~Gardens~

Spring is sprung, the grass is riz, I wonder where the flowers is? :-).. Planting time and I am SO jealous of all those lucky people that get to go outside and dig in the ground, plant their flowers or veggies.. I really miss that. One friend said they were making 10 hanging baskets to hang around the veranda, well thats what I call it. I think now its a deck.. lol...Can you imagine in 6 weeks time what those hanging baskets will look like depending on what they planted? So many wonderful flowers to choose from and what's so great they have something for sun, shade and all areas in between lol... That first photo Is of my dad, and grandfather, (his dad) see the flowers behind..the hollyhocks.see the date? 1936..isnt it nice to look back..see people you love and can remember them? My Grandfather is the one I wrote the story about his desk that is on my other site that you can get to by the link over on the side that says My Stories. I wanted to show you the garden, the flowers.The house behind them is my grandfathers- where my dad was raised..Lovely home..huge place..I loved it there...specially when I got to try on my grandmothers jewelry or play in grandfathers desk. Sometimes I even sneaked up to the attic..THAT was a treasure trove up there...Massive steamer trunks full of wonderful things. This one is my grandpa's garden (moms dad) I think that is my mom standing to the left of my grandfather I am not sure.nothing was written on this photo and you can tell its very old...One of the very few we had of grandpas favorite place in the whole world I think. He loved that place.. and was constantly out there or in that front barn there where he did all his work..and the smaller one behind was the chicken coop where he kept his chickens, he raised rabbits too. Some of the biggest rabbits I think I have ever seen in my life...But I dont believe he had them at the time this photo was taken. But I love the overalls my mom has on. I think I have another photo of her in them is why I think it is her.. :-) The Next is me of course..you see the little blonde beauty next to me is Gail..well Gayle now.I was 3 or 4 - this photo wasnt dated,surprisingly. but look at the flowers behind us.hollyhocks again. My mom kept that whole side of the house as a garden...as she aged the gardens gradually diminished in size and in the number she had. She loved flowers, tended her gardens faithfully.You will have to overlook the quality of the scan I scanned them perfectly but they were so big I didnt know how to make them smaller and them not lose quality.I am NOT sure how to do this stuff but I LOVE it lol...Please to notice the saddle shoes? lol... Ok..this one is me of course..with my kittie..notice the flowers behind me, see how lovely they were. the hollyhocks, snapdragons. daises, and yes.. do notice the clothes..the dress in this one and the last..My mother made all the clothes I wore and my sister.. She knew what we each liked and it was a compliment to her when someone would comment on how nice we were dressed... This was a favorite dress..Green and the bottom was burgundy.she knew I like kinda full skirts.so she did her best to get them as full as possible for me, I know she did... This is Gail and I again..older..I think I must be 11 or so..she is at least 18. My mother made our skirts and blouses..notice the wide belts that were so popular then.. But look down to the side of my sister and see the garden... just starting under that huge tree, the tree is a Mountain Ash, red berries on it..by the time my dad took that tree down I couldnt even reach around the trunk..and was bigger than the house.. the birds loved the berries that hung in huge clumps..did make for a messy yard at times.. but was a great tree. my dad replaced it with a black maple I think...lovely tree as well... those were tulips and lilly of the valley shooting up.The photo had to be taken early spring.. The previous photos were taken over to my right by the side of the house. Arent we just beauties tho? You can see the difference in each of us..Gail is Italian.. Well there you have some pictures and some little tales about some of the gardens of my mom's.. Now you can see why I love flowers so much.. This last photo was taken of me before going to my junior prom.. My dress is a pale blue chiffon..but look at the table sitting in front of me..see the lovely daffodils? From my mothers garden. :-) there were always flowers in the house..and I would say my love of them stemmed from her and her love of them as well...See what photos can do? I have the best time and hope this didnt bore you silly..but you got to see GORGEOUS me again..and meet my sister I was raised with..Gail, and notice the difference in her and I..Ive not seen or heard from her since 1990..I wont bore you with those details.. but I am sure she has not changed alot...My sister i refer to now is Shirley, my blood...we were just not raised together...but very much alike... Well I made a pot roast last nite that is now ready and sitting in my crock pot waiting for me surrounded by luscious gravy and potatoes..and yup.. I AM starved.. Hope you enjoyed my GARDENS :-) Nitey Nite.... Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA!!! and THANKS :-) Always, Lois**** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~My Sewing Room Disaster~

Well today, I really didn't do a whole lot..AGAIN.. I did go into my
sewing room much to my cats delight.. they LOVE that and I really
don't know why when I leave that door open all the time, and I used
to, they didn't really bother going in there as they usually stayed with
in eye and ear range of me.. But I have some of my roses in there
hanging upside down of course, drying out-the ones I got for Christmas.
well that I think those are what Dutch really wants when he goes in
there plus he likes to climb in the closet, up to the shelf too.LB mainly
goes in there to a favorite sleeping spot he has in there on top of my
quilted material ...he knows the good soft spots, Dutch goes in there to
see what he can get into I think :-)

To put it mildly that room is a total disaster.. I went in there..I

know, I remember the last time I got hemmed up in there, well I

was careful this time.. I watched real close where this chair

went.. I couldnt do too much of anything as my power chair is

in there now.. so I pulled up to it..I thought that would be the first

move..get the stuff out of the way..make at least a path.. So I

pulled up facing my power chair..and locked down of course..

and scooted into it..got all settled ready to roll and push my

manual out of there..and just stay in the power one.. well ya...I

just fired that baby up and BLAHH.. the battery was dead as a

door nail.. CRAP! Well I guess one of the times Raelynn went

in and moved it she left it on..and so it lost its charge.. SOOO..

I had to transfer BACK into my manual..DRAGGGG the battery

charger over to the powerchair..and it is NOT a light weight

thing either..But I plugged it into my chair and decided to just

pick up around it and get that cart out of there that hemmed me

up last time.. I bet 3 hrs later I went back to move that power

chair I figgured Raelynn be here tomorrow and we can start on

it and Ill get the chair out etc.. Well CRAP again.. I didnt check

to make sure the bloomin battery charger was plugged IN !!!!

So all that time I was waiting like a big doofus it werent doin

nuthin anyways!!!! DUHHH.. I know .. I know.." SHOULDA

checked before LOIS " I will say it for you :-) lol...Well-- like I

say..every day is a learning experience :-)

So my power chair is at full power again...and ready to roll and

she is parked in my dining room along with that massive cart.

I have NO idea what to do with that or where to keep it.. its so

big. I may offer it to Stanley but then .well they sold their company

so I doubt now if he will need it.. Hmmmm CRAP..im stuck with

this big cart?? I will think of something lol...have NO fear.. But I

think when Raelynn is here tomorrow just this little head start will

help get that room straight.. Then if I can drill a hole in the wall and

put the cable thru I can move this puter in there again..Im still de-

bating if I want to do that or not...I have my old one in there that I

need to really just keep that one in there and then I would have

enough room to still sew in there too...I sure am anxious to get my

old photos off of it.. First ones I ever took of me when I got online

are on that puter and I just couldnt get them off ..

I still cannot burn a cd with my computer even though it tells me I
have a cd/rw .. so I dont understand what is wrong.. I wanted to

make a cd of my favorite songs.. but I tried using windows media

and they say I cant do it.. Maybe im just not holding my mouth right

when I ask permission to do this kinda stuff.. My 3/1 will let me do

anything from my computer..scan , print , whatever..but It wont from

the machine itself.So I guess I will have to call HP again and find out

what happened to that cd they were going to send..since they said

that was the problem...

I got a notice in my door from management.. its a add on to my

lease. a few new rules from HUD. one is that I am only allowed to
have a guest stay in my apartment for 2 weeks..and then they can
not come back for 180 days..I dont know..isnt that a violation of my
rights? Isnt this MY home? they can tell me how long a guest can
stay here with me? If I had a friend then had 3 weeks or a month
holiday and wanted to come and spend it with me.. I would have to
get special dispensation from the manager? I dont know..but I talked to
a neighbor.and she is just as displeased with this as I am. They expect
us to just sign what ever they want us to ..but when we have a complaint
its put up or shut up..or MOVE. I dunno ..but I am kinda upset that they
feel they can tell me how long I can have a guest in MY HOME.yes HUD
does help pay my rent- but that gives them this right? I really disagree
with this and I may refuse to sign this add on to my lease..so I may be
looking for a place to live alot sooner than I had planned..but I dont care.
this is NOT right and let them kick me out. I will live in a tent before
someone tells me this kind of CRAP.. lol. I LOVE that word...:-)

Well there you have my gripes and trials and tribulations of today. I hope

tomorrow is a calm one.however I have serious doubts. Raelynn will

be here and its Wednesday..that means the Apt Manager will be here

as well..and thursday is the FIRST..that means my rent is due. I will just

have to deliver my rent check IN PERSON lol.. well no I think Chris is

gone on holiday again.. for 2 weeks be back next week...Thats ok I can

wait lol...:-) So you know my next words are: "ok Kitchen..ready or not,

here I come." :-) lunch was its usual awful self..so I am hungry..think

eating only once a day I'd be skinny hey? CRAP... lol.. ya me? hahaha

skinny minny dont I wish.. *sigh* nope..just a chickeny GORGEOUS

weeble I am lol you knew I would put my favorite word in there :-)

time to hit publish.. Nitey Nite... :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA!!!! and THANKS :-)

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Fixin' Foto's~ :-)

I was chatting with a techy friend of mine the other day and had asked about a program that would let you hook your computer up to your VCR and take snapshots off of the tape. I was given a link to a site where it shows how I can take a negative or a slide and use my flatbed scanner to make these negatives into photos..and its VERY easy to do according to how it shows to do it.. Usually you would need a scanner with a light in the lid but with this adaptor and a homemade one..you can use a regular scanner..Its so easy by the looks of it and I am going to try it..This thing you make yourself and it shows the photos taken from slides and from negatives.. I AM going to see if it works.. I sure hope it does..All I need is the flashlight..and Raelynn can pick that up for me wednesday.. :-) I have some old 8mm movie film that my dad took years ago..I had them put onto VCR tape, thats why I was asking about snapshots off that tape..but since I do have the original tapes they would be better to use.. I can do any kind of negative. I am anxious to try it.. All I need is a flashlight with a fluorescent bulb..and that should work. I am so eager to get at these photos..there are so many stories in them..I can see the vcr movies and I cant wait to get them into photos...All these old photos I am so glad I have them. The memories they trigger are what is so great about them, things we had just tucked away not really remembering them, until that photo says "say, you remember when.." Now all I have to do is get organized. No comment please lol :-) Raelynn came today even though it is a holiday..Was so funny both the boys were waiting at the door for her and Dutch had his string ready and waiting for her to drag it around..they really like her..Dutch just pesters the daylights out of her but she really doesn't mind..she has cats of her own..between hers and her sisters I think they have 5. Pets are such a good thing.house bound people need one..They are so much company and someone to talk to even.. I talk to mine all the time..Well sometimes I even YELL..lol...I have NO choice however..specially when Dutch is scratching the wall at 3 am...go figure..I dont know what hes looking for but he does that... He is such a animated cat..he rides on the back of my chair even.. I can roll all over in here and he sits on the back between me and the chair and just rides..looking all smart..LB just walks away..he doesn't have time for that undignified stuff..lol... Hes so picky.. very laid back , hardly know hes even here, well until he starts howling if he cant find his girlfriend..he keeps close tabs on her, even Dutch does NOT mess with LB's girlfriend..he WOULD get in trouble then. This week we are going to tackle this bedroom and start on my sewing room. It really needs it badly. My sis brought me some new tops that are just gorgeous and I am SO pleased.. I told Raelynn that I will give some of them to her, there is NO way Ican wear all she brought.. I guess its something that is in a person that sews the love for clothes.. My sister is worse than me tho..I thought I was bad, lol..shes worse. Only thing is she doesnt like silk real well its too slippery she says, and she doesnt wear skirts very often..She has some but usually she wears slacks...I'm happy with all these new tops tho..Its very easy to make a skirt and only takes a few minutes to do it..specially if they are just elastic waist...I can use my machine for those few minutes even though its not that easy really..I say I am going to check online for a adapted sewing machine for an amputee but I never do i get too busy looking for tons of other stuff and get side tracked.. Well I really want to write these storys and possibly do a book.. I would love that...so that really has more priority that the new skirts to make right now.. Maybe Raelynn will go to the freestore here and find some there...never know I dont think she has ever gone there before... But anyway..Im slowly but surely getting stuff done..its about time :-) Raelynn brought me 2 biscuits and sausage from McDonalds..I love their breakfasts...Only thing I can eat from there..I only ate one and saved the other..so guess where Im headed? yup..to get that leftover biscuit and a soda and its monday nite and good TV tonite..so I am gonna do my nightly routine and try to beat my cats out into the kitchen and I bid you all Nitey Nite :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya!! and thanks :-) Always, Lois**** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~Old Times~

Holiday Parades, I remember one I was in for kids. I was about 8 years

old I think.. My cousin Larry, is the little man standing next to me. I am

a bride, aren't I just lovely? Look at the flowers..and my mom even let

me put rough on and lipstick.. I can remember standing there in her

bedroom as she took my blonde hair and pulled it up top of my head,

it is and was naturally curly, not so much now..but she used her finger

since it was still damp from washing it, and twisted it around her

finger..and made the curls for me. I can almost feel her finger as she

gently smoothed and lightened the lipstick she put on my lips, when

i see her face she is holding her own lips out as if she was doing hers

as well as mine.. something like when you feed a baby- they open their

mouth as well as the person feeding them. like it helps somehow....She

had a small round container that held her rough. was red.. and inside

when you lifted the lid..was a small round pad that she used to wipe

across the rough, then gently pat it on my cheeks...She got out her

bigger round box of loose powder, said "close your eyes" and I could

feel the powder puff as she patted it all over my face...She put her

hands on my shoulders, turned me to face the big mirror on her dressing

table and said "ok. look now dear".. I opened my eyes and well I think I

still have that cute little look on my face in that picture up there.I KNEW

I was just pretty..

The dress I have on..my mother made for me.. she could make anything

it had a white background and tiny pink and blue flowers all over it.. and

the lace around the neck and the Vshaped over skirt, was white... I loved

that dress, I wore it to all the special occasions.. I knew how lucky I was

that my mother could make ANYTHING I asked - If I saw something

in town on saturday when I would go with my friends.I would rush home

to tell her where and what it was.. she would go and look at it..buy the

material and pattern and with in days I had the exact same thing hanging

in my closet.. NOW you know WHY I have such a thing about clothes..

My cousin Larry is standing next to me.. He is 2 years younger than me.

He lived on a farm and we got along great..had alot of fun together... He

got to ride the bus everyday because he lived very close to the Wisconsin

border way out there on M-73. I loved going out there. I got to ride home

with him ON THE BUS, on friday, rode it to school on monday and went

back home.. Larry and I had a ball.. My Uncle Stanley & Aunt Edna. had

a huge farm..lots of acres.. a stream ran behind their huge farmhouse..

and way down on the far end was their own lake...They had every year

a big party or gathering of family when it was time to Hay. and all the

family would go and help..I would spend the weekend out there and my

Aunt Edna, wow..she WAS a good cooker!! ALL my aunts were..they

all had to be the best and no way was my Auntie going to let me go home

and tell my mother ( her husbands sister) that SHE was NOT a good

COOK!! oh no no.. So when I was there my Aunt made sure that she

fixed all the things she knew I liked.. cookies or her homemade pie

and she also made saffron but not rolls like my mom the bread..and

I love saffron to this day...Larry and I played many many weekends out

in that hay barn..He and I used to make the fishing flies that I found in

my dad's taco box lolol...after David called the fish lol...Larry and I

would make them for our dads.. Great memories...all because of

that one photo.. I could go into more detail about my trips to the farm

talk about fun.. It was.. I got to spend summer out there alot too...I

havent seen Larry in wow..43 years I bet..and last I heard hes just

over by Chicago.. hmmm and guess what? hes a Veterinarian i

heard too.. be nice to see him and show him this picture.. hmmm I

should try to find that little groom of mine :-) buggar married me

a LONG time ago and I bet he forgot wellll :-D

I love going thru these photos the one up top for that kids parade.We

had a great time.. they gave us candy and everyone yelled at us as we

walked down the center of the street in front of everyone...smiling and

waving.. The hardest part was..see those cute little white shoes I HAD to

have? well talk about some sore heels after we walked what seemed to

me to be 20 miles! I remember that parade.I am amazed that I do.but

I look thru these old photos I find I DO remember these things.that its

the photos that are reminding me that I do- to just sit and THINK long

enough and you WILL remember...and look at that pair up there. Now.

even though its me. isnt that just cute? ohh and say. look at the car that

is behind us.. That I think was my dads. see the old truck across the

street at the neighbors.? .their name was Sutherland..and the old guy as

we referred to him, drove that truck and we all knew when he got home

cuz he SLAMMED that truck door so hard.. lol..he worked in the mine..

and I guess he was glad to be home...Well any miner is always glad to

get home and out of those holes in the ground.. I dont know how those

men can do it.. I cant.. Im too claustrophobic... those ones that do Lord.

what courage. Im a BIG CHICKEN.. oops..ok ok Chickeny Weeble lol

These trips down memory lane I love them but guess what? lol yup...

just made me hungry.. and I am gonna parade right out into that

kitchen and have a little holiday food.. I made some potatoe salad..and

I have some brats in the freezer..and well its CHOW TIME ..lol..I hope

my little trip didnt bore ya...got to admit I was a cutie even way back
then and I am just gorgeous NOW lol.. see?

Nitey nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv Ya!! and Thanks.. :-) ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Body Scan~

When I woke up this morning I laid there for a few minutes just doing my own, I guess you would call it a body scan, as to how I felt and what I felt.. Of course my back still was hurting although it has moved up higher between my shoulder blades now..maybe it will work its way out of my back up to my head, and out the top you reckon? lol... Would be nice..Its a buggar when I go to roll its so sore now.. Anyway... I concentrated on my stumps, they didn't feel too awfully bad, considering we had storms last nite and tornado warnings. They felt pretty much ok. I scanned the invisible feet, each one, I concentrated on just my right foot, then the toes. As I laid there the harder I thought about moving my toes, which I had NOT been able to do before, I gradually noticed the harder I thought about it.. my toes DID move..not a huge lot..but each one I felt them move. Amazing. I laid there for the longest time..did first my right foot then the left..The more I thought about it the more my toes would move. It is so just unbelievable that this is even possible to me and I just sometimes am awestruck at the sensation that this has on me. I can, if I concentrate, swing my invisible leg side to side, like a pendulum but to kick it out, I can very very little at all.. it just refuses to go.. But when I had my first amputation below the knee I hated it.. I felt so uncomfortable.. it hurt all the time.. and I could NOT no matter how hard I tried straighten it out.. It always stayed bent at the knee. I dont know why it did that I think maybe the doctors cut the tendons too short or something it would NOT straighten out at all...and the more I tried the more it hurt..and then it got so infected that I gave up trying to do anything with it..and just hoped the infection would go away but of course it didn't.. They didn't take enough off that first time..besides it getting infected I dont think the gangrene that set in first of all from the first amputation had completely gone and then the 2nd infection that was a main reason they did the 2nd amputation above the knee. At lease thats my logic anyway... I will admit the part I did like about being a sak..I handled that no problem at all..I could still stand..I did NOT use crutches tho I was a disaster waiting to happen with those.. I went down the hall one day with those crutches..and I was like a big stork and I hit anything and everything that was in the hallway and in my way.One of my Dearies made the mistake of coming out of his room just as I was coming up to his doorway and as he took a step into the hall I made a swing with my left crutch to take a step and I put that crutch right on his foot..WOW.. I have NEVER heard an old man SCREAM so loudly..you would have thought I hit him in the head with it. I apologized and yelled for the nurse, she came running, then she explained to me that he had just had his toe removed.. Boy, did I feel like a big meanie..I didnt use my crutches after that.. lol Poor guy and of all the toes he still had..I had to step on THAT foot!! I started using my chair after that.. Those bloomin crutches were HELL on my arm pits..by the time I would struggle the length of the hall I was exhausted and talk about sore.. I preferred my chair.. I did use them off and on just for some exercise, and it was something different to do as well. I did hate when they made me do the physical therapy which all it involved was using a walker (as a sak) and hopping down the hallways, that was so horrible..hop hop hop..all it did was jar my teeth and brains..I dont see what good it did at all..maybe strengthen my left leg..but it was already bad and I had been in a chair for almost a year by the middle of 2001. I have been in a wheelchair since the summer of 2000.. I was using one because of all the bypasses my legs had gone thru and the neuropsy as well, my legs could not be trusted to hold me up at all.. The first rehab I was in after my abdominal and leg bypasses, was really good..the people there were just wonderful I liked it there. Other than it being so small...the rooms we shared were smaller I think than the hellhome..but the staff were so good and I mean bent over backwards to really try to help you in any way they could. Moreso than the other. The PT guy there was from Norway or Sweden or somewhere and what a doll- I mean he had ALL the women in there wanting to have PT with him lol..he was very good at his job and VERY dedicated. Its a shame that these places are so corrupted for wanting every dime a person has and then the person has to not have that first bit of privacy..its really sad. At the first rehab they did have a couple rooms that were private..and quite large. But I can only remember two. The hellhome had NO private rooms and all were super small. I always liked the bed by the window, then when it got so hot in there, no Air conditioning you know. I would get a little air in there. My sis brought me a little fan and I would clip it by the window to bring in some cool air..then once it got hot I would put it blowing out and pushing the hot air out of the room hoping it would cool it off.. The hall ways had some AC and the dining room and nurses station did. I never did understand why the dining room did when all it did was make the food colder by the time some of those dearies ate it was ICE cold. Otherwise the hellhome felt in the summer that it was just that HELL.. I am so glad to be OUT of there. And..I am so glad I have a kitchen LOL. now to decide just what I want to eat.. I called my sis this morning and she is all by herself. Stanley went to Haiti with his church and she is Spring Cleanin. and going thru all her closets..so you KNOW what THAT means.She will be here tomorrow she said..and has some things for me.I did ask her to bring me some potatoes tho...I m hungry for some potatoe salad again, and I did NOT have enough to make my fries n gravy last nite..so..pooh.. I was upset.. I was all primed and ready to taste some good gravy and of course those fries... I hope the day NEVER comes that I dont like them I have been eating that since I was 2 years old I bet, I loved them then and I still do..glad my tastes for that havent changed- they say your tastes do that though at least twice in a lifetime, foods you didnt like that all of a sudden you would..I STILL dont like CARROTS..lol.. Kitchen time..food time..and I am off and rollin...Cant wait till my sis comes tomorrow to see what she has for me.. I sure wish she would change her curtains and let me have her oldies lol well ok..time to quit readin..and Im gonna quit writin... nitey nite,,, OH..and DONT say.."well its about time she did" to your self either :-) Y'all have a good one Y'hear? Luv ya & thanks... :-) Always,Lois **** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~Holiday Weekend Ahead~

Its our Memorial Day week end here. I got to thinking of all our soldiers

over there that have been hurt and brought back missing limbs..I wish I

could help them.. Maybe especially if they are having a hard time to

adjust and to be accepted.. I see shows where the first thought a new

amputee has is "who is going to want me now" more worried about

being accepted, which is understandable..But you have to accept

yourself first before anyone else can.. Only You know what you can and

cant do.. I know my limitations..I hate to admit that I have any, yes, but

being in this chair now I have many. And ones I have NO choice but to

accept.. Perhaps its because all this happened to me at an older age,

where I am more secure in myself and know my capabilities moreso

than say a person in their 20's or 30's.. They dont see things as some

one like me would... I dont see next week or next month.. only today. I

do look ahead and plan as far as money or financial matters I have no

choice..I HAVE to..but as far as anything else..I dont really like to have

SCHEDULED things.. I like doing as they happen.. call last minute say

"hey I'm coming over" or the like..is fine with me.. When I have had

appointments to the doctor or where ever I would wake up worrying

about it..and plan every minute so that when that scheduled appoint

ment was due I was ready...I hate to be late or make someone late,

just like I hate to wait.. lol...I know im an odd duck...ok weeble lol...

I have a friend that went over to Germany to help our soldiers that

came back from the war, he is a specialist with artery problems..

He relayed to me how many there are..and I feel so badly for them

since this is NOT easy to accept.. Your life changes so drastically,,

not only yours but those that are close to you as well.. because its not

that your different really...you are still you..but your being is altered..

like me.. I require more care now if someone were to come and take

me out.. They have to handle my chair.. there is no horn blowing out

side with me running out the door..I wish..but thats not possible any

more.. I think THAT is a major issue..for me anyway. Not having my

own vehicle. I would love to have my own-even if I didnt drive it.

I know a few amputees dont even drive..but have a van..so that their

caregivers can take them out or their friends.. I would love that.. And

Raelynn has already said she would drive it.. doesn't have to have

hand controls even... it would be nice..then its more MY taking some

one if its my vehicle.. I would love to get in a van..take my boys and

go and visit friends I have in other states.. that would be so nice to do...

ahhhh wishful thinking on my part for a vehicle..I priced those puppies

and WOW..I mean mega bucks.. I Think having the bus and living in

that would be the way to go..Then I could travel all over for the rest of

my days LOL..Id really be a gypsy lol.. Would be nice to travel like that

though...OK..who's got a bus, they can lend me ? :-)

There are going to be so many barbecues this week end, all that good

food, the bratwurst and burgers, n chicken n ribs..and potatoe salad....

MMM makes me hungry just thinking about it.We had such good times

with my ex and his family on holidays we always gathered at his mom's,

she lives on the St. Joe River with her significant other..Lovely home.

overlooks the water, from a deck and its wonderful..she has a swing

out there that I made a cushion for..with matching back cushion.. I put

a little like skirty ruffle that hung over the edge and as you went back

and forth would hit the back of your legs. I remember when I was little

sitting on my grandmothers porch on her swing..and the feel of that

ruffle as I moved my feet to keep the swing moving. I enjoyed the deck

and the whole time, well in the summer, we all stayed out on the deck

was a great place. In the winter was not accessible but from the inside

Davids mom kept all sorts of bird feeders out there for the cardinals

and chickadees that fed there on the deck when she would put a pan

out there with birdseed on top the snow. That deck was a joy all year

round.My ex and I never hesitated when his mom asked if we wanted

to babysit the house for them for a weekend.. We were ready, willing

and very able.. especially having the pontoon AND hot tub lol... Usually

at the closing of these get togethers it seems it always ended with a

ride down the river to the dam, which took almost 2 hrs, one way if you

didnt rush...and we didnt.. everyone except Davids mom & her friend

would go..she had 4 kids.. and we all piled on that thing and off we

would go..just having big fun.. radio going..laughing, joking..and some

times we even stopped to let the kids fish.. Davids sister had 3 little

ones..and his brother had 1 , his other sis 2..so we were a boat full..

but it was a big pontoon and made for alot of people... Was big fun

for all the summer gatherings and not to mention Jims'. great cooking

on that grill he loved..

Seems I always end these writing about food..Hmmm I wonder what

that means? think some underlying thing I have with food? lol...naaah

we ALL like food..only a few other things better lol.. :-) I am NOT going

to be specific on THAT either..even though I do say alot hahaha...well

lunch was as Raelynn said.."Lois, I don't know exactly what this is..but,

dont look real good what shall I do with it?" :-) ok..3 guess what I told

her, first 2 don't count :-) I am not sure what I want. Its the week end.

and of course my standard treat, my fries and gravy, I think tomorrow I

will have those tho..I had thought of a pot of beans for the weekend - -

sounds good.. I'm hungry lol.. ok hitting publish.. Y'all can go

get a snack now too, your done reading this :-) nitey nite !!!! :-D

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya!!! and Thanks!! :-)

Always,Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Sleeping Sickness Maybe?~

Boy, today was a super lazy one, I did not one thing but doze off

and on all day, I cant seem to stay awake.. I wonder if I have

sleeping sickness? :-) no.. I think I have lazy sickness maybe-

I just keep going and going to get stuff done so that Raelynn

doesnt have to do more than her share, and with all the moving

this monitor etc.and cleaning I just overdo and then it catches up

and sure lets me know real fast, STOP IT lol...Raelynn said next

week she will help me get my sewing room straight and I may

put this desk and computer in there.. It may mean calling Donnie

to help, but I think I would like it better in there. I have thought of

just dividing the room half sewing half computer.. I am just not

good at hooking all this stuff up...

A friend told me there is a cart type thingie I can get that my cpu

(big box) can go into and then sit under my desk..when I need to

get to the back I just pull it out since its on wheels.. That would

make it so much better then I can get it off the top of my desk. I

had it down under there once and was awful..I had to keep it on

one of my transfer boards so I could slide it easier and even then

it was NOT easy..Soon I will have this all set up and runnin so good.

At least I hope so... Only a new keyboard and mouse is all I really

need yet, a keyboard is a must , I wore my nubbies off of the J and

F keys and most of the letters are wore off. I can type with out seeing

the letters on the keys, I dont look anyway at them but I cant place

my fingers right the first time with no nubbies, I looked at some on

line and they are very reasonably priced, l would like some better

earphones too..this small headset makes my ears itch..Someone

said they have ones that go over your ears..that would be good..

I have been using that Skype..now is that a deal or what? Free long

distance..even to Canada? wonderful.. I have called a couple of my

family to say hello.. NO I did NOT abuse this wonderful privilege- my

cousin had not heard from me in ages and he doesn't have a computer

(unbelievable) and hes not been real well..so I called to say hi...he

was very pleased.. I was so glad to talk to him... This Skype is just

great..the quality is wonderful.. so clear like talking on a phone..which

is what it is..I talk on my headset into my computer and call YOUR

telephone number ! I did call my friend Gail..She & I were chatting on

Yahoo..and I told her "Gail...your phone is gonna ring" she said "huh?

oh , now HOW do you know?" and laughed.. She then says "just a

minute the phone is ringing brb" She answers the phone "hello", I

said " hi Gail..its Lois" she said "WHAT? your online..you have dial

up you cant be on the phone" I told her about Skype too.. I asked a

friend how its possible that they can do this..I guess my voice is

sent out as text is why..not a voice.. What ever way it does it.. I am

SO glad..Soon they will have free international and that would be

really great.. but I am just pleased as can be with this.. Lord, I LOVE

this FREE stuff... If it doesn't say FREE I cant have it... Thats one of

my MAJOR rules...

My hand is slowly getting better if I dont quit banging the bark off of

it running into the door frames..lol..well ..I get in a hurry sometimes

and I don't pay attention and misjudge and BAM! i hit that facing,

my knuckles always stay banged up. Since I have to kind of use my

hand a little lopsided so as not to hit my thumb, I hit the back of it

more.. I know ,, I know..go ahead..say it.. "Start out sooner Lois...

dont wait till the last minute and RUSH to the potty" Well sometimes

I could start out the day before and still have to RUSH you know

what I mean? lol...

Lunch today? well..let me just say it has NOT improved.. I am NOW

taking applications for a back massager, fixer upper, and cooks

helper..wanna apply? lol.. be nice if I could hire someone to do

that..but..well would have to be on a volunteer basis right now lol...

I have no idea what I will fix for my supper..I guess Seek and I

shall find lol..So my nightly routine is..OFF to the Kitchen..ha! look

at Dutch go! He CAN read..he was sitting right here watching me

type this..just jumped down and is sitting in the doorway with a

look on his face of..'COME ON'...hope your day was as nice and

lazy and relaxing as mine was...I will be all set and primed ready

to get started with tomorrow lol..ok..hitting publish I am hungry,

hungry, all sleep and no food is not good :-) .. Nitey nite!

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya, & thanks...
Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~OLD SMOLD~

I was listening to Brooke Benton..What a voice.. I love his songs.. You know.. -- because your 60,70, 80..do you HAVE to be OLD ? I had a dear friend tell me "Lois, I'm 70 years OLD",can't you be 70 years YOUNG? I refuse to get old... I'm sorry..I get SO mad when someone refers to anyone over 50 as OLD. I beg to differ. NO NUMBER is OLD.. not if you don't let it be...Its HOW you feel. you can feel bad physically, but no matter WHAT number you are age wise, well that doesn't mean anything... I tell myself and every one, how do I know they didn't lie on my birth certificate? well? HEY.. I feel like someone is playing a real joke on me here..well.. something is seeing how much ribbing I'll take..keeps poking at me..well..how do I know that number that says when I was supposedly born TRUE??? :-) well that's MY story anyway... I REFUSE TO GET OLD...and if someone , anyone has a problem with that..well..all I can say is its YOUR problem lol..I like me..and I aint OLD..I NEVER will be.. NOPE..nahhh..not me..My body may age but me? noooo THAT day will never come..These invisible feet will keep right on dancing to the MUSIC...so OK..ummm who wants to dance with me? :-D ... Go to JD Crooners on the net.. listen to some of the wonderful oldies there...Some great songs. I go there all the time and listen to everything there ..there is a song for every mood that could possibly enter your mind...some thing to cry with you or make your feet just do a happy dance- whether you have feet or not.. :-) But anyway- who made the rule that a certain number you reach you have to be considered old? That's like saying because those of us living in a chair- we are called DISABLED..Ummm EXCUSE ME??? no.. I am NOT DISABLED.. I am STILL VERY ABLE.. Im just shorter now.. thats all.. My legs just shrunk on me and I have to see things from a different angle..well..LOWER..and Thats ok..well..its very nice if you sit if you converse with someone in a chair..thats just courtesy..Consider the crink in the neck for the person in the chair looking up, so I DO hope you would do that.. But I am NOT disabled OR O-L-D. I wont be Im sorry and If that is how you see me..then clean your glasses ok hon? lol...:-) I KNOW, and thats who's opinion really matters isn't it? I, me, myself, KNOW .. I am NOT OLD or DISABLED..and I am GORGEOUS ...so..NOW ---that THAT record is straight... YOU KNOW TOO :-D now, we ALL AGREE on that YES??? lol... Raelynn was here today and we are all squeaky clean. She is so nice, and does good work. My apartment looks really nice. I got so tired before she left I had to lay down. I fell asleep last night about 6:30, woke at 11 pm and stayed up until 6 am then back to bed till 10am...I was tired by noon..I had NO choice but to lay it down and went instantly asleep, I didn't even hear Raelynn leave, the phone rang at 4:30 a little while ago and woke me. By the time I scooted into my chair and to the phone, it was in the dining room, who ever called had hung up..If you call .... Please let it ring more than 4 times ok? Sometimes takes me a while to move..There is nothing worse than hurrying to get into a chair trying to hurry so you can answer the phone.. ok? lol..Well, I hate to miss a phone call..and today is usually the day my friend in Australia phones.. and what a sweet dear man he is.. Hes so nice..and to hear his wonderful accent..I thoroughly enjoy his calls... He lives in a hostel? like a nursing home except he has a private room which is so nice.. Here I think they deliberately have 2 to a room just so they can have 2 people in them that are NOT suited to be together.. Thats what they did to me.. I Had to share a room with another patient..If the other bed in my room came empty,, They would always put someone there even if there were 4 others open..And Usually the person they put in with me was someone that required total care or was bed bound, and had to be tended to all during the night. It was how they did me there. They had NO regard for my feelings at all..They wanted me out of that nursing home as badly as I wanted to go..but I wasn't capable of taking full care of myself..and I had NO where to go.. I got called into meetings ..hmmm 3 times I can think of where they asked me, " perhaps you would be more comfortable at another facility, more people your own age or food you would like better". That is what they would tell me...They hated the fact that as I did improve mentally I SAW what went on there and how so many residents', as we were called, were mistreated and I told.. ANY ONE that would listen..Usually I would go to a family member and tell them..Watch your mom or dad- things arent right here... 2 'residents' I know were taken out of there by their familys and moved and I think probably just in time...It was NOT a good place and I cant go back there.. I tried once, I got a ride, was taken out of the van, pushed thru the first doors and I could NOT go past the 2nd set into the facility..I KNEW what was past those doors and I just could NOT go thru them..I had to catch the driver, so he didn't leave and come back in the scheduled 2 hrs.I had to leave. THATS the effect that place has on me. I get almost sick thinking that I would ever possibly have to go back there. If I got alot worse, and couldnt live alone, I would have NO choice but to be sent back to that place, where I KNOW I would surely die..and within a short time I bet...its a horrible place.. Since I didn't eat all day, I am a bit hungry, I don't know what I want..I am just plain lazy today..No, just so tired.. I guess I go in spurts of energy and then just go go go and wear myself OUT, and then it takes then a couple days to get my energy built back up...Tomorrow will be a better day..so..kitchen, here I come...food search time...Hope your dinner was good.. and your supper good and in a few minutes I'll be good too...So until tomorrow..Nitey Nite.... :-) Y'all have a good one now y'hear? Luv ya, and thanks.. Always, Lois **** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~Im Burning Not the CD~

Everyone is so busy now days trying so hard to make a living

its really sad that its gotten so hard..no one has time to just take

a break and enjoy their life.. I guess I am very fortunate that I can

spend all the time I want on the computer or doing what ever I please

I need to be very grateful.. I will admit I do forget that some people

have full lives and many things to do,, I guess I have things I NEED to

do but just cant do them , like cleaning for one,or re arranging things..

I was so mad yesterday, I cant reach the wall behind the sink, I wanted

to hang a mirror there, I get so frustrated at that sort of thing then I get

very discouraged and get into a snit and say why try at all.But well then

why play this life game if you are afraid to TRY it? Do the best you

can, and just keep trying to improve it..

I have been seriously considering moving I am happy with my

apartment, I really like it and It could be fixed up so cute if I had the

ways and means to do it, I can, just take time and effort..but its doable

I just am so unhappy with the location..I see nothing out my windows

now..just a parking lot..If I go out to the patio down by the conference

room I see parking lot and a nasty place never cleaned , if I go out the

main door, I see parking lot...Its such a sad location for such nice apart-

ments.They could fix it so we could have some private spot outside

for each of us..but they choose not to..we cant even put things outside

because of the yard maintenance, he has to be able to just cut across the

grass and the sidwalk with out flowers etc sitting there...ITs a shame.. I

had my computer in my other bedroom and I liked it there I could see

out side, but then nothing to see but cars parked out there now, I wish I

could find a nicer outdoors. I miss my garden and my lanai so much.. I

sat out every day and nite,, even in the rain sometimes. You know how in

the summer its so very hot and suddenly this nice warm rain comes down

and just refreshes and cools..you can almost see the steam rising

from the concrete and grass as the cool mist lowers the heat...The fresh

smell to the air, and the wonderful quiet, everything seems to just COOL

and take a deep breathe and sit and just relax..those were such good

times..I miss that..ALOT.

Of a morning I would get my coffee, and a carafe full and climb the steps

up to my lanai..and would make a round of all my flowers, checking each

one.. noticing if any special care was needed..feeling the dampness of the

morning dew on each one I touched.. I loved to see my little snap dragons

all bright and cheerful smiling up at me as if to say "look at ME, arent I

JUST the prettiest?" I had yellow, salmon, pinks, just lovely, The trellis

held my morning glories as I climbed the steps (I lived in a condo)I would

scan the bottom of the glories checking the dirt and tucking in any new

stragglers... I would walk around the end, and check out the front and see

all the delicate flowers blooming just that one morning just for me, all the

colors..Glories only bloom one day you know..I felt they each deserved

the attention every day from me if they were generous enough to bloom

for me even only just the ONE day, they replaced the ones gone every

day, and it just stayed blooming all summer. In the center I had a purple

Clematis.. when that beauty starts to bloom you can only just stand back

and just savor the glory of all the dozens of blooms it gives you..all with

that delicate yellow star in the center Just lovely. The daisies I planted in

front ..just standing tall..enjoying the dampness of the dew and early rays

of the sun...and my roses? Just wonderful.. Every morning i would scan

my flowers..drink my coffee and listen to the sounds of the day starting,

feeling the air warming from the heat of the sun as it rose, listening to
the birds telling me all happily as they jump from the birdbath to the
bird feeder for their daily breakfast-"ok..we got another day here to use.
whats on for today" - just enjoy that you have another day to Live again.

Well I just went on didnt I? lol...I was just mentioning to Donnies Mom,

Barb, she is a EXCELLENT cook..Chef level...about how I miss cooking

like I used to when Donnie and Kimmie, Kelli of course, and no telling

who else would drop by seemed always conveniently at supper time like

Kenny or Julio..I enjoyed it though..Only was hard when I wasnt really

prepared to have to keep stretching something when well there wasnt a

whole lot more could be added to make a meal larger lol..But I did enjoy

that.. I do like to cook...I look at the grocery ads in the paper and think of

all the meals that I had prepared, now being alone. that is just such alot

of very hard preparation work that would just wear my arms out totally

having such a high work surface. I really havent figured out a easy way to

do major cooking to roll in a chair is so much different than just taking a

step to be able to reach something..for me it may be 2 or 3 times having

to move If my wheels are pointed the wrong way or I have to back up.
then turn, then rolll.then back up.turn and roll back..where someone
standing it could mean only stretching and one small side step...Big
difference..Plus the fact..I have short arms or these are awfully wide
counter tops and I know they arent as its a standard double sink, if I
was taller I would be ok.Its really amazing I had seen many people
before in chairs and even thought well riding is ok..not realizing ALL
the limitations involved with it there are so many...

Next time Raelynn comes and I am going to the potty I am hope Dutch

will get up on it with me and maybe she can get a picture of this
perverted cat.. I got the funniest video I laffed so hard But this little
dog was going to town on this stuffed bear, and I mean just jumping all
over..and it reminded me of this cat of mine LittleBoy, thats just what
he does.Its so funny.He will start to howl and cry and the next thing
I know hes dragging his stuffed cat and then mounts this thing and
goes to town..Its hilarious..I wake up with all 3 of these cats..and I hate
when I reach out and I touch this stuffed one..ewww I am VERY careful
how I handle that "cat" Im afraid to wash it for fear it will fall apart, 3
yrs now hes dragged this poor thing around and if something happened
to her he would be most upset. I took pictures of him once and I put
them together as kittie porn lol..was so cute I will have to do that again,
he really loves her,and takes very good care of her, drags her to his food
dish, Ive found her in by the litterbox even.. hmmm so THATS who
messes outside the box ..lol no no my boys are very neat..VERY sloppy
eaters..but Raelynn and I were in the kitchen yesterday,, and we
watched Dutch scoop out a piece of his hard food and just slap it all
over the kitchen then go back and get another, I had just told her that
ook how this food gets so scattered.NOW we know why!!! Was funny, I
get ants in the kitchen if the food is not picked up, why I am so picky,
well there was a trail of cat food that led right up to the ant trap we had
put out to stop these little buggars.I looked at that and thought well now
that stupid ant must have stopped in that trap thinking something better
was in there..lol..Little things amuse us here.

Well I had lunch and I'm not hungry so no kitchen stop..I guess the boys

know this since they are over on the bed already lol.. I'll finish my email

then I will be headed over that way myself...:-) I am really tired..I bid
you all a nitey nite..:-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear..Luv ya & thanks !!

ALways, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~I Got Fixed~

Monday Monday, I'm squeaky clean, and the cable has been

fixed they said "obviously someone is tapping my line" The guy

went down and put a padlock on the door down where the cable

stuff is.. I hope who ever is doing this gets caught.. It was just

too fishy 2 weekends in a row I lose cable power? no..1 ok..but 2?

no...so Lets hope it stays fixed..I dont think anything is more

maddening than doing something then it doesnt work..Like Raelynn's

computer, we have been steady discussing what could be wrong

with it.. I seem to think it may be her monitor...The things described,

just dont make any sense..She is not online so she cant download

anything to help so I suggested that is where she start.

I got the nicest email this morning from my girl..she really liked

what I said about her in last nites blog..I sent her a copy and I

dont think she had that picture of herself either.. We always had

a good time..and we loved spoiling that girl..well arent all

grandkids worth spoiling? She was a pistol but what a kid. So

bright and smart..What I LOVE about kids..they are SO

eager to learn...like sponges they soak up everything..they

are ready and willing to go to school..I wonder what happens

that they end up hating school..the kids there, the teachers..

I dont understand that at all..But it sure is a shame when you

read what is happening in the schools..so much peer pressure

and if the child doesnt meet the standards of the "in" group

woe onto that child..I, myself, think that every school child

should wear uniforms..like they did in Catholic School when I

was young..they all dressed the same..then NO ONE was

less or MORE dressed than the other...I approve of that, less

pressure and the way I see these young men dress with their

pants so big 2 others could fit in them..they look so sloppy..the

girls wearing all this low cut revealing short skirts.. where are

the morals? The self respect? Do they really THINK they look

good? Sometimes Less is More...

I get all these emails and get glimpses of the news..and read those

little newsy clips from MSN every day..and I just dont know what to

think.. but I think if a country was good enough to let me into it to

live I would at least have the respect to learn that countrys language

and respect its laws and customs..NOT try to change it to suit them

selves.. This God issue..well.. I dont think I should go there.. God

should NOT be taken out of anything here, or anywhere , I get so

upset when they stop someone or a group from referring to things

with God in them..How UNGODLY is that.. I am a believer and I

know the power He has..and I know with HIM...all things are very

possible.. I dread to think ..that if these multi threats continue what

will happen to life as we knew or know it? I worry that these kids

that are having such hard times now..and the USA is in the dire

straits it is..how will these kids handle it when they get older if they

cannot deal with problems they have now and ONLY at grade

school level problems? I sure think about that alot... Everything is

changing so drastically even the weather, the storms, not only in

the weather, but in life, have surely taken a meaner and harder

turn for the worse I think. its really scary - to me anyway...:-(

My hand is doing ok..its not better, but its not worse.. I wish I could

say the same for my back... It was so sore today, I had Raelynn

rub it for me and I even had to take a couple Advil...I guess I will

have to just quit doing this bending and lifting so much...Raelynn

is so nice..we had lunch together while she was here..She ran to

KFC and got some biscuits and beans, and a few chicken strips

for me..was very good..I love their biscuits..I like McDonalds

breakfasts..their biscuits and sausage are so good. Most fast food

though does NOT stay with me however and goes right thru like

an express train... Dutch has been at his greatest lately.. I cannot

even go near the bathroom with out him right there watching me

and If I dont acknowledge he is there he will jump up between my

stumps and sit there looking at me as if to say "ok, ignore me NOW!"

When I scoot back into my chair he puts his little foot on the flusher

handle and tries to flush for me..and then will walk around the seat

and scrape it like hes trying to bury it.. lol..we are a weird lot here..
LittleBoy? well he is just so sweet and just a big laid back cat and

just does what ever he wants..he struts..The two of them have been

fighting really bad..I found so many clumps of hair I am surprised

either of them has any left..They start out playing..then it escalates

into a fight..With this new monitor, they both have room up here

on my desk..they didnt think I might have had plans for this extra

space I guess they figgered I did all this to give them more room ..

Kids..they are so spoiled...gotta love em tho..I felt sorry for that

cable guy..Dutch was ALL over him, as if to say..'ok , now, pet

me , pet me, then you can do what ever' ..the guy did!!! :-)

I had a good lunch and I am off to clear out my Inbox and then I

am going to bed... Was a hectic one today..I dont know which is

worse, something steady going on..or doing something steady,

to wear yourself out..but sure makes you tired..does this lady

anyway.. I did transfer back into my old chair today and boy , is

my butt happy..it sure could tell the difference in this old chair and

that new defective one..Sure looks nice all squeaky clean..And,,

feels good too..I love how this one rolls so good..just a light push

and I am off and rolling AND in a straight line..not off to one side..

I missed this old one.. I may just stay in it.. I have to look for the

new arm chair thingies I got ..theyre somewhere here..the arms

on this are really bad and drive my arms nuts if I have on short

sleeves when they rest on the plastic or vynil covering on them.

Anyway, no kitchen run tonite..I will just scoot on my bed and watch

some monday nite tv..well maybe have a few cookies or those good

chicken in a biscuit crackers.. something light..NOT Chair shrinking

stuff either lol... so time to say again...Nitey Nite..:-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? LUV YA...& Thanks..!

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~My Dolly's Birthday~Happy Birthday HoneyGirl ~

Today is my Dolly's birthday. She is 22. What a sweet girl

a good kid, well young woman to me she will always be my

Dolly and a kid..even though shes married for 2 years now,

to a nice guy, she has a good job and just finished college

and I think going back for a Masters.. She's kind and very

respectful. I had the joy of taking care of her practically every

day since the day she was born till I had to move away when she

was 4 years old...My girl has been through alot..but shes a go

getter, and likes to get done what she has to do..and is NOT

afraid to do it, and she's honest.

The photo up top is of my Dolly, Kelli Beth, when she was about

3 years old...the huge Burmese cat is my boy Skeeter..what a

great cat..well you can see by the photo hes just hangin there..

he doesn't care he knows Kelli loves him..she kept him by her

all the time to include him in her playtime when he was in the house

usually he would see her coming if he was outside..and within a

few minutes he would be at the door to want to be let in, he would

take a drink then very slowly walk over and peek at where ever

Kelli was..and wait for her to notice him..If she didn't after a little

while, he would go up to her and just rub all over her legs..try to

trip her if she walked by getting in front of her..He loved her alot..

He was an extremely friendly cat..well ALL my animals were, my

dogs were friendly but also very protective of me..but I think thats

because they knew I loved them...I never hesitated to pet or rub

them when they came to me..Like kids..you have to show you

have time for them no matter what.. Thats how it was with Kelli..

I had a old stool..like a high seat, like a bar stool..and was metal

very old..but very light weight.. When I would start to prepare dinner

for her if she was staying which usually she spent the night a lot...

I would tell her "ok..you have to watch and help" well pretty soon I

didn't have to tell her..she would grab that stool..and drag it around

from the counter, to near the stove, or over by the sink..the whole

time just busily chatting away, about her school or her friend James,

that lived next door...One day we are cooking and shes dragging

this stool by me. and as shes dragging it..she looks at me with this

big loving smile, and those huge hazel eyes..and says "Gran- - ,

when I be big, I can be a good cooker just like you". I saw the look

so sincere in that little face..and held it and kissed her and told

her "you can be ANYTHING you wanna be Honeygirl" she smiled

again and every time I moved she would climb down and drag that

stool and follow me.. Today tho..she is not that anxious to cook..I

think she does like it..but she works so hard..and stays busy doing

so many things..that she doesnt cook alot..but I remember when I

was at the farm staying with them..she did cook alot and was very

good at it..specially baking..cake..or cookies, I think she does, just

the time issue..everyone stays so busy now..doing so many things.

but I think she knows she can do anything she puts her mind to..which

she most assuredly can.. I can see that determination in here even

now as I did back then.If she wasnt allowed something she wanted

to know "WHY"..I thinks shes the same today..shes a good girl, Ok..

YOUNG WOMAN :-)

The day the photo was taken of her and SKeeter, Kelli was playing

house..as you can see by all the clothes and towels and laundry

basket.. AND look at her feet..she has on her PaPa's, shoes..Willie

LOVES this picture..she loved my ex..well still does. ANyway

a little while after this was taken..Kelli took Skeeter and pushed him

into this little mini grocery cart- she had a miniature of what is in the

grocery store..he would try to get out..and she would bang him on the

head and tell him "NO...You STAY THERE!! and bang him again on

the head..start to push this cart around with him in it, when she would

stop he would try to get out..each time he did, she did the same thing

to him and bang him on the head..soon he DID NOT try and would let

her push him all over all day long. Later..after her mom came and got

her ..I got to thinking of where Skeeter was..in or out?? I looked for

him..its good to keep track of your pets anyway,, I do these- if some

one goes in or out here to make sure they have not escaped..Well, I

looked all over for Skeeter and I just did NOT see this cat anywhere,

so I went out side and called for him..nothing.!! . He ALWAYS came

when I summoned him.."Hmmmm, somethings wrong" I thought, and

turned andI went back inside..and I hear this forelorn MEOWWWW !!!!

and I go to look..there in my sewing room Skeeter was, in that little

grocery cart - STILL after hours of Kelli being gone.!.This poor cat

didnt know if it was safe to get out of that thing.. I walked up to him and

took him out and boy does he purrr, I can see this cat looking around

for Kelli..I pat him saying "its ok, shes gone" and you could almost see

the look of relief on his face.. But he was NOT coming out of that cart ..

naaa-- he wasnt taking ANY chances that Kelli was around and gonna

smack him on top the head lol. I laffed and called and told her Mom

about this poor cat staying in that cart all this time cuz of Kelli ..we

laffed so hard.. Poor cat :-)

So there is the story of that photo..and that is My Dolly..isnt she

just that tho? God Love her..shes a sweetie and we sure love

her..her dad and Dawn and Grandparents we are all so proud of her

we love her alot..shes worth it..I wish I could spoil her more..but

she knows Gran is here anytime she needs me.

Im late tonite, I fell asleep and woke up and rushed here..I try to

be here by 6 at least, but I ran into a friend on the way here and

well you know me..I HAD to say hi..so I was late for this VERY

important date..and well , better late than never..I KNOW if I

didnt write here every day..well geezzz you would HATE that..lol

well I hope so anyway... So Im off for a snack..And I say Happy

Birthday to my Dolly, and nitey nite to you :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA !!! & THANKS!!!

ALways, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Google Is Being Mean~

Ive been trying to get here since 3 and Google is down ..Well up and
down..I dont even know if it will let me post these few words.. It has
been a day and a half I think.. One thing after another.. I did get my
3 in 1 up and running after 4 installs, so far so good...Ive never had
Google act up like this. I tried to get here thru Internet Explorer and
just no go...I wish these places would get fixed and stay fixed...

My cable went out again...strange 2 saturdays in a row.. I called of
course, said something is wrong with the systems..and of course
sending someone monday again..The lady seems to think my line
is being tapped..They will be doing a systems check when the guy
gets here Monday, so if anyone still has free cable..well not for long.
If one can get it why not all..not right...

Tomorrow is my girls birthday, my Dolly, I was looking at photos
of her today and she was such a cutie..well thats why I called her
Dolly... She was a good kid sometimes...but very spoiled..My ex
(2nd) and I babysat her everyday for 4 years..and I will be honest
we spoiled her horribly and we didn't care. Willie & I would argue
over who she spent the day with..and too it depended on what he
had scheduled for tree work that day..If he was busy she didn't
go, she was just to little and we were both very protective..didn't
take any chances..she LOVED to go with Willie tho..ride in the
truck..help with brush, small sticks, she loved it.. She had to
have a hammer to help him build the shed we had..a regular little
tag along she was..but we loved it..

I will not make this long for fear I wont be able to publish it..My
back is still sore but oh well I can handle pain alot better than
I can other things that go wrong.. lol.. some things boy, theyddd can'
just eat your lunch for ya... I got a hilarious song sent to me the
other day that of course I sent along..and the poor guy was having
alot worse than me..lol..Hopefully tomorrow will be better. it
always is..its not here yet..so it has to be yes? lol... Well here
goes..hittin publish..and crossing my fingers...Tomorrow will
be better.. and thats my final answer ..... Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? Luv Ya..& Thanks~!~

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~I Stall, You Stall, NO Stall~ :-(

I wonder why sometimes the harder you try the worse it gets? I have

installed and uninstalled my 3 in 1 twice now and it still says I have

to download the software..I put the cd in- it ran, said was installed..

well THAT is not true..It will NOT scan.. I have NO idea now what to

do.. I have been reading the help and trouble shooting thingie and

havent been able to solve the problem.. I plugged that cord into

every one of those USB holes I have on this computer and not a thing

works.. I just cant figure out what is wrong..I think I just need to make

a phone call..talking to a live person..well one that knows what the

problem could be that is..Ive called some techs and I know more than

they do..so...I asked a 'friend' on yahoo what could the problem be &

all we did was get in a fight so I still dont know..I think the best thing

before I get TOO frustrated would be to call and talk to someone..

I didnt look to see if they have online help chat tho..I might do that..It

worked at one time..the pictures I posted on Sunday I scanned..now

it says "umm hey, we decided we ain't working no more..we just

wanna make you mad" I bet thats what that machine is saying when

it blinks that not working , install software..lol...go figure...:-)

However..I did get my new monitor hooked up..and it works so good-

when that screen lit up so did I, let me tell ya..wow..what a difference

totally totally awesome.. I can really actually SEE this.. It seems kinda

light tho..and I know I can adjust this.. but to get to the help manual on

THIS puppy..ya ..I have to d/l the adobe reader..this thing doesnt know

I already HAVE it? that makes me suspicious..so I figure I better wait

and when I can do something right for a change THEN ill mess with

the monitor settings..I am NOT taking any chances seeing as how

my 'luck' has been lately you know? I'm being smart here, I still have

a horrible back..but well I wanted this done..and by the time Raelynn

got here I had the old monitor on that table and this new one primed

and ready so.. I was prepared to get the scanner done..but now..it

says nope.. I wonder if the monitor has anything tto do with it? no..that

doesnt make sense..

My bedroom I want fixed up and I may seriously take down my sewing

room and just put my desk in there-I can drill a hole thru the wall for the

cable- bet me I cant--they would never know I did..then I could have

cable in there and be all set..well I could make it half half..sewing and

computer room too its a good size, I'd say hmmm 10 x 10? i dunno Im

not good with this room size stuff.. its nice..and a big closet and I think

arranged right I could do both in there sew and be on the computer..

Then I would have a normal bedroom..This one really looks like I live in

it .well I guess I really do.I go out to the kitchen and bathroom lol.I want

to get this place fixed up and made to look nice and the way I want it to

look.If I am going to stick it out here and NOT move..well then I want it

nice its not been painted or walls washed since I moved in 4 years ago.

It could use new paint and new carpet. Chris said he was "working " on

getting me some new..Well you know what that means...I may NEVER

get it lol...Ive got to get this bedroom back to a bedroom that Prince

Charming may still find me yet-you never know.Soon as his horse gets

better Im sure he will start looking again lol.

I think I can, with a little help from Raelynn and Ive already asked her

if she would help me get that room in order..that has to be first..THEN

I can move this desk etc and get this bedroom looking good, and my

sis has some great burgundy curtains that I want to put up in the living

room . and make some new curtains for under the sink..Raelynn doesnt

know about the free store or where it is..so I think I might make a few

new skirts..I have some really pretty silks that would be great if I do

take that holiday to Las Vegas.. I phoned and checked online today

about a trip there..by train I think..be 2 days on it..but its really cheap

and I want to do this, Ive never ridden a train..so I thought I could get

one of those package things for a couple days in Las Vegas..and

I would LOVE to go to a dinner show, and of course play some slots.

I just would like to see it..And I really need a holiday.. I checked the

price to fly to London..and HOLY CRAP~~!!! over $1200.oo I almost

fell out of my chair! but I guess thats cause of the gas prices.

I think this spring bug just bit the daylights otta me maybe is it.. I

dunno I think everyone gets restless.. Im all squeaky clean, Raelynn

was here, I am hoping Donnies mom and dad will call or stop by

I may call them in a bit.. Our girls birthday is Sunday she will be 22,

a great day..she such a dolly...They came from Wisconsin.. I would

guess they probly will have a dinner or something.. well I did not

have lunch I was too busy trying to fix this 3 in 1 problem and I am

hungry..Dunno what i want tho..will have do a search and seizure

I guess lol..hope y'all have a great week end..Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya & thanks..

ALways, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~I Woke Up~

Well I have ONE good thing I can say about today ! I WOKE UP :-)
That's about it...My back & hands.. well THATS why I have been
awake since 3 am this morning.. I got my new monitor yesterday,
and I of course..well you KNOW I hate to wait...so I lifted, tugged and
managed to lift it onto the bed.. then was trying to get it out of the box.
Mhmm sure,, THAT was easy...another one of those EASY open things..
They had tape that TOOK almost a hack saw to cut on it..Well it was a
fight.. Now the monitor itself is kinda heavy but boy is it nice.. By the
time I got it out of the box, and moved to my desk..I realized I had a
back ache. Plus remember my kitchen attacked me again yesterday

with the bruise on my hand and stump..picking all that up off the floor
then the cup shattering and sweeping ..well then the monitor..I did so
much bending and stretching, no wonder I have a horrible back ache.
I could NOT sleep. I know ,,, say it.. ok i'll say it for ya... "YOU KNOW
BETTER."Well ONE of these days i'll learn..get some helpppp LOL..

I didn't hook up the new one..its here on top my desk..but now to

do this..I have to move my old monitor which is one of those HUGE

old ones that weigh a TON, then move my big box I call it..the

modem..cpu..where all these wires plug into, box, then slide the old

one to the edge, carefully, and then move this tray table I have here

up to the desk and pull, slide, tug this old monitor on it so I can move

it into my sewing room. THEN hook all this back up...I still need a

new keyboard and speakers. but no big hurry,, I do have a hard time

typing because I wore the nubbies off , the one you feel under the

letters J and F? if you dont know why they are there, its so you know

where to place your hands with out looking...I'm lost with out mine..

ANYWAY, I then have to hook up this new 19 inch SLIM monitor..

It is SO WONDERFUL.. I still haven't done it..I just couldn't today,

so THAT should tell you JUST how badly my back hurts that I just

did NOT want to make it worse. But this new one? Oh LORDY..

its almost as GORGEOUS as me..!!!! :-)

But, I am still here, kickin, and mad at myself because I am so

impatient and just HAVE to DO everything myself and then get into

CRAP...Everyone is so busy.. Dawn came over just a while ago

for us to barter, and Donald is launching his pontoon boat, by himself..

and it is SO windy out there, hes having a heck of a time..and called

Dawn twice while she was here screaming "HELPPP" so she ran

back home before he strokes out..hes worse than me for patience ...

maybe thats why we get along..:-) And my sis is over an hour away

and she called me the other nite to update me on my niece and the

drama at her house...She WAS pooped too.She works 4 days a week

and I don't expect her to come up EVERY week end and her or Stan

are the ONLY ones I can call and ask "hey can you help me?" which I

honestly HATE to do..I have NO choice sometimes..but... I HAVE to

try myself first....and I get into CRAP.. I LOVE that word...it just says
it all doesn't it?

So anyhow way, I'm done whining and boo hooin...I did not do nuthin

today..I sat on my butt in this chair just aching and trying to rub my
own back , I had to it hurt so bad sometimes.. Lunch? well guess
what? today it was actually GOOD!! and I ate it..was a goulash type
stuff - elbow macaroni with like a tomato meat sauce on it..garlic
bread, that I can STILL taste, and green beans..Only thing I didn't
eat was the fruit, it was pineapple..which is ok..but to me..fruit is
NOT a desert. Very seldom do I get cookies or cake or pie..when they
do give those they cram the pie or cake into a bowl type thing..But I
ate so I wont have to have; ok I dont NEED, a snack or stuff now lol..
well maybe a few of those Lorna Doone cookies. :-)

I do think its time to say again to those that read and leave the great

comments for me, that I sincerely appreciate that you read me

and that you take the time to leave comments, AND such GREAT

kind things you say, and those that take the time to email or leave me

offline messages on Yahoo..THANKS!!! I LOVE it..I really REALLY

like to know that you ARE reading this.. I don't want to hurt anyones

feelings by saying that I do write all this for me..it really helps me..

this is a great outlet for someone that likes to write..and That

someone else is REALLY interested and CARES about me I just

cant even really tell you how good that makes me feel.. Don't hesitate

to contact me.. I DO NOT bite lol..and I will answer your email..now..

if I ask questions..its ONLY cuz I am SERIOUSLY NOSEY..lol..No. I

just like to know YOU ,, like you know me..and if you have read ALL

my weblog..well I don't think there is really TOO much I havent told

to the whole of the net..but I am glad that its being read ..and that if I

can make someone feel better, give a bit of a lift to them or even make

one of you Devotees happy? well hey ..it dont get no better than this.

Thanks hey? Y'all are just so great..and I have to say this every so
often or well..I wouldn't want you to think that I didn't care ..I hope
you can tell that I do- - anyways..:-)

Dutch is here peeking at the screen I Know hes waiting for me to type

out the word- hsilbup- see if he can read backwards lol hes giving me
a look like "ok whats that word" lol..PUBLISH !! There - well..hes
headed to the kitchen no - no he cannot read..I think he maybe counts
paragraphs and knows I try to keep them under 6 lol well, I don't want
y'all's eyes to burn out ya know? so this achy breaky back, sore hands
and bruised stump are goin over to that bed and watch ugly Donald
Trump and see who he fires tonite. All the ones Ive seen I wouldn't hire
anyway..None of them show me anything..lol...I bet I could sell more
lemonade in Manhattan than they could !!! Take care ,, don't LIFT
anything heavy..dont JAM your freezers full of stuff and DONT keep
heavy glass stuff up on the shelves and WAIT ..for someone to help.
See? I know..lol..Now I just have to "Practice what I preach" don't I?
Nitey nite... :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA !!! & THANKS !!!

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...