~Do They Know~

I woke this morning to rain. But I knew it was coming.

Besides the TV forecast I knew. I sat here at the computer

and the rain had stopped but it was foggy out.. I watched

all the cars rushing to work and couldn't help but think of

all the times I did that very same thing every day. I do miss

it kinda, I think what I miss is the purpose.. I HAD to work,

I wanted a good life and I didn't mind working to get it. I

watched these people starting their day and wondered if any

of them knew how lucky they were.. they had purpose and a

way to get what they not only needed but wanted too. I took

it for granted that I would be able to go on with a full life.
I hope they know what they have.

I don't mean my life is empty, its not by any means, its just

not what I had envisioned for myself. When I started on

that first restart back in 71, I had plans, lots of them, of

what I wanted my life to be. All these years later, I honestly

cant say that my life is what I would call FULL. I have some

dear friends, family but its still not all I had hoped and had

wanted for myself and those I held near and dear to me. It

seemed the harder I tried, the farther away my dreams and

plans went.

When my health started to deteriorate I just accepted it,

like I do being an amputee now. I have no choice but to accept

this and this way of life. Some days I swear at this chair,

specially if I'm careless and bang my knuckles or pinch my arm

or specially when I fall out of this thing. I get so discouraged

sometimes because I cant do what needs to be done, I have to

ask someone , "will you come help me?" before, I could do it all.

I wonder sometimes do those that have legs, cars, nice homes,

a sufficient income do they appreciate it? Life can change in

just the blink of an eye, or a matter of seconds. I know I hope

they appreciate what they have, what they can do, where they

can go.. I have to call ahead, "are you wheel chair accessible?"

before I venture to go to a place. I loved yard sales.. my sis

would pull up outside, honk the horn and I would run out and

off we would go. In and out of the car, steady walking... I

figgured I would always be able to do that.. Sure I can now,

but I cant run out to the car, she has to come in and help

with the doors, she has to load my chair in to the trunk,

and unload it. Our outing now would be a job for her. I don't

think she would hesitate to do it if I asked.. but then its back

to that same thing... "ASKING".

I'm not shy by any means, but some things are just hard to

do or say, and for me that's one of them.. I feel bad some

times when its just something small.. ok.. like the smoke alarm.

Its been beeping now since yesterday after Penny left. I

cant reach it to stop it.. The battery is going dead so every

10 minutes or so I hear "BEEP".. Penny called, she has a

funeral tomorrow, so she wont be here. so.. I will have to

wait till Thursday when Rebecca will be here to ask her to

shut that beepin thing OFF! .. This is what I mean.. I could

just reach up with my grabber and knock it off the wall

just to stop the beeps but then I would have to replace it.

The joys of being short. :-)

Well anyway, I hope these people I see out there appreciate

what they have and can do. What I can do right now is go out

to that kitchen and eat some of those green grapes I have

sitting out there. Theyre so good. I'm glad I had Penny get

them for me. I have a net flix due today so when it gets here

about 3 or so .. you KNOW what I will be doing :-) So until

tomorrow this GORGEOUS WEEBLE says "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, y'hear? love ya! and Thanks!

Always, Lois ****


"God Bless You", is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again ....

~A Place For Everything~

Well we are all cleaned up from the week end. We were

not real slobs this time.. No, I don't make messes and if

I do I will clean up after myself. Only thing I don't do are

dishes, I cant reach the faucets on my sink in the kitchen.

I really need to do some re arranging but the way it is out

there, theres, not a lot I can do.. The sink comes up to my

chin, and its a double one, and they built the backsplash up

higher than the sink and that's where the faucets are. I

can just barely reach them... Its not easy to steady turn the

water on and off I do put what ever dishes I may use in

there but I rinse them off or soak them so its not so hard

for Penny. To keep my arms up that high which would be

shoulder high makes them ache horribly if I do that for

too long.. I sound like such a whiner.. I do try to keep up

on things cuz I cant stand when things get out of place.

My grandmother had a huge home, 4 bedrooms upstairs and

a bath. Plus a huge attic.. At the end of the hall was a large

cupboard with shelves to store linens and things. As my

Grandmother aged she got a housekeeper and she never

went back up the stairs.. she was just too frail.. But when

Mrs, Fansher would need to put something away or if

Grandmother wanted something from the cupboard or

from anywhere upstairs, Mrs Fansher had to be sure to

tell her where exactly she put it.. No matter how much

time went by, Grandmother knew exactlty where everything

was up there. If anything was moved by anyone and my

Grandmother was not informed she got really upset.


I am pretty much the same way. I can tell you if something

has been moved or where it is.. Penny puts things away for

me, but I do like my Grandmother, I need to know where

exactly she put them.. Top shelf, left hand side, in the back.

I have to laugh at Penny sometimes, when she dusts the

top of my desk here, I have everything just so. The candles

are spaced exactly the same apart, the tops of the jars

have to be the same... She will ask, "Lois, look and make sure

I have put everything back right, cuz if I didn't you know

if you spot it later and cant fix it, it will make you crazy.."

We laugh but Penny knows me.. :-)

Well with a tiny house every single thing has to have a place

or it will look crappy and messy and cluttery. Mine is a tad

cluttery but I hide stuff.. Anyone looked under my couch

they would see how I stash stuff.. Before I got my new

wardrobe it was all under the bed! I knew I had to get it

out from under there so I can get rid of this bed, a

recliner, its not a storage one, so I had to make some

arrangements.

I did call a few places to see about getting some help to

get a new recliner, apparently Deborah with HPM is on

holiday so hopefully when she gets back she may have

some ideas for me whom to contact. I was in touch today

with the nicest guy from Disability Resources, and I

am hoping Tim may be able to do some checking for me

as well... I think a nice chair besides this wheely one

would be such a treat.. I watch TV now sitting on my bed,

well I just fall asleep..that's what beds are for.!. I do

honestly think I would sleep better in a chair than on

this awful bed.. Soon will be October and I plan to really

tighten up and work on getting a new recliner.. The one

I saw was a CatNapper, inch away. Which sure would be

nice. Having the extra room would really be great..

Achey stumps today but guess why? Yup, we got rain headed

at us.. I woke up at 3 am this morning cuz they woke me.

Well I think Dutch had a part in it too.. He was at the foot

of the bed and he just walks right up my stumps to my

stomach to my chest then just drops his body down and

lays there and gives me sandpaper kisses... I love the kisses

I just wish they were NOT at that time of morning.. :-)

My stumps feel bigger today, not really swollen but under

pressure I guess would be the way to describe it.. Says

rain for 2 or 3 days.

This new friend Tim said its possible to put videos on here.

I just may try that, boy I would just scare everyone then!

But I am going to see what and how to do it.. Tim has a

blog with a video that's how I discovered it.. I'm almost

afraid to mess with too much on this as I would be most

upset if I wiped out my blog or something after all this

time :-) But not being good at this and knowing me I could

possibly DO just that.. But I'm gonna see about it tho..

Time to post and go and get some of those green grapes

Penny got for me today.. I havent had grapes in a long

time and they sounded so good.. Be a nice change too,

plus they are good for you.. Kitchen is calling so its

that time to write my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "Nitey

Nite"... :-)


Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and Thanks!

Always, Lois ****


"God Bless You" is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~See What I See~

We, as in Dutch and I, were looking out the kitchen window watching
birds and looking at the glory bloomin on the stake out there. That was
so pretty to see.. While we were sitting there I looked down and was
looking at my stumps and thought it might be an interesting photo.. So..
I took one just so you can see what I see ....
The right you can tell is smaller, flatter and shaped more

cone shaped. I know when I first started this blog I put

a photo here of the binder I had to wear. I went and dug

out the photo to put it here again. Helps to show the cone

shape. I had never seen a leg put on or knew what I would

have to go through until I talked to my friend in there that

was also a DAK.. BB was his name, a very dear friend.. While

I was wearing this binder, BB had already gone through it,

he was in the process of being fitted for his leg.. they were

only going to do one at a time.. His right leg first. I went

with him a few times when they helped him put it on, I watched

and noted all he went through.. It wasn't easy.
They had his leg on and he had a walker. They made him walk

down the hall well hop I guess.. He went to move that leg and I

don't know what he did wrong but he went down with a loud

crash.. He hit the floor and almost knocked himself OUT! I

saw that and I think that's when I kinda started to make up

my mind that I really didn't want fake legs! It was about,

June I think and HOT... and wearing that binder made me

sweat.. it was rough material too.. the only soft part is that

white area in the center..that was facing the inner part of

my thigh.. When I sweat and moved, that binder would slip

and try to slide off with every movement.. drove me nuts! I

was steady diggin at myself to get that thing to stay up..was

like a small pair of panty hose that kept sliding down.. I hated

them too !! I wore them only cuz they looked nice :-)

BB and I had some long talks about his legs.. He was due to get

the 2nd one soon.. By the time he escaped he had both of them,

but once he got into his apartment , he never used them.. if he

went out to shop or something he would wear them.. at home he

said it was a pain in the butt to put them on every day. BB was

very athletic and could move very easily and was VERY strong.

He also was a careless diabetic and challenged it.. he ate candy

and sweets, drank.. and I told him many many times to stop.. He

died at 47, I found him dead in his chair when I went to check

on him that Saturday morning.

When I was in the HellHome I was one of 2 women and 6 men

and we all were amputees and above knee ones.. Yesterday when

the lady from the church brought my angel food she told me of

her next delivery to another dak amputee that lives where I

used to. It might be the same lady that Theresa wants me to

meet.. Theresa thinks I should meet lots of people specially

ones that are discouraged.. She thinks I could give them a good

pep talk..I could too.. This aint easy by no means.. but Hell at

least TRY!.. some don't.. Darryl was a the HH.. he didn't care

at all.. he just sat and whined all day and half the night.. Only

time he didn't complain was when he was sleeping.. Darryl was

45.. and a diabetic... He died before I even left the HH... I

wish he had tried harder... But when you give up.. it seems to

just finish you.. and that I WONT do.. NEVAHHHH :-)
Well I'm done for today, and of course I'm hungry.. I always

write this post first before I eat cuz if I eat first I get tired,

then I don't feel like writing .. I wear down like that rabbit,

and when that happens this GORGEOUS WEEBLE has no choice

but to say "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks :-)
Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today.

I'm honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Question Is~

Is your pain when you get phantoms, better or worse than

the pain you had before your amputations?? This was Rob's

question in the comments last nite.. Before I say anything

else, first; Rob, you have steady read this blog since day 1,

I am very grateful for you being such a dear friend, thank

you.. Now, to answer your question... :-)

The pain before was mainly concentrated in the calves of

my legs, the back muscular part, when I was not walking or

on my feet I had no pain, well no, just before they were by

passed the pain seemed to be anytime, when I was on my

feet or not. If you have ever put your hand wrong for a

time and got this real picky stingy feeling, unthawing as I

call it, that's what the pains were like, they were very

severe and constant at only certain times, A different kind

from what I feel now.. The Phantoms...

I guess they call them that because theyre invisible pain.

Some times its just cramps and a ache, mainly for me in

my feet. Some times I get this horrible stabbing feeling

like a huge needle is being jabbed into my heel.. THAT

really hurts. I find if I change positions.. sit differently,

shift my weight so to speak, that helps...

My remaining leg, the stumps, I don't know why they were

ever given that name and who ever did could NOT have been

an amputee.. Its hard enough, but to have part of your body

called a part of a tree? and the part that's the hardest to

get rid of on a tree.. To remove a stump costs almost as much

as to take the tree down.. How do I know? I had a tree service

for over 15 years.. In Texas and Indiana... But we arent trees.

I think its because our arms and legs have been labeled LIMBS.

so the residual of a limb.. is a STUMP! :-D.... anyway... back to

the comparison...

I myself think the pains now are worse, because they never stop.

Only time I don't feel something is when I am asleep, but as soon

as I am even the slightest bit awake, my first thoughts are 'how

do my stumps feel?' When I wake up and feel ok, bad word, but

normal, like I am totally ME, I just about don't know how to take

it I'm so used to always feeling something weird. I just sit and

enjoy the feeling for as long as it lasts, which I know it wont be

long till I feel the crampy feet.. or the pressure that they are

being pushed up. Its like when you try on shoes, and you have

to have pressure from the shoe, being pushed on to your foot.

That's kinda how my invisible leg part feels most of the time.

Like a pressure pushing them up against my knee.. Its weird.

When I sit, if I concentrate REALLY hard.. I can sit here and

move each toe, one by one, I feel them move. I know where

my feet are all the time.. My invisible legs have gotten shorter

though. When I sit and feel where my feet are they only reach

the top of the gray tire in front, many times I feel my feet

are on them.. My feet also feel like I am on my toes.. like tiptoe.

I cant seem to get my foot to go flat.. Whats really weird and

I have to admit to me I'm still not used to it after all these

years.. When I sit on my bed, watching TV or whatever, I feel

where my legs and feet are.. and they go right through the

bed.. when I look down, that's what it looks like anyway.. so

even my eyes are deceiving me.. :-)... it is strange though...

So Rob, yes, the pain is different and its worse yes, but its

really more bearable.. its not a pain pain ... its uncomfortable.

where if I change how I sit or what I am doing it will fix it.

Before, the only thing that fixed that pain was surgery.. I

can handle this.. sometimes not as easily as others ..but its

doable.. I hope I answered your question Rob.. :-)

I got my angel food today as was most grateful to get it. Its

only 30 dollars for over a 2 weeks supply of food.. and its

all good.. It helps me a lot.. and they deliver it which sure

means even more!.. I'm hungry so that means time to post,

eat, and OUT of this chair! This GORGEOUS WEEBLE

says "nitey nite".

Y'all have a good one, now Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!
Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.......

~Experiences~

A new friend asked me what did I experience as I realized

something was wrong with my legs. When I try to think back,

I get a headache... :-D .. no.. just kidding. . I try to put a date,

year especially. I was living in the UP of Michigan when I can

remember my legs would ache if I walked for too long. We

had gone to see a friends car that had gone down the hill at

Horse Race Rapids. Kids drinking and not setting the parking

break when there were signs all over to remind the drivers.

Well they didn't, the car went over the side.. The boys mom

was furious. The DNR even gave the boys, 3 of them, tickets

and they had to work for them for damaging the woods with

that car.!. This was in 90. The year my mother comitted

suicide, she wasn't able to handle the death of my Dad the

year before. She lasted 8 months after he died. They had

been married 56 years. .

When we went to see that we took our fishing gear of course

as there is great fishing there down in the gorge. To get down

there there is a long series of steps...not steep but wide, a

very gradual slope. After we fished and started back up I

noticed I was having pain in the calves of my legs. When I

moved to Green Bay in 90, I had a very strenuous and fast

paced job on your feet constantly.. only time you sat was when

you had your break.. It was a bank clearing house. I would go

for my breaks and sit, then when I got stood up my feet hurt

terribly... I went to the Dr and she said I had severe arthritis

in my feet, heels especially and ankles. She predicted that in

10 years I would possibly be in a wheel chair as I wouldn't be

able to walk. By 2000 I WAS in a wheelchair, but NOT because

of the arthritis, well maybe in part, but it was because my legs

had failed, I had by then at least each leg bypassed 3 times.

They all failed. I had stints put in; I had them ballooned; that

did not work.. It did for a while. but not long.

What I felt was pain that steadily increased in the calf of my

legs. The longer I stayed up and on my feet the worse it got

till I just couldn't stand it and had to sit.. When I sat it got

even worse for a minute or so, then it would gradually subside.

It was horrible pain. And not a thing would stop it until I got

off my feet. Before I had a bypass the pain by then would

almost be constant and I could not be on my feet at all... I

would know it was time for that leg to be bypassed...


Ive had 2 abdominal bypasses as well... The first one in 97,

the 2nd in 2000. That's why I cant lay on my left side. If I

sit just right you can feel it down my side. How I knew some

thing was wrong was because about 20 minutes or so after I

would eat the stomach pains about drove me crazy. I would

almost double over in pain it hurt so bad. The abdominal

artery was clogged and when you eat, those muscles that are

moving that food through your body their blood supply is

lowered cuz its working to process the food you ate. The

same with legs.. When you walk you are using those muscles,

that are fed with blood.. when that main artery is blocked,

less blood for those muscles and then they cramp up; work

harder; thus the pain.. its really the muscles that are hurting.

The abdominal byass the first time was done at the IU Med

Center in Indy. I was high risk and the Dr sent me down

there. I was there for a month. David has family down there

that kept me company and David came down on the week ends

until I went home. The 2nd abdominal was done 2 or 3 months

after my triple heart bypass. NOT FUN! but I made it...

Smoking is the main cause of PVD, stress and high cholesterol

the other.. I did not know smoking caused this. I only knew of

cancer that they even have put warning labels on cigarettes.

I wonder why they don't say you will lose your legs as well. I

do think PVD is a lot like Burgers though, from what I hear

and have read. I don't know anyone with PVD but I know of

2 ladies with Burgers, both are amputees.

Penny came today and we are all clean. We arent really too

messy so Penny really doesn't have to work hard. I have

been planning ahead to Christmas.. There are some special

things I have and need to have them fixed so Penny is on

that mission today. Family things that need to be passed

on and I think Christmas is the best time. I talked to the

boy last nite.. I havent heard from Donnie since he was

here on the 13, which was his birthday, so I remember.

Hes working both jobs and in between trying to get his

garage finished. He stays busy... He knows to be in touch

at least once a week but you know how kids are you have

to remind them once in a while to keep in touch... Every

one is well.. the 3 grands and 4 great grands here are ok,

and from what I gather so are my other 5 grands..I'm

glad.. I have a teeeeny tendency to worry... I think that's

my middle name really :-)

Penny made a tuna noodle casserole for me today and its

really good.. theres enough for tomorrow too. I should be

getting my angel food tomorrow too, restock my freezer,

I get nervous if it looks too empty :-) Time to post this

and get out of this chair for today.. I got up kinda early

but I fell asleep early too.. I missed survivor and I missed

Grays Anatomy.. was the 2 hour premier that I had been

looking forward to watching. I should have taped it.. but

I don't have a VCR plus the fact I couldn't reach it any

way it would have to go on top the TV, then on top the

cable box.. I couldn't reach to put a tape in . Maybe

when I get this bedroom straight I can make arrange

ments to put the TV on something else, then I could

reach a VCR ... Post time but first my GORGEOUS
WEEBLE "nitey nite".

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again....

~Nice to See~

I had a nice surprise this morning, just a little small thing

but was nice for me. Look closely at the hook and you can

see the glories stretching over from the fence, in 2 places,

and had vined around that hook.. They do find something to

latch onto.. They have a hard time climbing that wood fence.

Next year it will be covered with that chicken wire and I

bet that fence, hook and everything will be covered with

those glories.. I havent seen any more blue ones.. Just that

one time.. Flowers are such a treat.. There are just such nice
blessings every day if you look for them :-)
There were 3 birds out there today that I have no idea just

what they are. I had thought at first they were female cardinals.

but the eye is very dark and the beak isnt orange like on them.
The feathers on top his/her head are like pointed.. They were

out there the same time as the squirrel and they were very

skittish, just flying all over wanting that food. I will keep an

eye , well that's all I have anyways that I can see out of :-)

out for them again maybe I can get a better photo...They are

pretty tho...
Squirrley is back every day.. caught that stinker this time tho.

With his hand in the cookie jar!! He can get that lid off faster

than Penny, I watched him... While he was eating though.. look

at the next photo.. his back....
I had thought he had 2 bad spots on his back and he does.. Also,

I noticed his poor tail is getting kinda thin... The way those guys

run across these streets out here that may be what happened to

him .. and then again could be his attitude around other squirrels..

he wont let them near there, I guess he figures that's his spot

out there.. He sees us and doesn't care.. He will look directly at

Dutch as if to dare him to come out there.. Dutch goes almost

insane when that squirrel taunts him... He slaps the window, his

tail goes 90 miles an hour and he will meow like hes so sad... These

guys have it so rough....
Every after noon the sun comes in that kitchen window.. that's

facing west... It gets so hot there when I touch the cats they

are almost hot.. Dutch HAS to have the upper hand... LB don't

care, as long as hes in the sun...

Rebecca came today, was nice to see her of course.. she has 10

clients she has to go and visit every week...Gas like it is I hope

they give her gas allowance. Her clients are spread between 3

towns...and her office is in another one, so she does a lot of

driving.. like Penny. Rebecca didn't stay but a half hour which

is ok.. we mainly just sit and talk and of course she asks if I

need anything.. She is going to do some checking about a chair

too... She may know some places other than the ones I do.

I feel almost my normal self again.. I laid there for a while before

I got in to my chair, doing one of my body scans to see what parts

of me hurt. Nothing hurt and I did not have a headache.. It has

stayed gone all day which I am most glad.. The headache is what

makes it worse.. They get so bad that my eyes feel like theyre

crossed or in backwards or something...so I do NOT miss that at

all... I decided since I do feel ok, that I am NOT going to do a

whole lot and just do my mail...write this.. send a few things that

I send every day .. I watched a good net flix and I may watch it

again before the mail gets here... It was Deja Vu with Denzel

Washington.. REALLY GOOD!!!! It was a great movie.. I sure

enjoyed it..

I am ready to get out of this chair for today tho and get a

snack.. lunch wasn't the greatest and I only picked at it, it

was mac and cheese, I know what cheese does to me so I am

just being smart.. I don't want to have to contend with a

bad stomach cuz I had to eat cheese.. :-) PB&J sounds good.

Penny comes tomorrow and she is getting me some bananas

and some zuchinni.. I cant wait to have some breaded fried

zuchinni sticks.. Good stuff... Time to post, eat and get out

of this chair and for my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "niteynite"..

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and THANKS!
Always, Lois ****


"God Bless You", is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~I Love Brass~

Today was brass polishing day. It is NOT that easy to do.

It had been awhile since we have polished the things I have,

but I love brass. The shiney goldness I really enjoy. I have

quite a few pieces..and when they are all polished, well you

can see. I should have taken a before and after photo, then

you could really tell the difference. The egg comes apart

and I have had it for a long time.. Its one of the things that

survived my ex's packing.. probly because its brass and in

destructable.. same with the little container.. all that is in it

are 2 rocks from Upper Michigan... I got them from the

river bank of the Paint River in Amasa when we had gone to

fish of course...

When I was younger and my mother's sister, my Aunt Lillian,

or Lil as my mom called her.. Happy lady, always smiling and in

a good mood. She lived in Amasa which is just a little wide spot

in the road, but a nice little town back then.. There were even

stores there..now I don't think there are too many.. My Aunt

lived next to the river and when we went to visit if we didn't

find her at home we knew where to look, and that was down

by the bridge of course, fishing.. she loved to fish...was quite

good too.. She knew all the good places to go.. Most people

that live up there always carry 2 things, a fishing pole and a

gun... not really a gun.. but sometimes it is necessary if you

happen across a bear which is very possible...

David and I had gone to fish along the paint but in another part

of it as it goes all thru the UP... we were over by Crystal Falls.

We found a quiet spot, out of the normal fishing sites as this

was one passed down to me from my dad...only he or my Uncle

Gordon went there.. it was a good place to catch fish... We had

brought a couple chairs and a basket with some snacks in it..
Set everything up and proceeded to rig our poles and to start

to fish.. As David walked up to the edge of the river he looked

across to the other side... 3 guesses what he saw... Yup.. a bear.

He sort of whispery shouted.. "BOO! LOOK!" I glanced up just

at the same time that bear spotted me... I slowly stood up and

still facing the bear.. backed up to the car and told David to do

the same... He looked at me, then back at the bear and yelled

at it.. "GO AWAY, WE'RE FISHIN!!!!".. I cringed and was all

set to make a mad dash to get in the car when I looked at the

bear and it stood up.. GROWLED at David.. TURNED.. and slowly

walked into the woods!! ... I was shocked.. David was WHITE as

a ghost, but laughed at the look on the bears face when he

yelled at it.. I was surprised it worked.. I had thought to look up

and see that bear charging across that river, the water wasn't

that deep and bears DO know how to swim if they want some

thing bad enough ! :-)

Needless to say I sat very close to the car, and we didn't stay

but another few hours after that.. We really didn't enjoy it too

much having to steady be on guard for a bear since we knew one

was around.. He could have just stopped for a drink and moved

on but we didn't want to take any chances.. Our luck was good

so we decided not to tempt fate and just move to another place.

As big as the UP is there are TONS of places to fish :-) some

more bearable than others :-)

I am feeling quite a bit better and I sure am glad.. The sneezes

have stopped and the cough is only every so often... I still have

the headache.. but with as much as I have going on inside mine,

it should ache :-) Lunch was ickky again so I did NOT eat it..

Carla from COA called and told me about a new program that

will help us to get some fresh fruit and veggies.. That will be

great.. I am so anxious to get some zucchini.. I love it breaded

and fried. I'm for waiting my next movie and by the time I post

this it should be here and 3 guesses what I'm gonna do? yup

say my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "Nitey Nite" and go watch the

movie... :-)


Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and thanks

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Wrong Picture~

I received an email from my caseworker Laima, and she

says I have reached the 'LIFETIME' cap on funding from

APS. So I may be reading it wrong or not understanding,

but does this mean if I live for another 30 years, hopefully,

that they cant help me anymore? Will that mean I lose Penny

as well? I had never heard of this. She did not mention a

word of this to me before nor had any of the other workers

that I have had. So she said no chair from them and if I have

someone else to ask for arm rests and a cushion to ask them.

She cant help me.. Something is wrong with this picture.

I put a call in to Deborah with my insurance and I am pretty

sure she can get them for me but it will involve again calling

the clinic and getting the girls over there to do get the papers

from the Dr that I need these. Which knowing them.. well I

am not holding my breath... But Deborah wont be able to help

me get a new chair.. I did phone a place in Kazoo that is a

disability resource center. The lady that helped me get my

first apartment is with them, Mona. So perhaps they can

direct me to someone that can help me get one. I will sleep

so much better I have NO doubt...

I had a surprise visit today that I was apparently supposed

to be told would be here..and that was the City Inspector.

Bob something.. I was sitting here about 930 and KNOCK !
KNOCK! KNOCK! scared the crap otta me! when that happens

and I am NOT expecting anyone my heart about jumps out of

my chest, it scares me so bad.. When I opened the door he told

me who he was and that he had to inspect the house. I didn't

mind, but I should have been informed.. He offered to come

back another time, and just reschedule.. I asked what all he

had to look at and was hardly nothing.. he just walked through

checked the basement and buzzed the smoke detectors ..

Scared the daylights out of the boys... :-) He was very nice..

Ive been in this house for almost 2 years now, and I asked him,

why is this the first time this house has been done.. I explained

I have a grant and they have to check this place once a year...

according to HUD rules.. I guess this is a CITY thing... they have

to check out all the rentals and make sure the landlords fix the

places.. which they don't... Ken promised to paint and to fix the

bathroom floor and he hasnt.. Its awful... looks terrible.. but its

not carpet which is a very good thing.. I still would like to take

this out of this living room and the bedroom...

I feel a bit better today I'm still sneezing but the cough has

subsided which I'm glad. I still have the headache but not as

intense.. I swear it was so bad for a while it made my eyes

cross.. I usually don't get headaches.. when I did before it was

because my blood pressure was sky high... Its not Ive checked

it.. I do every so often... Time to eat something, lunch was its

usual guess what kind and I am hungry.. I have some shrimp

in the freezer and I may just have a few of them.. Theyre pre

cooked and I usually just nuke them for a minute to take the

chill off.. good stuff.. Time to post, eat and then get out of this

chair.. First my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite".

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya, and THANKS!
Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You", is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....

~First Day Of Autumn~

Today is considered the first day of Autumn..that summer is

offically over.. Well, it makes me think of what all I need

to do to get ready for what they are saying is going to be

a rough winter, but then too, they say that every year. I

started making a list of what I HOPE I can get done before

the snow flies.. like putting plastic on the porch and to cover

the AC if I leave it in the window, which I think would be

easier to do, they have covers and I think that would save

a lot of work. And I would like to seal up my bedroom windows

theyre so drafty I can actually feel the draft.. I think perhaps

insulated curtains would really help... Only thing about them is

the fact that theyre dark and I just don't like dark. If I

could get plastic up then I could keep my lace ones.. :-) Well

I like things to look nice but to save on the gas bill I will do

what I have to. I think just those few things will make a big

difference.. I figgure if I start NOW perhaps I can get it

done before the real cold.. Its been super hot lately.. Such

extremes no wonder I have a cold or what ever this is.. I

know the start I had this morning was rough.. Almost a jump

start you might say... sneezin, coughin and nauseated just

awful... eased up after a while..

Seems every time I get into a project like this wardrobe

and moving stuff around I just get too involved and don't

know when to quit and stop for a while.. I just like to get

things done and I hate to wait.. :-) I do too much then I

end up down for a few days till I get my energy level back

up I guess... Plus not sleeping very good sure doesn't help.

I called Laima today and left a message.. Those women are

so over loaded its a shame. She has way too many clients.

But if she can get a chair for me that sure would be great.

Then I can get rid of this bed and I would have so much

more room in there, I could put my sewing machine in there

and have more room than I do in here for it and then I

could sew.

I'm already thinking ahead to Christmas and what I plan

to make and working on my list.. There are more on it this

year which is fine with me... :-) I had Penny bring up some

of my quilt material today and sorted through it.. She is

going to take some of it home to wash, and see if the damp

smell will come out.. If not all that wonderful material may

as well go in the garbage which almost makes me sick to

even think about.. I love clothes, which makes me love

material... and I think being a seamstress we all have a

huge fetish for material.. Put me in a huge warehouse

full of material..that I could take my pick of any I wanted?

I probly wouldn't be able to choose.. Of course I would

start first with Silks.. then cottons.. I made most of my

things I sold out of cotton.. my clothes I used the silk.
And now being in this chair.. silk is the best to wear as far

as tranferring.. makes sliding so much easier, for me

anyway...

I plan to phone my sister tonite for 2 patterns I know she

has for some kids things. I'm hoping she has some made

already which usually she always keeps some made up. I

had the patterns but my sewing stuff is so scattered I

have no idea where to look and it would mean Penny going

up and down those basement steps a dozen times and

that's not really fair to her.. So a little at a time. She and

I always shared patterns and designed a lot of things while

we talked on the phone. Give us a photo and measurements

we can make it.

What I plan to make now is a path to my bed and take a

rest. I felt good till about noon but once I ate I started

to wear down.. I did get up early again, 4:30.. I just couldn't

lay, sit or anything in on that bed anymore so I had to get

up.. Now I'm ready to go back in there.. If I could get rid

of this headache I think that might help too... When I do

sneeze it seems to intensify it.. I will glad when I stay on

an even keel... my boat gets rocky every once in a while..but

I guess in a way that's good cuz it makes me appreciate

the days I do feel good.. Its that time again for my

GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and THANKS!
Always, Lois ****


"God Bless You" is my prayer today.

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...