~End Of September Already?~

Well this is the last day of September, I have no idea

where this month went. I know it seemed to fly right by.

But then it will be a year pretty soon that ive been in this

house. When I think of where I was a year ago.. I guess

I have made some progress..been a hell of a fight, but

well.. Im still kickin so to speak..invisibly but kickin...The

photo here was one taken back on the 9th I think ..so its

still up to date.. I found an old video I made 2 years ago,

and I had NO idea that I did.. I don't remember it at all.

Its not real good quality but I was a real amateur then too..

I was going through,, no, I was snooping and going thru

files that I didn't know I had..well I did but I never looked

in them.. I know to empty temporary Internet files which I

do religiously, but this video and lots of other things I didn't

know I had were in a Internet File..not the temporary one..

I took that video out of it anyway, and nothing drastic

happened to my computer..which I was afraid it would if

I took anything out of that.. I do ok with puters but I still

have a lot to learn..Long as I can post this and send email

and GET email Im good..

I had promised to put some photos here off and on showing

the ends of my stumps... The left one I don't think that scar

will ever do right.. I have to keep the 'blue gel' on it all the

time or it gets really dry and looks awful.. I keep a close check

on that scar.. As long as that thing took to heal..over a year, I

sure don't want problems with it again... The right never gives

me problems.. it hurts more than the left..it always has since

the beginning.. It sleeps all the time..which I don't know if that's

how they are supposed to feel or not.. I say sleep as in that

tingley feeling.. when the circulation is cut off and your foot or

hand will fall asleep.. I fell asleep once, when I had legs, I was

in the nursing home.. my legs were hanging over the edge

of the bed.. I woke up fast, as I had to potty, I went to stand up

and went right to the floor, my legs were still asleep and hadnt

woke up when I did.. :-)

Tomorrow may possibly be a busy day, with phone calls and I

am not sure if Heidi will be here or not she hasnt let me know.. I

am a bit disappointed that Ive not heard from her when she said

she would be here last Tuesday, but I know the kid stays busy ,

but a phone call would have been nice.. Penny will be here and

we have a lot to do,, I want to get that basement fixed , all my

things down there I have a feeling are already ruined...I will have

her bring up what she can and hopefully will be able to salvage

it.. I hope so..If I can get rid of this chair and put my machine

there I may be able to rig it up somehow so I can use that thigh

lever on it.. I think so.. I have 4 skirts that I need to repair.. Ive

ripped them and its too long a rip to sew by hand..machine is

so much faster...plus I have this new leopard set to fix.. I still may

get the black, I ve wanted a black satin skirt for quite a while now.

I have to call COA and see If they have me scheduled for a ride

to the vascular guy on Tuesday and I want to call that woman, the

new Dr and see whether she is taking new patients.. Be nice if

she was then I can get under the care of ONE Dr not a new one

every time I go.. I hate that.. how can a Dr know their patients if

every time they go to a new office..This clinic is having a hard

time..and MANY have Complained.. Me for one..ive done that

since I started going there, The staff is not the most conscientious

kind.. I think they just go to get a paycheck..

I had to take a nap today, my back is hurting so bad, right in

between my GORGEOUS angel wings as I call them..right dead

center of my back.. and It is impossible to give your self a back

rub.. Ive tried.. I push back against the back of this chair..and

depending how bad it is..that sometimes helps... I could use a

good back rub.. I just have to find a volunteer now! :-) Im taking

applications you know :-)

The boy is stopping by on his way back from some week end

race they went to.. I called and told Dawn I didn't have enough

room in my freezer for all this popcorn chicken I got for them..

If they come today and get it..it should be fine.. I kept it in the

fridge and tightly sealed.. I know they've un thawed but if they

take them and nuke them, then freeze - should be fine.. There

was no way I could cook them for them..just too many and as

small as my work space is in the kitchen, would take me a

LONG time.. I spend an hour fixing food its gonna be for MY
DINNER! :-)

I didn't eat lunch today I napped through it..hoping when I got

up my back would feel better, sadly it doesn't, but I am still

a bit hungry and I have some of those good sizzler steakums..

and with some sauteed onions..and I have some really good

kaiser rolls, will be a VERY good sandwich.. and IM starved !

Time for this GORGEOUS WEEBLE to venture out into the

kitchen and make this sandwich a reality..then eat it.. then

clean up the mess then fix a kool aid, and head back to my

bed.. and some TV... "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~A Quiet Saturday~

What a Saturday, I mean I was hoping since I felt better that I

would have a nice quiet day.. I did to a point..I got my Angel Food,

that filled my freezer right up to the hilt, I will eat like a queen this

month with the steaks and ribs and chicken and even some great

stuffed manicotti..now that's good stuff.. I can put them into a pan,

get the meatballs out of the freezer..get that bag I have of my

left over sauce, put them all together and that spells a GREAT

dinner.. Im sitting here making my self totally hungry..and its NOT

time to eat :-)

I got a very interesting call today, I was surprised and caught off

guard as I was NOT expecting it or the news I got today.. I got a

call from Big Daddy Ken today.. Apparently he is taking over his

son's duties as far as being my landlord.. Now.. I KNOW what has

probably happened..Chris went whining to his dad, probly little Kenny

too..and BigDaddy is taking over.. WHich I am really glad..I hope hes

a better business man than his sons are.. They show me nothing.. I

wouldn't hire them that's for sure...

Ken asked about my balance of the rent and did I have the cancelled

checks and did I have a record of what I paid..which I have my checks.

well the bank does..but I can get copies they keep everyones checks

on whats called fische... I used to work for a bank..and I could look up

anyones activity and get copies of all they wrote.. Anyway.. Ken is

complaining because CMH is not paying the rent on the first of the

month.. but my lease papers say rent is on the 15 I thought the 1st

but I was wrong.. its the 15 its due...

Anyway, Ken is coming by Wednesday and of course you know I

will document it.. I made Ken aware of the fact that every day I have

lived in this house along with the problems..they are all documented

by this blog..and by the photos I have.. I printed out every post since

I moved into this house and I can give them to Ken if he wants it all

documented as to what Chris has or hasnt done... I don't know how

CMH is going to react or Keystone when they realize that this place

is NOT up to grade..that many things that were to be done arent..

I asked Ken if he wanted to get this house listed as a HUD house,

he said he would check into it... I gave him the number of the man I

was told handles it.... I will be glad when all this is straight..

I havent heard anything from Heidi or Keystone about that house on

the river and I sure wish I would..Monday is Heidis regular time to

come by so hopefully she will...and then we can discuss my making

a move.. I asked Ken if he had a house on the river or lake..and he

said he does but they are more expensive... which of course I knew.

I need to get some extra income then I wouldn't have to worry about

how much the rent is.. better yet..be nice to own my own then all I

have to worry about is the taxes and insurance.. One of these days.

I slept pretty good last nite..only got up twice..and went right back to

sleep after I banged my way through the 3 doorways.. I have the

hardest time at nite.. I have knocked the paint off them in lots of

spots.. but I cant help running into them.. I just barely make it thru,

I don't dare put my hands on the wheels they would get smashed

going thru the door way.. My chair only squeaks through.. I keep

hoping it will learn the way all by itself and I only have to go along

for the ride..Be nice if I had a chair I could program.."go to bathroom"

or "go to bed" and it would automatically go there.. would save

a lot of wear and tear not only on the walls..and chair but me too..

specially my poor elbow.. :-)

My elbows better but not gone. It hurt last nite for a while, I notice

if I touch a certain spot it WILL HURT! :-) so I don't touch that spot!

I know its still there but its not as bad as it was.. Since the Dr doesn't

seem to think I need anything more for it..and to call if I have any

more problems .. I guess its just a matter of putting up with it..

Ive had it 4 months now? so it may have decided that it aint goin

away ! that would not be good.. but well I guess just something

else I would have to adjust to.. Im not going to keep running to

the Dr for every little thing.. Monday tho I am calling that new Dr

and see if I can be a new patient.. I think that would be smart to do.

Well smart thing to do NOW is to feed myself some of that good

food I got today.. I havent eaten all day so needless to say this

GORGEOUS WEEBLE is starved.. Time for food, TV, and

sleep- LATER... I hope . "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Am So Tired~

Im really tired today for some reason.. I don't really know

why.. I slept later today even, till 7:30.. as this day as gone

on.. I have gotten more and more tired..that's why I am

posting this early.. I am going to lay it down and see if I

can get these two stumps of mine to calm down.. Ive noticed

that when I get really tired, as in BONE tired, my stumps

will ache and throb and feel like they are 20 times bigger and

ready to explode.. The pressure is amazing.. I steady shift

my weight and not a lot will help.. I was sitting here a while

back comparing how they each felt..and my left..the foot was

hurting so bad , for something to NOT be there and hurt like

that just is sometimes hard to deal with.. No matter what I do

sometimes nothing will ease it up.. We had a bad storm last

nite and I know when the weather is crappy they hurt..moreso

than normal.. why this pressure seems to build in them I have

NO IDEA.. I know I don't like it at all..

Penny was here and has me all clean and squeaky for the next

few days... She thinks her sister may want to buy this recliner

chair I have.. Its still in great shape just needs some cat damage

repair..and Kathy has some ladies that live with her that could

use it.. Kathy is Pennys sister and she runs an Adult Foster Care

home here.. Very nice place..and Kathy takes very good care

of them.. This chair would be nice for some of them there.. I hope

she does take it.then I can move my machine in here and fix all

the skirts I need to hem..and all the other stuff I want to make..

not counting the extra money from selling it...

I had ordered a treat for myself..that I saw in a catalog..and the

price was really cheap.. and I couldn't pass it up..the material

alone is worth it.. What it is..is like a pants suit.. its LEOPARD

SATIN.. its got the jacket..but comes with PANTS.. well this

GORGEOUS WEEBLE..you KNOW does NOT do pants.. So..

I am going to make them into a skirt..very easy to do.. I think it

will be wonderful..with a black satin blouse under it? I think it

would look really nice..Be perfect to wear over to that casino

over by the lake.. I may take some photos just to show I have

worn pants as a DAK.. I honestly don't know how some can

wear pants all the time.. specially those spandex kind...

Even with legs those things are hard to pull up..From what I have

learned tho..the tightness of them makes your stumps feel better,

which sounds logical.. But to get them down and off when you have

"special things to do" well I know my self..MANY MANY times I

have been MORE than grateful that I have had a skirt on and

could just lift and "go" :-)... But I know many amputees wear

pants..Even when I had legs.. I wore mostly Dresses or skirts.

most of the time.. when I worked as a sewer i wore skirts then,

but pants on some jobs are better to wear, most of the jobs I

have had I could wear dressier clothes which I liked to do..

I said this was going to be an early post and a short one.. I

am just tired..tired .. tired.. Im gonna get a snack and a bottle

of Kool aid and try to watch tv..fluff my pillows, snuggle my

butt down into my bed..and repeat this same day tomorrow

when I get up.. I don't mind repeats..Im grateful I can get up

and do anything..repeated or not :-) "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and thanks..:-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~How I Feel~

I was talking to a friend today trying to explain how I feel.

and amazinly its really kind of hard to describe!.. I some

times do NOT see me as Disabled.. challenged or handi

capped.. I know I am classified as that.. but I honestly do

feel guilty when I use the phrase "Im a double above knee

amputee, in a wheel chair here, I need...." I feel sometimes

I am using that to get things..or to get my way, and I do

have a hard time with that.. I sit here and I don't have to work,

Im not living like Cleopatra or the Queen, but,, I have a roof,

clothes, food, my bills are paid.. I do ok..most of the time any

way.. But I don't feel I DESERVE..cuz of the no legs...

I mentioned about the nice lady at the phone company that

offered to come here and fix my phone..free of charge, just

cuz she is a nice person.. She asked if I could do it and I

gave her that little speech, I thought..what an excuse.. and I

feel sometimes I just should NOT use that, that its just an

excuse.. I still can do things..its just a lot harder.. but I can

still do most..well almost MOST... I know ive been told that

I do quite well ..that they knew other women that are like me

that have just totally withdrawn and have become totally

helpless and expect that they WILL get waited on or things

just handed to them because they deserve it.. I feel I earn

what I get.....what I work for.. no matter what it is..

I got this mail today and I always forward it to my friends, Its

called Morning Coffee.. the title today was Live a Life that

Matters.. The main thing you leave behind, is how the people

that you have encountered think of you..what kind of impression

did you leave.. a worth while one? one no one would WANT

to remember? I want to be remembered..for being ME, some

one that is at least willing to TRY..and for being a fighter, not

giving up..and for how I treated my family, friends, anyone I

came in contact with... NOT.. as a disabled..or a wheel chair

person..or as someone that DESERVED anything.. I want to

be known as EARNING my reputation..That I was honest,

fair, and a good person.. Like the ones I know I remember,

those that have affected my life.. I can name them I will not

forget them.. they made me who I am today.. A GORGEOUS
WEEBLE.. and I can handle that.. but I honestly don't think

I deserve extra credit, favors..or anything I havent earned or

TRIED to get myself.. This is doable.. sometimes hard..some

times its just a matter of rolling along with the flow as they

say.. I think its as easy or as hard as we ourselves make it..

I bet I was up at least 3 or 4 times last nite.. This new bed is ok,

but its a plastic matress..and hard plastic.. I have found since I

mainly lay in the same spot..that Ive created some wrinkles.. :-)

no not in me..well ..maybe there too..but.. I mean in my bed...
I think as the time goes on this plastic has gotten harder and like

cracked or something..there is a ridge that goes right across

by my hips that sometimes I wake up its digging into my butt

so bad..I know its padded enough you wouldn't think I would

notice butt I DO.. Its like the princess and the pea... I cant sit

on a cushion that has wrinkles in it.. I think I am going to see if

I could get a foam cover or pad for it.. I know I need some new

pillows.. mine are so bad.. I have 4 in front of me when I sit up

to sleep that way, you would think that would be quite high up..

it equals to about 2 the pillows are so worn down.. I have 2 I

put up under my head.. and they are in sad shape too.. I do

think its time to replace them..Ive had them for 6 years now..

and when they are not really good pillows they don't last a

whole long time and keep their fluffy... Feather pillows are my

favorite.. so comfy.. I used to hang those out side too when

I did linens..they smelled great...and fluffed right up...

I didn't eat lunch today was just ...well I don't know what it was,

if I did I probly would have eaten it.. Chris brought the frozen

ones for the week end..and theyre good..They were bringing

the leftover ones from the COA and these are TONS better.

and you get lots of it too.. If they were smart COA would just

use them.. save all the extra help they use to cook these

"wonder what they are" dinners.. There is one thats spaghetti

and meatballs.and I am going to pop that into the nuker and

have that for dinner..watch some tv and hopefully sleep ALL

night tonite.. Why I am getting up at 4 am every day I have no

clue.. but I still am.. guess I dont want to miss any of my

GORGEOUS WEEBLE Days "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and Thanks!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Better Pressure~ :-)

Well seems my blood pressure perhaps is getting under

control.. The nurse was here today and its just about right.

was 170/74 or something like that.. which is pretty good.
Im glad.. I had discussed with her my issues with my Dr and

the nurses there and she did agree that a different Dr every

time you go isnt a really good thing.. There is a new doctor,

a woman, that is taking new patients..and I may go and see

her just to have ONE doctor.. I know im not deathly ill or have

any really serious stuff but things that do need to be kept a

check on to keep them under control.. so I seriously think I

will change Drs.. I did call about the med for my elbow..and

the nurse said the Dr didn't think that I needed to redo the

med for it, something happens, if I have any more trouble

with it again to call them back.. Its not totally pain free but it

is a lot better.. some spots I cant touch but over all I can

handle this..

The nurse and I were discussing phantoms today and I tried

to explain to her just how they feel and it is really hard to

describe something that someone would possibly never feel.

I told her about Monday when Penny was here and cleaning

the wheels of my chair for me.. I can do it..but its not easy ,

the steady bending and reaching..So anyway.. As Penny is

cleaning.. I feel every touch she makes to this chair.. well its

part of me now..its attached :-)..I was sitting here feeling her

touching my chair..and I found myself moving my legs..and

feet to get them out of the way so she could wipe off the tires.

I had to laugh..and told her what I was doing..she laughed too..

The nurse, Tracy, was amazed when I told her if I think real

REAL hard.. I can move each toe.. I can feel them move.. I

can swing my legs..side to side only tho..not out in front of me

like lifting your leg straight out in front of you..I cant do that..

It seems strange since they will go side to side so easily..

I cant always feel my toes.. but I feel the whole foot.. I told her

how sometimes the pain is REAL..she said a study has

proven that these pains are as bad as if the limb was still there

and being hurt.. so maybe that has advanced.. I have an

appointment Oct 2nd with the vascular Dr..

I wasn't going to go to him.. but if I can get a little relief from the

phantoms.. that would be nice..but if not that's ok..then you just

have to endure it.. My fingers on my hands..the tips.. the index

on my right and the middle ring finger..the ends tingle a lot.. and

the ends go to sleep a lot lately.. both hands the tips are dark,

Tracy noticed that today too.. So I will go and see what they say,

I am really curious about the phantoms..and I want to know why

in each of my stumps there is a spot..if I move the bone it will

hit a certain area and it HURTS.. Id like to know.. Ive started a

list of questions.. I might as well find out all I can.. I hope they

don't want to do testing and crap.. just to see if and where and

how much is blocked ..and then say "WAIT" till it gets badder..

but I do want to know if perhaps there is something to just get

a little relief.. specially when it really acts up..I think a lot of it

is hips..which I want to know too..

I know when I lay on my right side.. my hips hurt.. specially the

left.. I know its cuz laying on my side puts pressure on the hip

since that stump is longer by at least...4 inches or so? Just

that little bit does make a difference..but too I think my left

stump is heavier than my right.. and why that is I don't know..

If anything I would think since when I transfer I always use

my left to lead out with that it would be firmer and possibly

smaller.. It could be because of that binder I wore..but then

that was 5 years ago.. but they are different ..in size, shape

and definitely looks.. I would like some relief tho and some

answers so I guess that's the place to logically start.. :-)

The next starting point is in the kitchen where im going to start

my countdown to bedtime.. I got up again at 4 this morning and

I have to say I really AM tired to nite..We got a lot done today,

and Im glad.. Im trying to sell my recliner and made some signs

and Penny took them around for me..Hopefully I may be able

to get a few hundred out of it..if this move goes thru I will need

it for deposit etc.. I know Chris will be just as lax getting that to

me as he is in doing every thing else if I do move..

Food.. Kool Aid.. TV.. sleep.. hopefully in that order :-)

"nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now, y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~A House?~ :-D

Heidi came today but didn't stay long, but just long enough to give

me some encouraging words tho that made me quite happy.

She said she knows of a house for rent here, and it is on the

RIVER!...its only a one bedroom..but she has seen it..and says

its a lot bigger than this..It has a huge yard, and its very kinda

private..has a porch as well..Only thing she said it didn't have a

ramp..but like I explained to her.. my ramp goes with me.. that's

mine..Home Depot had that made for me and it will be loaded

up with all my stuff ..there is NO way I would leave it here for

Chris..as useless as a landlord as he has been... He STILL has

NOT fixed the inside of this living room.. This is since the 26th

of last month when little KennyBoy was supposed to be here..
I am so ready to NOT deal with him anymore..

I have a electric recliner chair here in the living room that I don't

and cant use.. today I made up a sign for Penny to take to the

other places she works advertising its for sale.. Its brand new,

I only sat in it once..and it has only been plugged in once.. but

I know it works..I did check it out the other day..Its a great chair,

will stand you right up..and lay you all the way back..it has a

remote..like for a tv..It has some kitty damage on the front

corner from claws.. LB did it.. hes bad about that .. but I have

material that matches and it can be fixed or I can even fix it..
But if I can sell it.. the money from it could go into my moving

account.. It cost $900.oo.. a lot but..well its really good for some

one that cant get up from sitting.. and its a nice burgundy color..

matches in here..but I don't use it at all.. its not for a amputee..

needs weight on the foot rest to close it..and its the weight of

the legs on it that does it.. well I don't have that.. that's why I got

stuck in it.. Maybe someone is in need of one.. I sure hope so.

Donnie called me after Heidi left and I told him of the possibility

that I would be moving again.. he did NOT say a word :-) He

was silent for a second..then says "gran, its not that long..but,

well you know I will help" .. hes a good kid..well a 43 year old

good kid :-) I know he would help..but maybe I can make some

kind of arrangements to have it done.. and save him from doing

it all like he did last time...and Heidi said she would help ...

Heidi noticed the smell in here..the musty smell of the basement.

and feels its dangerous for me to breathe this.. where I cant smell

it..but that's because I am in it.. Penny hasnt mentioned it..so when

she comes tomorrow ..I will see what she says..I believe Heidi....

sometimes when I go into the kitchen I can smell that.. I know with

out a doubt most if not all my material is gone.. I just hope this

smell hasnt gotten into my chairs down there.. theyre material..

the other power chair is there and my other manual.. There is

nothing worse than musty smell.. my shower chair is down there

but its hard plastic so I don't know if that will permeate that or not.

I hope not cuz then when I do move to another place the smell

will go along.. I would have to put them outside for awhile..which I

could..if there is a porch and they were covered.. Always so many

things to consider.. whats bad..is that I am so limited on what I

can do..

I did call my doctor about my elbow..The pills are done..It is better,

not gone..I can still tell when I put it a certain way..I talked to one

nurse there that totally did NOT understand why I was calling..but

she took the info down and said the Dr would be in tomorrow he

was in surgery today.. A little while later I got a call from there .and

the nurse said I would have to go back in again..I tried to explain

that I was better and again repeated what the Dr said to just call

and let him know.. he would repeat the med.. She said she would

find out and let me know.. About an hour or so..the phone rang

again.. its the Drs office AGAIN.. she says, they asked the other

Dr and he said I would have to come back in and that I would have

to wait until next week for an appointment.. Now..what the heck !

Go back again? he never said that.. I repeated to this woman ,

nurse, secretary or what ever exactly word for word what the Dr said.

I remember, I have perfect recall.. well she says the same as the

other two.. " the Dr is in surgery and I will ask him when he gets in

tomorrow morning" well now that made 3 times they phoned to tell

me the same thing.. no 2. .I called the first time.. I sometimes worry

about these people that are in these offices.. Tell me I had to go back..

well If I had been somebody else..not the big mouth I am.. well I would

have said "ok,, see you next week"..but well I don't think I need to go

back.. if it wasn't better AT ALL..then yes.. but it is markedly better..

Tomorrow I will see what the details are..if they are going to renew

the steroids for another week like he said or what.. Hurry up and wait.

That is the motto for most things I think...

Well this big mouth GORGEOUS WEEBLE.. is hungry as usual.. Just

a light snack..and Some kool aid..TV and sleep.. I got up at 4:00 this

morning.. just woke up and I am really ready to get out of this chair..

My butts kinda numb.. plus I looked on radar..and we are going to have

some thunder storms I think.. which will make my grass grow more

and it needs cut already.. Dutch is fidgeting and that's storm signs..

cant tell by LB..hes snoozin somewhere :- and I will be soon too...

"Nitey Nite".. :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya..and thanks ! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Appreciate the Flowers~

I had taken this photo yesterday and had so many photos on here

last nite, I kept this one for today..Its so pretty.. today the others are

even more open.. I am so enjoying these flowers.. Im so glad

the person that took the time to plant all these took the time to

do it.. was a lot of work..and just forethought to plant things

that came up every year.. I wish I could have gotten out there

to really help them and prune all of the flowers out there.. The

rose of Sharon tree outside is still blooming. Whomever it

was did this.. I hope they know how much I am enjoying all their

hard work..

Penny came today and I showed her the curtains in the bedroom.

Dutch had to get in the window..and pulled the curtains down .. I

had her just take rod and all down..I plan to make an appointment

with Donnie to come and spend a few hours and fix the things that

need done.. the back door lock, the phone jacks, the window now..

and the cable put into the living room for a tv..and maybe he can

rig up a screen for across the door so I can get some fresh air in

and air the house out before winter... Things I really could do my

self...BEFORE...that's what gets to me so much I think every day

almost.. what I can and cannot do anymore. . .

I laugh a lot at things I cant do.. I have to, or I would just get so bent

out of shape about it..and be totally miserable all the time.. and I

wont do that either.. I couldn't and I cant stand drama..daily conflict,

I like to solve dilemas...problems... then move on.. Some I have no

choice but to wait for help..but if I have no choice I will really try to

do something or rig it so until I can get some help to do it..when

THEY have time.. That's the biggest reason its so hard for me to go

shopping by myself..which I guess I could..but I don't want to go up

to perfect strangers..even though I know they would be more than

willing to help me..and ask "Can you reach that for me?" I cant

do that.. I can.. yes..but I really cant get the words out is probly

what I mean.. I would rather choke on them than say them.. I don't

miss the stores..not really.. If I went.. there is so much there now,,I

would want it..and I cant have it.. not on my budget..so why go?

and I don't need to see all the new food stuff..I would have NO

control , I see on TV plenty of the new foods..so I can imagine

what is in the grocery store.. No.. My chair fits fine, I wanna keep

it that way.. :-)

I tried getting that curtain rod and curtain down last nite..it was

about 2 am when Dutch decided he HAD to get in that window

next to my bed.. I didn't pay any attention..as I hear these cats

all the time and I am used to their noises and Dutch is steady

wanting in these windows..at nite..not during the day..cuz Im not

in here..during the day hes in the living room with me..and those

windows I keep the blinds up..well Im not doing that at nite in

my bedroom! no I don't think so just so this cat can see his Shadows.

well ..I heard him going thru the slats..the next thing I feel this

SMACK on top my head..then this material falls all over me..And

im buried under this huge lace curtain..rod and all..the lace was

so heavy it pulled the rod apart when it came off the side..and

so the rod hit me in the head. !. The boy couldn't have done any

better if he had tried.. I had just sat up to sleep for awhile..is

why it could reach me.. If I hadnt changed positions.. It would

have just hung there.. He knew ..Stinker.. So my curtain is in

my power chair..and I will leave it down till I can get the bracket

put up..Penny cant help it shes a shorty with legs... She has to

stand on the bed, which is soft..and can just reach the top of

the window..its hard for her..so I will leave it off till I can get it

fixed better..Looks crappy in there now..but well no one but me

goes in there anyway..well Penny to clean..but ..whether Im not

got matching windows.. I don't guess anyone really cares but

me.. I cant stand it they don't match :-D

Well lm hungry I had a KFC Bowl . was good..I had to eat to take

my 3 pills today..2 tomorrow. Im going to call the dr..my elbow

is definitely better.but its not totally gone..so I will let him know

and see what he thinks.. One more week of these pills I would

think would work since just this one has made such a drastic

difference...Im glad I don't have to have a shot in there..I wont

be off these till tomorrow..last day and a renewal for wed..and

Penny will be here to go to the drug store.. Heidi will be here

tomorrow and I hope she has some answers for my questions..

Specially about the 2 bedroom house for rent on a lake.. I

sure could handle that.. I would be VERY happy..

Time for me to handle some TV and a few of these PB&J

crackers Penny got today.. I like these things, and not at all

expensive..that I am VERY glad..:-) Time for snakin.. and

some TV I hope..for a little while..Im tired so probly wont be

long..then it moren likely will Be a commercial is what will be

on that I'll see..never fails....:-) "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and Thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Who Stole September ?~

Do you see? ONE week left in this month.?? SO...ok..who stole

September now? I mean.. No wonder I cant keep up with

my flippin checkbook! Times goin too fast..:-) Only 3 as

in THREE months to Christmas again? I seem to remember

it as not long ago..few months it seems, I was saying I am

going to get my Christmas stuff done early..but that was for

LAST years Christmas.. I know the saying..Time flies when

your having fun..but I don't remember a lot of the FUN! now,

that is NOT good...
I have noticed since last week that I feel a lot better.. I am

wondering if it is the steroids that I am taking for this elbow?

I feel really good.. and plus the fact I think Ive lost a few of

those pounds I needed to..:-) I have noticed a difference ..I

feel more energetic.. I wonder when I stop these will there

be a big drop? I hope not..I can do that on my own with out

taking these ..:-) My elbow, still is a slight bit sore, depends

which way I put it and touch it.. right on the very end it is

still tender.. but it has improved..I think, like he said if there

is a improvement maybe just another dose of these pills

and I wouldn't have to get that injection.. Which I know I

was NOT going to get.. no way.. I did have a shot once into

my jawbone.. I did..
Years ago.. I thought I had a ear infection..my left ear.. and I

went to my regular doctor, he did all the usual stuff but it didn't

work..so he sent me to a eye,ear,nose & throat guy.. He said

my jaw was going out of line or something..and that I needed

this same kind of injection.. I mean scared? sheesh.. I glanced

at his hand as he came towards me and I almost passed out,

that needle looked big as a ice pick! He said open your mouth

WIDE as you can.. as he is fingering and feeling around right

in front of my left ear, Boy did I ever.. I bet I could have swallowed

a softball.. I felt a push..then another push..and my jaw got real

cool.. then nothing..the pain was gone.. I didn't even feel the

needle at all.. I was shocked I didn't... he was that good.. Ive

had some shots in different parts of my body where you would

think there was enough padding to make it NEVER hurt..ya..

haha.. I mean I had one nurse I think did that deliberately when

they had me on shots for a while in the hell home.. She was

bad.. they really hurt.. she would look for the places she knew

would hurt..and I honestly think she dulled the needle on her

way to my room :-)
I took a couple..ok 3 photos today, I didn't wear one of my new

tops..They need ironed.. and I do feel better and pretty good but

I didn't feel like going thru all the rig-a-marole to get the iron fixed.

I would like one of those steamers.. I wore yellow though since I

do feel better and my elbow is a lot better.. These photos are

from a video..so if you want it..let me know..

I was looking out my kitchen window..and look how my roses have

come back and its got 3 roses on it and a few more to open.. I

was so glad to see that.. Theyre lovely roses and smell really good.

I had to take a photo of them, but I took one of the back yard too..

isnt that a nice yard? I could see a nice lanai and a pool out there.

would be great..with the nice huge tree that the electric company

couldn't get to in back of the garage, it provides nice afternoon

shade back there.. These were taken when I went out there to fix

my breakfast.. Says I have to eat before taking those pills..which

I usually don't eat breakfast, but now I am.. Apple juice works

pretty good to get that taste out of your mouth.. I only had to take

3 of them today...
I took some ground meat out and am going to make what I invented,

well my own recipe I guess, I call it STUFF.. just ground meat, onion,

potatoes, and tomato soup..simmer it..a few spices.. and its really

good.. I havent made it in ages.. I prefer campbells tomato..to me

it has the best seasonings...for this anyway... Time to cook.. and Im

hungry.. "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and Thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Wild Week~

This has been a wild week. I don't think I have had this

much company in a long time.. at least 2 sometimes 3

visitors every day since Monday.. Im NOT complaining at

all by any means.. I enjoy it.. Boy, I just get to talk and talk,

now what can be better than that! :-) I enjoyed every visit..

and they were really nice ones, with Julia, and Theresa,

Heidi..Chris (lunchgirl) Penny of course, Tracy, my nurse,

was a busy week... But a good one...

Today was a good day too.. I finally got some mail which I

hadnt gotten anything in 2 days, I feel cut off from the world

when I get no mail...I got a great post card today...I even had

a dear friend phone that I hadnt heard from in quite a while

and it was so good to talk to them again.. I really enjoyed that.

I like phone calls.. it just makes it seem more personal.. than

a email or chatting.. I prefer voice online anyway than typing..

saves the fingers and keyboards..:-) spoils you too~! Skype

has excellent voice...

While I was on the phone all of a sudden it went totally

DEAD.. I panicked..what was I going to do? No dial tone.. I

couldn't call to get it repaired.. I had no phone~! I sat and Im

trying to think..ok..this could NOT be good, NOW what will I

do.. I wasn't expecting anyone to come by till Monday when

Penny comes..that's not good..no phone.. So I logged on

Skype and you can buy time on there.. I forget how much

for what..but I got it..after the deal goes thru my paypal..the

little window says..may take 4 to 5 business days for this to

clear your bank.. I said "HUH" well rat farts.. that's not going to

do me any good right now! So I had NO idea what to do... I

checked everything..and nothing.. I didn't like that at all..

I bet I sat for 15 minutes or so stewing and getting mad, I had

NO idea what it could be.. All of a sudden I hear this BANG!
BANG! BANG! on my front door, scared the daylights out of me,

I was NOT expecting anyone... I tell everyone to make SURE

they call before they come over. I Had NO idea who it could be.

I keep the door locked on the week ends so I had to go over

and open it.. I slowly open the door and there is my sister and

Stanley standing there ! I WAS GLAD to see them!! Plus she

was bearing GIFTS !!!! :-) Shirley always has to make a potty

call as soon as she gets here its a kinda long ride and plus they

make stops along the way at different places like yard sales..

which she said they had stopped at one today and she got a great

painting for her dining room for ten dollars.. But as soon as she

came back and sat she opened the bag of goodies and proceeded

to show me all the great tops and loungers she brought me.. I

think be easier to say what colors she DIDNT bring.. Needless to

say I was pleased...They are great.. :-)

So anyway, I was telling them about my dead phone, I asked Stanley

if he had his cell phone with him..which of course he did... and I asked

him to dial my phone company to find out why my phone was dead..My

bill was paid..it always is..its auto out of my bank..So he dials hands me

this little thing..and after about 5 or 6 rings this lady answers and was

very nice..I asked why and what and gave all the necessary info..She

said that perhaps I needed to check the box , where the line comes out

of.. She said she could send a repair man, but she was just 2 blocks

down the street at the office and since I was in a chair and couldn't get

to my little box down on the baseboard, she would gladly come by and

check it for me if I couldn't get anyone.! So while I was talking to her I

asked Stanley to crawl under my desk and plug and replug my phone

line into that little box..she said sometimes there is a surge and a line

will go dead..for no reason..and that'sall you have to do..Most don't know

that and then have a repair guy, pay for that, to come out and do just

that very thing!! Well Stanley did that.. I picked up my phone..and well

I HAD PHONE again~~!!! I thought that was so nice of her to offer to

come and do it for me.. how nice..that just gives me hope for humanity

it does :-) ..It was above and beyond her job description..and I made

sure I told her just how much I appreciated her offering and helping me

like she did.. I thought that was just special..made me feel good..

We 3 had a nice visit and they stayed longer than they had in a long

time and I really enjoyed that alot..its so good to see my sister and

Stan.. Good people...Plus they ALWAYS bring me goodies :-) They

did say they thought I was looking really good.. and they were glad to

see that.. They are going up north all next week for their fall tour..its a

beautiful drive when the leaves change, they arent yet..but they will go

again when they are..She is enjoying her house which I am so glad..

her other was nice, but this one is newer and bigger and wheel chair

accessible which Shirley uses one quite a bit lately as her legs are

not real good..I gave her some of the cream I got..so I hope it helps

the sores on them.. I didn't look at them...But I hope they get better..

She has neuropsy really bad too.. I worry for her..

I got up at 330 this morning but I fell asleep early like 730.. so I had

sleep..plus LB was doing circles by my side saying "MOM, MOM,

MOM," so that woke me up ..so I got up, had coffee and went and

got on line to see who I could bug that early in the morning :-) well

no one was on..Later on I laid down and took a desk rest about

10 though I got really tired.. I did eat first so I could take those

nasty pills..I took my extra blood pressure pill too..When my sis was

here we took our blood pressures with my new machine..mine was

190/94.. not good for being on 2 meds.. Stans was fine.. Shirley

didn't take hers.. The nurse will be here Monday so.. see what it is

then..


Time for food and some early tv..maybe I can watch something.. I

did get a lottery ticket for tonite so we ALL need to pray for this

GORGEOUS WEEBLE to win the lottery tonite..wouldn't that just

be the screamers if I did? Fooey I would probly get so excited I

would stroke out and not get to spend a dime :-) I will remember

to remain calm whilst I check the numbers later.. would be nice

though..Id be happy with just a few thousand or three or four.. :-)

Tomato sandwich and some lime koolaid and TV.. is next for me,

"Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks ! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Meet Heidi~

Another pretty good day today, I want to introduce my new

caseworker from Keystone..Heidi..Isnt she just a Cutie? AND

she is single..mom of 3, lives in the next little town down the

road.. she doesn't drink, smoke, or do drugs.. she is a very

down to earth girl.. and a real sweetie.. She got here at 10

and left at 1:30.. we had a great time.. talked about everything..
I taught her a bit about computers she didn't know.. she said

her laptop is not good..from what she describes I am worried

it may be a hard drive or something..says the screen is blue

and says some kind of error.. I didn't know what to Suggest as

I know some about them but not that much.. I hope it isnt.. she

is just making it too.. She is going to help find out about some

info on my grant, if it will be renewed etc..
I told her I would like to have a bigger place so that I can start

sewing again.. and she said she knows of 2 houses right now

that are for rent.. one is on a lake and its 2 bedrooms.. So I

asked her to get the info on them for me..and asked her to find

out if the grant will increase if my rent increases.. She is also

going to find out if at the end of the 2 years will my grant be

renewed.. this grant is to help people until they can find a job,

so she seems to think too..that they may agree to continue

my grant.. I hope so..If that's true..a lot of my stress will go

away.. I worry about that every day, Im trying to save every

extra dime I have just for the cost of moving in case I can...

and If I cant find a HUD house if this grant stops I will have to

get an apartment and I would rather eat dirt than do that.. but

I just may not have any choice...

Heidi is a sewer as is her mom.. they have gotten a place, like

a little shop at a place called Peddler's Village in Indiana.. I know

the place and have been there many times.. She and her mom

are going to make quilts and blankets etc to sell there.. What is

MOST interesting..is that Heidi's grandmother her Nanny as she

calls her is here visiting her mother.. her nanny is from Cambourne,

Cornwall..in the UK..that is where MY family is.. small world.. she

said her Nanny has dual citizenship here and in the UK and she

is getting benefits from both places..here and there.. Shes. going

to ask her Nan just what to do to find out about it..and see what

she can find out if I will be able to do that since my mother was

born there too.. I am really curious. be nice if I could do that.. I

would just have to get up enough nerve to fly there..

I am just not good with flying and heights..the hardest part is the

claustrophobia ..That is the biggie.. I saw some photos of some

new huge planes that are almost like having a whole house its

so big..the seats even made into beds if it was a long flight..like

from here to Australia..is a 15 hour flight.. I don't dare look out

the windows on a plane..I would have to spend the rest of the trip

in the bathroom if I did.. When I have flown, which I have, many

many times.. I used to fly to Hawaii at least once a year..that's a

8 hr flight from Chicago..What got me on those flights is when the

pilot came on and said " ladies and gentlemen, we have reached

the half way point, there is no turning back now" I just would gulp,

think of all that water down below and the sharks and just close my

eyes and wait till I heard them say " we have landed" THEN I

would open them again.. I would fly to the UK tho.. I have many

friends there..and today I wrote to my cousin, up north to get the

addresses of our family over there and see if perhaps I did come

over there would they like to meet me..take some of these old

photos I have of my great grand parents with me.. I would enjoy

that and seeing ones I am sure they would have..

Well one thing I know im good at and that's EATING..and as busy

as today was AGAIN..I missed lunch..so I need to eat before I can

take these nasty tasting pills for today..I don't think they could make

them taste any worse.. I got the Kool Aid all ready :-) and Im ready

to start my count down to bed.. up again to day at 5.. im an early

bird but I never seem to catch any worms!!! "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and THANKS!!!!! :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Good Day Again~

Well today was a pretty good day, I got some emails

from friends I hadnt heard from in a while.. and then this

morning I read the comments on here and one was from

my Honeygirl..my sweet niece Beverly.. She is my sisters

daughter..lovely girl.. she doesn't live real far maybe a

couple hours drive, not real sure.. And she corrected me

thank goodness on the name of the Casino over here by

the lake.. and it is FOUR WINDS CASINO RESORT.. Its

a huge place..and she won too when she went! very

encouraging.. I told her the next time she and her husband

go they need to take ME with them :-)... I am going to go I

have decided that even if I have to go by myself...

I had lots of company today too..just like yesterday..Theresa

came from CMH.. Heidi was supposed to today too but she

called and put off till tomorrow.. Theresa is such a sweet girl..

well woman.. So pretty.. She brought me some FRESH
HOMEGROWN TOMATOES!!! 5 of them!! I am so pleased!

I already ate one at lunch :-) talk about good .. MMM I ate

every bit of it.. 3 guesses what I am having for supper...:-)

We had such a nice visit.. she is like Lori was , she takes her

shoes off puts her feet up and sits Indian style on the couch..

She seems to really enjoy her visits here.. She says that any

way.. She enjoys talking to me and says I even encourage

her.. She says she doesn't see too many that have such a

good attitude about such a horrible thing happening to them..

And like I told her and everyone.. well at least I am still alive,

that is the main thing.. no matter what is taken from my body,

I am still me..alive and even kicking invisibly.. well you cant

just whine and boo hoo all the time..she knows I have bad days

she can even tell when something is wrong.. Today she said

I looked really nice.. and that made me feel good..

She gave me the tomatoes and just before she left I commented

about the cute silver & blue earrings she had on.. Lovely things..

very delicate but shiney and nice.. pierced too. She said a girl

she knows makes them and sells them for only $2.oo a pair..

and they are really pretty.. As she gets up to leave she is standing

there saying bye and letting me know she will be back on the 11th

as she has some meeting or something in 2 weeks.. so anyway

she reaches up..takes 1 earring out then the other and hands them

to me!!! How sweet. I told her I cant take her earrings.. she still

insisted I take them and needless to say they are in my ears right

now.. and I have a blue top on..and print skirt..with blue in it of

course, I HAVE to match.. and the earrings look great with this..

Im all dressed up and no date.. now .. aint something wrong with

this picture???

Then my other visitor today was my nurse.. my blood pressure was

186/ 100 ... kinda high again.. she was concerned.. She asked about

my Dr. visit.. shes so nice..her name is Tracy...and I told her all the

details..and showed her the pills... Oh..if you ever have to take these

pills.. I had to take 5 today, 4 tomorrow..well DO NOT let these little

pills hit your tongue.. talk about NASTY atsting ohh wow.. they are

AWFUL.. I drank I bet a whole 16 ounce bottle of Kool Aid and DiD

NOT get rid of the taste... Iccky things.. She suggested a new Dr.

that she is pretty sure taking new patients.. since I did tell her some

of the trouble I have been having at the clinic..with the nurses there

not doing their job and the fact that the last 4 times I went I saw a

different doctor.. I really don't like that at all.. This new doctor is a

woman named Glendora Green. and she is taking new patients

from what Tracy said.. I think I am going to see If I can go to see

her.. I am going to call Deborah at HPM..my insurance and see

if there would be any problem with that.. for payment reasons .. I

sure cant afford a Dr bill. So I will check that out tomorrow...see

whats what.. and maybe I can have 1 steady doctor.. not that im

sick but well I would feel less neglected by them I have now..

Well time for some tomatoes.. a nice sandwich or maybe just

diced in a bowl with some Mayo on them..salt and pepper of

course.. not a lot of salt..Im not a salt person. I may have to

drink another bottle of Kool Aid tho I can still taste those nasty

pills.. ick.. Donald didn't make it last nite and hopefully will be

here soon too.. Wonder if he will bring the dog.. I may have to

put the cat food up..he eats every bit of it..:-) talk about 2 mad

cats when that dog leaves.. they sit and stare at their empty

bowls..look at me like I DID IT.. I guess cuz I let the dog in that

I am the culprit..they mellow a bit when I refil them for them -

kids.. just such spoiled boys.. but theyre worth it..

Time for this GORGEOUS WEEBLE to say "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Dr. Day~

Well today was Dr day.. I was there at 10 and didn't take long..

It took longer to fill out the 8 pages of papers they handed me

when I got there.. That took forever.The nurse, looked so much

like my Dolly it was scarey.. She was identical to Kelli.. I told

her so too..Even Penny noticed... Her name was Brandy tho,

but she said she had a sister named Kelly...she was really nice.

She took x-rays and its not broken... thanks be for THAT...it

does have some infection..but there is no spur or anything..
The Dr, who by the way is young and handsome as can be,

and just as very nice.. said I have to quit bumping it.. it has a

spot on the end of the elbow..and its sort of like bursitis.. He

gave me some steroids to take for the next 5 days, if its not

healed up he said then I would have to get a shot into the

elbow.. or he could give me another dose of these prednisone

stuff for another week but then if it doesnt heal up that he will

have to put a needle in there.. He did say not to worry he has

a man that makes his needles for that and he makes them

special just for him, not to worry.. Well I am NOT going to get

this shot. .It WILL get better :-) I hate needles worse than I

hate carrots... He suggested to get a arm pad for the elbow..

just to protect it.. I bumped it again yesterday.. I get in a hurry

and I forget they stick out when I back up or get to close

to something.. I have to be more careful cuz I just don't want

to have problems with it.. He was concerned about the rash

tho and the discoloration. He said he will send a report to

my Dr at the clinic. which how much good that will do I don't

know.. ANYHOWWAY.. my arm is NOT going to fall off.. its

just very painful and he said to just wait till these steroids

kick in and hopefully the pain will be gone. They are to help

get rid of the pain..the pills, and to help with the rash too

according to what the paper said that came with them..

My caseworker from DHS, Julia, came today, I thought she

was coming tomorrow, I had just gotten home and she knocked

on the door..She is going to see about getting some elbow

guards for me and another grabber.. They are just too hard to

carry from room to room and if I get another I can have one in

every room and that will sure help me a lot.. Then I wont have

to go and search for it when I need it in a certain room.. I really

don't need one in the bathroom but the others I do... She took

down all the new info and didn't stay very long..was a short

visit.. Tomorrow Heidi comes. For not knowing a lot of people

I sure seem to have quite a few caseworkers etc that come

by all the time.. I havent seen Theresa in a week so I am sure

she will be here tomorrow I think..hmmm I need to call her and

find out if she is.. since Heidi will be here at 10...Busy Busy..

I know that I am tired..seems it has just been so hectic today,

Penny here at 9, Curtis to pick me up at 10, back at 11 and

then Penny went to the store..Julia at 1130, then Chris the

lunch girl brought lunch..which is ok today, boiled cabbage

and sausage, then Penny came back from the store.. And

Donnie is due here any time.. I have had a busy day.. I don't

mind it though..Today went so fast.. well every day seems

to just zip by anymore.. It seems the more months, and years

that go by the time seems to go faster and faster... I had a

miserable night last nite..I need some new pillows maybe,

I don't know... but I was up and down all night,, I just could

not find ANYTHING comfy to lay on.. pillows or nuthin.. I

sat up and laid down so many times I looked like a jack in

the box I bet if someone was watching me :-)

I did call and find out if they might be having a tour that's

going over to New Buffalo to the North Winds Casino over

there.. I sure would like to do that.. I went to the one in Green

Bay many times as my friend Nadine was a black jack dealer

there.. I read about it and it sounds like it would really be a fun

and relaxing thing to do.. I don't necessarily want to just play

the slots.. I love those things.. but I would like to go to a nice

dinner show..that I would like... Now all I have to do is find some

one to go with me.. THATS the hardest part...Poor Chris the

lunch girl, I asked her if she was going to the fair..she said "No,

I don't have money for the fair".. I offered to give her 20 dollars

so she could go.. every young person needs to go to the fair..

Bless her heart she refused it.. She said she couldn't pay me

back. I told her it wasn't a loan..to take it and go to the fair..

She still refused it.. She is such a sweet thing..Very nice.. I

will offer it to her again.. I think she really wants to go.. I hope

she does.. Id like to go and see the bull riding.. I love that stuff.

I watch it on TV all the time..well when I can stay awake to see

it that is.. :-)

What I see now is my kitchen for a light supper, probly a PB&J&

nanner sammich then TV and bed.. I know I probly shouldn't even

turn it on I know I will go right to sleep.. another busy day tomorrow

too.. Life is so good.. I love it.. and y'all..Thanks for coming here

and reading about my wonderful GORGEOUS life, and those that

take the time to leave me a comment..well thank you so VERY much,

It means a lot to me to know that someones interested and reading

my 2 cents I put here every day.. Thank you.. I sincerely appreciate

all of you.. "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? Love ya, and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~I Got A Treat~ :-)

I got a treat today, and I am just SO PLEASED with it.. I

ordered it 2 weeks ago and it came today, I have been

patiently waiting for it..I say its a treat since a dear friend helped

me to get it.. I love it..its so pretty.. That is NOT my hair back

there..It would take hours for me to get my own like that..Its a

little clip on wiglet.. Its so easy to use..and It will sure help on

those bad hair days..It looks and feels just like my own hair..

and from what I read will be very easy to take care of..They

have other styles too..I got it from HSN, on TV the home

shopping channel..well one of them QVC is my other fav.. I

saw this one night, a lady named Toni Brattin designed these.

and its really nice the easy transformation that a person,

well woman can do with these things.. Its better than shaving

your head and buying full head wigs..:-) and cheaper...makes

me even MORE GORGEOUS :-D Note how good my birth

mark shows up you can really see its a butterfly..and why I

have my online name :-) ButterflyLois :-)
I had another reminder today that I am IN this CHAIR!.. I was

here at my computer..and noticed that my speaker wasn't working.

So I went through the routine of checking it was plugged and I

tested the connections..even did a few slaps at it..and of course

nothing worked.. So I sat here for a minute trying to figure out

what it was.. I checked my headset to make sure I didn't lose

my sound card..which I did that once cuz of my spastic finger,

twitched and I accidentally deleted it.. I was SO mad.. Well it

wasn't anything I could find.. I was really upset.. I don't mind

having my head set on for a while but all day by evening my

ears would be really itchy..

After a bit, I had to make a roll to the bathroom and as I was

about to go over the extension cord that I have plugged in behind

the recliner and plugged into my speaker..well my speaker is

plugged into the cord.. I looked close and I realized there was

just TOO much extension cord showing..and I looked at the

outlet BEHIND the recliner and sure enough, it was unplugged

there.. I realized how I did it.. My tippers on the back of my

chair got it..and pulled it out..would be the only way.. Well NOW,

I had to figure out how I was going to MOVE this 9 thousand

pound chair .. THAT was NOT going to be easy. This thing is

SUPER HEAVY..

I locked down..and pushed with every ounce of strength I could

find..well that just did not work.. so I moved to the front of it..

and tried to pull it..THAT didn't even budge it.. I was so mad..

the more I tried the harder it seemed to move it.. I finally got

behind it..wedged my chair in the doorway and PUSHED at

the back..SLOWLY Inch by inch this chair moved.. I got it out

far enough- I thought- to be able to reach the outlet..so I had

to roll around and face that wall so I could reach the out let

which was a good 2 feet from the doorway.. I still wasn't close

enough to reach.. I did the same thing again..moved into the

doorway and PUSHED!!! I mean I thought I was gonna Stroke

out..but well I was DETERMINED I could plug it back in..

I moved back to Behind the recliner and stretched as far as I

could..remember I have short arms.. I can barely touch the

floor in this chair.. I got the prongs against the holes in the

outlet..and the buggar STILL would NOT go in.. I pulled my

hand back..and looked and decided then it had to be cuz of

the one wide prong..I turned it around and reached again..

and it FINALLY went into the outlet.. My speaker came to

life and I was with sound again. I was pleased, sore, mad,

and glad all in ONE spot...

That was a job.. I mean.. I pushed, pulled, tugged, reached,

and yes..I even swore at it..but not until that thing was ready

to go in..I was fightin it.. Always something.. Just to plug in a

cord.. If I had my legs..I would have been able to reach it

easily as I could have gotten closer..I have to allow now for

room for this chair when I do anything..or it aint gonna get

done.. Well anyhowways.. I DID IT.. twernt easy..but I did..

I bet time wise took me over an hour.. with moving..locking

down and then TRYING to shove that little thing in there.. I

should have called CHRIS..the lady with the little plugs she

had NO trouble reaching it when she was here..moving

that chair either.. :-)

Well its time for me to move and go and watch TV.. I am not

turning on HSN or QVC.. .. I know I saw some great clothes on

there.. Oh..but I did see a wonderful SATIN . Leopard.. jacket

and pants.. I may order them..just in case I do get a dinner invite

or have company.The pants I will make into a skirt.. Then my black

silk top.and this new hair.. I will be GORGEOUS - ER.. :-)

"nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~Feelin Tired~ :-(

For some reason I am going thru this snit of just feeling

crappy and tired.. I slept last nite and didn't get up till 8

this morning..and yet I have been tired all this whole day long..

I guess all the stuff the past few months have caught up and

I just have to do a slow down and get re vitalized so to speak.

sounds good anyway.. A nice vacation probly would do the

trick too... I think seriously I just need some time to not worry

about bills, health, house, people, and just get back into the

groove of getting things done... I think the first place to start

of course is getting all my health issues cleared up and then

seriously look for a house...a bigger one. I doubt if I ever

could afford to buy one anyway..but if I look hard enough I

may just stumble on something that would be perfect..

Ive put myself up for adoption but havent gotten any offers

on that either.. so I will just have to pull up my invisible pants

legs and get this chair rolling.. I have decided though that I

am going to do some sewing.. My Dolly, we are waiting for

confirmation for sure..but I may be great gran ..in 7 months

or so.. and if its really true.. I have baby quilts to make and

baby blankets and layettes..and diaper bags, all sorts of

stuff.. I would LOVE to do that.. I have been thinking of just

how I will do it.. I am going to try to set up my old singer

machine that is in a cabinet..and maybe if I put a regular

chair there, I have some nice cardtable chairs, I could just

transfer onto one of them, then maybe I can work the drop

down pedal to run it.. Im going to try..We just need to get all

that room re done and I have an idea how to do it..

I have a most wonderfully comfortable couch.. its 8 foot long,

and even though its over 30 years old..you would never know

it.. What I thought I would do is take my bed out of my bedroom

and make that room into a sewing room..bring the kitchen table

back up and bring all my material up.. I think that might work..

My hospital bed is nice but the mattress leaves a lot to be desired

its plastic and slippery , its hot and the sheets don't stay on it.

So this may be a solution to a sewing room..If this was my house,

I would totally redo the basement and I could have a HUGE

sewing room down there..there is more room down there than

up here ..all is down there is the furnace, no walls all wide open..

be perfect.. But I think this idea might work.. I can bring my TV

in here to the living room too.. Put it over on my desk..but I don't

know where I would put my lamp..but I could get rid of that recliner

and get a stand for the TV and put it there.. but then I would only

have my couch for company to sit on..but then I don't have but 1

person come here at a time..so..that might work..I don't use that

desk other than to put stuff on it.. so I could get rid of that as well.

Got to have a plan of attack to do stuff..:-)

I will think of something.. I usually do.. I got a call from Heidi my

new caseworker from Keystone..she will be here Thursday at 10.

She asked if she could bring me a breakfast from McD's..now

that is really trying to get on my good side I think..Shes very nice..

I think will be nice to try to teach her to sew.. Its a good thing to

know.. I have known all my working years..that as long as I have

a sewing machine I could make some money.. I made scrub tops

for nurses, and aides, orderlies.. after I moved into the apartment

after my left stump healed.. I made good money and it was fun

to me..but I got so over whelmed with orders and no way to fill

them.. I had to stop.. I learned that sewing was as good to know

as lots of other skills.. Almost every thing around us has some

sort of sewing on it.. I can run about 5 different types of machines.

I enjoy it.. to me its play and not work at all.. I think converting my

bedroom might be the answer until I can find another place that's

bigger.. If I can make some extra money that would sure help my

bank account and ease a lot of my worries...

My only worry this minute is something to eat.. I don't need much I

had Chili from COA and they do make some good stuff . It came

with a piece of corn bread and applesauce and salad..was good..
I didn't eat the salad as they only give you buttermilk ranch stuff

and well that's not really my favorite.. I like Italian or french..its

better..I hear a pumpkin cookie calling me so I better finish this

and go and shut it up, just eat it and put it out of its misery and

right into my mouth.. "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and thanks..:-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~A Bad Dog~

Someone in this neighborhood has a dog they let out to

run the neighborhood.. Its a huge blood hound.. I was

looking out the window again.. and saw this hound was

trying to go across the street.. I could see cars..and hear

horns blowing at him.. I watched as he went back into the

yard of the yellow house across the street..well orange is

more the color.. I watched a bit later and I saw a young

man coming down the sidewalk on a bicycle and I knew

that dog would go after him.. Penny had come back from

a trip to the store and he was next door then too and he

came at her..She ran to get in side here.. I bet he would

have bit her..

I watched as this kid on the bicycle got up to the sidewalk

and the curb and I thought maybe the dog had gone since

I hadnt seen it in a little while.. I watched as the kid starts

to peddle,, and I hear this LOUD "WOOF WOOF" and

there is that dog RUNNING full tilt at that kid.. I see his eyes

get huge and I mean I havent seen anyone peddle so fast..

The bike wasn't your standard 2 wheeler..it was one of those

kinds that you kind of lay on? Well sit in a lounging position

maybe is a better description.. I watched as the kid went

past the front of the house and that dog was right on his

heels.. the position he was in and as low as that bike was

that dog could have easily gotten him..

I saw the dog come back and he went out in the street again

and the horns started again.. I don't know who owns this dog,

but its not fair to the animal or to the people he endangers.. I

feel sorry for the dog.. We have a leash law here..and the

people that own him and have let him loose like this could be

in serious trouble if the dog caused a wreck or bit some one..

I feel sorry for the dog.. People that cant take proper care of

their pets..should not have them. They are only 'animals' but

they do require care and a watch ful eye on them.. I just hope

nothing happens as a result of this dog being loose.. He

looks like a nice dog too. I miss not having one...

I had some beautiful dogs.. German Shepherds are my favs.

Although I did have Alex, he was a golden retriever .. and a

love.. I had twin shepherds.. Jesse and Jake.. Wonderful

animals.. Only way to tell them apart was by their collars...I

couldn't tell even... Donnie brings Jerky here and I have to

make sure my brakes are on if I hold on to that dog.. he can

easily pull me.. When I was in the apartment .. I had hold of

his leash.. and that dog took me for a ride, from one end of

the place to the other and he had NO problem doing it..

NOW as big as he is.. I don't hold on to him.. Hes a very

hyper dog.. But well hes alone all day and a good part of

the evening they stay so busy.. No wonder he gets all happy

when he finally sees people.. Donnie found out the hard way,

when he was confined.. Helped me make the point of now

he knew how the dog felt..waiting for him every day .. just

like Donnie waited eagerly for Dawn to come home so she

could take him out. I laughed at that.. Well he learned :-)

I saw a lot of cars with trailers with horses and livestock today

too as I was looking out the window.. all going to the fair.. I

did tell Penny if she goes she better bring me some cotton

candy back.. I LOVE that stuff.. Every once in a while you

can find it in the grocery store and needless to say I always

bought some.. I hope she goes..and having a 14 yr old grand

son and 4 little grand daughters I have a feeling Penny will

be going for sure..

Well Im going to go and eat.. Ive been in the dumpies or one

of my snits the past few days, which I hate that but..well I get

upset if someone is rude or hurts my feelings.. and I let that

happen once in a while.. think I would learn but I don't.. so I

feel a bit better today, I had a nice chat with my friend Raife,

in the UK.. I bet his poor ears are ringing.. And that really

helped.. He understands me and lets me whine..and boo

hoo all the time.. I try not to but..well we all have those days

and need an ear or a shoulder sometimes.. I m so glad I

have such good dear friends.. Means a lot... So I need

some food.. I have some great smoked ham..and I have

some Swiss cheese, and a tomato.. now that's a nice

sandwich..with Mayo of course and a slight dab of yellow

mustard.. and nuke it for a few Seconds.. MMMM good..

Now I really made myself hungry and I have to roll off in

to the sunset of my kitchen.. wanna take me to the fair..

well COME ON! "Nitey Nite! " :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? Love ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

PS.. the photo if you look you can see the rash and my elbow.

Its still not healed and the pain has not let up..Kept me up a lot

last nite.. I have an appt. Wednesday with the bone guy.. I will

hopefully find out then..that its nothing serious I hope.. I hope.

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....