~Callin Again

Well I made my round of phone calls..To Chris.."leave a

message, ill get back to you" about the doors and windows,

to my casworker.."im on the phone or away from my desk,

I will return your call as soon as possible".. to the insurance,

"I am not in the office today , leave a message" to Que, well

shes never there not for me anyway.. To the CMH, I called

them to ask them about the no paper work on this grant thing,

"someone will get back to you" so NOW I have to go through

all this again tomorrow..its a daily thing I bet..and I honestly?

I am SO sick of it.. I almost DREAD when I have to make

these calls cuz I know I will hear nothing but one excuse after

the other.. IT is getting VERY old..and I don't know what I

really have to do to get these people motivated..I think they

are stalling me, like they do everyone else, hoping then we

will quit.. I know I feel that way ..I cant stand this.. It just eats

my lunch, they can do people like this?..Is this not abuse?

We got more snow last nite. I went to bed with the chickens.

I went in there as soon as I posted..and only got up 2 times..

Once cuz Dutch was chasing shadows.. this cat..I mean. I

have mini blinds..and the place across the street is so lit up

and the headlights of the cars..he goes nuts chasing shadows

I had to turn the light on and sleep with it on all night..well the

lamp not the overhead one..with it on he cant see them..he

jumps from one thing to the next trying to get them.. I heard

the plows out there 2 side by side..one just a tad behind the

other clearing the streets..These 2 roads out here are the snow

routes through town.. If there is a snow emergency and we get

snowed in no one is allowed to park on those streets. as

they are first plowed.. this one out front is directly to the

hospital I can see it from my window..So we get plowed here

before most do..

I called the COA and asked them about someone to shovel..

they have a man named Robert that will come out and do it for

you.. They said he does it on a donation basis..that if I can

afford to give him something I can but he doesn't expect it..

Now..isnt that just great.? that he thought of doing this for some

one like me.. I was so worried about this.. The mailman wont

deliver the mail if its not clear out there..and I think I am sposta

keep the sidewalk clear too. I dunno I would think so its city

but in front of my house.. I wonder if they will cut grass too? I

have a big yard out there that will need maintained..I could do

it if I had a rider mower..boy would that be fun lol..

Valentines Day is very soon.. * HINT* lol.. well that's a special

day for special people in your life yes? well..then? lol your

sposta let them know! I may make a clippie for you. .I cant

promise but I might :-) If you want it you will have to let me know

though and then I'll put you on the list.. oki doki? Y'all are very

special to me and just my way of sayin I luv ya..and appreciate

you for being my friends..What would I do with out you.. Well..

hmm I bet Id feel pretttttttttty alone .. :-) Im sure glad y'all

are there..and...AND..letting me know! I love the comments..

that is so great.. . . I enjoy that so much ..I sit here with my coffee

and go and read all those nice nice things that's written.. I

appreciate it and am very grateful.. thank you for taking the

time to let me know your reading..

Heres another goodie of my daily reminder I am SHORT..lol..

There is a window kinda small in the door..I don't know if its

shown up in any of the photos I havent looked..well I said how

DUTCH chases shadows on the wall..well the sun out there

hits that window..there is a piece of paper covering it but its

not all the way to the sides.. Well this cat starts jumping over

there by my desk trying to get up the wall..hes scratching at

it and trying to meow.. he only squeaks. no meows from him..

well.. I look and there is a line on the wall that is sneaking

through on that window where the paper hasnt covered.. SO.

I get a piece of paper..bigger of course than whats on it..

and put 2 pieces of tape on the edge and go to put it up..well

I could reach it right? NOT.!! I had to get my grabber and

hold the paper and try to push these pieces of tape to the door..

ok.. I use scotch tape..it didn't work..the door is cold I had

uncovered it earlier for the lunch lady - So I had to get that

other heavier kind.. I try that.. well..ya.. it STUCK - to the grabber.

I sat there and stared at it for a minute..and reached up again

held the paper with the left hand..and had the grabber in the

right. I try to push that tape down AGAIN.. I did say a few special

stick to the door words, I will be honest..and taDA! it stuck..

there are no more shadows ..in THIS room, now I have to fix

the bedroom or sleep with the lights on in there all night.. :-)

Anyone want a cat? lol..naa got to keep him..no one else would

put up with him..hes a lot of fun..really and the contrast of attitude

between my two is great.. Now, LB is a player ,, he is..he loves

to.he and Dutch really have some fun running .but they do get

serious too- I have to yell at them to break it up..but that's how

all kids are..they get along for awhile then they fight..lol....

Time for me to get out of this chair..my butts numb..and I think

its really flat lol..been sitting all this time..and know I wont get out

of it for a while yet..so its about 15..16 hours a day I sit in this

chair..someone said to me once.."well at least you get to sit

all the time" lol. it aint fun believe me..it sure aint..and it makes

for sore arms..when I have to keep reaching like that my arms

ache so bad for a long time.. I cant keep them held up for very

long either..and then with the strength I have to use to push this

chair on this carpet.. I was so mad the other day I was gonna rip

it out myself.. I could roll so easy with out it.the kitchen and bath

room I roll like a dream..in here like a night mare. :-D lol..

Im gonna get out this chair..Nitey Nite..:-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and Thanks!!

Always. Lois.****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Hellhome Photos~

I found some photos I had forgotten about that were also taken

at the hell home.. They were taken I would guess by what I have

on..during the summer.. This first one, well its not the greatest

photo.. but that is me.. I was at that time very seriously depressed

and that was why the massive weight loss. As that year progressed

I went down to 100 pounds. The Dr. warned me if I went under

100 that they would have to put a tube in and feed me that way

since I seemed to just not be able to eat. well that scared me

horribly and I cried for a whole day, I didn't want that done..They

didn't but I had to promise that I would really try to eat..I just had no

appetite that I can remember at all..I didn't know where I was half

the time.The worst seemed to be at night.. Look at my arms..how

skinny.. My hair was very short..they had cut it deciding for me that

it was easier for me to take care of even though I didn't I went to the

beauty shop once a week and had it done. THAT I really MISS lol..

They were letting all the residents, as they called us, bake pies

then we all got to eat them..We did have fun.The ones in charge

of the different departments helped us..That was Kathy, she was

in charge of housekeeping, she was so sweet, makes or made

dolls.I don't know if she is still there or not. I can see it from here

if I look out my kitchen window..past the tree and the white house..

over back there is where the hell home is. The pies were very good

I was already a sak.. this had to be summer because of the thin silk

top I had on and if you look at the photo you can see outside

it looks very nice out..all green..

This had to be early summer..Lenora and I and about 3 or 4 other

ladies are working on a quilt that we are going to enter in the fair..

which I think is in august.. and we all cut and put this thing together

and entered it in it..we won 3rd prize I think..I have the blue ribbon..

they gave each of us one.. and the quilt may still be hanging over

there with my name on it.. it turned out really pretty..that's kind of

what got me back into sewing and starting to slowly know who and

what I am again..

We had an activites director she was in the photo awhile back

of me as a sak..That's my dear friend Ceola..she and I were

buddies..where I went she went and what a beautiful woman..

Her skin was so porcelain looking and the whitest hair..and

she made eggs..the huge huge ones..and she cut them open

and decorated them..They had quite a few on display she won

lots of awards for her eggs. I have her old sewing machine ..

She died about a year after I left..She was a Dearie for sure..

I know there is a lot I don't remember.. Lots I do..I think I can get

my records from there and I would like to read them..see what I

did and said.. I would imagine they kept records of when I was

telling them all those goofy things like whiining that the bunnies

wont play with me..or going back and forth to my room and

steady telling them I couldn't find it they moved it on me..I do

remember these things..but its kind of like a dream thing..and

as bad as I was I cant be really sure that they happened but I

know they did? that doesn't make sense..lol.. Its like the times

that I was hallucinating, was just me dreaming..but I know I was

up and rolling around.. I remember stealing the book..lol.. well

they shouldn't have told me it was the RED book of the BAD

things we did..I was out of my mind..like I wanted a record of

it? no.. I took the notebook late one night ..stole it from the

desk..went to the bathroom and read all the crap and decided

to tear it up and destroy the evidence.. and I did.. every trash

can in that place had some of it in. I would stash it under my

cushion ..go by a trash and throw some in..that way it didn't

come out of my room..I only was nuts part of the time lol..

I was glad, sad..I found those photos..I honestly had forgotten

them..when I look at that very top one..I am sad really..look how

skinny I am. that was such a sad time..Im glad I honestly really

didn't know it all the time..I like to remember these good times

in these photos..with my Dearies though.. so many there and I

feel so bad.. I cant go back and see them..all those that knew

me are gone, a few of the nurses are,, Jan is..she was and still is

a dedicated and really good nurse.and so pretty..we got along

really well..But I cant go back there.. I cant..

This post is early, I got up at 3 am and I am just totally wore out
and just so tired .. I could sleep for a couple days i think.. I am
just going to get out of this chair for awhile, see if i can get a bit
more sleep time.. I hope Dutch doesnt chase shadows tonite, he
cant now its still daylight I may have to switch to a night time
person..lol.... Nitey Nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now , Y'hear? love ya ..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I Saw A Lady~

The other day I was looking out the window with Dutch,

and noticed a lady walking down the side walk. She was

not a small woman.. I noticed she had a sort of limp and

didn't walk the easiest..She came from up by Meijers

and that way..This morning I saw this lady again. I was

looking out to see how much more it had snowed..and

was bout 7:15 or so.. Again I saw this lady but going up

towards Meijers..and I saw her all bundled up..a big

coat on..and that same gait..but a little more pronounced

because she was walking through that kinda deep snow.

I got to thinking about my side walk out there..and she is

having to walk through that snow on it... I looked across

the street and I think he cleaned his off..looks that way.. I

have never lived on a street with a sidewalk whos property

is it and who maintains it? I wonder if its my job to do that?

The places Ive lived before there were none..I need to find

out. Penny swept off the ramp..I hope that mail man is ok..

hmm i wonder who is gonna cut the grass? hmmm ...

While I watched that lady this morning I couldn't help but

think how, look at her..snow..cold..hard time walking ..at

that time of the day..she had to have been going to work.

its all businesses down that way and the stores werent

open yet. She still was going..no car and no one offered

her a ride either.. I watched her till I couldn't see her.. I

did think to myself..'did she know how lucky she was, that

she could walk'.. and that I sure wouldn't mind.. I know many

times I walked to work..in the snow..cold..rain..but I had to

or I would go with out a room or food..I HAD to. I don't have

to anymore..but then look what I gave up so I don't have to..

I could still work at a job I think..but Ive worked all my life too..

I am honestly glad I don't have to go out every day like that

poor lady I saw out there this morning.. I think of Donnie and

Dawn get up so early and drive for an hour..on bad roads,

fighting traffic..I should really be very grateful..and I have to

say .. I do thank the Lord I don't have to get out in this ..that

I can sit here ..warm..and just do what I want.. yet I still at

times will complain when I cant do something or I cant reach..

well which would I rather do? I d rather walk. . .

When I look at old photos of me doing something..even

standing in the lake.. I can almost still feel that coolness and

the rocks of the bottom of the lake.. I can almost feel the

wet of when my shoes would get all damp and soaked if we

went down by Jim's pontoon before the sun dried the ground.

I can even feel my feet ache when they got so cold and frozen

in the winter when I skated. I do miss that. . but then just think

if I had NEVER had a chance to feel that OR know. like those

I know that are born with no legs at all and have never known

what it really feels like.. its as hard to describe what is like

to have them as it is to describe NOT having them ;-) none

of this is EASY ..but well ..just have to WEBBLE along I

guess best I can..I know i am so glad the first of the month

is VERY soon. I wish it had been yesterday lol. no .dont matter

when the first is i guess just as long as their IS one ..lol..

Penny came today..and I am all squeaky clean..she does a

good job, she said the roads are pretty clear there are some

icy spots but its not too bad ..We arent done with this yet so

the weather man says.but then.. could rain, warm up and be

all gone by tomorrow too as crazy as the weather is anymore.

I know this up and down cold though has gotten to my stumps

they feel tight and swollen sometimes.. I know I tried to lay on

my side for a while last nite and that didn't work too well .it

put a lot of pressure on my hip..that's not a good feeling.. I

use a pillow too.. I was up early again this morning..about 3

or so..I just woke up..and then Dutch started chasing shadows.

the place across the street is so lit up I don't need a nite light

in here its almost like daylight..its really bright..this whole

street is ..most of the businesses have 24 hours shifts..they

are mostly manufacturing places of what I have no idea..but

they are busy all the time ..you can hear the semi's go by..

I made some good chili and am going to smush up some

crackers in it..and have a bowl, try to avoid the eyes shut

button on the TV clicker and see what I can see..lol.. I

don't think much, ive already been yawning and I did not

have a nap today either..lol. I may not even find the clicker ..

lol. Nitey nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~It Snowed~

Guess what we woke up to here this morning and what it has been

doing all day? Yup..Snow... I looked at the forecast..says for 3 days

we will have snow every day.. This is usually how it does..stays

mild then WHAM! We get dumped on.. The way this winter has gone

though has been different weather wise.. That photo I took looking

out of my bathroom window of the back yard.. I saw those 2 pine

trees and thought they looked so pretty.. You can see by the tree

how the snow is only on the one side..can tell which way that stuff

came hey? this is sort of looking north east..we always seem to

get our weather out of the west.. these storms come across that

huge Lake..and Lake Michigan is one of the biggest, they build

up power and then all the towns on this side get blasted..most of

the time its worse a little further north than what we get and those

south do..we are kinda in the 'no fly' zone lol..don't we wish ...

those out there driving in this wish today was I bet.. lol..notice
that Dutch's ears are kinda spread..he wasnt too thrilled..he missed
seeing the birds and squirrels.. I plan to fix that . A small table out
there for the bird seed and the boys can watch, they'll love it and
to see the squirrels, black,red, gray ones... they love these windows..
well if they didnt have them the poor guys would only have ME to
look at .. I know that aint bad but, well kids like to look at more than
their GORGEOUS WEEBLE MOTHERS... you knew I was gonna
say that :-D When you get to the end of this post you will agree :-)

I woke up and have been up since 2:30 am.. I have totally killed

any sort of sleep pattern I have.. Ive totally turned myself around.

I just sent an email to a friend saying that same thing, when they

asked what was I doing up at 4 am..I was still up since 2! I get

so tired..but then I know I will be up at least 2 times or more if I

go to bed at 6 like I did last nite. .I was so tired by the time I had

posted last nite.. I closed down and went to bed.. I was up at

10, to potty..up at 12 again..and about 2:30 I said " well I may

as well get up..I didn't feel the greatest and If I was going to have

an upset stomach and have to make more potty calls I would just

sleep in my chair at my desk.. I get a pillow off the couch ..put in

front of me lean forward and sleep..I did today from 10 am to 2

Im so used to it, I think Ive slept as much in this chair as I have in

bed...

I pull my chair up close put my pillow on the desk..and sit kinda

flat..and just lean forward a bit and I sleep quite well.. I sit sleeping

up quite often in bed too if my back gets to aching really bad

from laying on it for hours.. This bed I have is ok..but its more of

a day bed..very old fashioned..and its comfy..but I am having a

really hard time getting back into my chair.. I really have to pull

hard and lift to slide backwards.. Seems harder every day ..and

when I don't feel good its even harder.. I still don't feel really good.

I don't feel real bad either..guess im just half half.. TOTALLY
GORGEOUS but ..feeling half..

I havent heard from anyone since Friday , phone calls or visits..

which is ok, well yes I did..Blue phoned yesterday..hes fine..and

trying very hard to stay out of trouble.. It was Australia day down

there and they had big doings.. I think its probly like our 4th or

something.. He sent me 2 of the most gorgeous calenders, I

have had the best time looking at them..he sent a nice book

.. Ive gone thru that cover to cover as well.. It is so totally

different down there .. I think looking at these books and things

is about the closest I will ever come to going there although it

is a very wonderful place, but its a LONG plane ride..I know

the time difference is 16 hours..seems so strange he phones

his Sunday and I talk to him on my Saturday lol..

I said how I have to keep a cover over the front door..please

don't notice that the blankets don't match or that they most

definitely do NOT go with the colors of my living room..But

you can see how I have to cover the door..I cant reach the

top..only with my grabber.. I cant take a photo and show you

at the same time..Im not quite that coordinated specially

since I do have a hard time with it staying up sometimes..I

think I have to use just the right words to get them to stay up. :-)

The photo of me was taken a couple days ago.. I had posted

one in this same set before..I hope wasn't this photo..was the

same outfit ..but I am not sure if it was..and I didn't feel like

going back and looking..if its a repeat just yell lol..

They made me change to the new blogger today, I had no say

if I wanted to continue..if anyone has any trouble..keep my email

addy handy, lovelylittlelegs@gmail.com and let me know.

I hope there are no problems with it..I hate changing something

when it was working- upgrades make me nervous.. I made the

mistake of upgrading my windows media player..that was a huge

NO NO NO..just like I heard those that upgraded IE..I don't use

that anyway ..Mozilla is THE best..lots faster even on dial up..I

was surprised..nothing can compare to cable speed tho.. Any

trouble let me know.. :-) like I can help lol..Im lucky I know what

Im doing here lol..

I really Do NOT feel the greatest. my nose is runny and boy do

I have a headache..I know..a head like mine otta ache.. I made

a small video clip and it just came out so huge..over 5 Mb and

its only a minute long.. and its a avi file..I spent 2 hours trying to

switch it to a wmp and just had NO luck doing it.. I did before

but quite a long time ago and I don't remember how to do it..

I should write things down and I don't lol Time to lay this me down

Im gonna try the bed..see if I can stay there for a while..I need

to get out of this chair.. Nitey Nite..

Y'all have a good one now. Y'hear? love ya.. and Thanks.. :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~2 Snowflakes?~

Im looking out the window..and its snowing.. it is cold too.

I havent heard the weather forecast so Im not sure what they

are saying.. I do know its sposta be cold.. I know it is in here.

This draft on my back Im surprised I don't have pneumonia..

Blue phoned said they finally had some rain..had not rained

in forever he said..was a bad drought..the rain was very badly

needed.. I read the msn news thingie I get in email every day.

Some of the stuff makes me laugh what they print..They said

the other day..they finally admit..that perhaps..2 snow flakes

may be alike..now I KNOW this money spent to investigate

this phenomenon.. well money well spent lol.. some of the

things I read..that they give grants to for people to do tests

about are really kinda way out there, but snowflakes? lol. I

would like to do a study as to why cats are so possessed by

a chimer clock lol.. THAT would be very interesting. I want to run

mine.I start it up and that thing chimes, Dutch is rubbing all over

it..and that moves it and then it will stop ticking lol. I just have

to enjoy it by looking and not hearing it.since it calls my boy,

no matter what, he runs when that thing summons him.. wish

he would answer me like that when I'm worried he may have

escaped or gone down the basement, he lets me know when

hes ready to say "here I am, shut up, quit yellin".. thats just

about the attitude I GET..he RUBS all lovey all over this clock

when IT calls him tho . :-D..well..that clock can just start

feedin him too I say LOL .. It is funny, Im going to video tape

him..he will go up there and just sit by it sometimes.. its odd.

hes in love..as long as he draws the line there! not like LB does

with the love of HIS life lol.. Have you EVER heard of 2 more

strange cats? lol..

I notice this morning..well I got up at 2 am or so..I woke up my

own self..wondering why my cat didn't wake me up..that's not

good.. but..what I did notice was that my invisible legs felt so

swollen..and tight.. was kinda hard to move them..they felt

heavy.. I notice then..well tried to feel them..and they seemed

short.. I know they are.. I mean the invisible parts..they seemed

to not be as long..I would say..that my foot is higher to at

least my mid calf... weird, and they were each going a different

way too..the right was bent right up and over to the right. . the

left was bent at the knee over to the right..like it was a hinge

joint could move any direction..its still such a weird feeling . I

wonder if I will ever get used to it? well I am.. I guess I mean

will my GORGEOUS WEEBLE head realize it at some time

and accept it? wonder why the rest of me cant and as "SMART"

as I am this head still sees them there..and I walk in my dreams..

so my inner head still hasnt accepted it yet I don't know but

something sure hasnt lol....

I made a nice breakfast today, something I havent done in a

long time.. I made fried potatoes and onion..and a egg and

had 2 pieces of toast.. was really good.. I think potatoes

are my very best favorite veggie.. they are.. in fact I noticed

I need potatoes..lol. over in that onion and potato bin some

thing stinks..and they have started growing I think I need to

get some fresher potatoes and onions.. It took me forever

to clear a spot at the table..move stuff so I could get the hot

plate into a place I could use it safely..then had to roll back

and forth a dozen times..when I forgot a turner,, and then I

needed a sharp knife..I will be SO glad when I get a new one

or 2 . Mine are so old and so dull a dull knife can ruin a

good time in the kitchen. David and I spent many hours to

make a nice dinner for us..we both liked good tasting food

and he found out he really did like to cook. Usually doesnt

take near as long to fix a small breakfast like that..boy..I

mean this chair..sure does make a difference in how I do

things.. and because its such a pain ..i dont enjoy things as

much as I used to..thats a shame..but.. oh well..not a thing

I can do about it ..I just have to do one of my 'plans of attack'

lol ..sometimes they work..depends how big a clutz i am ..

I did learn something too. Well I said my clock was off down in

my task bar..by at least a half hour..I didn't know there was a

battery inside my computer to keep the clock running ok..and

on time.. They need to let us know this stuff and don't.. I had

NO IDEA there is a battery inside... I wont depend on that

time to be on time.. I got up at 2 am..and been up all day..

and what have I gotten done? well not a stinkin thing !!!

I have done nothing..but make food..lol, and that was very

early this morning.. I had Penny get me 2 blueberry doughnuts

too.. so 3 guesses what my treat is for making it through

this week? yup..my favs..blueberry doughnuts, and I get to

eat both of them too, Donnies cutting firewood all week end

so they wont be over, so I get them ..nitey nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Gonna Be Cold~

When Cameron brought lunch today she informed me we are

to have some very seriously cold temperatures.. That just makes

me feel great.. I should make Chris pay half my gas bill since he

still hasnt put in these windows that desperately need done. I

will have to make sure this door is covered really good too, the

space around it is almost a half inch up at the top which is WAY

too much.. I am sitting here now and can feel a draft on my back,

I went and got a sweater a while ago and just draped it over my

back with the sleeves down over front to hold it in place. The

spot between my shoulder blades gets so cold then that makes

my back ache really bad. When Kenny was here, over a week

ago now said that he was coming to put the windows in, Ive

not heard one word from anyone..and I KNOW I better not over

the week end other than to hear them outside putting these 3

windows in......I don't want to hear anything else from them, Chris

needs to keep his end of this bargain if he expects me to keep

mine, which is only fair.. Ive kept mine.

Penny was here today and got everything all done up and set

for the weekend. Some ground meat and just stuff to go for

awhile. I don't know what I will make with the meat .. what I
have to do to be able to cook it or make anything I don't know

if I want to go through it all, I have to move a dozen different

things first to even be able to get to the hot plate..then move

the other stuff to get the pans out that are at the bottom of

the bakers rack..then I have to move the stuff from in front

of the microwave so I can have a place to work to cut up

stuff like onions etc.. I cant hold them in my hands as I just

don't trust my right hand to really lift anything anymore I was

reminded of that last nite when I reached in to take the hot chili

I had just reheated out of the microwave..my thumb gave out

and I dropped it..luckily it didn't hit anything but the inside of

the microwave as I was just taking it out.. I tried to clean it

all out but I cant reach inside all the way..The way my micro

wave is situated I cant reach all the way inside it..its too big. so

I have to wait until the turn table has brought what I put in there

back to the same spot so I can get it out lol. Well I have to keep

evaluating every thing I do so that I can make it easy on my self

to do these things, the harder it is..the less I know I want to tackle

them, I try to keep everything put away so that when I do decide

to make something I don't have To go through this ritual of move

this here to that there..like a game of chess lol..

I didn't hear anything about my chair this week at all nor did I

hear anything about my other things they are supposed to get

me. so on Monday I guess I will have to make my routine set

of phone calls to make sure the ball, where ever it is now will

keep on rolling.. I asked Cherise at the Drs. office if she

could please ask the Dr if he could put in a word or 2 to the

insurance that I really need this power chair..yesterday..she

assured me she would talk to the Dr. about it.. when I go back to

the Dr. my regular one will be there , Carolyn..shes very nice and

understanding ..so hopefully she can put a little more fire to this

flame I already started.. I hope so..

I got up super early again today I don't know what it is..I woke my

own self up today . wondering why Dutch hadnt woke me up ! now

that's NOT good! He was so busy chasing shadows on the wall..

they drive him nuts..and he is so bull headed he will not quit and

until the sun stops well this boy is gonna wear himself out..lol. I

am pooped and im going to lay it down, eat and watch TV ..

Nitey nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? love ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Posting A Comment~

A friend had trouble posting a comment last nite that made me

think doing that may be intimidating to some..I assure you it does

not hurt lol.. however.. only I can post as the Blogger..and anyone

else can only click on OTHER or ANONYMOUS to be able to put

a comment on here..Which,,I wish everyone that read this would!!

lol.. But no where on this blog should anyone be asked to put in a

id or a password.. If you are..then you have clicked on something

you shouldn't and just go back and redo..You can type in all the

ones you want and they wont work lol. I PROMISE you ..it does

not hurt to leave a comment.. you will not have bad things happen

to you, or your computer crash..only thing maybe that with in 10

minutes you might get an answer from me if I am paying attention

to my email notifier lol.. I check my mail, well I don't my email

program, Incredimail, does..every 10 minutes and if I have a new

mail it will down load and some little graphic will yell at me "YOU
HAVE MAIL" and IF I am here I will be right here to answer your

comment, NOW, how nice is that? :-)

I had to cancel my Dr. today, It HONESTLY was NOT my fault..We

had snow last nite, and there was no way I was going to slosh this

chair out through all that.. I would have had to ask Penny to sweep

the sidewalk in front of the house etc. and I cant ask her to sweep

the whole way to where I could get on the bus. The bus cannot

stop right here by the end of the side walk..this is one of the very

busiest around as these 2 are major streets..The bus would have

had to pull up by my garage, and I go out into the street or through

my snowy yard to get on the bus. It is NOT that easy. If it had been

a matter of MAJOR need, I would have kept the appointment. The

man was coming from a town 35 miles away to get the van to take

me to the Dr. They appreciated the fact that I called early and had

let them know since I was the only one needing a ride..The photo
up top I took this morning .time, date are on it..see the nasty cold
weather and snow? Cars still had headlights on at 8 am, see? I
didnt fib.. :-)

So many times I get told "Well , go out" It is not a matter of just up

and going for me. I have to take every little thing into consideration

before I venture off to go somewhere. The main thing ..can I get

back in the vehicle? We went to Wal Mart..I could get out of Dolly's
KIA, it was a downhill slide..but to get back UP in it? there was no

way I could lift myself that high to do it. I am just not that strong.. I

see videos of these women that are in and out of chairs just easy

as can be.. A lot are HD's..and have no stumps ..And a lot of them

if you notice the chairs are different..the chairs are LOWER to the

ground..making it easier to do things like in and outs of pools or

up and down off the ground.. I was refused service by a company

here called MSTAFF..they said their HHA (aide) could NOT go

shopping for me and "legally" use my food stamp card. The

exact words to me were "I see NO reason why you cannot just

SCOOT across and into the seat..and SCOOT across back into

your chair"..Well do you know what I said? lol.. I told her to "JUST
TRY IT, SEE , how easy it is" She had NO idea how easy, hard

or what ever..she had NEVER done it..So HOW would she know?

To say to me..she saw no reason? Excuse me? I was so mad..

She had NO right to even assume how I felt or how EASY SHE

felt it was.. she did NOT know, I bet she has a lot better idea

of just how EASY it is now..I TOLD her ! :-)

I refused to be pushed across a huge parking lot to go into a

store, I wouldn't even WALK that far, let alone be pushed there

in my chair, just to go INTO the store .. Wal Mart had no where

high enough that I could get back into the car.. I didn't care who

saw me.. I have NO problem with that at all..but I wasn't about to

have to roll that far when Wal Mart should have had a place

knowing all the new vehicles are higher up ..But I wonder how

many of these stores think of putting a higher curb in for that

reason? I think Wal Mart kept it all flat and even thinking that

was best..well . what about us? We all dont have vans with a

nice ramp.. I dont.. . .

Going is great.. and I honestly do LOVE to go..BUT.. I cant just

UP and RUN out the door anymore when I see whom ever is

coming to get me like I could before..Now I have to wait for them

to come and help me.the door, watch so the boys don't get out..

help me into the car.well hold my chair..fold up my chair and put

it in the back seat or in the trunk, My chair just fit into Raelynns

trunk .It rained one day on our way home, my chair got soaked

that wasn't good for it.. took a long time to dry out..specially since

I had to sit on it..that wasn't easy either since the back of it was

wet for quite awhile. There are so many things that are major

things to me going now.. It is not like it was.. and the biggest

biggie is.NO, I cant go alone, to me..its just too hard..and the

stress of it .well I wouldn't enjoy it at all..

Penny came today and we got a lot done..Shes a good worker,

she came today instead of yesterday and will be here again

tomorrow..we plan to work on the bathroom.shes worried

about the toilet being cracked and me ending up in the base

ment lol..be a hell of a ride hey?..I guess they arent worried about

that any more than they are about these windows that have

been out since way before I moved in.. I sure wish they would

fix them this cold draft on my back from the one behind me

makes it ache right between my GORGEOUS angel wings lol

Since I finished my what..hmm speech? about the joys of going

out, I will still go OUT to my kitchen.. I do this every nite. Well I

have some left over chili , from lunch.. Wendy's, and Im gonna

eat it..and I am headed to bed early ..I got up at 3 am..then found

out it was even earlier when I realized when Blue phoned my

computer time was off by a half hour.. so I was up early..Im gonna

go to bed early and yup..I will be up early again lol. oh well. works

for me as long as im sleepin :-) .. Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? Love ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~The Boys, My Favorite Photo~

It snowed a bit today and I watched this cat go from window

to window chasing snow flakes..lol. Dutch actually tried to

catch them I think..They were coming down in those big white

slow ones that just lazily go to the ground..Well every time one

hit the window he would slap it.. No cars made that turn today

though while he was waving, that had to look cute to those

people. It wasn't a young couple I could see them, the woman

reached over to touch the mans arm and have him look too,

they both saw him, and both smiled..it looked almost like

the woman wanted to wave back then realized it was a cat

and it wouldn't know the difference..but then knowing Dutch..he

probly would have..lol..That photo is one of my favorites of

them..LB of course is in the back looking his sweet self..and

the boy, Dutch looking all innocent there in front lol..cute kids.

My councelor was here today, shes so sweet and just a lovely

woman, has 3 children.. I don't know what it is..but LB and

Dutch both just refuse to leave her alone.. LB is all over her

legs..rubbing then lays on her feet..she gave her keys to him

and he was rolling and laying all over those. I kept apologizing

for them, almost constantly, Dutch is just all up in her face, rubs

all over her..wont let her write..digs in her pockets.. she made

the mistake of taking out her cell phone..has a cord on it.. I had

told her before about him and the cord on my camera .. I had

to take it off or he would have pulled camera and cord to the

floor.. She realized that just as he reaches out and slaps at

the cord on her phone..she just goes ahead and puts the cell

on the floor so he can play with it. When I say Im sorry for about

the dozenth time , each time she tells me .."I LOVE IT, they

make me feel so welcome" and I mean they do..Its almost to

the point its embarrassing like these cats are telling company

"please..play with us..our mean mother ignores us" lol. THAT

is NOT true.. There is just NO way that I could ignore them..They

get up in front of me and my monitor now .every time they want

something. LB will come up and actually tap my arm and say

"mom" people HAVE heard him almost talk. lol..

In between all the harrassment by my boys, she and I talked about

just all the emotional strain this wheelchair business is putting on

me, the grant issues..the house. my hand..the floor, this 5 week

month..but mainly the fact that how it really gets to a person when

they have to steadily phone day after day to anyone that will listen

and ask for help..when you NEVER had to ever do that before.. I

tried to explain to her..that I get so mad and angry that these people

do this and make it so much harder .. and what about those that

arent as mouthy or have such a bad temper as I do,what about

them.. And also.the fact that I have to go to the doctor about my

hand and the condition its in because of not having my power

chair running and no offer of a temporary one..THAT really makes

me super mad..as bad as I HATE to go to a Dr. anyway. I did

tell her just how I felt..and she really tries to understand.. So many

really dont..and that makes it harder. All this..has made this month

really up and down one.plus a year 'YOUNGER' well. I can its was

MY birthday so.. I can say what ever I WANNA..lol. but too ..this

was the 2nd anniversary of the death of my oldest sister, Mary

Jane, she was the oldest of us 6, now 4, Rose Marie died 5

years ago..I am the youngest..then Frank, then Shirley then was

Rose, then is Kenny, then was Mary Jane.. We were all adopted

out except for Mary Jane and Kenny. They had it really rough.

My counselor suggested I get a case manager..someone that can

take some of this pressure off of me. . that I could use someone

else to help me take care of this dealings with other people to get

the things I need or if I have a problem..that they would step in

and take care of it for me.I think to mainly just to ease the stress

level.. I think its being alone..with out a husband or significant other

the dependence that they really have on each other. like maybe

not actually feeling it but the KNOWING its there..someone to share

these burdens with that helps you ..hmm well for me..'Grease my

wheels' ..help me along..a shoulder to sit by every so often and

just really WHINE..and not have to go running to my friends and

whine and pick fights with them cuz Im in a bad mood from fighting

with everyone else on the phone all day lol..Ahh this is so fun ..Let

me tell ya.. No wonder I get up at 2 O'clock in the morning. lol.. I

just need to lower the stress level again.. . plus aggravation here

on line, that sometimes to give you my favorite expression ' Just

eats my lunch' ..lol.. I mean..some things do too.. some days

Im really glad it does cuz its bad and I aint eatin it LOL .. todays

was..well..I have NO idea what it was. Dutch jumped straight up in

the air and hit the floor running from it...so ..think Im gonna eat it?

Noooo .. nope..If I cant name it.. I aint eatin it..I bet I know the

names of those cinnamon rolls out there though lol.. MINE.. I

think I could use one. I know I am not going to sleep good any

way..tomorrow is Dr. at 10:45.. I have been sitting here for 2

hours trying to think of a good excuse to NOT go too..I will be

honest..and well.. I cant think of a good enough one..If I don't

go now..well. I KNOW I have to soon..so. I might as get this

chair rolling and get THAT job done..like I tell everyone else to

do..so my turn to put up or shut up....Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~The Pontoon~

Ive talked a lot about the St.Joe River and that is where my ex

mother and father in law live..they have a gorgeous house..and

the deck over looks the river..the view..is wonderful.. At sunset,

my favorite time of day..the river is like glass and we would

get on the pontoon, David and I and take a slow ride down to

the dam and back..took 4 hours going slow..we had the radio

on..sometimes David would troll if he remembered to check

his minnow bucket for bait lol..many times hes gotten bites

most fish here are catfish..and we didn't eat them..But it was

a good fun fishing river.. THere was a special route you had

to travel down and up it..or you would hit bottom it was so

shallow at some places.., we kept the depth finder on just in

case..This was looking down the river..to the west ..

We were lucky one day to see this balloon come down.. and almost

seem to touch the water.it didn't but seemed close..The people inside

lived a few houses down from my ex's..and they hired this and it was

so neat that they could see their gorgeous house like this.. The houses

all along this river are very expensive..and this river runs a long way..

starts up on Michigan and goes down through and across Indiana..Its

a good fishing river..almost the whole length of it.. I saw a balloon like

that inflate once outside the apartments where I used to live..I think I

have written about that after noon..That was a great site..

Jim & Karalee lived up on a high embankment that was on this

part of the river..there was a long flight of stairs..that led to

this level area where the kids played and the pontoon was

kept and they fished from shore here..This was an active river.

you can see the neighbors paddle boat there in blue..Jim's

pontoon is tied up there..I am the one in red..and my ex sister

in law Sheila., brothers wife.are fishing off of it.. its a great

spot down there..sometimes when there is a lot of rain the

ground there is soggy and your shoes get all wet when you

walk around there..Davids nephew is first there, then Danni,

then Cassie & Josh..Mark..brother is in green ..David is

in the black.. We all liked it down here by the water..but the

deck was great too a good view..

You can see me in red..on this side is Sheila..my ex sis in law.

She and I got along real good..we were the 'outsiders' but they

all treated us very good.. That is the pontoon.. Its very big..has

2 huge inboard motors..and seats all around and there is even

a potty on it..You cant see all of it..there is more farther past

the 2 cans on that back table..It was nice to fish on this..It was

so big. but David maneuvered it around like it was a row boat.

He was the only one Jim would let drive it..or take it out.. He

knew David knew what he was doing..

We had gone down to fish one sunday..David, Mark & Sheila

and I .. well you had to have 1 on the boat to start the engine..

and one at the lines to untie it..if you did it the wrong way the

pontoon was so touchy it would stall out and then not start for

awhile and then it could float off.. They didn't follow the start

up routine ..the guys were in a hurry , Jim and Karalee are up

on the deck..see the pontoon floating.Jim yells down"you

better NOT damage that pontoon ,,START the ENGINE". well

it still didn't.. Jim yells again "THAT BOAT GETS STUCK YOUR
IN TROUBLE" and hes getting upset..We all look at each other

and Mark jumps in the river..then David and they try to pull the

pontoon back up by the shore..we had started to drift.. Jim

yells again."GET THAT BOAT STARTED" and then Sheila

jumps in the river and tries to pull the pontoon..With all 3 of

them in the water.. I just stayed in my seat.. I wasn't jumping

in that nasty water.it was awful.. not a clean river..trust me..

So all 3 of them are soaked..drag that pontoon back up by

the edge.and David climbs back on ..and goes over to it

and the motors start up..just nice as you please. Out climbs

Mark and Sheila..get on the pontoon..and Jim yells again..

" YOU BETTER NOT BE GETTIN MY BOAT WET".. We

all look at each other like.. WHAT? lol. Jim yells at me..

"Lois..why didn't YOU jump in and try to save that boat?"

I yelled back up.." I aint jumpin in this nasty water to save any

ones boat, no way not even yours" he laughed and we took a

nice 4 hour boat ride finally..Jim was so picky about that boat

and he NEVER went in it. I knew him..12 yrs he never went but

once..only time I saw them go on it..shame too ..I loved it..ITs

a great way to spend a day on a lake or river..just cruise and

anchor and fish ..allll day :-)

I got my own mail today..can you believe it? I was sitting here.

heard a clunk..and knew it was my mail..and opened the door,

well after I backed into the bedroom doorway..and opened the

lid..and there was my mail.. was so nice..and I had a lovely

birthday card in it too..That made it even MORE special.. was a

nice gift inside that sure will help on this 5 week month.. I plan

to get a file cabinet for here next to my desk. I would like like a

nice one be just enough room and the 3 in 1 would fit nicely on

top..the storage will come in handy.. I didn't get a chance to see

today on line what is out there..I plan to look though.. Im going

to go and look for some dinner..Im hungry and tired.. I was up at

5 or so..and lunch was..well ok..bbq and theirs is ..well.. ok.. lol

So seek and I shall find food, I know lol..Nitey Nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Reflections~

I found a box.. full of photos I had found and put them away when I

unpacked from that very first move into that apartment in 2002..

Its a box of my ex's stuff, photos that he should have..some odds

and ends that he overlooked when he was packing up my things

he didn't take them out.. I looked through the photos and found a

few that I am glad I did look through them..I had wondered where

this photo was..its so kewl. I took that one day while we were out

fishing.. the water is so clear up there in Upper Michigan..the lake

was like glass..and it was a beautiful warm summer day..you can

see the clouds..and the sky, was very blue.. Now..do you see the

fish? lol.. It had come up to the top..to chase a lure that's right

there in front of it, you can just make it out, I cant remember the

kind it is, I want to say a perch, but no..that's not it.. I dunno..its a

fish..not big either, compared to what we knew was in this lake,

this was Ottowa Lake, a great walleye one..Caught many great

eating walleyes out of this lake. Its not far from where we lived..I

would guess miles but I don't know lol I know to drive it we could

be there in 15 minutes..so. how many miles? lol..There were lots

of lakes with in a half hour to 45 minutes from where we lived, I

would guess...10 or more..and all GREAT fishing lakes, all fresh

clear water. David never took his 14 foot boat out of the back of

his pick up truck all summer..it stayed there. :-)

When I got the film developed I didn't see the fish.. and thought I

had taken a rather dumb photo of kinda blurry clouds..then I got to

looking more closely and discovered the fish and realized that

the clouds had reflected in the water and made it look like the fish

was up in the clouds lol. I thought was a pretty neat photo.. Not a

prize winner..but well I took it lol..I enjoy taking photos, I always

have and still do, ask my cats :-)

I had said quite a while back I had caught a nice big Northern Pike.

That I did and do LOVE to fish. I couldn't find this photo of it. David,

my ex is holding it for me.. there was NO WAY I was tackling that

fish after fighting it for a half hour to get it reeled in,..Northerns are

really mean fighters with razor sharp teeth. I finally got that monster

to the boat..David takes the net..and tries to dip into the water with

it..and almost yells.. IT WONT FIT IN THE NET! and looks

at me, like WHAT was I gonna do? we only had the one..Well he got

it up and into the boat..and used a heavy line to tow it more or less

back to shore. this was just at sundown, and my most favorite time

of day, that lake is ICE Lake.. a not real big one, almost right there

behind David on the other shore is the public beach, where I rode

my bike to many a summers day..Its a great lake and there is a nice

big motel right on it, its over to the right, just past the tail of the fish,

..with boats and some of them are cabins, its a great little spot to

go on vacation, specially if you love to fish. Just fall out the door

and right into a boat..and off you go. That's living hey? Up north for

ya.. but Isnt it a beauty?? the fish too :-D.. he was a good looking

man, my ex..a real doll, but that is the only thing I will say for him,
that's my fish, fresh out of the water..David's smiling after I took

this he says "Im gonna say I caught this you know, with you taking
the picture" I said he could..was just a fish.. Ive caught LOTS
bigger than that..a hammerhead shark for one! lol.when I was in
Texas.. but I DID catch that fish..:-)

The wall in our living room..you can see MY fish over on the left. It

was 32 inches long..I don't know the weight.. The lure is hanging out

of its mouth but its hard to see, There is a fly rod up across the top..

and the big fish facing the Northern is a German Brown my Dad

caught back in 1957, that sadly did not survive the move to the apt.

there is a smaller fish mounted below it..its a Brookie..a quite large

one, they don't get very big,and are some of the best eating fish you

can eat, especially fresh caught. Nothing better, There is what looks

like a picture on the door there it is a puzzle, I glued together that I

have a photograph of my Dad almost like it, as if it was made

from that. My ex was a hunter as you can see by the antlers.he

got one every year, he used a bow ..his preference..he was a very
good shot. or aimer or what ever a bowsman? archer? lol. I dunno.

But that wall, started MANY conversations, who doesn't like fish?

Oh, to get that Northern mounted? cost us $150.oo..expensive fish

hey? and we didn't get to eat it either.they, well, we didn't eat them,

theyre a real boney fish. Some pickle them in chunks David said

its really good. ..me? no..I don't like pickled fish..put that with the

carrots..lol.. I still could go fishing now, I would.. :-) Donnies got a

pontoon too, one of these summers I just might go

Right back to food..lol..why do I always end up with food? I guess
cuz, I know that's where im going to go, Im not hungry but I do
want a soda, so I HAVE to go out into the kitchen..and there just
HAPPENS to be cookies on top the refridgerator..well? I might
have to check and see if theyre fresh.Donnie came by with Jerky,
he stopped on the way and got a mailbox and put it on the door for
me.. Took him 2 minutes to do it..and it looks nice.. We got all that
straightened out today, I called the post office and my mail will now
be put right up here on my door. NOW, that is good. Donnie coming
over to do it and its his wifes birthday, I told him when he called
before he didn't need to today..but he had to come over to a store
here anyway. so he came by, found the fudge too.Oh.... ALL that
fudge I gave them? he told me tonite ..hes not allowed to have any
more.. I told him there was some out there yet, I guess Dawn, did
not get ONE piece of it.. he ate it all..lol..she told him "NO more
FUDGE for you" so he promised he wouldn't eat anymore of it..lol.
hes bad..candy and Donnie? specially those hersey kisses..the

caramel? now..those are good I highly recommend them.. Ok..
enough food, and candy writing, its time to say, Nitey Nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one, Y'hear? luv ya..and Thanks.. :-)
ps. today was a good day ! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Close Quarters-Nickles & Dimes Too! ~ :-)

This is a photo from last months set..and I know I hadnt put

it here.. I thought it would give you some idea of how close

it is for my chair.. there is not a lot of room in here..and with

the carpet..well it makes it kind of rough.. the bedroom right

there on my right the carpet in there is the same color but

not laid as good as this in the living room but you can see

the close quarters..but its ok..I can get through .. I havent

put any knicks in my desk, even though I am not the best

driver.. D & D hesitate to come over when I am in mine.lol..thats
LB on the recliner..

I scratched my eye ..well I think I did ,, or maybe Dutch did..and

I woke up this morning with a lump..well a knot.. a swollen area

at the corner of my eye by my nose..It makes me see blurry at

times..as this is the only eye I can really see out of..well that is

any good.. The left I am declared legally blind in it..So I have

to be super careful of my right..That's why I wear glasses all the

time.. the Dr. told me just to be safe..to wear just plain glasses

and MANY times I have been VERY grateful he told me that.. I

had dropped a cup not long ago..and had I not had glasses

on it would have damaged my eye..it left a mark on my glasses,

I was lucky it didn't break them! ! Now I need glasses to read.. I

cannot read anything with out them.. I only use the drug store

cheapie ones..but they work very good, I lost my left eye back in

83..and gradually the site has gotten less and less over time in

the right and I see nothing but a white haze in the left..

I have a Dr. appointment this week..hmm I better put a note as I

have a date with my councellor that comes every 2 weeks from

CMH..Theresa..shes so pretty and nice..the boys love her.. My

appointment is at 10:45..and squeezed in so, it may take a

while..and the bus is coming to pick me up at 10..and ..ya..its

only2 blocks down the street..they do this in case there is a

problem loading..the driver will come up and help with the door

etc..which is good.. Now I need to go and get my ID..I did when

Raelynn took me but I guess it got lost so now I have to go down

there.. AGAIN..

Donnie called awhile ago..said he will be over tomorrow .. he is

going to take my old power chair down the basement and I hope

he can fix the brake on the right side of this chair..I bet if I was in

my new manual I wouldn't be able to roll at all..that one is so stiff.

I wish I could find the new arm rests, I have NO idea where they

are.. Its so hard not knowing what is down in what box and where

in the basement and poor Penny runs up and down the stairs to

look .. I still have not found my huge mirror.. its vanished I feel bad

about that ..was my parents.. but I still have one so I should be glad

and I am, one is better than none :-) I keep forgetting to count my

blessings..shame on me :-)

We are having a cold winters night..snow..and wind.and COLD..

its 25 degrees F and -5 C I think ...its cold.. when Donnie phoned

he was on his cell on the road..and said the roads are bad in spots..

he has a big pickup..with 4 wheel drive..Dawn has a blazer with 4

wheel drive and they have a small car.Donnie usually uses the car

during the week as he works in Indiana and has a hour drive every

day..its easier on gas than that pick up.. Its Dawns birthday, and I

have to remember to phone her tomorrow..I better write a note

now I have notes taped to the top of my desk here to remind me

if I don't ill forget and If I don't tape them up by the top I will lose

them then Im in trouble cuz I forget.lol. ALHeimer ..he just steady

dances with me..I guess I should be glad SOMEONE is :-D

I did have my fries n gravy..was so good been a long time. I didn't

realize how much I really enjoy them.. I got up early today and I

havent eaten today either. I have gotten the worst sleeping and

eating schedule any more ..I just do what I want ...WHEN I want..

now..aint that JUST AWFUL ?? lol..works for this GORGEOUS

WEEBLE lol.. Nitey Nite.. :-)

SAY !! THANK YOU..~!~ to all of you that sent those great mails

and cards and gifts..you are the greatest and Lord..I really am

glad Im here..this other world is NOT that bad its better than NO

world at ALL..no matter how I am going thru it.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..thanks again.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Happy BIrthday To Me Again~

This was a happy birthday, I made it through it lol..So just

that alone made it one lol.. It was a lazy do, nuthin day, I

just played on the computer and with the boys.. and did

some rearranging out in the kitchen so I have a place for

everything..same as in the bathroom..As small as this house

is I have to make sure there is enough room for only just

what I absolutely need.. any space left over then I can have

it to put junk lol.. :-)

I got some happy birthday phone calls..and updates on how

some friends are doing and that always makes me feel better.

I worry when I don't hear from someone all of a sudden and

wonder what has happened. My niece has a list that I can trust

her with of my online friends should I get sick or something so

she can send a mail etc.. I think it is such a nice thing to do. I

make sure that like with Blue, I have an alternate way of finding

out if he is ok way down there.. He has a lovely, sort of adopted

daughter that was a nurse at the Hostel he lives at and she

has him come by for lunch and she has a husband and two kids,

Erin and Jack. Blue loves them all. Well you don't have to be

blood to be family..

Donnie is not related to me in any way..Ive known him since 1983.

and we have been dear friends since then and I refer to him as

my son.. Im really much too YOUNG to be his mother lol.. but I

thank Barb & Bill all the time for sharing him with me.. Donnie

and Dawn, and the girls all call me Gran..well sometimes Donnie

gets smart and calls me Shorty..lol.buggar.. kids show their

parents NO RESPECT sometimes.. lol.. No .. hes one of the

finest people anyone could ever hope to have for a true loyal

good friend.. Hes stuck by me just like my sister has.. He was

taking his sweetie pie wife, Dawn, out to dinner to her favorite

Chinese restaurant since its her birthday on monday..Blood

doesn't make people family..the love,caring,honesty, and loyalty

that makes you family..we are family.. :-)

I didn't fix anything special for my dinner I was gonna splurge

and get a pizza again, but that tomatoes on toast the other night

was so good. I had not made that in years..I really enjoyed that.
I don't know why I have gotten on this hot chocolate kick..but it

is tasting so wonderful..I had Penny get some yesterday and

I will have that too.. Im tired and lazy and going to hit the hay

early tonite..me and my boys..theyre waiting.. :-)

Thanks for all the sweet happy birthday wishes... meant a lot to

me and I am very grateful I made it through another year to see

another one.. My sis passed away on this day 2 years ago..She

made sure I remembered her didn't she.. she did this deliberately

you know..which..I wouldn't have forgotten her anyway.. but well..

its ok..I don't mind remembering her on my day. just so long as I

have lots more birthdays to remember her on..like 20 or so..that

would be good, as fast as this past year went these next 20 I

plan on will be just flying past.. :-) Kitchen here I come..then some

TV and hopefully I wont hit the eyes closed button on the remote

for a little while lol.. there IS one you know. its the one you always

hit just before your eyes slam shut lol.. Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Compare The Bench~

Ive been thinking .. again ..lol.. everyone says .. OH NO!! lol.. :-)

well I now have a tub.. I don't have a roll in shower, like I did at

the old place.. I have a tub with a shower..and now I use that

white bench that I had at the other place I used before I got my

wheel chair one.. That one wont work in this tub.. but..if you look

at the bench, in this older photo from the apartment.. its the same

bench.. but look at the back of it..the bench back..it is on the left

side of the seat..and the handle..is on the left side..? see? well

this new house has a tub..with a shower, but the bench can be

adjusted.. the arm..back even the legs adjusted to different

heights.. I am so glad I didn't give this away thinking I would never

use it again because I had my shower chair.. ..but I thought you

might find this interesting.. and get to see the UGLY shower curtain

and the ICKY ugly paint splashed floor ! ! :-)

you can see the tub.. the faucet is right there, and up higher is

the shower nozzel. hopefully I will get the hand held one that will

look like the one in the top photo..I couldn't get it all in.. Look at

the difference in color too..that cam just with fake light gave off

such icky color. this new digital camera is just the greatest . I love

it .. I am so grateful to have it.. Now.. see the bench? where the

back of it is moved to the far right? and the railing..well handle is

moved? the legs..you can see rings around them..that's where

you adjust the heights. naturally that ickky floor is lower than the

tub.. lol.. see the paint on it? Chris said it would be replaced..

ya.. like the the other things needed done. ive not heard a word

from him I hope he got his letter..anyway.. ...

I pull my chair up to that bench..scoot forward..and pull the inside

curtain that ugly gold thing is the cloth one ..there is a plastic liner

on the inside..and I just sit on that plastic one..and the water then

stays inside the tub.. I tuck it under my butt and stump .. works

really well.. and I have enough room and can be close enough to

that wall so I don't worry about sliding out of it.. that was hard to

do even at the apt in that roll in shower .. I couldn't maneuver a

curtain and be on that chair safely.. this works great.. NOW..

lol if you look to the left..you will see the toilet.. GAWD I just show

everything..well unless you have been around you don't realize

what we really need to adapt to daily living in comfort.. so that is

what is called a RISER.. and its about 6 inches high.. and is the

exact height of my chair WITH a cushion. Lower with out one..

its plastic.. and very slippery..and..also tippy.. there is a lip on

the inside of the rim..that goes down inside the toilet bowl about

2 inches or so.. and stick on Velcro pieces that go on the toilet

and on the bottom of the seat.. you know how long they stay on

yes? Not long. The toilet seat and lid are up ..and I should have

taken a photo of that .. oh well. take my word.. This new seat and

railing I am supposed to get is all in one.. the riser and then the

railing that will be attached thru the openings that hold the other

regular toilet seat in place making it sturdier.. lol.. I pull up to

that.. facing it.. and just scoot forward.. and while I am there you

see the railing of the tub..I said there are 2 curtains. yes.. my boy

he gets between the two while I am there or even in the shower.

I think he thinks its his special little run way.lthough I have caught

LB in there too..its a fun play spot for them..leaves holes in the

inside plastic curtain but..they only cost $1.00..

That UGLY shower curtain is the VERY next to go.. I didn't want

to take a photo of the bathroom yet its NOT ready and looks ..

ickky. and I will if Donnie comes tomorrow and moves my power

chair. its in there at the end of the tub.I will work on the bathroom

and take more photos.. someone asked me about this today

and that's what gave me the idea for this post..so anyway.. lol

Now you see my new shower and changed seat..interesting hey?

well Im glad I had the other photo still so you could really see just

what Donnie switched to make it useful. I bet it took him 2 minutes.

in fact, I asked him to do it.. and he was almost right back.. I gave

him this odd look cuz he said "I cant do it".. I knew better.. smiled

and he said. "naa , piece of cake its done" I really was surprised

he did it so fast.. said they just pop in and out..ya.. Mr Mechanic ,

nothing aint hard for him lol.. hes very strong armed lol..most

mechanics are I think from pulling on those tools..like farmers that

do milking have such strong hands. :-) when they milked by hand .

Raelynn stopped by today to say "hey" was so nice to see her, she

mentioned she will be glad when she gets a car I can get into so

we can go for a ride.. I have some photos of a old covered bridge

I took on that nice country ride she took me on to show it to me.. I

will share.its really a beauty too. quite big. we went thru it 2 times.

lol well.. we got lost? lol.. its a great bridge..there arent too many.

It will be nice to go ridin with her and up to the Oasis for lunch,

they have the best food. I got a nice birthday surprise and splurged

today and Penny picked up a meatball sub for me at subway..

now.. THAT was good.. I said while I ate EVERY bite of it.."happy

birthday to me tomorrow" :-)

My sis phoned today, to wish me a happy birthday..shes fine..and

going shoppin for a new coffee table to go with her new living room

she just HAS to have one.. and I don't blame her well the stuffs

gotta match lol..and look nice. shes not sure if she wants a oval

or round ..those are such HARD decisions. lol I know. Ive been

trying to figure out about that wall with the mirror I am NOT
happy with it lol... I have a.... yup.. blueberry doughnut out there..

guess where it will be in a few? and with a nice big mug of hot

chocolate..hey.. this is good.. "good stuff maynard" from what?

ohh wow.. Dobie Gillis.. now is that an oldie? lol..am I dating my

self here? :-) naa only numbers. I will really be only 38 lol. in what.

well I aint tellin... I am tellin ya. Nitey Nite tho. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya.. and hey ..thanks for

all the sweet Happy Birthdays..this is such an up and down one,

and they sure make me feel kinda special. :-)

Always, Lois ***

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~A Break Today~

I decided I would give everyone a break today- mainly my self, from more aggravation like yesterday.. I don't recall being that mad in a long time..at least a few days lol.. I don't want to hear all the lame excuses and the finger pointing at every else that its not their fault, and it seems that's all they do when they are caught not getting things done in the amount of time it should take.. I know my ears need a break from listening to it and my blood pressure doesn't need to go that high again at least not for a few days...So I did not call one person today. I did get a call from my friend down under though, from Blue, he said there is just the worst drought ever down there in AU. and its an island surrounded by water.. whats that part of a quote.. "water, water, everywhere, but not a drop to drink"... Isnt there like a purifier so the ocean water can be sucked up to the land and cleaned or something ? :-) My ex's mother lives on the river, the people that do, have pumps and they pull the water from it to water their gardens, lawns etc. I would imagine they probly would have some kind of water purifier in AU..or Hawaii or any of those places..I don't know but..I would think so. How would they have enough fresh to keep all those people in water? Well they probly do have those thingies..but just cant supply enough for everyone- Joys of HOT weather :-) We have had a few snow flurries today off and on but nothing much.. I was so glad when I hung up that woolbie..first try last nite to hang it and I got it up thanks to those longer nails that Raelynn put in for me.. That was so nice of her to do and of her client to send them.. I hope hes doing good.. he seemed like a very nice guy.. I know its gonna take him a while.. and he said he had just had his hip replaced just before his head on collision that broke both his arms and legs.. He said he was very lucky that he didn't lose his leg.. I told him he was..that no matter what happens..at least hes still alive and can either be sad at whats happened etc or glad that hes got time to go on and enjoy the rest of his life.. hes a young guy.. only in his 40's I think Raelynn said.. It will take time to heal from all those breaks, but with the rehab etc. he will, this health trak they have just down the road by the hospital is always full of cars.. I can almost see it from the window here.. The difference in being here and at the apartment is a really big one..just the way I have to navigate, the size is so much smaller. The biggest difference is the noise..no matter day or night..you always hear cars..the boys..always have something to see when they go from window to window..which they do..but here it seems there is a world out there .... we can tell..over at the apartment. there was no sound..well yes..when that man next door blasted his stereo all the time..but outside, a car now and then going into that parking lot by there or a few birds but that's all. Not any thing like here. This road out front lots of times I see people walking down the sidewalk ..probably walking down to that big Meijers store or that new big drug store down there, well its not new I guess its been there for a while ..but I hadnt been down that way till Raelynn and I went and I saw the new Walgreen's store..its huge too.. I remember when I was in high school..the next lttle town from us had a nice Walgreen's and on our weekly trek down the hill my girlfriends and I would go down to Iron River to go shopping, we always stopped at Walgreen's for a soda, they had the old kind of soda fountain..the stools up at a high counter..and of course the fountain drinks. mine was always a lime coke..that was so good..They would make it right in front of us, the good old days.. I don't think there any old soda fountains anymore, anywhere. To go there now..its so changed..last time I went home I almost didn't even know it..it had changed so much, let me get out in the country or the back roads? they havent changed-still dirt and dusty and take you to some of the best fishing and camping, just good clean healthy fun. I loved living up there but you have to be an outdoor person..there is so much to do summer or winter up there, well even here for that matter.. That huge ski hill is just over there past Donnies a little way and the lake he lives on..he said is a great fishing lake. he loves it- with his pontoon..that's the only way to fish.. everything is right there like a fishing house boat lol.. A lot of people when I went down to that wonderful little town way down there in Lousiana..lived on house boats ..some were just wonderful . I had the chance to visit a friend of the girl I went there with.. When the person that owned the houseboat got tired of where it was..they just untied it and went farther up or down the bayous.. It is just so beautiful down there..and that Cajun music? well I mean that is the MOST enjoyable .. I love listening to it.. I heard this very young boy..he sang and played the accordion I think ..and talent? he was great. I love the accent. that friend that kept saying that "ope de doe.. ope de doe".. I had NO idea what he said.. well I did when he talked slower.. thank God he did..he said OPEN the DOOR ! he was gonna be sick! :-) I think one of the most memorable things I was told about down there is that there were about 10 men to every woman! I guess because of the oil rig help stationed down there at the ports :-D . works for me.. Hmmm Lousiana.?..naaa they get hurricanes down there.. but it is one of the most beautiful states there is.. I sure liked it.. I would go back.. I love the boudan..and the chickory coffee... :-) some of that stuff was strong enough to walk ! :-) See? Food..I wonder why no matter where you go..that's the one thing it seems that you remember too, when you go somewhere. I think its because its such a universal thing and too, food is such a VERY necessary part of daily livin.. aint we just lucky?? lol.. and specially when its just so good and such a wide variety..that's the joy of it.. I chat with my friend in the UK and one of the things we chat about is what they had for dinner or supper over there and how different the food is.. well its the same really,, just goes by a different name..Its all good though and I don't think there are too many that can say they do NOT love good food.. ;-) I cant..lol.. My food is out in the kitchen, lunch was its usual unidentifiable self and I did not eat it.. I think I may make some nice buttered toast and get a can of diced tomatoes..and put them on it with some of that good parmesean cheese..now THAT is some good stuff..VERY GOOD.. I highly recommend it..lol.. So, you know whats next.. Nitey Nite :-) Oh, those that have sent me cards and mails wishing me a Happy Birthday..thank you so very much for thinking of me.. sure means a lot. :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks :-) Always, Lois **** God Bless you is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe until I write again..