..I did try out my new hot

plate today , to brown the ground meat ..it worked pretty

good..I think it would have cooked better if the bottom of my

pan was flat lol.. well its old and I leaned over and looked at

it and only the very center is sitting on the burner lol.I think I

could use some new ones..I'll make some angel hair pasta.

I love that its my favorite.. :-) i keep on like this and all that

weight I lost will find me if im not careful lol...

I got a call from Que today from the Shelter, she informed me

that my rent will be 60.oo a month. It is half what my rent was

at the other place, so it works out where I am really about the

same level..as my gas will be 55 a month.. I will be the same.

which is fine, it was a no frills but I made it ..I was so worried

that It would be even more..which then it would make it hard..
They give me food stamps..which i deeply appreciate, but they

make no allowance for the dry products..i mean like paper stuff

or cleaning supplies, laundry, or personal care items..it has to

be paid by cash..I wish they would have a little allowance for it

it sure would help.. I know just not getting that little box of free

food a month makes a big difference...every little thing helps

when your budget is tight.. I am just glad I wont really feel any

financial difference, to stay the same, not worse is all I ask.

sure a raise would be nice..but..well this is just fine!!!

Que said that she may be able to get a grant for me to be

able to get a ramp built..It doesnt bother me I cant go out. I

could go out before and didnt.. I will admit..while I was in the

shelter there were some times I did enjoy going out..specially

to eat..I did enjoy that. but I didnt go out before..I can surely

stand it now.. I did get my lunches re delivered from COA..

those wonderful ones that are "guess what it is" no- Im grateful

to have them, and I shouldnt complain when things are given

to me for nothing.. I just feel that they could make their lunches

a little more appetizing..to look at a container and the food in

it looks like its already been eaten..well. I just cant eat it..Then

when Dutch smells it. and tries to bury it? no .. I wont even try

to taste it.. Dutch is a good judge..that cat tastes EVERY

thing I eat..he has to have a bite or two.. LB? naaa he doesnt

care..he will come up and smell it. look at it..and slowly walk

away after giving me a 'you expect ME to eat THAT?' look..

hes fussy but ..he DOES like raw coffee grounds.. every other

morning or so..he will get up on the arm of my chair telling me

he needs a taste of coffee.. I put some in a spoon and he licks

it off .. We're weird here..but happy lol..

I seem to put more photos of Dutch here than LB..which is not

intentional..its just that HE gets in the picture when I take them

of something else.. I wanted to show you a beautiful face..LB

is such a love.. hes a wonderful cat..so easy going..but get him

riled, and wound up..or Touch his girl friend or Dutch..well hes

a cat of a different color then..very protective.. I woke up with

all 3 of them by me this morning and of course I reach out to

see who all is on the bed..naturally I feel meowmeow first..

ICK..I hate when I do that.. I try VERY hard NOT to touch that

stuffed cat any other place but the very end of its tail lol.. :-)

Penny comes tomorrow so we will get some more work done.

shes really good and very eager to help me with what ever I

need.. I like her..so do the boys..they wait for her now..sit by

the door..Did you know cats are almost better watchdogs than

dogs? They dont bark..but they will stare at the door or go up

to it and sit there waiting.. I would faint if they barked lol.. But

with us..well anything is possible in this weebles house lol..

Time to log off and see what is on the tube and finish doing up

my living room...Its a mess from moving stuff back and forth and

not accomplishing anything lol..im good at that, one of these

days I WILL get this all done lol..just a matter of time.. time to

say . Nitey nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Butterfly Birthmark~

I put that, not really great, photo of me up there so you could

really see my birthmark and why I have the name ButterflyLois.

You can see the shape of it..It is almost a perfect one.. Over

there on the right - you see a thingie says my stories..in there

is the one about how I got my name. the stories are on my

bravenet site. Get a chance ..read it.. its true. Most of my photos

dont really show my birthmark as clearly, if I put make up on it

I can hide it quite well, the butterfly is very obvious as you can

see..it makes me very different, and now being a dak I am for

sure VERY different..a GORGEOUS weebly butterfly dak :-)
My hair is sure getting long!!!

I met some people when I went down to the bayous of Louisiana

for a wedding and some people there thought it was just wonderful

and would you believe they wanted to color it in like it was real?

One said they wouldnt mind having one of their own.. I know growing

up with this on your face was NOT an easy thing..children are so

honest and straight to the point, I dont think they really intentionally

would hurt me..but you know how kids are sometimes. Ive been

very self conscious about it all my life, since my dads reason for

it when I was very young that helped me like it...and accept it..

I think with that stigma that ive had to deal with made me even

more prone to stares or looks. And now being in this chair well

I get even more looks..everyone looks at someone in a chair..

I do..I always wait to catch the persons eye..and smile..just to

let them know its ok, that they are who they are..Sometimes I

have noticed looks on some faces, and I can see the questions..

'wonder what happened' or 'I bet shes a diabetic'.. i have

done the same thing..it doesnt bother me at all..I look back and

smile and if they hold my gaze then I will speak to them..Id

rather sit in a room full of people, like a waiting room, and talk

to everyone than just sit there and twiddle my thumbs waiting for

a chance to go back and wait some more !!! These waiting rooms

just gripe me..I have YET to go into one where they have a spot

already prepared for a wheelchair..when I go to my dr. they have

no spot for one AND when I go into the back part there isnt any

back there either and I have to wait in the hall for them to drag

the stuff out so I can fit in..wheelchairs take up alot of room...

I made a couple phone calls today and still no progress with the

ramp situation.. I am finding this really hard to accept there HAS

to be other people here that have had to have ramps.. I see them

on houses thru town..theres a house about a block down the

street that has the same kind that would work out front here..I'm

not in any hurry to go out..I dont have any where to go..but if I do

want to go..I like to know I can.. I am just really amazed that of all

these disabled agencies that no one has any resources for getting

one for me. I did call and put an ad in the paper to see if I can sell

this stand up recliner I have..with that money I will put it towards a

freezer or a washer/dryer combo.. I think getting the washer/dryer

should come before the freezer though..I can wait for that cuz I have

my HHA now and I can get groceries..I just like some of the quick

foods you can keep in a freezer, and a supply..snow country you

never know.. . . I think however..the laundry aids would maybe be

the best things to get next, then if worse comes to worse I can do

my own laundry..not like I will run out of clothes lol.. I do have a few.
I like clothes as well as jewelry..I havent worn earrings in ages

tho.. I should.. I have quite a few pairs of them.. All the company

ive had the past week I should..not as though they would improve

my looks..that would be impossible GORGEOUS cant be made

better it already is the best !!...you knew I would say that. :-)

Penny came today..shes so pretty and tiny little thing..im all clean

and she hung curtains in the bathroom for me.. The boys are getting

used to her she likes cats which is a good thing.. I think they miss

Raelynn though..Dutch loved her.. she played with him so much..

she would grab him up ..hold him tight and kiss the daylights out of

him and he would wiggle and squirm, pretending to try to escape..

then jump down.. he plays string with Penny she cant help it..he

brings it to us..He brought me his string when I was in the bathroom

this morning at 4 am ..lol..ready to play.. Ive been up since then!!!

Needless to say I am tired.. I think its catching up with me again

time to slow a bit..I know when I over do. today I am so tired..not

sleepy tired..just wore out tired.. I just wanna lay and wallow all

over my bed like a big shooshy weeble. I would fall asleep and

be up with the birds again lol.. I guess fighting that paint incident

yesterday wore me out.. that was pitiful..was like looney tunes lol..

all thats missing is the goofy music to my antics lol.. Im gonna

find some supper.. I got the COA lunches delivered again and

today was spaghetti I didnt eat it then but I maybe will nuke it and

eat it now.. Penny brought us some McD's sausage biscuits over

this morning she was here at nine.. was so good.. :-)

I love good food, I keep eating and I wont notice my being

thinner anymore tho hmmm that may not be good ;-)

nitey nite !! :-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Sunday Photo~

Your sunday photo with my blessings..hope you like it. :-) its hard to

focus from over there. oh well..blink and dont look..just read lol :-)

Thanksgiving is this thursday..and you know Ive been thinking

I maybe better start counting my blessings now, by the time

thursday gets here I should have them all named I have had so

many.. to name my blessings these past months, with the steadily

increased blessings..daily..some kind or another.. Its been so

great..I think these ups are so good when we get there that THAT

is what really keeps us going.. it does me.. I mean as hard as

this life is? I could be sitting in a nursing home..sure I would have

to share a room with a Dearie, but I would be waited on hand

and foot all I had to do was put the light on and someone was

there to do for me. I just dont wanna give up maybe.. I kinda like

it out here.. I NEVER ever thought that I would ever end up in a

homeless shelter.. and I dont think I can ever describe the feelings.

not exactly..its the same as trying to explain the extreme loss I

feel about my legs.. Its so deep inside..that I dont think I can find

the words.. Its NOT a good feeling. And until I experienced it.. I

mean..do I appreciate this? This house? LOL..yessss I DO!!!

I bet every day, I thank the Lord for it, for all my steadfast friends.

and where I am now..safe, secure..happy, and I wont say no worries

because, I do have some..THATS my middle NAME!!! lol I am

a worrier..I started counting though :-)

I have a friend in Australia..I dont know if my friends would want me

to say names etc.. some I do because they leave me those sweet

nice comments I like to read..:-) Blue, in Australia..says "G'Day !"

A dear friend, we talk on the phone..and he says I talk funny lol.. He

has a wonderful accent but.. no offense..but y'all got the accent y'hear?

lol...sometimes Blue talks very fast..and I say "huh" he S L O W S

way down lol.. Raife has a accent too..hes UK British and what a love,

I pick on him all the time..he reads this and sees all the grammatical

errors I make with my writing style..well..keeps it interesting .. My spell

checker doesnt check grammar and punctuation'n stuff. :-) good thing

it would probly fault out..:-) Its one of the perks of being the writer lol...

I enjoy knowing who reads this, i do..I smile when I get a letter from

someone telling me they enjoy reading this saga of life with the weeble

family lol.. :-) well the boys dont weeble. :-) I get a kick out of some of

the comments too.. I get up in the morning and get coffee , and first

thing I do is look for the comments and read email.. after I feed the

boys of course.

Today, I tried - I Did- paint the kitchen ...sort of...well it was one of

those bull in a china shop syndromes again.. I hit the paint pan..one

of those big roller kind? with the back tippers..just the right height to

hook that bloody pan, they stick out you can see one in the photo

lol..well.. I turn the wheel the pan goes.. i turn the other way I cant

reach the pan.. I sat there... I was SO MAD.. WHY does this crap

happen to make it even harder when I am doing a good thing hmmm?

well Fooey.. I bet I must have kept turning back and forth a dozen times

trying to grab that pan.. I finally take the arm up..it doesnt come off just

tips back up..and get the roller, its on a long handle-I put it in the pan..

note ROLLER? ok..well I reallllly hold it down tight.. so that

it would STAY in the pan..you KNOW it did yes? well.. out it came..

I was holding it DOWN ..so it came out of that pan..off the end

and did the FLOOR!!!.. I just sat..so I finally leaned way back and

around till I got to the tipper nubbie..this was NOT easy. I had to

turn totally around in my chair to reach the tipper..and..yes I got

it off.. it FELL right into the PAINT.!. :-( i couldnt believe this crap.

lol.. I mean..so.. I roll.-.away from the pan..so I can pick it up..

you KNOW what I did then yes? I rolled thru the paint where I

painted the floor.am I good or what ? I had to laugh at me.. I sat..

did NOT move.. reached for a towel..and put it on the floor over

the paint..and made sure the tire was clean and came in here

back to the desk.. lol.. I'm afraid to go back in there.. lol..

Is THAT a domino effect ?? I am so bad.. Im not good in these

chairs... Donnie dreads when I am in my power chair ..in fact

when I said I will have to use it now his first words were "I'm

not coming over there your in that chair..your dangerous" I

ran over Dutch once in it..and Lord..that cat SCREAMED. I

ran over my friend Debbies cousins foot..while he was helping

to move my desk.long time ago..and poor guy I saw it go over

and I stupidly backed up and ran over it again!!! he Cringed..

just got the tips of his toes...didnt hurt he said..lol.. Im so bad..

Chairs are not that easy to maneuver..trust me..I get stuck so

many times a day in this thing that I just have to stop or just

SWEAR ugly words lol.. :-) How is it I can only go ONE way

when I get stuck!!! then if the wheel jams..well fooey I have

to reach down and try to get my weight off that front wheel to

be able to turn it so I can move! see? it aint easy..not all just

cruising smooth no no lol.. but Im grateful I have it.. I dont do

floors ..lol no way. Im not draggin nuthin on the floor lol..

I did get the floor wiped up in the kitchen..thank goodness

that dark blue paint is washable....the linoleum in there is

almost white..its very light and the blue shows up.. I looked

again ,, I see I missed some from the last time when I dropped

the paint brush.. I got the baseboard.:-) :-) . Im not good at

painting..I dont know how i get it on me so bad..and all over

everything..I should not be allowed around it.. Sometimes I

worry if I get that huge 5 gallon bucket of paint open..the lid off

that could be a disaster in the making you know? lol.. I was bad

enough with this quart can lol..hmmm I might better reconsider

opening and using that lol..

I have slept all night for the past 4..im so grateful..but I am

noticing..Im getting up earlier..4:30 this morning.. I lay there

and try to go back to sleep ..and get to thinking of all I want

to do and where I want to put stuff and I get anxious to do it..

then Im awake.. I went to bed early last nite..i watched a bit

of cops..not all of it I dont think..lol. I had some of the sauer

kraut..sure was good..the 24 hour slow cooking is just great.

Im off to get the last doughnut..I love them.. specially the

blueberry cake ones.. M M M..Nitey Nite.

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..