~DeskRest~

This is our Desk Rest.. I asked my Dr.if I HAD to go home to BED

rest. she looked at me and said "your on the puter aint ya?" I

smiled and said that I most definitely was..as that's where all my

friends live.. I have to be there ..they are my company other than

my boys". She made me promise I would only take one..and

then get to bed earlier and get more time in bed relaxing and just

not doing anything but watching tv..well. I laughed and told her

some of the stuff ive seen on TV lately stresses me out..so many

saying "look how good I was..what I did"..and the news.. I don't

really watch a lot of that just for that reason..I like certain shows.

Im sick of all the crime shows..I think some of what some people

are willing to do for money .well I don't think I could. but I do like

the animal planet..and travel channel, well I did- I cant get that

channel anymore..but I like some of the cooking shows. I don't

like the ones that make all that fancy stuff I would never make

and the ones where the women are flipping hair and look anorexic

either..theres a southern lady that's really good like that old guy

Wilson.hes not on anymore. he GAR ON TEED lol.. that is

my boy Dutch.. LB is loving but hes the one sleeps between my

stumps.. Dutch likes up under my chin.and likes if I touch him

when he sleeps..LB is not a hands on kittie.he likes petted , yes,

but when he wants it..and its his terms.. lol...kids..

I woke up this morning later than I have been getting up though.
7:30.. but I was up twice ..not out of bed, once I had to move

and change positions..my hip and right stump were just throbbing.

I guess I had laid wrong for too long.. When that happens ..some

times TOO often . I lay there and start to do stump exercises.. I

will kinda lay on my side and lift my stump up and down and

raise it to the side and up.. I move ,, not easily, to my other side

and do the same. I lay on my back and lift each together ..then I

do each one alone.. If my hip or back or stumps are hurting I find

this really helps me.. I found that even puttin my hand on the ends

to tell my head.."HEYYY, theres NO leg.." it doesn't help cuz it

refuses to accept it and I still feel it.. The exercises help..I think

it gets the blood moving again..after laying for a few hours in one

position .

I did get a surprise..I called Sandra at the Adult Protective services

that is my case worker.. I told her by me not having the safety things

I need that she said were going to be delivered 6 weeks ago..that

was abuse..and that was HER job to protect me..and she was

inflicting abuse on me by setting me aside..I know she has other

clients..but are we not ALL important.? and I feel..that finish ONE

job..then start another.. I phoned on Monday and got the things the

next day? that made me glad ..yes very..but also a tad upset..she

could have done this 6 weeks ago when she said she was..and I

could have avoided that stress and a lot of calls to her that she

never returned. She didn't think about the fact that many have more

than ONE issue that is causing them problems.. like me.. I got

some of my stuff..My toidy is now safe, and what a relief. I am

very happy with that..:-)

The man brought a chair like frame he has anchored to the toilet

onto the screws that hold the toilet seat lid on..It makes me feel SO

much safer and so good I cant even begin to say how much better I

feel.. I have a new shower thingie ..that will make taking a shower

so very much easier..but..from putting this on. we found out that the

nozzle is not working right as the amount of water that is coming out

of the faucet is too much and not shutting off to put the water up to

the shower nozzle, so .. that needs replaced.. I did call Chris and

tell him and also reminded him about the toilet.. I will wait to see if

he calls..

Lunch today was..well I have no idea.so when Penny went to do

laundry she stopped at my favorite sandwich place, Arbys of course.

They have a Rubin.. Boy is IT GOOD!!! ive not had one before..

Its on Marble Rye bread. with cheese, corned beef and sauerkraut.

talk about good? oh yeah I mean excellent, I enjoyed that..I highly

recommend it.. sadly they don't make the onion peels any more . I

only found out the had..but quit.. they do have those good curly fries

though and they are great. Was a kinda hectic day..and I am going

to bed early..I didn't get one of those desk rests today.. DO NOT

Look at how crappy I look lol. I was tired..Dutch does this each time

I take a deskrest..so I thought be cute to kinda take a few pics of him

hes a good kid and loves his mom..shows hey? lol

its that time to keep my promise and head to bed..so that means

its time to say "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now , Y'hear? luv ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Meet My Brother N Law~

I talk so much about my sister Shirley and my brother in law Stanley and I realized ive not put a photo here of him..Well.. that is Stanley...sweet dear man. Hes one of the most hard working men I know besides my boy Donnie. He cant sit still..if he does he falls sleep lol..well hes a busy man.. When they come to visit, Shirley will usually sit in the recliner and he will lay on the couch and goes almost instantly asleep, he always comments "Lois, if anything happens to you, will you leave me this couch?" :-) well my couch is very comfy even though its got to be 30 years old..to look at it you would never know..The cushions are as firm and solid as the day my mother bought it..Its survived so much..and still looks brand new and I know I can snuggle down in that thing and sleep like a baby, I have many times. Stan is one of the best fiberglass and mold makers I would say in Indiana. They had their own business and he would make molds, for everything from truck caps to Baptismal tubs for churches. Hes provided a good life for them..He tries and says hes gonna retire..but no- Stanley? He would go nuts hes like Donnie..cant stay still for long periods of time and has to do something. Hes a deeply religious man and is a skilled guitarist and can play the harmonica, one of those huge ones. He cant read music at all..and is totally self taught..I think the guitar is his favorite though..I believe now hes learning to play the mandolin.. I asked him last time to bring his guitar and his harmonica I would love to record him, hes played for his church and other places too I think. They had 5 children. 3 girls and then twin boys. that has grown to 16 grands and 3 greatgrands. Stanley sometimes is accident prone..he is, and Ive gotten phone calls from my sis and as soon as I hear her voice, I know something is wrong..and when she says Stan, well there is just NO telling what hes done. He was doing tree work for a while and it was after a really bad bad storm we had, he had gotten a call from a church member that a 'branch' had fallen and was laying, rather tee tottery, across the high point of the roof of their garage. The 'branch' turned out to be the whole tree, a fairly good size..it had snapped off a bit above the base of the tree and lifted and landed on the garage, the tree top on one side and the trunk and lower part of the tree across the other side. Stan put up a ladder, and proceeded with his chain saw to the roof was cutting the tree and was going to let it go on each side and fall to the ground, so he thought. Not realizing the top was lighter than the solid wood and rather thick trunk of the tree. He started up his Chainsaw, and started to cut thru it- as the saw blade almost got through it, he said he heard this loud "CRACK !, SNAP!" and that tree started to split before he had cut all the way through ..as the tree started to split and separate, he had not tied off one end, the heavy trunk dropped and the top of the tree came almost straight up and as it came down it landed on Stan, he slid down the roof and to the ground holding on to the top of that tree, luckily when he hit the ground the ONLY thing that hit him were some branches but they smacked him right almost between the eyes but up on his forehead and knocked him out cold, the people that lived there couldn't help but hear the tree snapping and could hear it as it fell and dragged down the roof of that garage ripping the shingles off of it, ran outside and see Stan laying there and that still running chain saw, that luckily he just tossed aside, he had no time to shut it off, a little ways away from him..the top of the tree had almost folded over and the 'tree' was laying next to him..Of course they called 911. When their oldest daughter passed away I of course went to the funeral..Ruth took me, afterwards they had a nice dinner at the church for the family and those that attended it. When we got there we parked in the back thinking that was the best place to park to get to the graduated walk with no steps into the hall. Ruth went in and said we were there and Stan of course, offered to help get my chair and help me to get into it. I got into my chair and Stan backed us up a bit..closed the door said.."ready?" I said "yup,lets go" and that is JUST what we did.. I mean 90 miles and hour he pushes me down that sidewalk up to that door if I hadnt held on I would have been airborne I think. :-) He zipped me inside, down the hall at almost a running speed, I bet my hair was laid back on my head we were going so fast! ..:-) I start to laugh, "STANLEY!!" I said.."HEY, I wanna eat somethin ya know? I think you left my stomach back there at that corner back down the hall !" he almost had my chair on 2 wheels he pushes so fast. He says "well that's what wheels are for, ROLLIN" . :-) and he asks if I wanted to FLY with him :-D ya..ok..:-) I did not make one phone call today and I have been very good..I did get up early again 4 am. I had to balance my checkbook again.. I wish it would automatically do that..we can get stuff auto out and in..save me some grief when my book just sits there and laughs at me when I cant get it to balance ..it does I swear I can hear it.. I bet it can HEAR me when it doesn't ! :-) Its time to get that bed rest and not the desk rest I take every afternoon lately so that means time to say "Nitey Nite" :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya, and thanks :-) Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Meet My Great Great Nephew~

I would like to introduce you to my very new Great Great

Nephew, Richard and his proud beautiful gramma, my niece, Cheryl.

He is her first grandson. Richards mother is my Great Niece

Tiffani, she is a lovely girl, he is now home under the loving care

of his mommy and daddy and a very doting and loving family.

Cheryl has affectionately nicknamed him 'Bubbie' hes a happy,

healthy boy, isnt he just a Honeyboy. I am so pleased hes joined

our family..:-) Isnt that a face you could just kiss all over?

I woke this morning about 3:30 or so..and my first thought, I

have to admit was what calls did I have to make today. I had

one I had to make, that was to Adult Protective Services to

Sandra to inquire as to the status of my safety equipment in the

bathroom and hopefully some thing done about the floors. I

have been calling there for 2 weeks..and she did finally return

my call today, and I inquired as to why, when she phoned me

5 weeks ago that my safety things were going to be delivered

in 2 days, and werent what was wrong. Apparently she needed

some prices on things, and laid my folder aside while she got

involved in something else and she did nothing further on faxing

what they needed to deliver the things and is so swamped with

work and other clients that my safety equipment was more or

less in limboland. I did get a tad upset..This is Protective services,

for adults, to protect my health..so I thought, which has seriously

affected it by the stress from lack of finishing her job.

I explained to her that if this was my only stress point, it would be

different, but if everyone I have been involved with trying to get

things fixed, repaired or replaced, were the only one, but to put

all these things together, not counting the financial things with the

added and higher bills than I had not been expecting-it would be

different, but I have MORE than ONE...After I talked to her and

she gave me her reasons for not completing her job, I was

seriously stressed, at her excuses, I had no choice but to take a

nitro which I have NOT had to do before and take a rest.

I slept a few hours and woke with a slight headache and the chest

pain had stopped, and I feel ok..I took my blood pressure and it is

up a tad, but not bad.. So, with all the extra and plus the ordeal I

seem to have inflicted upon myself with the other subject I closed

and refuse to talk about anymore, I have to just roll back for a few

days again, and not make any calls, OR get involved in anything

else. :-) well nothing stress ful anyway :-)


My sister made it back from up North, halfway, and had to stop and

stay over at a motel, the roads were so bad. I was glad to hear her

voice that she was home safely, she said they got home about noon,

and of course all of us have to call and make sure they did.. It had

to have been bad for them to stop, ive ridden with them in a almost

total white out snow storm and Stanley just kept on steaming along!

So, it really HAD to be bad for Stanley to stop, they got a motel.

She said cars all over the sides of the roads, They came home and

had to go to work for the afternoon, and she was home eating some

pizza from Vesuvios, I think that's how you spell it. great pizza and

HUGE..she said she has enough pizza there for 2 days ..their large

pizza is a massive thing and just wonderful, I could almost taste it, I

had it when I lived there too..Stanley is making a trip to Haiti soon,

in a few weeks..and I hope he has everything done and fixed on the

home front..which im sure he will, he takes good care of my sister.

She and I look out for each other. think Im very out spoken and go
directly to the point..try my sister lol..We are a lot alike..a lot..
I updated her on all the stress problems here and the health issues

and that I am seriously getting worried as to the stress level and it

has to stop, that if it didn't and I did end up permanently damaged

or worse she should take action , which I have NO doubt she will, as

I would her, she looks out for me, I reminded her when they took all

my things at the hellhome- I called her crying about them..she came

the next day, with in just a short time, they brought all my things

back to me,,she stayed and made sure..shes my big sister..she

took care of me when it was just us kids so long ago.I was her baby

even tho she is only 4 years older than me..she was the one cared

for me before we were separated- adopted out to different familys

but we laffed about how short a time it took once SHE said."WHERE

are my sisters things?" DIdnt take them long to find them.. :-D she

loves me what can I say..I would do the same for her and she knows

it ..we are so much alike you would think we are twins.. :-) and the

surprising thing is..not being raised together..separated so young

yet so alike in everything from temperament to skills. it amazes us.

I have that eye infection you know...its tear ducts.. I said Im blind

in my left eye due to the metal going through it, in 1984, which left

me NO depth perception.and plus the fact I don't see well out of

my right now either ..Im in bad shape here :-). I WILL get better..

Anyway. I try to put this ONE drop.into each ..you KNOW this is

not easy yes? it is NOT easy trust me.. know how many times ive

poked my OWN self in the EYE now? and not just the one.. I mean

Ive gotten BOTH and I have to put them in every 6 hours.. I mean,

ONE drop . I tried using a mirror..well that don't work cuz I have to

have my glasses on to see..so I cant put drops in with glasses on!!!

lol, do I have my problems or what? I rested my pinky finger next to

my eye..don't laff now.. I know you are.. :-D ya.. my finger slipped

from the wet drop and of course it wasn't gonna go away from my

eye..no..got it with my finger too.! By the time I was done droppin

myself..my eyes really hurt :-) pitiful hey? :-D

Apologies for the late post , I had to take that rest but I made it

here tho I know your glad I did or y'all woulda just been worried sick

lol, I try to keep my promises.:-) ..and oh..welcome AJ..so good to

hear from you.. Your most welcome kiddo.. Nice bunch here ..some

real sweeties. gotta spend time with this GORGEOUS WEEBLE,

I tell on my self all the time- stuff I do to my own self lol..well I try

to fix stuff and some times my fixin needs fixin lol.. right now Im

fixin to head to my bed, and watch tv..I know I wont last long- my

finger will hit that eyes shut button.. I did see part of the awards

last nite..I watch mainly to see the gowns..being a seamstress

that's my main interest cuz I KNOW what those gowns cost and

some of the gowns are the size of a band aid ,lol.. time to say

don't worry, be happy and Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..and thanks! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Almost March?~

Have you look at the date? February is almost gone! Did we have Christmas??? Where is the time gone? It goes so fast or is it me? seems I get up and the next thing I know its like 3 in the afternoon and hmmm..what did I do ALL morning .. and look its been 4 days since my appt. with the Dr . and only 3 days to March.. I guess that old saying "time flies when your having fun" hmm did I have fun, and didn't KNOW it? ..:-) I don't know if THAT is a good thing or not :-) Talk about a snuggle down Sunday ..its a really ugly day out today, rain, cold, ice, not snowed much though..I think all around us got it a lot worse. My sister is on the road coming back from the Upper Penninsula, I hope they don't run into bad roads.Stanley is a good driver I guess, not been in an accident but well.. you want the ride of your life? ride in the back seat of his car lol.. he can drive and not look at the road and just keep on goin.. I rode with them once I was in the back seat..and Stan saw something on the road and he was going so fast it took him a while to stop,by the time he did get that huge Lincoln to stop well it was a ways behind us. he tells me and Shirley "ok ..hold on,im gonna turn around, go see what that is in the road" TURN AROUND? well that's what he did. well he backed up..flipped that steering wheel around, that car kinda leaned to one side and BAM! we were headed in the other direction REAL fast.. I sat there and looked at my sister. she looked back at me. laughed ,said " he told you to hold on, I know his turn arounds" I was all over that seat like a rag doll and I HAD legs then ! Leather seats are slippery going spinning in circles at 80 miles per hour lol..well not that fast but sure felt like it :-) Stanley got his pilots license cuz his company bought a plane so he wanted to fly it.. he says "Lois you gonna let me take you for a ride in the plane?" I looked at him like.. he was kinda out of it... I said " your kidding me, right? Stanley, I have a hard time riding with you in the car..and you think im gonna get up in a plane with you? your kidding, I love ya..but no thanks!" can you imagine? he did one of those flippy things with that plane and me in it you KNOW what would be flippin on me! I don't like to fly to be really honest about it.. Im claustrophobic and I don't like heights.. not at ALL.. I have flown, many many times.. to Hawaii and home from TX , ive flown..but as time has gone on..no..I really don't like to .. not any more.. Ive not flown since ive lost my legs and Ive heard some really bad stories about it.. and scares me.. The biggest part is the transferring from my chair to a aisle chair then to the plane seat..and then back if you have to potty during the flight..I was told..now I don't know..but they said their chairs were put in the hold..and one friend said when she got to the airport they got her chair out of the cargo part, brought it up to her and was awful condition..seat ripped and was bad.. for me..I have a biggie about my chair being out of my reach..I cant do that. It HAS to be where I can reach it if I am not in it..strange hey? I flew when I lost my left eye.. I had a huge bandage on it, was after the 3rd surgery on it..I flew out to TX to join my ex and my friend Wanetta offered to really help me and do stuff as I couldn't bend over or anything with this eye..made me ill to do that.. but the treatment I got was wonderful..I got on the plane before anyone else..so I got to watch everyone as they went past me.. its my left eye..and so I asked not to be seated where the aisle was on that side..so I could see if anyone came up by me without turning my head. I wanted a window on that side..they gave it to me.. When I got to Houston,, I had to wait till everyone was off the plane..then they came with a chair even and took me off the plane..The flight was very nice too because me having that huge bandage and all..right after all the people were on the plane the stewardess came up and whispered in my ear" mam, we have an empty seat in 1st class would you like to move up there if we help you..do you think you can walk up there?" i looked at her like..your kidding right? upgrade to first class..well i only had an eye injury not a BRAIN one :-) so you KNOW what I did.. I moved right on up :-) that was a flight. i enjoyed that specially the champagne.. what a way to fly.. Speakin of flyin..Im tired but i say that every post ending i think.. i got up at 4:30 and been up since.. I took a quick desk rest about 1 and didnt sleep long maybe hour or so..so this butt is draggin.. the pic is one from the set I took a while back ..i just didnt have the stamina to fight my webcam today.. I feel so bad that my digital is not working I asked everyone what they thought the problem was and they think something inside since it shows images in the camera but they wont transfer to a card or show they are on it ..when I put into my scanner..says no images are on the card.. I loved that thing and thought i was so careful with it..and i wasnt i feel so bad about it..was a gift from a friend I dont hear from anymore so It ment alot to me..well any giftie I get from my friends mean so much..they really do and I so appreciate them, i sure miss this camera tho..i had fun.. Im flyin off to my uncomfy bed lol no is not that bad bad but well could be better. "patience Lois.all will turn out ok".I keep telling myself that every few hours lol.. note HOURS lol I really mean MINUTES ..time to say those GORGEOUS WEEBLE words.. "nitey nite"... :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear ? luv ya..and thanks! :-) Always, Lois **** God Bless you is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe until I write again..

~Closed Subject!~

I seem to have stirred a pot of beans only because I made a state

ment about a restaurant comment and now have been called

names.. I have blocked and deleted the comments from this

blog and will continue to do so..this subject is closed as far as

I am concerned. lol.. I don't need the added stress and

that will only stir it more and I really NOW especially do NOT

need more aggravation simply for making a statement.. I had

thought the issue was closed ..it is now..The sender has been

blocked and comments here will be carefully scanned before

they are seen.. this is MY blog..and I wont be called names on it

by anyone..END OF SUBJECT, and that is my final answer,

oki doki :-)

I only just found out we are under a bad storm warning of ice and

snow and rain..I phoned Dawn earlier and she informed me the

storm was in Chicago and headed this way and was I prepared

food wise etc. When the phone rang Cameron, answered, he

said "hello? how are you? BYE" and hung up the phone lol I called

back and Dawn answered, laughing said she had told him to

answer the phone..he did and said hello and bye..lol he did what

she said..was so cute to hear him hes so smart very articulate for

only two and a half.. and hes a cute boy..I assured her I had food

and supplies I always make sure in the winter I learned the hard

way about that..when we got snowed in and all we had were

hot dogs and beans and soup .. we ate,,didn't starve..but I now

keep food on hand specially for the boys...

Ive managed today to stay kinda calm and unstressed altho its been

very hard to do. I had to take a small desk rest when I got a really

bad headache after reading some mail I got. I did solve that tho

real fast..I blocked the sender that works real good..I did wake up

with a really bad ache in my right hip and stump however and I do

think it must be the bed.. I know its not a new one and the mattress

is old. When I wake up..well it wakes me up..my right stump will

ache and then the tingly sleepy feeling will linger and linger until

I wave it in the air a few times and then find another way to put it.

Sometimes a pillow or the blanket under it to prop it up helps..
I have laid on my right side a few times lately too which seems to

help but not for very long..Im hoping this new bed will solve that

problem and the sitting up one.. Its so hard to do with no counter

balance.. its like doing situps but with your legs in the air. it is

NOT easy, and the new bed should have railings I hope- I am

not sure exactly what they will send.. I hope nothing as outrageous

as the all terrain vehicle I got... lol. I wonder what kind of odd

beds there are ? lol.. I don't know if it will be electric or not.. I

really don't need that but what is ahead who knows and it may

prove to be a smart move on my part which may mean if I

can remain at home or not farther down the line..

Mary has sent a letter that her brother is being transferred to a

bigger if not better equipped hospital and asked that we still

keep him in our prayers which I assured her we would shes such a

dear lady and has such a full plate herself yet still finds the time

to encourage me..that is so sweet..and wonderfully kind.. I know

I have been so grateful to see how many have expressed their

concern for me and I count every one of you in my blessings.. It

means a lot to me, and helps me to try very hard to really take

better care of myself and to try to avoid this extra stress that is

proving so harmful to me.

I have a cat that is parading between me and the keyboard at

this moment and I am having to push a furry butt out of the way

to see my screen ..I think the boy is trying to tell me something.

and what is surprising..its NOT Dutch..its LB, he usually does

NOt do that..lately the past week or so hes been very loving

and sticking to me..now even moreso having gone to the Dr.

on Wednesday and leaving him home with his Clock Loving

Brother LOL .. I still cannot run that clock..I laugh so hard at

that. I swear there is something in the chime..the tone maybe.

Hes refusing to move and I better take the hint ..cats are very

perceptive like dogs..so I need to pay attention and leave

this desk for the night.. Thank you again for all your tender

loving concern for me.. its sincerely appreciated..time to

say "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now , Y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always,Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Wheel Chair People~

Past few days ive been writing and griping I guess a bit

about wheel chairs and the places that arent open to us even

though they are supposed to be.. How unless you are really

around a chair person and have to really witness what they go

thru on a daily routine..you don't really know what we do go

through .. I know I didn't . that morning I got up and the stinkin

ONLY light in the kitchen blew out.. way up in the ceiling..well

fooey..I had to just sit there in the dark! lol..Or like the other day

when Lewis and Warren were here to do this other window..

Warren had a skil saw and needed power, a place to plug it in..

The only place was behind the recliner..He reached behind...

UNPLUGGED my radio..used his saw, unplugged his saw,

and left.. when I went to turn the radio on later well.guess what?

I had Penny plug it in.. cause I cant reach it..so I had to wait till

the next day for her to come and plug it in. I cant move my

recliner by myself .. Ive tried.. that thing is so heavy.. well its an

electric one.. the foot rest goes up by itself..and will stand you

up..they thought be good for me and no ..you still need weight

on that foot thingie for it to go down..didn't and don't work..
Before Lewis left I asked him to please put everything back for
me cuz i cant carry it or move it..he did and didnt mind at all,
he had moved a little table by the window and I cant carry it
and it wont push.. he had put it in the kitchen and was in my
way.. I could have pushed it out there tho. but where to? I
would have to had constantly moved it to move around out
there till Penny came the next day. I have to have this room
to maneuver my chair..lots of people dont think of the chance
that later in life or anytime really they could end up in a
chair and is there house adapted or adaptable? this day and
age..well it might be smart to do..lol..

Before when I went out .. i just got in my car and went. parked

shopped came home.. NOW.. I have to make sure where I go

is accessible to me..that I can get around IN the store let alone

get INTO it..I can ride in a higher up vehicle and get into it ..I

can use my board and pull my self in by grabbing the seat and

make whom ever is holding my chair lift up my board and kinda

dump me across .lol. well so I slid INTO the car , truck or what

ever..its easy to get out just slide downwards.. but to pull UP

and back..and lift at the same time.. its really hard and I know

once I just couldnt do it..and I was really upset I couldnt. I had

to have Que help me that time.. her car was TOO LOW ..lol

so to get back into my chair once I slid down into her car to get

back up and out of it.. i could NOT do it..I thought i was strong..

I am but I sure wasnt that time.. but its not easy taking a power

chair with you either..it is if you have a van..and a ramp..mine

the battery pack came off and it could fold up and go. It could

disengage the batteries and be pushed.. but was heavy too..

and to lift it into a trunk of a car well be hard for a woman .like

Penny, she would have a hard time..even my manual to fold it

and lift and put into the trunk..isnt easy to figure out a way for

it to fit.. .sometimes you have to try different ways to put it in

there.. Raelynn left part of mine out once and it started to

rain on the way home..and the trunk couldnt close cuz of my

chair she had to tie the lid down. my chair got so wet.. it

dried..but all this has to be taken into consideration now for

me or anyone thats a " Rider" :-) not the truck either lol..

When I went to the Drs I did have fun.. I was so conspicuous I

was.. that waiting room filled up really fast.and they had to even

put chairs out in the hall.. I sat there and said really loud too,

I said " gee look at all of you STANDING.. I aint gotta do that

no more I bring my own chair with me" one lady there laughed

so hard.. and a little girl about 10 or so she laughed too .. There

were no chairs left open in the waiting room and that little girl I

could tell didn't feel real good very pale.. so I reached out and

touched her arm.."said honey, I have room in my chair..wanna

sit with me?" as I kind moved to the side a bit to show her I

had room there, she smiled so sweet. and says "no m'am..but

thank you" smiled and went and sat in the hall.. she was so cute..

I think she maybe would have.. but she looked up at her mom..

and mom kind of smiled and turned and went out to the hall..

But I hope it made that little girl feel better and not be afraid of

a chair..I think lots of kids arent really afraid but think maybe the

person in them that there is something REALLY wrong..and if

you put them at ease..they accept it and are better later on...

My little nephew.. Tyler..says "Auntie....you HAVE NO legs!!"

I looked at him and said .. "yes Tyler I know..does that make

a difference..I have a nice chair with wheels now" he looked

at me..kinda patted my left stump...touched my chair..and

looks at me with these HUGE blue eyes..says "NOPE.. I'll

help you Auntie, can I push your chair?" lol .. I wanted this new

computer desk..saved up for a long time for it..and then it

went on sale..so I had enough to get it.. I called my boy, Donnie

asked him to go and get it for me.. he phones from the store..

says "Gran,, they got a matching CHAIR, want it too?" I said

"Donnie honey, I come with a chair Hon" , I could hear

Dawn in back laughing.. All of sudden kinda quiet I hear him

start to laugh he says "SHEESH, DAWN! why'd you let me

call? lolol. we laughed .. but he doesn't see me in it, maybe

cuz hes used to it.. well only time he really notices is when Im

in my power chair.. hes scared of me when im in that..im bad

too.. seems all I say is "look out ..MOVE..watch your toes"

But speaking of chairs.. ive been up for quite a while and Im

kinda pooped ..I was all set to watch TV last nite ..fooey..

I didn't even get the bloomin COVERS up!! I was OUT like

a light lol.. well I paused too long after I laid down lol.. I did

wake up at 3 am with the clicker in my hand and the TV was

still on lol.. I musta been tired ..and didn't realize how tired

I really was.. oh..the BP is still the same as last nite..well ok ..

a few bits ..a tad..higher but ok..not to worry ..im going to bed

rest ..not desk rest..

Oh..my dear friend Mary is in desperate need of prayers for her

brother. serious throat issues and headed for surgery ..pray

for them..shes a dear friend..his name is James Howard..we

need prayer warriors please,

Nitey Nite... :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Im NOT Lazy~

Does having or using a power chair mean your lazy? The Dr asked me yesterday, why I don't know, if I really needed one. I was kind of put off, but I didn't get mad or anything just politely told her because I cant use a manual all the time. Her being a Dr why would she not agree that anyone in a wheel chair not needing one, mainly for their ease to move. Inside I can, but its hard because of the carpet.. and outside? well I can use the manual yes, but not very well, depends what Im on..thru a yard or on gravel? its NOT easy.A power chair has no problems with how the ground is at all. I really prefer my manual chair to be honest,, I need to keep that upper strength in my arms..but if I were to go out by myself which here I don't think I would..there are 2 main roads..and I would have to go out into the street at a corner to go to my back yard unless I went thru the yard over the grass to the back.. the strength I would need to push this chair would take a lot . but I feel yes, I do need one.. most in chairs do, I went to a friends funeral shortly after I moved into the apt. and they had to park the car down the street a little ways, the sidewalk was awful all different levels where it had buckled and moved and left gaps. Some of us from the Hellhome went and the one guy offered to push my chair for me..we got to the driveway ok..was a bit of an angle so I was glad when someone offered to push me. I never do refuse being pushed around..well if its the right kind tho..lol. well after the funeral the same guy came and we were going back down the driveway he was pushing me kinda fast and I laffed and told him "hey, be careful here I don't wanna go past the car ya know" just about then my wheel hit a rock, not a big one..but my chair came to an instant STOP..lol.. I have a nylon cover on the seat of this chair..slippery stuff, I had a silk skirt on.. and I slid almost off my chair..good thing I was hanging on.. the guy pushing me didn't know what to do when he saw me still moving forward and he had his hands on the chair and hes almost leaning over top of me cuz it stopped him too! My butt was almost totally off my chair!!! He grabbed my shoulder and held onto it and kinda pulled me back in at the same time my chair is moving by the one wheel that wasn't stuck on a rock and we started going around in a circle with him hanging over the back of my chair and I have learned if im going out of this chair its butt first not face first , so I fall backwards.. lol..ya..we looked really cute ... The other ones with us..saw we werent really kidding around and helped to stop my chair cuz I was holding on so I didn't slide out he was holding on to me and we didn't lock my chair so..we looked really cute..we all laughed when I did get into the car and I teased the guy that was pushing me that "geez you want a quick feel here ..well just ask don't shoot me out of my chair so you can pull me back in !" we laughed..I m glad he was still back there now can you see me skidding on my butt being shot out of my chair? not a really pretty site, plus I know that would have hurt all that gravel and stuff, I would have been digging that out for days,, road rash I think bikers call it .. :-) yeah.. road rash from a wheel chair :-D cute lol... Lots of people think that power chairs are lazy -I guess if that's all you use but are able to use a manual..well a manual is instant move..you hit anything or push against that chair moves..with a power chair ..something goes to splash or hit you ..you have to find that joy stick and more than likely turn it on.and then move it.. I never kept mine on if I was sitting and doing something that can lead to problems too, specially if you hit it accidentally and arent wanting to move.. I prefer my manual.. I need this strength I have..for just getting back and forth on the potty and my bed, even getting dressed..taking a shower.. I lose this I have and well THEN how do I drag this GORGEOUS weeble SKINNY :-D butt around? I think power chairs are a good thing..but a manual is by far the better for you.. For me if it was easier to roll in here? I had no carpet anywhere? well I would not insist on this power one.. but the way it is now.. I do need it..I wont stay in it all the time. but I need the time away from this one..specially now when its so straining to move this one.. I guess I could have kept the monster from that company but then I couldn't get around in it either so was useless..they still have not offered another temp one.. I have rested a lot today and my therapist, councelor , Theresa, came too and shes so worried about me bless her heart, she knows every little detail..her poor ears what she has to endure when she comes here..My cats all over her..Dutch dug her phone out of her pocket cuz he spotted the cord..snuggled up next to her and went to sleep..LB he was ALL over her like I had not seen him act in a log time..nuzzling and rubbing and laid down for a while next to her as well.. I kept apologizing for how they do, but she really loves it.. we talk and I notice how she will pet and rub them.. she had a cat a few years ago and it died I think and she misses it terribly, so much its hard for her to think of replacing it and she has 3 children..that miss it too ..she says she told them that perhaps this summer they can get one, but the more she is around and loved on by my two shes ready to get one now lol.. They do really like her from the 2nd she comes in the door..they stick to her..its really cute, but she loves it..shes amazed how fast the time goes when she is here..we both are we talk like we have been friends for years..shes very very sweet girl... we like her.. Well Im tired and time for a laydown.. I woke up t 3 am and have been up since, well I did have a couple desk rests lol. I had to.. My computer acted up and I couldn't get a signal thru to my monitor which was caused by the batteries needing replaced in my keyboard..well there is a certain way to do it or it wont come back on.. took me 2 hrs to figure it out..needless to say I had to have a desk rest right after I got so angry with it..But I ate lunch was my fav..meat loaf..sure can tell they have a new cook too.. too bad they didn't find one better than the last one..lol. All is A-OK..not to worry ..Y'all are just the greatest and I really do appreciate your tender loving concern for me.. Im being good as best I can..all I can do is TRY and you know me.. Im GONNA do that :-) "nitey nite" :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya..and thanks again :-) Always, Lois ****

Ps. My Bp is 169/96 still high but soon will be down soon lol

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I HAD To Promise!~

Ive been ordered home to bedrest and had to promise, but

NOW, I went, was seen, and ALL better be in order. I called

Wright Filippis and Deborah at Health Plan of Michigan and told

them I was going and they better make sure all was done and

what ever I had to do or sign or whatever to get this over..I wasn't

gonna do this twice.. THey assured me all I had to do was have

what they called a 'face to face' the Dr a lovely little blonde thing

named Johnson, very nice..very young. She said he had to see

me before she would agree to something as expensive as this

new chair is going to be, she even had the prices! I was a bit

surprised at that.. anyway that part was done, she signed the

papers, NOW lets see how long it takes for the final end of this

and they bring me my chair..they havent offered me a temp one

again tho lol..

The nurse, a sweet little LPN, named April, that took the details

as to why I was there, took my blood pressure and I forewarned

her that it probly would be high.. and it was VERY high lol.. She

took it twice ... it was 211 over 110. which is explosive level..
the Dr was very concerned and wanted me to go straight over

to the emergency room and I refused.. I assured her it would go

down.. She is really concerned and asked me a few times to go.

she realized I wasn't going to..and I had to promise her I would

get some rest. She sat and looked at my eyes, gave me a script

for some drops.. ordered some blood drawn..and looked at

my fingertips.. She is referring me to the Vascular Dr I had,

and also wants me to see a cardiologist. .so. I went and had

the blood drawn before I left the clinic as its right next to the

hospital.. that was fun.. they have to draw it from a vein that is

on the base of my thumb..only place. the girl that did it ..she

was great!! I honestly did not feel a thing.. I was shocked~!~

Usually it hurts really bad..maybe its numb? lol no..she was

just good and she had the tiny needle a butterfly one lol.just

for me :-)

So, anyway.. I didn't go to the ER, and I have been ordered home

to bed, and rest..and no stress.. I had to come home take a pill

and call her with what my BP was, so if it had not come down

she would add something else to my scripts to lower it. I told her

that It would come down..I was just so extremely stressed out, and

that just the medical stuff and the chair and this house and the

safety things and the bills so high I was extremely stressed lately.

But that the trip to see her was going to hopefully solve a lot of it.

I had to promise to unstress and avoid it for a while and to make

sure I got a lot of bedrest.. I told her I would try very hard..but I

didn't have a laptop..so that meant being up and at my computer

for a while during the day.. So.. I will behave. those stinkin heart

attacks hurt.. lol.. so theres the poopy scoopy :-D I did good..

and my pressure is down .. is 168/94 thats good for me..it

will go down more, trust me.. i hope anyway.

When I got back..my boys? waiting at the door..LB came up to

me almost a glare in his eye..then a look of relief..he rubbed up

against my chair for ME to lean over to pet him, turned a couple

circles..looked me up and down..and went and got back up in

his chair.. Dutch..from the 2nd I rolled into the house he has not

left my side..he rode the back of my chair into the bathroom

with me even.. I rolled thru some mud, we think out front..and we

got mud on the carpet..the front tires have grooves in them..so

he was all interested in mud..I don't think hes ever smelled that

before lol.. he is still sticking to me like glue.. now..how could I

go to the ER knowing these 2 little guys were here all by them

selves just worried sick what was going to happen to them now.

This kinda stuff affects animals the same as kids, if one of the

parents leave.. so.. they is my kids ya know lol..but I am gonna

be ok.. not to worry, I will get lots of bedrest for a while ..well

maybe not BED rest..how about DESK rest? lol..

I didn't mention a biggie on last nites blog that did stop another

stressie.. guess what? Lewis came..with another guy named

Warren..and yup..put in that other window..they had to rig it to

fit , and I asked Lewis.."ohoh, don't tell me they ordered the

wrong size and it will be another month?" He winked at me,

said "don't you worry, we will get it fixed just fine" and they did.

looks great. only thing is they left that stinkin screen down. I

asked him to please take the rubbish from the porch tho this

time and he apologized for not taking it last time, but had

planned to come back the next day and I asked what happened

he said they put him on something else.. Warren said he only

works 2 days a week..and 80 houses? wow..lots of maintence.

I did point out to Lewis about the toilet tho..that it doesn't stop

running most of the time and I didn't hear- it ran all night..He

said probly was the float..but I pointed out the fact that the bowl

was cracked in 2 places and the floor was rotten. And I laughed

when I told him I didn't wanna have my butt sittin down in the

basement when it crashed thru the floor cuz then I would really

be in trouble..he laughed too. I bet he was picturing me going

thru the floor riding that potty :-D.

Well.. I saw my duty, and I dood it and I am keepin my promise

and gonna get some bedrest.. I had a desk rest earlier when

Penny left..she did move the bed..she was so worried bless

her heart ..she kept saying "are you sure your ok?" I bet a

dozen times..shes a sweetie.. so its that time.."Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..thanks and don't

worry all is well at the GORGEOUS WEEBLES' HOUSE..:-D

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Her Opinion~

I was looking up the phone number to my favorite restaurant

today and there was a comment..well a review of it that some

person name Theresa had posted about the Oasis here in

town.. I have to admit.. I had to join this book place called

Judy's book to be able to comment on this Theresa's book.

I tried to be very nice..but I was so upset with her biased

comment.. She said the food was so so and rather costly

and said the service was AWFUL, that she had to BEG

for a coffee refil and complained about the smoke.. Well..

you know me.. I had to write and give my 2 cents and tell

her I thought she had overlooked ONE very good point

about my favorite place.. that it is TOTALLY wheel chair

accessible, she made NO mention of that fact..

I found the food wonderful..the staff was 4 star, very very attentive

and I never had to beg or even ask for coffee the waiter was

always asking me.. the food, is fairly priced cheaper than the

place I will NEVER go into again..APPLEBEES.. The Oasis

is very open and the last time I was there I saw 2 other people in

there in chairs.. its very open and easy to navigate and even

the bathroom was great.. This THeresa made NO mention of

that fact at all. Perhaps her not being in a chair she doesn't think

of looking at that fact..I hope she does NOW!! I think that is the

problem with a lot of people they are not around chair people

and don't KNOW..

I went to Applebees..and waited for the girl to come and show us

to a table..they led us along the UPPER level..to a far corner by

the door in and out of the kitchen.. far from view from anyone..
EVery time someone came out of the kitchen, naturally carrying

a tray of food..or plates of it.. the door would swing open and hit

my chair every time till I was ready to scream. I did NOT enjoy my

VERY expensive food, in fact I don't remember what I ate, I was

so upset that I insisted that we leave. I told the girl when she came

to bring the check how I felt about where they sat me..she asked

why I did not complain sooner when I was put there.. well I was

informed THAT was the only place they had that could fit a chair..

I will NEVER go back to APPLEBEEs and I hope the owner or

whomever does a survey of their place and make it better for some

one like us.. and KEEP that table open so only chair people can

sit there.. that's a lot of the problem of these places..they find ONE

spot a chair will fit..but if they get crowed well anyone can sit there,

they have smoking sections..why not wheelchair tables?

Raelynn and I went in her sisters' KIA..its a high off the ground car

well suv I think, and I had to be up on a curb to be able to use my

board to get into it and slide across its so high up off the ground..we

drove ..well she did all the way to Sturgis about 35 miles to go to

Wal Mart, we got there and there was NO where for me to get back

into the KIA.. I made sure of that before I got out.. we cruised along

the whole front of that huge place and the whole doorway was flat

with the ground.. Not everyone has a ramp or a low car, so I had

no way of getting back in the KIA, so I wasn't getting out..and the

closest place to where there was a curb was about a block away,

well I would have had to roll across a road and half the parking lot

to get into that store..you KNOW what I did.. we left..If I had legs I

wouldn't walk that far even to be able to shop at Wal Mart..We

came back here and went to Meijers they have a curb..

Its the same tomorrow.. I have to be at my Dr at 10 am .. when I

roll into that small waiting room they have NO place for a chair

either so I sit in there in the way of everyone and steady have to

move the more people come in. That makes me SO MAD.. I

go even over to the lab at the hospital to get blood work done..

same thing.. they have NO places for a chair.. I roll in and they

have to rearrange it to find a spot for me to sit and wait or I let

them know and get huffy and then I get taken right away I think

just to shut me up..

This is what I mean.. people with no contact or even those with,

like my Dr. they don't THINK of this stuff.. and a Dr? or a hospital?

now .. that is just not acceptable.. and then I get asked WHY don't

you go out Lois..go get some fresh air.. I did manage to get into

a wal mart when I was in a lower car..and I got stuck in their aisles

so bad I had to move the whole shelf thingie to be able to move

around.. This is a major issue and I KNOW I am not the only one

that has encountered this..

I left a comment on this Theresa's Book thru a place called Judy's

book.. I had to join it..but I am deleting it as it seems a biased

commentary place as far as im concerned.. I plan to unjoin as

soon as I see a reply from this woman that made such severe

criticism on a great place.. No answer yet.. But I did send a link

to this blog and that is why I am writing about this tonite I hope

she reads this..and maybe she will realize there are MORE than

able bodied people out there. She mentioned also about the

cigarette smoke.. I used to smoke..alot..I don't anymore but if

someone has a problem with smelling smoke then avoid the

place and don't go.. until all this stuff started about it no one paid

any attention to the smoke smell or what ever anyway.sit farther

away from that section then..that's my opinion anyway..

Ive been stewing about this all day and I sure got into a snit about

it. Tomorrow is soon approaching and the closer it gets the...

well attitude I am getting about being FORCED to go to the Dr.

I don't like being FORCED to do anything. but If I don't go then

this new Dr wont say I am still disabled and need a power chair

that runs.. Kim at Wright Filippis said he has to approve it and

HAS to see me..I bet my insurance loves having to pay for a

Dr visit because even though I have gone to that office for 5

years now..they still have to see my legs havent grown back..It

amazes me what I have to go thru.. I plan to not be very nice

when I do get there and plan to state my opinion about it .. why

did no one tell me this 4, 5 months ago?

Well I guess I can get down off this soapbox and I hope that little

lady reads this, I hope they all do.. I don't recommend a place

bad or good until I consider it all..too bad all these places don't

take time to THINK.. I wonder how nervous those girls are over

at my Dr's knowing Im coming there tomorrow no matter what.

Its very early posting tonite for me again but I have to go and

lay it down and get some rest. I know this is the only thing that

will help relieve this stress from me.. My boys are already in

there.. I wonder if they can read my mind? I wouldn't be a bit

surprised. lol.. time to say again "nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~No Call Day~ :-)

Today is Presidents Day, and places are closed here. This

is my excuse for no calling today and sure has made my day

go better.. I woke up at 3am..and my first thought even before

my daily body scan, was "what time is it, who do I have to call

today?" And I was wide awake.. After I got up and really WAS

wide awake I read some mail and of course comments here

always first that I read..but then I got a mail saying today was

Presidents Day, well Yippee! I am using THAT excuse NOT

to make any calls today and gives me 1 more day of reprieve

before starting the phone cycle again..A day with out phone

calls to these places and no mail to get any bills? works for

me real well..:-)

Penny came today and we got de-haired lol.. she got out the

Beast..my big huge black vacuum cleaner and did the boys

chair..the couch, carpet, and looks so nice.. That vacuum

is NOT the easiest to push its not self propelled..its a pusher

thyselfer :-) I have a hard hard time using it..it pushes me! I

have to make sure I lock down before I make that first push

away from me..or I move..not the vacuum it stays in one place.

So each time I go to move it even just a little in either direction

I have to go thru unlock, move, lock..sweep, unlock move,

sweep..until I get the floor done.so you see why it takes

me so long to do a room..and why I call it the beast..The boys

hate it and hide the whole time its out.. I think the sound of the

motor hurts their ears..cats ears are very sensitive to noise..

they are as good a watchdog as a dog. I know when someone

is even NEAR my door.. I knew over at the apt when someone

entered the building because they stare at the door..they know.

Not a whole lot did I do today but work on a story .. I would love

to write a book or take all the stories I already have and put

them into one..be nice to write one and then sell it.. THAT

would be so great..not only being published and accepted as

a real writer but to possibly even get money for it? now how

good is that? I would love it.. I do enjoy writing and have been

told for years, since I was young..and had penpals..or wrote

to family, I got compliments on what I wrote to them.. I like to

try to describe how I feel and what I want to convey so the

one that is reading can feel or smell..or even hear what I did

or saw or felt myself, so they know too.. . My stories have

always seemed to be very well liked.. and many of them are

here..lol.. And what is surprising.. Is I really DONT like to

read..books etc.. I never really have.. I feel it sways what I

write and I don't want that to happen..not counting the fact I

am blind in my left eye and cant hardly see out of the other

anymore and long times spent reading give me a head

ache.. :-D

I have decided I damaged my camera..only logical thing I

could have done since the spare card I had, did have photos

on it I took and that didn't work either.so I fear that something

got damaged inside so that the photos are in the camera

but not transferring onto the cards for some reason.. and I

don't honestly think its fixable.. I hate so bad this happened,

I was having the best time being able to go away from my

computer and take photos, and plus the fact it was a gift

which made it special and now its not working .. makes me

most upset. Good thing my cam still takes photos..although

I am finding out that it wont work on yahoo anymore or any

of the other chat places.. which I never used it that much any

way on there..but still was nice when it did.. Yahoo is mad

at me since I wont upgrade. Im not real keen or one of yahoos

greatest fans anyway.. Its a subject best not to discuss lol..

Many disagree with me on my views of Yahoo Groups.. I

don't like them at all..but that's me..

Sunny day today and our almost 2 feet of snow is going..

Where Robert cleared off the grass for the mail man and

the path along side the house you can see the grass

between the snow piled a foot deep on each side of it..

I do enjoy the winter..but I love all the seasons.. I think

that's the main reason I left Texas to move back up here

to Indiana..I missed the changing seasons. Texas, well

Houston/Pasadena, was very good to me..I had a lovely

home, excellent job..friends..even a hubby then.. but well

I guess that old saying "theres no place like home" and

Indiana was a lot closer to home with its changing seasons

even though HOME was Upper Michigan..and always

will be to me..

They brought a frozen lunch for dinner for today and well I

had NO idea what on earth it was and did NOT keep it..

I had forgotten today was a holiday and no banks on Friday

so I had no cash to get a lunch. I was so sick of soup or a

baked potato I was ready even for just a burger..Penny

had some extra cash and offered to buy lunch for us, and

went and got us a fish sandwich and fries and of course a

slushy/icee that I LOVE from Burger King..was ok..not too

bad.. only problem was after I ate and having gotten up

at 3 am, well I was almost down for the count for a while ..

I didn't take a nap though..so its early log off for me ..

and that means time to say "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one , Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~I'm NOT A Bed Mover~

I made a big booboo last nite again.. I logged off soon as I

posted and decided I needed to move my bed closer to the

wall since my pillows kept falling down off the bed..When I lay

on my back all the time..I wake up quite often, my hips or my

stumps will really start to ache..if I don't move them to another

position the ache and sometimes even pain wont stop.. So

when I scooch around on my bed to find a comfy position I

push on my pillows, then they get stuffed down on the side

between the wall and the bed and I end up with nothing under

my head..and that wakes me up lol..

When I got up to my bed last nite, even though I was tired as

all get out, I thought about those pillows and having to fight

with them all night ..I have enough with the boy still chasing

shadows.. at least hes moved THAT into the bathroom for

a while.. he found a interesting spot on the wall but keeps

knocking my wreath down to get at it..at least keeps him out

of the bedroom and I can sleep better..well longer at a time

would be better to say :-) but now the problem is the bed is

too far from the wall..I pulled up to the bed..and locked down

of course..and reached down to sort of lift and push the bed

up closer.. I felt this kinda 'twinge'? between my angel wings

as I call them lol.. and it really hurt.. I sat back up ..needless

to say I did NOT move the bed 1 inch even..and noticed that

it really did hurt.. I gave up on moving the bed..and crawled

up on it.. laid there for a while and boy ..I mean hurt? ya..it

did a lot.. I had to keep changing positions most of the night

and I hardly slept at all but I didn't get up..

I found a fairly good position on my right side..and if I put

the pillows just right between my stumps Its kinda ok for a

little while..and it seemed to help my back some too..When

I got up this morning the ache is still there and if I move a

certain way, or to reach something Ive dropped I can feel

it back there.. If I had my power chair I could have probly

pushed that bed through the wall . I bet I could have with that

mutant thing they sent me to use lol..I don't know if Penny

can move it tomorrow either shes so tiny im afraid to let

her try.. I think if my brake would have held better I maybe

could have pushed it..but I had nothing to brace against

to push it last nite..

It being Sunday and photo day I took a few and decided I

liked the one up top better and then saw the next one and

didn't know which one I liked.. Dutch is in both..but the 2nd

one if you look at him..do you see what hes doing? yup..

looking up at shadows on the wall, also note..hes laying on

Kitty.. he is as bad as LB with her, I have 2 of the strangest

cats..they have BOTH been neutered...yet the still 'diddle'

these stuffed ones.. they have NO class..and do that in front

of me!! LB makes sure he does..but he drags his friend all

over..Dutch doesn't or cant..Kitty is big..bigger than him..

I hope you KNOW what I mean by 'DIDDLE', cuz I am NOT

going there :-D lol.. and DONT look at the crooked lamp
shade either lol..Dutch did it :-D

I kinda dread tomorrow..phone calls again..just the thought

makes my head hurt. lol.. But I have to do it.. I hope the

weather stays ok..and we don't get any snow for when I

have to go to the Dr on Wednesday.. If I have to cancel one

more time I will be most upset, I have to see the Dr or NO

chair..at this point let me tell you all this time 6 months now

to get this new chair.. I am SO ready to tell them where they

can take that chair and put it.. I am.. its getting very old..

I havent eaten today and with all this my appetite has gone

down the tubes. I look at my photos tho and don't see a

skinny weeble there.. a GORGEOUS one ..yes.. lol..I say

skinny and as soon as I post this Im going to go and make

a baked potato . I love those things..not sure if I want butter

or gravy on it though lol..decisions decisions. :-) I wish all I

had to do was just decide what I want to eat lol. its that time

again for this GORGEOUS WEEBLE to roll into the kitchen..

Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~All Clear~

The sidewalk in front of my house is clear, the ramp and there is a path along side the house going to the driveway thanks to Robert from the COA.. People named Robert just seem to be the sweetest people.. I heard the snow blower and lifted the towel off the window to see him going by below.. I was surprised to see was him.. I was told that he had a slight heart attack and couldn't do this anymore and is why his girlfriend Mildred and her son were coming to do it.. He knocked on the door when he was finished and he came in and we sat and talked for a while..hes very nice.. I sincerely apologized for not having any cash here but I don't keep any here very often only when Penny brings me change. He assured me that was no problem and that was NOT the reason he did this for me.. I looked out and he did a great job.. I asked him about what happened and he said he was not supposed to be doing this..but he is not doing anything but guiding the snow blower and not pushing..and he just pulls it down a ramp hes fixed on the back of his van.. His words were "Im not dead..and Im not gonna just sit around, If the Lord wants me..well he woulda taken me. Im careful. but I aint stoppin" I told him "I know what you mean" he looked at me, smiled and the comment .."yes, I know you do, you are doing quite well".. But that's how it is.. we both agreed..if our eyes open in the morning ..thank GOD..if they don't..you will be with Him ..so either way you win.. and he , like me, we arent going to just sit and wait..but keep on doing and going on.. He is doing good though but said his Dr called the DMV and had his drivers license suspended because he passed out while he was driving. I did not know they could do this.. I guess they can..the stinker is still driving..he says, they can just give him a ticket then and he will still keep on driving.. And that is my same feelings.. you just have to keep on for as long as you can and do the BEST that you can..Passing out while your driving is NOT a good thing..but he said he felt it coming and stopped the van..and wasn't out but for a few seconds..said hes very cautious..I hope so. I laffed and told him to let me know when hes on the road and I wont be.. we both laughed but it is a serious thing..it was nice to sit and visit with him for that little while..I enjoyed that. so did the boys..they just didn't understand the wet boots..LB put his little foot on it..felt the wet..shook it, looked like "ICK" and walked away ..Dutch he was all over it had to check out that wet cold thing hes so nosey ..Penny caught him in the potato bin..lol..he climbed through the other side when she was checking his cat food for me, when she wasnt looking..lucky she heard him diggin or he may have been stuck in there like he was the other night under the kitchen sink..he can get in ..but not OUT..stinker..lol.. The snow has steadily come down all day and I bet we have maybe 13,14 inches out there I will watch the weather and see what it says..but the roads are clear and kinda slushy but I think that's from the sand and salt they put on.. the sun hasnt really been out at all.. I dropped my new digital camera by accident trying to take it into the bathroom to take some photos of the new curtain and now when I take pictures and load the card into my 3 in 1 it says no images on the card.. I fear I may have damaged the camera.. I have the manual and have tried to find a trouble shooters thing but it doesn't say anything about if your stupid enough to drop the camera that it will not down load the photos onto the card..lol..I think that's the problem its not with my 3/1.. as it worked before.. I didn't really DROP the camera.. I had it next to me. I have no lap now remember..and I was going a TAD..fast..and I ran into the door facing. I had a pink silk skirt on..so when I hit the door I stopped but the camera kept going and I couldn't grab it before it hit the floor with out falling out myself.. I never reach with out holding on.. I learned THAT a long time ago.. lol. I fear when it fell that something got damaged.. I know..I am such a speed racer..I forget and just go to fast forgetting I only have just enough room for tires..not even my hands.. I have to hold on to the sides of the door frame and pull or push through .. or I will knock the bark off my hands. I KNOW lol..why I have digger marks on the backs of my hands lol.. All is well over at the kids with the dog and the snow boots.. Donnie will learn and he says the dog doesn't lolol but he gets so upset when Jerky doesn't mind. I had to remind him dogs..and cats..are like kids..and no matter what ya gotta love em.. never hit an animal with your hands.. hands are for loving and making things better..how can you feed and love with some thing that will hurt you so badly? no..I am a firm believer in DO NOT HIT, ever.. for any reason..I have a temper..a bad one im told..but I never hit..hell I don't wanna get hit or bit back!! lol..geez..I told Donnie..that dog wont forget..you might need him one day and hes just gonna smile and say"say..remember that time I ate your boot?" food for thought lol.. Food time at the Weeble house..we is plowed. and clear we is clean ..and got food..little drafty but..not bad.. I still am pretty tired to day tho..and Not done a whole lot other than some mail, and im gonna eat, treat the boys, and go and watch TV. Saturday nite? hmm ohh COPS is on..I got up early, so I dunno I may find that eyes shut button before that lol.. Nitey Nite..:-) Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya. and thanks :-) Always, Lois **** God Bless you is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe until I write again..

~I Got A Ride~

I went to bed as soon as I posted last nite and as this day

has progressed I have steadily gotten more tired.. I think this

is just the way my body tells me to slow down. I wish I had

a lap top then I could stay in there on days like this.. I only

had to make one call today, no, I had others, but didn't make

them. I had to call COA and make arrangements for a ride

next week..only took calling every day this week to get any

sort of response to booking a ride to the Dr next week. I

was told that I have to have my sidewalk shoveled, well

cleared off, if I don't the city will give me a ticket for not

shoveling it.. Mildred from COA and her son volunteered

to come tomorrow and do it for me.Sure is nice of them.

Sad part is I don't have any cash to give them for doing

it, which she said isnt necessary but still its worth it to

me to get it done.. I didn't know I would need any when

Penny was here and she could have gone to the bank.

I did get a ride set up however for my appointment next

Wednesday .

Penny put up my new shower curtain today and she and I,

did some re arranging in the bathroom and it sure is looking

nice..that ugly old gold shower curtain is gone and this new

white flowered one looks so very nice in there and sure

makes a big difference. I have a wreath on the wall in there

that Dutch KNOWS there is a white spot where they didn't

paint under a towel holder and I put a screw back into it,

Dutch saw it when I fixed the flowers he had pulled out of

it and I bet Ive hung that wreath back up every time Ive

had to go in there, and after eating McDonald's, well you

know then how many trips I have made in there lol.

We were lucky and didn't get all that extra snow they said

we would, which I know many are glad. We do have a lot

out there but not what they got a bit North of us. My sis

phoned said they have quite a bit, probly about the same

as us.. ITs really cold out today and I can feel the draft from

this west window that still needs replaced.. I did call and

ask Chris what the status is on the new one..but of course

I did not hear back from him as usual.. I think if someone

did call me back when they say they will I would probly

stroke out! lol..

This isnt long tonite as I really am tired and going to get

a bottle of water and a piece of string..get up on my bed

and play with my boys for a while..they enjoy that. I did get

to watch one of my favorite shows though last nite..Grays

Anatomy ..great show.. I like it and I did get to watch the

whole thing before I found that eyes shut button.. I must have

found it later cuz I know i was watching ER and when I looked

again I was watching something else.. I found that if Iay just

right I can sleep for a few hours on my side which sure is a

nice change from always on my back.. I think if I get a new

bed with a better matress will make a big difference too. I

KNOW a good back massage would do wonders for me..

Ive had volunteers offer but i haven had any knocks on my

door YET lol..

Time to close this and find that string as my boy is up here

on my desk in front of me and the keyboard and I have to

look around his fuzzy butt to see the monitor and what I am

typing lol.. I think hes trying to tell me something.. If he starts

to type I would NOT be surprised considering some of the

things Dutch does.. All LB does is peek over the side of the

chair every so often to see whats going on..gets up does

a few circles and lays back down..lol.. and laying down is just

what I am going to do.. Nitey Nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? love ya and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..

~Stress Is NOT a Good Thing~

I got up at 4:45 this morning, no nap and guess what? Im

kinda tired.. I have to say I didn't get anything but great phone

calls today and I was pleased to get them, one from a very

dear friend I have known for a long time..and hadnt heard

from in over a month now..and needless to say I told them

"HEY, more often ya know, don't hurt!" They have been so

busy working and always something to do. Was so good to

hear from them. I havent heard from any of my stress related

people tho and quite frankly.. I AM SO GLAD!!! :-)

I watched a TV show by accident - as I was scanning the

channels- before I found they eyes shut button, which was

Larry King..he had a show on last nite that quite frankly kinda

scared me. 5 doctors, all talking about heart disease and

problems, and how women are often misdiagnosed for some

heart problems etc. The main issue and cause of so many

heart and circulation problems.. is ???? STRESS.. That show

honestly scared me.. and gave me some serious pause for

thought.. I try to tell everyone.. If I only had ONE stress problem

I could handle it..but for me..well..to list them? my house, not

done, my chair, not here, my bathroom safety things, not here,

my floor, not done, my hands going from bad to worse,, the

bills.. all of these, the stress sometimes is so unbearable that

I just want to tear my face off and be someone else..

I try to express to all these different places and people THEY

are not the only stress givers I have that I have to face every

day, I wake in the morning and after I do my morning body scan

as I call it to see how I really feel, like what grotesque position

my invisible legs and feet are in, or how do they feel then, are

they tight, swollen, still asleep. Then as I start to move to get in

to my chair is when I start to think of all the phone calls I will have

to make that day and what kind of excuses am I going to get to

delay all this even longer, and I almost hesitate..how BADLY did

I really want to get up..and face all that again that day..or do I

want to stay back and every time my phone rings cringe thinking

of what kind of lame excuse I am going to get..and what stress

level will I reach that day... I have some days just sat and almost

scream at the excuses and the total lack of help I get and NO one

seems to really understand ..and they don't ask..or think that well

maybe this lady has lots of other stress related things going on so

lets get this done.. Like my Dr he HAS to see me before they will

approve a new chair for me.. well to save ME from having to go

thru all the hastle of going there, he goes right past my house I

bet 2 times a day at least..and I offered to be outside on the ramp

so he could see me, to get this chair stuff moving sooner..not wait

till next week now because Ive had to cancel this appointment due

to all this snow.. But he could see that my legs havent grown back,

but its the paperwork that this Dr cant take any chances..yet Ive

been going to the clinic for 5 years..ALL this is stress..and that

show last nite..well I hope they all watched it..and thought "hmmm

you know that GORGEOUS WEEBLE may have other stress

related things going on so why don't we give her a break and try

to help solve her problems..and they don't..

I worry with all this stress that is a major issue for me..and I KNOW

for a lot of people in the same boat as me..Stress can KILL..and

well. I don't want that to happen to me.. I have to have some relief

one way or the other before this does put me down and I DO become

a burden and cannot live alone anymore..and take care of myself

as much as I do. I don't want to give that up because people

have stressed me out so badly that I do stroke out here.. I have

thought and thought of ways to solve this. many say..be persistent

peck away keep at them..the squeaky wheel gets the grease..well

this wheel's been squeakin for way to long..and I am just going to

have to make other arrangements to get rid of all the STRESS that

according to that show last nite not only CAN..but WILL kill me..

well I am not going to sit here like a sitting duck.no way. I will make

other arrangements.. Some say you have come so far don't give

up now Lois. but.if it means a stroke or heart attack? hey- color me

gone .. I want out..and I wont abuse myself any more.. I cant..like I

said I wish everyone involved with my problems has seen that show

last nite..scared me..and this GORGEOUS WEEBLE is going to-

well HAS to make some changes..I guess the old phrase "sink or

swim" comes to mind..

ANYWAY.. lol. I have been sleeping on my side..I found a fairly

good position I can get into and sleep quite well..Ive been sleeping

on my back now since 2000..and well I sleep sitting up too.. I can

take a nap here at my desk , grab a pillow off the couch, put it in

front of me ..lean forward, of course, LOCK the break lol..and I

have slept for hours.. But I got used to sleeping that way in the hell

home it was easier to breathe. I do that now as just a different way

to get some sleep. I pull one of my pillows and if I put it between my

stumps just right it keeps my left elevated a bit so the pressure of

a downward pull from the length on my hip I can sleep pretty

good for a few hours until my right hip bothers me.. I do think tho

that I do need a better bed..and that may help. I don't think I sleep

for any longer than maybe 2 or 3 hours with out waking up, and

of course, looking at the time.. lol.but I go back to sleep..now if

I wake up for a potty call, well I could and a lot of times just stay

up if I know I can get a nap in, and some days I have NO choice

but to take a nap, I know this when Im typing with my forehead lol

I am tired as I was up late watching that show..but it was really

good and did scare me.. but I am kinda glad I saw it as it showed

me more or less what I have to do..and that's get rid of the STRESS.

which I honestly have NO choice but to do.. Right now? my stress

level is down as I got no calls today- I will not make any tomorrow

or I will stew and worry for 2 days that I wouldn't be able to find out

anything.But I am really tired..and soon as I hit that publish thingie

this GORGEOUS WEEBLE is gonna get a tea and go to bed and

try to watch some tv.its early but not really for me .been a long day

but I will say a very good one. I had some great conversation today

and Penny was here too. Oh.. some dear hearted soul, I have NO

idea who..plowed my driveway!!! Penny told me when she came in.

I don't know who..I kinda think Donnie sent someone I don't know

but I plan to call them when I finish this and find out maybe.. so

you know whats next.. "nitey nite".. :-)

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks hey? keep that

stress down.. its NOT a good thing..trust me..I KNOW lol. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..