The picture up there is of me when I was about..hmm 2 maybe? not sure..not long after I was adopted..If you look closely by my eye you can see a dark spot and see that it is shaped like a butterfly. I think its rather pretty, for a long time I didnt- but that day my dad told me why I had it I accepted it better..the link to that story is over on the right over there- says My Stories.. But growing up with that was not easy..Kids are very honest and to the point. I was Very self conscious since I can remember, to when I remember the very first things..Which is hard to say what I remember myself and what I was told.. I do know I remember kindergarten..that was awful I had to sit next to a boy that used to pull my hair and make me yell and I would get in trouble.I Know thats my memory lol...When you grow up with any kind of stigmatism..or something out of the ordinary I think it makes you able to withstand looks and the likes. I am not saying that you ever get to like it..but you know that people are going to stare at you..Perhaps that is why I am so outspoken I might as well be I stick out anyway..and NOW? well fooey I stick out like a sore thumb now no matter where I go..So maybe me starting out with this birthmark..was a way to start the wheels turning so to speak :-) Talk about a rainy, gloomy day today ..wow..I mean I KNOW when the weather is going to change..these 2 stumps sure let me know..My right hand isnt very far behind either it lets me know as well..I dont mind rainy days as the rain hitting the air vent in the bath room I can hear and its like rain on a tin roof that sound can make you so relaxed..Rainy days are like snow days you get to stay in and just do stuff or not do nuthin at all except be lazy.. I phoned Donnie a bit ago and hes not well..sinus..hes miserable. they act up on him alot, Ive never had that but I guess its almost like that cold I had a while back..I still have NOT gotten rid of that cough..Neither has Raelynn.. I was trying to think of a way to take the slipperyness off that chrome part in front of my chair that I hold on to when I move back and forth , it is so slippery..Its why I slip so much I think..I found 2 things on the back of my chair last nite.. I had reached around to see if Dutch's string was caught on the back of my chair and there are 2 things back there that are so sharp it cut my finger when I touched it..I got out of my chair and looked and it seems they used 2 of those zip ties to anchor down the sides of the back of my chair and cut them off..they are hard plastic and left a VERY sharp spot back there..If one of the boys hit that they could get seriously cut.. I did my finger with just a light touch on it..I will have to have that checked as well..Oh they didnt come to fix my chair..this week they will let me know..Now you see why it took 8 months to get this chair from them.. They dont have a very good reputation..but none of these medical supply places do.they know there arent that many that our insurances will approve.. *sigh* joys of chair life..what can I say? lol.. . I do know what to say :-) its time to eat..I didnt all day today I didnt know what I wanted I was going to make barbecue but I didnt have any bread or rolls and well you have to have that for bbq..well manwich is what its called its pretty good...I like it. but I dont know what I want so I know what will happen I will open the freezer and sit and stare at it for 10 minutes trying to decide what I wanted and which was faster to fix lol..I know but thats the joys of single life..I can eat what I want when I want and HOW i want lol..and I want..but I JUST dont KNOW WHAT lol..decisions decisions..i'll ask Dutch, he will know, and hes already headed that way ..I think he can read..:-) knows Im almost done here... Nitey Nite Y'all have a good one now Y'hear ? Luv ya & thanks !!.. ALways, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~BUTT~

I have a tender butt lol..Its amazing, I cannot sit on any kind of a wrinkle for very long. Like that nursery rhyme of the princess and the pea. And I know thats gotta be true~!~ Sometimes I can sit on the smallest thing, even a crumb and if its under my butt or my stumps I can Feel every bit of it..like its HUGE ! I can think I am sitting on something massive and then feel and its the smallest thing, like a seed or anything.. When I eat sometimes I drop some crumbies and they get down underneath...and I can really tell..Even my chair if the seat some times wrinkles...I am just so touchy lol, but it is true. Its the same as when you get something under your dental plate..can be just a tiny tiny seed..and feel like a huge rock and really hurt! Maybe I need some butt toughening exercises, I can JUST picture THAT now :-) I give myself the worst mind images lol... Someone asked me about my hands since I mentioned the other nite that the fingertips were acting up..and kinda dark..Sometimes they tingle and even go numb.. I think, myself, its a combin- ation of both,, the PVD, and the carpal tunnel.. that is the cause. mostly the PVD. I am keeping a close eye on them..I have woke up sometimes with my hand so cold I could just scream, and it seems to take for ever to warm up, there hasnt been a change in them in awhile.. i watch them and time will tell . . Ive been playing with fonts and I havent quite decided which I like as I cant tell how many words I can type before this weblog thingie will go to the next line lol..I type out my posts in my email and then I copy and paste and bring them here..That way my spell checker will find SOME of my errors that I seem to do lol. I HAVE to keep Raife on his toes or he would get bored, he likes finding all the grammatical errors i make..lol..like the small i's or no capitol letters..well we all have our own style- I think mine is Lazy :-) well.... if I happen to hit the shift key when i need to make a capitol letter or what ever sometimes I do and sometimes I dont.. lol..Like I said, i have to keep Raife busy lol.. And Robert he's testing me on my french..lol...I had that in high school, I had the hardest time with it..my Aunt taught it and I could NOT be stupid..I did not like having my Aunt teach me as I didnt know what to call her.. Mrs Wales or Aunt Gladys LOL I did slip once and call her Auntie lol she just smiled but I saw some of the snickery looks some of the other kids made, I know they were thinking 'well SHE will pass THIS class for sure'- ya right.. I HAD to be VERY good or I would NEVER live that down if I had flunked my Aunts French class ..ohhh no no.. I had NO choice but to really do good..but I did get the chance to ask questions when the family got together if I didnt understand stuff and the Le or La in french got to me I never knew what to use lol..I can read it better than write it.- ok-ok- Robert..Im not real good at reading it either LOL.. I will say it for you haha.In case you dont read the comments Raife and Robert are 2 of my commentors..lol... Well however you say it..I need FOOD..was a lazy day today I didnt hear from anyone..not my sis or Donnie..I know hes busy with his garage..and I think my sis is just resting shes had it pretty hectic lately and she had to go to her daughters wedding yesterday so she needs today probably to shop, or at least rest a bit. I have some good pea soup out there and club crackers that just sound really good..So I think I shall roll out there and fix me some grub ...nitey nite.. ohhh-- no messy reports can you believe it? lol... Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya, & thanks!! Always, Lois**** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~Tellin on Myself~

You know I ought not to tell this on myself but I will..lol

what the heck I tell you everything all ready :-) But I

love email and I use Incredimail..a great program and its

free too.. There is so much you can do with it..Put in

music and graphics.. animations, all sorts of really neat

stuff. Well some people make stationery and you can get

on their list and they send it to you .. Well I got this great

animated stationery about Blue BIrds, and was listening to

some country music..and thought of a few people I knew

would like this song.. was by Daniel O'Donnell..great happy

song and I thought I would down load and send it in this

nice stationery ( stat )..

So the song is playing and I decide to go and look for this

stationery in the ...hmmm. wow- I bet 300 stats I have at

least.. now they are sorted..not the best , but its because I

have so many.. So Today anyway, I'm looking for this stat,

and realize the song ended and then thought.."hmm what

was I looking for?" I had TOTALLY forgot why I was clicking

thru all these stationerys.!..this is pitiful..in like 5 minutes I

forgot? LOL.. I KNOW..DUHHHH lol...

I wonder if my carotid artery is blocked? I'm not getting

enough blood to my brain ! lol.. bad bad.. :-D Sheesh, this

is getting not good lol, I joke about dancing with Heimer all

the time but I think he really got a hold on me here LOL...

I get up sometimes in the morning, and have to really stop

and think what day it is so I can keep track of when Raelynn

will be here lol.. I think its I'm not getting enough blood to my

head HAHAHA..that sounds good doesnt it? LOL works for

me lol..I KNOW I am NOT the only one this happens to now..

I think the wake up thing is if I am in a deep sleep..You know-,

very seldom do I remember my dreams? And..in my dreams,

I am always walking? I dont see myself..but I see thru as me,

what I am seeing..lol.. and quite a few times when I have

remembered dreams they were the same dream, many times

if I need to remember something .. like my brain is reviving

itself lol.. I know I have a built in alarm clock tho.. I never talk

about times to wake up in the morning the night before or

I will be up at least an hour, definitely a half hour of that time.

the next morning and I dont know why either lol..Strange hey?

I better quit telling on myself here or you say 'NO wonder this

woman can handle all that crap ! Shes NUTS !!!' HAHAHA...

I think maybe thats what a state of depression is tho...you

stay in goofy land as I called it..you were safe there..had dust

bunnies to run over and play with. people at the end of the

bed to talk to. lol..no that was scarey too when you open your

eyes and don't recognize anything around you or anyone..and

they look back as though 'are you ok?' its scary ..not at that

time, but later when I would remember it... I bet its all because

of this PVD the dancing I mean lol...

Well I think I am gonna try to remember my way out to the

kitchen..lunch was fish..that tasted so fishy I smelled it sealed

inside the package lol..Not my kinda fish..and I love fish, but

not this stuff. So my roast beef is out there and that luscious

cheese..some sauteed onions ...sounds good to me lol..

nitey nite..

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..& thanks!!!

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Inspiration~

I want you to know that I feel special..and guess why?

Because of all of you that read this little bit of my world..

You say such sweet, nice, encouraging things to me that

make me feel so good. You tell me I am a inspiration...I

feel so special, that is such a good feeling. This IS so not

easy to do, but I do what I have to. I told a friend of mine

today, my dearest friend Twinks..well- Jo..Bless her heart..

she is going thru so much and I dont know how to really

help her. I cant go there, there is not much I can do as far

as physical stuff..my ways to help are I guess by just being

here, ready to listen, give my 2 cents of course. All I can

do is offer a hand. help pick her up..like she does me-its

like riding a seesaw, we take turns being up and down...:-)

I got such cute comments today via email and posts here

about comparing ingredients to so many things..but it is true.

You put the wrong combination of them together, well you

could cause some damage, to yourself or whatever those

ingredients go into, you dont use the right stuff your in trouble.

I like the RIGHT stuff :-)

I have been working for 3 days on this check book of mine..

I wonder if I am the only person in the world that CANNOT

balance a check book? Fooey..with the dribble of money I

keep in that thing you would think I would have NO trouble

to balance..Well WRONG.. I have gone back to January now

and added, re-added and done everything except KISS this

checkbook to PLEASE balance..and think this thing will go

along? haha sure it has..Those poor women at the bank

KNOW my voice when I call I call so much!!! lol..Well living on

a very strict budget you have to be very careful..nothing can

go to a overdraft..they charge $35.oo at my bank if you get

a over draft notice..So I am VERY careful. I think its just I go

brain dead and that darn Heimer keeps asking me to dance

all the time..lol :-) i WILL get it to balance..just take time..lol..

I KNOW I am the only one that cant balance one. .lol...

I slept so bad last night that I went out finally and crawled

up on my couch and laid there..with the back it worked as a

good support for me.. My couch was my mothers..I did manage

to salvage it from my destroyed belongings.. I had it cleaned

real good, and this is THE most comfy couch ever made..the

cushions even after storage of 3 yrs are strong and still firm like

the first day she got it.. Its a good one... my mom got this..hmm

i bet 25 yrs ago..I should look it up she kept records of every

thing...I should do that..she knew every dime she spent...and

on what and when and where she got what ever it was...Stanley

every time he comes over (brother in law) lays on it and goes

instantly asleep..says "Lois, you dont have to leave me a thing

when you die but PLEASE, leave me this couch, its the most

comfortable one i have ever laid on" and its true..it is a good one.

I'm just not happy with the colors, and its like that velvet, velour

material and unless I wear silk I stick to it when I am on it..I can

get on the couch quite easily, Stan put blocks under each leg..

sure makes it nice for me..when I had a tv in the living room many

times i would sit on the couch just to get out of my chair..I started

to fall asleep doing that so I moved my tv into the bedroom I

figured I might as well already be in bed when I fall asleep..I

only go into the living room now and sit if I have company. It

did help my back though. I guess I will have to let Raelynn flip

the mattress for me ..I worry tho be too hard for her..I try

but smattress for me I worry tho be too hard for her..I tried ..but

i just couldnt do it..maybe ill wait till my sis comes on saturday

and ask stan..I just hate putting it all back together and stuff

THATS the hard part for me anyway lol...

Speaking of flippin..I have some great fresh roast beef and

THE most delicious swiss cheese that will make a really great

grilled sandwich that I have to have.. lunch? well lets not go there

today..I have NO idea what it was..smelled awful ..Dutch ran from

it, and I KNOW this sandwich will taste 1000 times better..I am

a good cook you know they used the right ingredients on me lol..

but you knew that ..cuz I'm just SO GORGEOUS ;-) I had to say

that lol...nitey nite..

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv Ya & thanks Bunches !!!

ALways, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Ingredients~

Everyday I talk about food I think, when I end my

post. I was noticing today as I chatted with a friend

that we talked alot about food. How we prepared

it and how the same thing could have different names

but everything had ingredients that made that dinner

what it was.

That got me to thinking of course..I DO that you know.

:-) AND it does NOT hurt lol. but, Everything - has

ingredients.... People..food, buildings, cars, animals,

all have things in them to make them what they are.

The better the ingredients the better the final

product wouldnt you say? The solid stable life with

love and caring makes a good person, fresh veggies

and meat, make a wonderful meal, solid wood, concrete

make a strong, safe building, good dependable motors

make great cars, animals, I think are made of love

and stamina, value of sticking together makes them

stronger. EVERYTHING has ingredients.

I think the ingredients in me that make me who and

what I am today were put into me without me even

knowing they were there, that through these years

different things have been added to make me what

I am now. The things that help me through this hard

part that, perhaps, is why I was sent down all the

roads I went on, to get to this place, so that I can

accept this new challenge. To do a total restart at

59 years old..and be a "revised" person in EVERY

way, well, I guess though those roads were hard

but, I made them, AND I'm riding now..this should

be easier, yes? :-) and I guess I did really GO the

way I was meant to go. And this really could be alot

harder, if I didnt have the right ingredients...

at least I think it would be..

My friend Cherry, bless her heart, her Mum is ill-

remember? and on our prayer list.. she said the nicest

thing and even sent the url to this blog to others..She

said I was an inspiration..wasnt that just sweet? It

sure made me feel good that I could help her a little bit,

take her mind off some of her worries for even for just

a little while. But it helped me too- while I was thinking

about her...and her Mum...I wasnt thinking about ME. :-)

and all my problems. We really helped each other...

Well back to the subject of food lol. ahhh y'all knew I

would get back to it. Lunch wasnt too bad, beef and

noodles, mashed potatoes and broccoli, and pears for

desert, not too bad..I ate some of it, but I need a

desert..I did eat the pears..Once in awhile I like to have

fruit..I just never considered fruit a desert, so I will

go and find some of those raspberry cookies I know are

there. :-) they are just waiting for me...:-) nitey nite..

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya and Thanks!!!

ALways, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Things You Find~

I was cleaning out the drawer in the bathroom vanity
this morning and found the lidocaine and the other
solution they used to numb my left stump- when I had
that raging infection., I thought I had thrown them
away. I saw the date on them said 7-03-02... seems
like a century ago.But then on the other hand..seems l
ike only yesterday,I dont know why the memory of
pain seems to stay with you and something you just
cant seem to forget.I had 2 kinds of numby meds that
had to be injected which was not fun either. I hate
needles...3 years not seeing those things...but..
to see them again..I remember.

The nurse came 3 times a week, monday, wednesday

and fridays.. When I would wake up on those days

I would watch the clock and get more and more upset

knowing what was coming..specially on the days when

my stump wasnt hurting too bad..I dreaded the time.

By the time the nurse got here I was already a

basket case and upset knowing what was ahead.. I

knew the pain med would numb it, but in a few hours

I knew the pain would be even worse once it wore

off, because of touching and doing the dressing

change. There was no sleeping, eating, nothing, just

sitting and crying every day, wishing the pain would

go away just for a little while..

Its amazing how it did finally heal..I fired everyone

I just could NOT take any more.. I said I would take

care of it myself..And I did..just plain soap and water

gently over it..dressings every day..and that buggar

finally healed I think the day I looked and saw that

there was no hole there I cried again..realizing that

the pain was so much less. Hell of a time I'll tell ya..

But guess what??? I MADE IT~!~ lol :-)

My usual case worker, Becky, couldnt make it today
so another lady came named Diane..a sweetie. Very
understanding. I told her the circumstances about my
hours etc, and she is going to raise them.. I told her
RaeLynn just doesnt have time to do it all..but I said
right out I need more hours,she said "ill take care of
that as soon as I get back to the office" so hopefully

ill have more hours to give Rae, I think she will be
pleased, hope so.they will let me know. I told Diane I
don't mean to be a whiner, but I really could use more
time to have a little more done, she assured me I was
NOT a whiner that I was doing ok. Made me feel better,
I do really TRY,but sometimes I just cant quite do it. I
showed her the tips of my fingers that they seem to be
getting dark and that they tingle quite a bit- the more
I have to use my arms..the faster this moves. Hard to
explain...But they are dark, sometimes feel numb. Im
watching them closely.Thats all I would need is to lose
fingers! sheesh - HOW would I TYPE?? ohoh. they
have voice activated ones I think.I saw Ron type and
he had no hands..so its possible.

Got some groceries today, RaeLynn went shopping for

me, I didn't get junk food either..well..ok maybe a

couple snacky things..cookies..n stuff..ok ok and a

pizza lol..Raelynn picked up a couple burgers for us

for lunch I showed her what they brought and she didnt

know what it was either, so 3 guesses where it ended

up lol..Well, Im headed to get a soda and get off this

butt of mine for the day...Ive been up since 4:30 and

I am kinda pooped....Too pooped to pop as they say lol

My popper is pooped lol :-) boy, I must be tired lol..

Nitey Nite...:-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya..& thanks..

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~I Forgot How To Write!~

Today I decided I would write a letter to my cousin

June..She is the Elder of the family at 83. Still takes

care of herself..strong woman and a sweet woman that

I have had a special place in my heart for always..She

even used to tell me that I wrote lovely warm letters

and she loved when I wrote to her..I Tried to today. I

did..I got paper, pen and a envelope I was going to write.

Do you know by the time I finished the first paragraph

my hand was cramping and the pen fell right out of it? I

have gotten SO spoiled by this computer.. I type out my

letters and I can type alot faster than I can write...then

print them off and post them lol. Well..to a favorite cousin

and someone younger I would, but out of respect for her

I will hand write it.. This is the same thing as how my power

chair spoiled me and I had to go back to my manual.. I wont

go back to NO computer no no..but I think I should take

more time to write stuff by hand.. Most I write now is a

check which takes 2 seconds to do..specially when you dont

have any money to spend anyway I only write 2 a month.

rent and supplies lol..I got out of practice...lol.

To type a letter on a computer is so fast and easy.. I have

always been a fast and pretty good typist..I had a teacher,

Miss Swanson..wow I remember!! she left an impression hey?

Well she was VERY strict..and on first day she gave us a

picture of a keyboard and told us to memorize it. On the 4th

day after reminding us all 3 of those days..to memorize, this

was 10th grade...lol..and told us what to practice typing. Miss

Swanson walked person to person while we were typing and

put a sheet of paper over our hands..and if we stopped typing

because we were looking at our hands, we would get a F for that

day, and double homework.. Then if we didnt the next we were

in BIG trouble. So I learned. I HATED failing grades..that was

NOT acceptable lol I can remember I had DREAMS about key

boards.lol. I made sure I learned it. And I remember it to this

day. I tested once..I did 96 wpm(words per minute) and had

3 mistakes... not too bad..:-)

One hot day, in class, one of the guys, Leo, big tall guy- kinda

of one of those "bad" guys..always into something..Well- he was

trying to type and was his turn to have Miss Swanson put that

paper over his hands.. He had to stop typing lol..She told him

he was getting a F for every day for a week..he had PLENTY

of time to memorize that keyboard..Well..Leo jumped straight

up..grabbed that typewriter off that desk....remember I said

was nice warm day? The windows were wide open for air..

yup..he stomped over to that window and THREW that type

writer OUT of it!!! Told Miss Swanson "NOW !! you can't

fail me cuz I quit" and marched out of the room..He never

did come back ..but boy did he get in CRAP ..I think, suspended,

and had to buy a new typewriter, apologize-he did nothing :-)

We ALL laughed our butts off it was SO funny. Miss

Swanson was so shocked I thought she blew a gasket lolol..

But I can still type close to that today tho..so ..I LEARNT..

now if I could get the punctuation right I'd be ok..huh

Raife? lol...I give that poor man fits with my writing style

when he reads me.. well I cant be like anyone else can I?

NAAAA-- Im GORGEOUS ME :-) like no other lol...

I think I need to type a recipe for making some food..lol

Lunch wasnt too bad..spaghetti and garlic bread but guess

what was with it? no no not carrots lol SPINACHHHH ..

EWWW ..WHO would want SPINACH with spaghetti?

well for that matter who would want it at all? lolol NO

i dont like SPINACH either ..boiled grass looks like to

me..no Ill put that right with the carrots.lol. :-) I have

some good recipes tho. Now if I can just make it out

there and back with no mishaps ill be fine.. Oh and say,,

NO mess report..well a tiny one. just some washcloths

knocked off the closet shelf ..well they had to lay down

lol its a favorite spot, so we're doin good on that front.

I'm hitting POST now..Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv Ya! and THANKS!

Always, Lois ****

Ps. Like this print better? lol..

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Moody~

Did you know that music can actually be good for you?

It does alot for me..I was discussing this with a friend..that

for no matter what occasion or situation or feeling there

is a song that would go along with it.. Happiness, sadness

MADNESS with some of the newer music. :-) But there is

something for everyone..I was a little moody yesterday

thinking of all the people I knew myself that were in a bad

way..and I got down a bit..and I went to a site I know and

started to listen to some of my favorites..waltzes, and sad

songs when I want to stay boo hooey for a while or I listen

to the happy songs.. Polka's and good Honey Tonk or

Rag TIme PIano, That kind of music will even get invisible

feet to tappin.. :-) Or chairs to rockin lol...

I know most everyone with this nice week end we had here

in Michigan that alot were working out in their yards..getting

them ready for spring planting..I chatted with a friend in the UK

and spring is sprung there..I saw pictures of the most gorgeous

flowers in their garden, narcissus, and daffydills..and they all

were just beautiful.. I sure miss that.. I would LOVE to be able

to go out and dig and plant seeds or plantlings..is that a word?

lol..and see all the colors and blooms...I think my favs are really

roses first..then daisys then morning glories.. snapdragons..

hollyhocks of course..hmmm I bet it would probly be easier to

say what ISNT my favorite..Same with a veggie garden...

I think I could work in one..if the beds were raised a bit..and I had

one of those wagons..I bet I could scoot along quite well..get a

good sturdy stick to propel me along..I think something like that

would work quite nicely..I have a air conditioning unit that is in

the wall in the living room, on the outside I could easily put a box

with some flowers in it..Like petunias..or geraniums..even some

daiseys possibly..My problem would be in watering them.. I would

have to depend on Raelynn to do it for me as there just would be

no way I could carry water outside ...I did tell Raelynn that I want

her to buy a disposable camera for me and she and I will go out

side and she can take some pictures for me.. I dont have any of

here..well yes I do..a few I took while they were building the apts.

next door..But I think be nice to take some..perhaps inside and

out.. I know many have NO idea what a roll in shower is lol...So

perhaps tuesday when she goes to the grocery store she can

pick up a camera..We decided friday is NOT a good day for

her to go shopping for groceries. Raelynn will be starting to get

here earlier now as she has another client..and so my time from

1 to 4 will be 11 to 2.. I like that better..

Talk about a lazy day I did absolutely nothing today ...I did try to

organize my photos but..well I think I just made more of a mess if

you want the truth.. I just have TOO many and I need to do a house

cleaning on those as well..Good thing I have a big Hard drive on

this thing to keep all this stuff, I am such a pack rat...I got up early

today my right stump was aching SO bad.. I had NO choice.. I

laid on my right side..for too long I guess and boy did it let me know

RIGHT QUICK lol.. It took forever to calm down, got me up at 4:30

I know, I have to come up with some other sleep positions..just my

back or sitting up isnt enough..lol..

So...I guess I WILL do something..:-) .did you guess what ?

yup..get some food lol..BUTT I have NO idea what.. I may make a

philly beef sandwhich with sauteed onions..no no Im kidding too much

this late..I would be up 50 times tonite lol..I have some new snacky

crackers that are pretty good, so I think they will do nicely..I could
make an ice cream float..:-) hmmm grape? well I'll think about it
while I roll out to the kitchen...Nitey Nite :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya & thanks...:-)

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~We All Need TLC~

If you read the comments from the past few posts you will

find Jo's, Richard & Judi's, Cherry's.. We all are going thru

our trials and tribulations, we all have need of prayers. Jo,

Bless her heart, is just having a very rough go these past

few years..We met through a stationery group for email.

She writes lovely poems if you read the comments from

last nite. Shes a wonderful writer..Shes been through so

much yet still shes happy and counts her blessings even

though she faces so many things not only in health issues

but family as well..Dear Judi..shes a Native American

sweetheart..and has gone through so much these past

months, yet still found the time to visit with me here and

her loving grandson that took the time to read to her and

put comments here, to encourage me.. Cherry, what a

sweetie..The people from the UK..well everyone I know

from there are the loveliest people...Cherry's Mum is

having a hard way to go..she's in hospital..My dear friend

Mavis..she can't walk but a few feet and runs out of air

to breathe. Marlene, a fellow DAK,, I ve not heard from in

quite a while..I hope she is ok..she was not well the last

I heard from her.. So many in need of prayer..a helping

hand..lots of TLC ...

And I complain..because I have to bend in half or have

a hard time to reach..or I make a mess...I am still here

and I am at my computer.. perhaps one day I may be

really down..in hospital..but for THIS day..I'm here...I

am reading what my friends write and the compliments

they give me..the encouragement..and the concern they

have for me..and I am just SO grateful..I should never

never complain...when there are so many many that

cant be at a computer, or cant get into a chair to make a

mess..or even are aware that this is even a day...I

count my blessings..and I do stay up beat..and happy as

I can..I laugh and yesss sure I do cry too..I get discouraged

but..we CANNOT give up..Take each day, each hour,, and

then each minute and live it... be grateful..thankful..when

you lay your head down at nite..knowing your safe, warm

and fed, your ok..say "thank you LORD"...and have some

sweeeeeeeeeeet dreams... Life is so hard..it really really

is..You read what Jo wrote. yet..she came here to write

to me.. now..how wonderful is that? THATS what its all

about..just living..loving..and caring about each other..Life

is good...

Keep praying for these sweet dear friends of mine.. I called

everyone I know to pray for them..just read their names..when

you do..all you gotta say is.."God...bless them" THAT works...

trust me. :-)

Today was quiet..and I downloaded some of the best tunes

and got a few from a friend that knows I LOVE piano music..

That old Rag Time, Honkey Tonk..ya...I love that stuff.. I

really LOVE it all...I really didnt know what to write about today

and I had to write this.. It amazes me I say everyday..."hmmm

what will my post be tonite?" and I always come up with some

thing and its usually from someone else..like tonite..my dear

friend Jo..going thru all that and STILL reading me..what a gal.

:-) well this gal is yuppp lol HUNGRY!!!! Is that a disease?

I am beginning to think so lol...I know I have it..lol..ALL the

time it acts up on me too !!! BUTT- I KNOW how to cure that !

dont we all? lol..Time to hit publish...nitey nite my friends..:-)

Jesus loves you and so do I :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya! & thanks, thanks..

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Wheels on Wheels~

When I talked to Donnie the other day he told me about a bus,

well coach that they make where he works that is designed

just for wheel chair people.. They make and design these huge

busses for celebrity's to travel in when they are on the road..
He described it to me, as he gets to check them out to make

sure they are running right as he is the head diesel mechanic

there.What he described was wonderful..

He said it was totally accessible. had a ramp and all the controls

to run everything inside was on a panel easily reachable..had

everything within reach..and at the perfect height. It had a more

wide open concept which would be perfect. The one he saw

did not have hand controls for driving as the driver did not

need them for this bus. I think was designed for a man who's

wife was in a chair..It was wonderful and be perfect for me.

Donnie said he KNEW I would love it, and I have NO doubt I

would be very happy in it.

Could you imagine how great that would be to travel all over

the states and meet everyone I know? spend some time with

them , have dinner and just have a great time.. They can even

ship these busses overseas, and could easily tour Europe.

THAT would be WONDERFUL..What a way to go tho..I would

pack up and get on the road tomorrow.. Wheels on Wheels..

Go anywhere and stop where every you felt like it.. how good

is that? I could like that alot..Im ready to roll ..:-) I need a driver

and a bus now...:-)

I have travelled quite a bit and lived in alot of places..I've been

to Hawaii and to Mexico..I love Hawaii and I wasnt real keen

on Mexico, but we were in a border town and I think along the

coast of Mexico they say is beautiful..My 2nd husband did

construction for quite a few years before starting his tree

service. We travelled ALL over the states..I remember El Centro

California..ohhh LORDY, was that place HOT..It was in the

middle of the desert and the crew was there, they were all mill

wrights..and building a Pellet plant to make food for cows..I stuck

it out for 4 months and had to go back to Indiana..just too hot

there even worse than Texas..I do enjoy travelling, seeing new

places..I think that would be a great way to live.. so..hmmm

now I need a bus..anyone got one??? Can I borrow it for a few

years? lol...

Mess report is not too bad..just some coffee drips from me to

report..Dutch hasn't been too bad..I probably shouldn't say that you

know how kids are they will make a liar out of you every time when

you say they wont do something or haven't lol..I better be quiet or

he will hear me lol..I know he cant read lol..

Talking about travelling its that time to travel and see what is

hiding in my kitchen..I dont know what I want again..Lunch? well

lets not go there..lol... lets just go where I know is REAL food :-)

my kitchen Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear ? Luv ya & thanks! :-)

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Nice Fish~

I told the story about the taco box last nite and thought I

would put this picture here of Donnie and a Northern Pike

he caught.- Nice fish hey? I've seen bigger than this.. I am

not sure what size this one is..but I know the one I got was

32 inches..David had it mounted and to this day claims it

as his..which I dont care..I know I caught it..he did help put

it in the boat.. I remember him yelling "oh my GOD Lois, Its

TOO big for the net"..as he lifts that thing out of the water..

Looked HUGE. I KNOW how sore my arm was fighting

that thing for over half an hour..IN and OUT.. lol.. was fun

tho, I got tired half way thru and asked David to take the

pole and get it for me..Was a fight let me tell you..But I
have caught bigger.. a hammerhead shark down in

Galveston...

You know..most of the places I knew and remember-..I
bet I could still get to- even now in this chair..We always

fished from shore..and sat in lawn chairs..they were the

same size as this..Only times might be hard is on a river

bank..if the bank is steep..then that wouldnt be possible

unless I was carried and as steep as some were well

be easier and safer to just get a truck with a hoist thingie

and lower me over the side..hehe be cute..or a crane..

swing out and over and lower me down lol..I proably

would go too..I could easily get on Donnies pontoon its

the same level as the dock, Donnie made sure of that

after his dad fell once getting on it..He made sure that

NEVER happened again..I could get on that or any

pontoon for that matterin this chair..take the tables out

and there is alot of open space in them. I loved to ride

in that pontoon slow at sunset down the river..was so

pretty and nice to do on a hot summer night . music

playing..stop and fish off and on..was great..

Ive been asked a few times what I weigh and that is NOT

a nice question to ask a lady..If Im being a smarty and tell

you to guess you better be careful what you say lol.. No

quite honestly, I dont know ..I havent been weighed since

I left the hell home..That was a kinda scarey procedure..

they put you in a sling type thing..then swung you out over

the floor from your chair or bed or where ever they put

you on it from..Your suspended up in the air just hanging

there thinking 'if that strap breaks ...' knowing how hard

that floor is in there..I hit it at least 3 times I fell out of my

chair in there face first..it sure wakes you up real fast

makes you say a few swear words too ~!~ Thought I

broke my nose one time..then once they put that seat

belt on me..well I went and pulled that chair right behind

me..the handle hit me in the back of the head made me

see stars..They took that off real fast..I got hit TWICE!

once was bad enough... But I really dont know how much

I weigh..I can only guestimate....too much? :-) lol... No no

just right I'm GORGEOUS remember? :-)

I look at my thighs and they are bigger, but is it from a

weight gain or lack of use, like I would get from walking on

them and keeping the muscles firm? I dont know..Probably

I would say- both...and there is just no way I can exercise

them enough to equal the use they got when all my leg was

there and I walked...I do exercise them when I lay on the bed.

I was told when I was in the nursing home by that gorgeous

PT guy there, to make sure I laid very flat at least once a day

for a while ..which I do..and then depending how tired I am

I lift and move my stumps around..but that in no way still

could or would be equal to walking.. I sound like such an

expert dont I? lol..well ya I guess I am..Im living it so that

makes me one since I do know first hand lol.. :-) I dont see

any decrease in the amount of movement I have in them

and they move..well just like they did when the rest was

there..so..they move great and that helps when I have to

scoot on my bed..then I dont have to depend on my arms

to pull or push me I dont get on the ends but I still use them

to help move me..believe me I need all the extra help I

can get moving me around lol.. :-D...

Well Im gonna move me right out to the kitchen. see what I

can find..I dont know what I want..I had NO idea when I got

here what I was going to write about .. and well here this is..

what..4 paragraphs down? ..so I musta thought of something

hey? :-) its any good..let me know . lol..Im rolling to food land..

Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya and thanks !

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Taco Box~

I thought I would share another one of my little storys..its not

a real long one but really cute..I hope you like it..:-)

My 2nd husband and I had a tree service in Indiana. It was a

good business, at one time we had 4 trucks, a boom, chipper,

dump and pickup. 5 men worked for us, one was my boy, Donnie

and our main climber was Julio, a Puerto Rican friend, and the

best climber in probably the state of Indiana. He could throw a

rope up in a 40 foot tall tree and be up in that thing in a matter

of minutes..He was very strong..and one of the best climbers I

have ever seen..Donnie, well, if he could go up in the bucket truck

he would, but to just climb a tree, no I think he said the last time

he had, he fell out and broke his arm. We had a great crew all

very good at what they did...

Donnie was the head groundsman and was in charge of all the

ground work of brushing and cleanup and of course hauling off

the wood..That day they had to make a run to bring a load of the

wood back to my house and on the way decided to stop at

Taco Bell, and get lunch, they got taco's for themselves as well

as for me, we sat on the back porch and chatted and ate our tacos...

We were talking about alot of things..What we planned to do that

week end, we each had plans..Julio, baseball, of course, Donnie

was going fishing..and I was just gonna take it easy and cook, as

usual, being summer probably on the grill...

As Julio is eating his taco he looks at Donnie and says "I have a

taco box" Donnie looks a little confused and looks at me, I said to

Julio "why do you keep your taco's in a box?" Don't you eat them all?"

Donnie laughs and says " I dont need to worry about a taco box I

never have any left when I get them" and of course I agreed. Julio

shook his head smiling at us since we look totally lost by now.

Julio looks at his taco in his hand..starts to laugh at Donnie and I

since we are looking so confused, like 'WHAT does this guy mean?'

Julio says "no no ..not taco box ...TACO BOX", again- Donnie and I

laugh, and look at each other...."what do you MEAN Julio?" I said..."I

dont keep them in a box either, they COME in a box, I never get that

many that I need a special box to keep taco's in. Julio is laughing now-

so are Donnie and I...We are looking at each other frowns on our

foreheads ..TOTALLY confused and laughing..Then Julio says...

"NO NO..TACO box--TACO BOX--..you know the kind you keep

FISHING stuff in ! FISHING TACO" :-)

Donnie and I looked at each other and laughed so hard ! we both

just shake our heads ....Donnie says

"TACKLE Julio.. T-A-C-K-L-E.NOT TACO." says it letter by letter

to him, spelling it out...Julio said THATS what I said.! .TACO BOX !"

We all had a good laugh at that. Came that saturday, Julio stopped

by to talk to my husband about a tree job as he is leaving he said

"Lois..I am taking my TACO BOX and I'm going fishing with Donnie"..

as he waves and goes back out the door. My husband looks at me and

says "he doesnt use that for bait does he?." :-)

I just laughed and proceeded to tell him the details about Julio's taco
box.. he got a kick out of it too..They did catch quite a few fish with
that Fishing TACO :-D

Well there is another little fishing story for you.. we all laughed so
hard at that..I wonder if Julio still keeps his TACO's in a boxl.. :-D

Good news !!!, Donnie is grandpa again, a baby girl. Isnt that just great?

His first wife had 2 daughters that he raised, this is the youngest of the

two..he has a grandson by the other..Kelli doesnt have children as she is

getting a good education, her Masters Degree. she is the one married

of the 3 however. Nikki and Amber have significant others I think they

are called now days..lol...They are lovely girls, my Grands :-) and my

honeygirls as I call them, and my neices I refer to them as honeygirls.

Kelli. shes that but I call her my Dolly..she was, still is, a cutie but as a

baby? she was a Doll...hence..Dolly.. :-) She doesnt mind I call her that.

She is the oldest of the 3.

No mess report..as of yet but I still have until midnite to go, so far so

good. :-) so keep your fingers crossed...I will make a trip out to the

kitchen for a soda and I think some cheese crackers tonite sound good.

just something light...3 guesses what was in my lunch today AGAIN ..

CARROTS.. I think those things must be grown by the zillions or are

SUPER cheap..am I the ONLY one that hates carrots? lol..Many times

as we get them for lunch I guess they are quite popular..wish they
would take a vote lol... Nitey Nite...;-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya.. & thanks..y''all are great.:-)

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~How Bad Did I Want That Clicker?~

While I was watching TV last night- I did manage to make it

thru Prison Break and only the beginning of Medium, but before

I got onto my bed I sat in front of the TV so I could read what

the movies were, I cant read what it says on the screen from

my bed.. While I was sitting there I dropped the clicker (remote).

I continued to watch TV for a while then turned and rolled up to

my bed and scooted over to it.. I shifted here and there and

fixed my pillows, got all my stuff set where I could get what I

wanted, soda, or whatever..My nightly routine.

I got all comfortable..and decided I wanted to change channels

and then suddenly noticed I didnt have the clicker up on the bed.

So then, of course, I remembered and looked at the floor..sure

enough there it was..and naturally OUT of Reach!!! So, I looked

for my grabber, well it was NO where to be seen..so I sat there

deciding..well..the only way I was gonna get that clicker was to

get back in my chair and roll the 2 feet and get it..I actually sat

there for quite a little while..honestly! deciding just HOW badly

did I want to change channels :-) I did..!!

Well ..Fooey, I would have to turn..at least 3 to 4 times to get

lined up with my chair..back into it..undo the brakes..and then

back up..turn..then go forward..lock down..grab on to the back

of this chair..lean over and grab the clicker..THEN do all that

in reverse to get back up on the bed..JUST to get this clicker.

It is Not just a quick stand up reach and sit back down for me.

Just the smallest thing like that is quite a few moves for me..

All involving arm strength. I got it anyway..and sat there after

wards thinking about this..just amazes me what I took for granted

before when I had legs..and all the movements I have to do now

just to pick up a clicker not EVEN 2 feet away from me..Was

pretty sad tho..I actually did consider just watching that one

channel..lol..and not go thru all this...is that lazy or what? lol...

Todays Mess:..I rolled out to the kitchen this morning..and I dont

know if I did it..I dont think I did..I wasnt in the kitchen in the dark.

I think Dutch was playing. Well the bowl of dry cat food was on its

side..cat food up underneath the counter, it hit the water dish,

and knocked it over which HAD to go right onto the dry cat food.!

I dont know when Dutch did this..but it was still wet. I couldnt

wait for RaeLynn to get it by then it would be dry and take a chisel

to scrape that off the floor..so I had to do it.. Well I got my daily

bend in half exercise. quite a few of them wiping up all that wet

gooey cat food. then had to wipe up the floor..or that would have

glued to the floor what was left there..so I had to wipe it twice..

The joys of a messy kittie.. lol..He plays, bless his heart, I've

watched him dance around that kitchen floor just chasing a tiny

piece of cat food..Hes a happy little guy and I'm glad..I want my

boys to be happy, they sure do alot for me..they , no not they, LB

is a good kid..Dutch makes me mad sometimes..but for all the

laughs and kisses he gives me? well its worth it.. :-)

The 2nd mess? well I had my check book, which I keep all sorts

of stuff in..on my keyboard tray here on this desk..I closed the

tray and the check book went off the far end way up under the

desk here and fell off.. SHEEEESHHh.. I had to find the grabber,

thankfully I did this time..and dig all those papers and check book

out from under my desk, bend and grab..pull papers out.. then I

would have to roll back to see what I had missed..and bend and

reach at least 3 times to get it all..Well im transferring check

registers too..so its kinda full..lol..I know..I did it to myself..:-)

If I can work my way out to the kitchen SAFELY and with out making

a mess..I think I will have some tapioca pudding..sounds good hey?

all nice and cold..I get those small snack pack ones..theyre pretty

good..If I got it in the cans its just so much and I would have NO

choice but to eat it all lol..:-) so these little snacker pack ones are

really good for me..as long as I only open 1 lol.. Thats the hard

part but all I can carry is two so..lol..thats not too bad..not as much

as a whole can lol..well it doesnt save real good so you HAVE to

eat the whole can of it !! lol.....NItey Nite.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya..& thanks..I love reading

all your comments..sure is nice ..I love knowing this is being read..

means alot to me..and that you let me know.. :-)

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Got 1 Thing Done Today~

I called about my chair today and they will be out this week to check it out, the guy said they could tighten up the brake and he would check out the tires as to why it is so stiff to roll in this thing. There is a big difference in this chair and my old one..But then when I was breaking in my old one I didn't notice how long it took to loosen up etc. that was the really super bad crying staring out the window time, so I didnt pay attention to it since I did hardly anything..let alone roll around..the less I disturbed that left stump the less pain there was...I thought that infection was NEVER going to heal...so how my chair maneuvered wasnt alot..I sat in one spot most of the time and that was at the window. Ive been looking thru my photo album thinking of how every picture in there I could write a story about, they were such good times..I loved taking pictures ..we all did..thats why I have so many lol...I havent changed in that respect at all I STILL love to take them lol. The boys run when they see me fire up this cam to take pictures soon as I aim it at them lol..I like taking pictures, It doesnt matter of what... I bet I have 5 photo albums..full of pictures lol..But how else do you bring those memories back to mind..You sit and look at the photos and think "AHHH yes..remember when..." I have some old 8 mm. movies we had put onto vcr tapes and I wish I could get some of the photos off of it.. My dad LOVED to take pictures too now that I think of it..he ALWAYS had that camera or old video camera going at the family gatherings when we were all gathered around ..hmmm so THATS where I got this from !!! :-) I have seriously been thinking about trying to write a book though, I have the name already..and a pretty good idea of what I want to do..and how.. I just have to do it now..and the first step I think is to clean this bedroom and desk..and start there..get my printer hooked up..and then see about getting a new monitor....I just have to do it dont I? lol...I get so many things going around in my head at the same time its pathetic and then I get nothing done... *SIGH* I got a great email from RIchard..Judi..is better.!! .He was so worried and said it was VERY touch and go. but during the night she HAS improved..Richard said the prayer warriors must have done the job she was better and he was so glad. My girl Twinks..well Jo..had her surgery this morning and I am waiting to hear..I know she will be fine. We will accept nothing else. These 2 dear friends of mine going through all this just makes me sit here and pause and think that I am so lucky..I get into stuff , but its minor..compared to being so gravely ill or going through surgery AGAIN for dear Jo..shes had so much..well so has Judi , Bless their Hearts...so Please keep them in your prayers...I havent heard from my friend Marlene in a while either and I know she was having some problems..I hope she is doing ok too.. When you think about others you dont have time to worry about yourself..sure helps me take my mind off ME.. i go nutty when I think of ME lolol. no no Just kidding :-) My stump is red today..but its not too bad..I'm keeping a close eye on it though and its sore..but ok. I made the most delicious pot of beans. I put them into the slow cooker yesterday..some onion..oh..small navy beans, and some ham, talk about M M M M...so good I ALMOST wish my ex hubby had a taste, he loved a pot of beans and cornbread lol..They are really good..I did good on these , I know dont say it I will... beans, beans, the musical fruit... the more you eat..the more you toot... The more you toot..the better you feel... Lets have BEANS..for EVERY Meal!!! :-) ha ha ha ..cute oldie ... On that musical NOTE.... nitey nite :-D Y'all have a good one now.Y'hear? love ya & thanks! Always, Lois**** Ps.. No messes as of yet today...keep your fingers crossed lol.. May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~Happy Easter!~

The picture up there is not of me this Easter Sunday..Its of my parents. You can see 2 loving people as my Dad has his arm on my Moms..See the happiness and the smiles..how content they look- this is how they always looked ..smiling, happy, and loving..Kisses, hugs, were always there and never did we part company with out a kiss goodbye..They are.. not my birth parents but the 2 dear people that raised me and whom I talk about so much..that gave me the morals and things that I live by, they secretly taught them to me..and I didn't know it..That was such a good thing..I wonder if that day my Dad told me the angels kissed me he knew that I would need the courage and strength he and my mom would instill in me...If they hadnt made me this way who did? My mother was the kind "do it NOW, lets get the job done and finished and we don't have to worry about it anymore" Mom taught me the joys of a loving home..caring for it..cooking and doing the very best you can at all you do...Perfect is always the best...Keep everything in its place..be neat , clean, take care of your family , friends..loved ones..give them the care they need. I have some of her things..I had her desk for a long time everything inside it was in boxes..and neat and tidy..a place for every thing and everything in its place...Cooking, sewing..no one could out do her..and up North that was a biggie..Every womans pride was her home family and of course her ability to cook and bake...The family gatherings attested to that..The food was so great..I loved those picnics!.. :-) Dad...well I have to admit..I was my Daddys little girl and I loved him dearly he was so gentle, kind and always there, ready to help anyone any way he could..He loved the winter..so he could put his plow on the front of his old willys jeep..and go and plow all the neighbors driveways. He kept it on the jeep all winter ..he says "well you never know when you may need to help someone out"...Dad was an avid outdoorsman.. He LOVED where he lived..said he lived in the best place in the world, and I agree as there is NO place like home, the Upper Penninsula of Michigan I call it God's country... He loved to fish..and he hunted, and he and I had many many trips to pick berries.. I never refused a chance to go with him picking berries or for a ride just to get a car part that he needed..I only had to be asked once and I made a mad dash for that jeep ready to go... The 3 of us, as my now estranged sister had already graduated, would sit and watch TV together we only had the one..I remember before that .. when we only had the radio..the 4 of us..waiting for our favorite programs to come on.. Mine was Sergeant Preston of the Yukon...and SKY KING... we all had our favorites..of course the music was my mothers favorite to listen to...Daddy just listened to what the rest of us liked,.I watched him sometimes sitting in his chair just watching the 3 of us listening, laughing and enjoying that old radio and seeing a look of pride and love on his wonderful face... If you look closely at their picture. look at the happy smiles..they were married for over 56 years before Daddy was called home..cancer claimed that dear man, and it took me 3 years to finally give his things away...He is still with me.. I think when I write my stories..telling my memories so to speak he guides and whispers in my ear.."remember Lois..that time-.." Momma was always singing..there were radios in every room..even the bathroom and when you turned on the light the music played..I still can hear her sing those old hymns that she loved so dearly..'In the Garden, It Is No Secret' I think this is why I love music so much myself as there was always a radio playing while momma was awake..And flowers? everywhere...The second that first one bloomed she dug out the special vases she kept for each kind she had..Daisies were her very best favorites..thats what I planted on her grave..Daddys..I planted a lovely Tamarack tree that are very hard to find and was his favorite..they are like a very soft velvety Pine tree.. not many can be found.. He did..and planted it in the yard..That is the one we lovingly transferred to his grave side..I was pleased that the cemetery allowed it..... I get very melancholy on the holidays and I wanted to share this with you so you can see who instilled in me what is seeing me thru this life of mine..where I got my strength and courage..and love of life music and every thing I hold dear to me.. Now you know even more about this short weeble..:-) Todays mess? well last nights.. by you know who..Dutch of course.. He was on my bed..by the end of the tray table..I had a grape soda on there I was drinking as I watched tv...well he wanted in the window..and miss judged..and fell..hit the lamp.. that fell over on its side-which hit the soda..which fell over and the GRAPE soda went Into the WHITE lampshade- that then dripped onto my BEIGE quilt..got the picture on this mess? needless to say he ran and of course MOM had to clean it up.. He didnt do it on purpose.but I guess I need to put soda into something with a lid if hes going to jump around like a big CLUTZ..lol..THEN..as Im taking this soda and all the graped napkins out to the kitchen I decided to try and balance the PLATE I brought in earlier with some food on for me..yup..that puppy slid off my stump and "SMACK" it actually popped when it hit the floor, plate pieces everywhere..that took me over an hour to clean up as I had to vacuum to make sure there were no glass shards to get in the boys paws..*sigh* I cant win lol. . I hope you dont mind my Telling Memories. might be a good name for my book..:-) I really would like to write one..so those special people that adopted and loved me would never be forgotten.. They would like that...I know I would..maybe help someone else as well... Time to hit publish..Happy Easter my friends.. I hope that bunny was nice to you.. and didnt leave any of them raisens.. The teacher asked little Johnny.."why dont you bring me any more of those raisens ? Little Johnny said sadly.." My rabbit died" :-D nitey nite... :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya..thanks..and Happy Easter.. Always, Lois**** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~Burned & Beaned~

Well.. I didnt mention the fact last nite that I burnt my right stump

yesterday.. and my stomach.. I had put a pan of water on the stove

to boil to make a cup of coffee.. I make one cup at a time..I use a

strainer and a paper coffee filter and put it over the cup and pour

the BOILING water in it.. I mentioned lately that my right wrist and

thumb are acting up from the carpal tunnel. What that does is cause

you to lose strength in your hand..holding power so to speak..As

I was holding the pan and pouring the water into the filter..my thumb

decided then it didnt wanna hold on anymore. The pan tipped and

the water came out..hit the coffee filter splashed out and over the sink

and I got it.right down the front of me..Talk about HURT!!

It hurt so bad..I had to pull my skirt away from my stump..that got the

worst as I was pushing back..so it didnt get my face..but i didnt roll

fast enough cuz of this STIFF chair and that boiling water hit my

stomach a little but ALOT went on my right stump..even underneath

as that water ran..down under me..NOT good ..its really sore today..

It could have been worse.. I showed Raelynn and she checked it

out real good for me..its seriously red..no blisters tho..and just hurts

like HELL...Raelynn was concerned and is going to try to find a

cheapie drip coffee maker..the one my sis just gave me doesnt even

make hot coffee and the carafe? shoot dribbles and runs more than

I DO lol..:-) its a horrible carafe...I thinks its the one from that free

coffee givalaia? or something like that? Thats the only thing I can

do ..I cant risk holding this pan if with no warning this hand decides

not to work. I could obtain some serious body damage...Ill keep a

close check on it...

If this chair wasnt so stiff I maybe would have gotten out of the way

of that water..I dont know how to describe how these wheels act

like something is not greased and making them just HARD to go

around..Maybe they forgot to grease them or something when they

put this chair together i dont know..But I maybe wouldnt have gotten

this stump burnt like this if I had the easy rollin of my old chair..I

still may go back to that one.. I put off all week calling about this one

thinking maybe I am expecting it to be loosened up by now..I dont

know..i do know it makes me VERY mad sometimes...These 2

front tires drive me nuts..they stick out and get me hemmed up all

the time..and STAY in the way . they need a new design so this tire

doesnt stick out so much they could fix that...i would think so any

way...

Todays mess was..well they gave me a egg with jelly beans in it..

from the people that deliver my lunch..I did NOT see it on the table..

well you KNOW who did yes? and of course he had to find it at nite..

while i was in bed.. I heard a weird noise last nite but the guy next

door hits the walls alot..so I dont pay attention unless its glass breaking

thing..did you know if you roll over a jelly bean that it will stick to the

tires of a wheel chair? then if its the FRONT tire you have to dig the

CRAP out of the groovies? lol..well. I got up during the night .about

midnite, potty of course..but I was so thirsty i rolled out to the kitchen

to get some water out of the fridge, the ice machine is still NOT hooked

up, then went back to bed... I got up this morning and noticed a paper

sticking off my wheel..I looked down..and there were jelly beans stuck

in my front tires..about 6 or so..I said "WHAT THE HEY" how'd these

get there? hmmmm im thinkin...so I roll out to the dining room and saw

the empty egg and the wrapper and I knew thats where the jelly beans

that were stuck in my tires came from, Dutch unwrapped it, it cracked

when it hit the floor..and he played, I bet had a blast, with those jelly

beans.. I dont turn a light on at night when I get up I dont have to..there

are so many lights in that parking lot next door I bet they see it by

satellite, so when I went out there to get a drink, I didn't see them all

over the floor! :-)

SO ANYWAY..I have to totally bend in half to reach the front smaller

tires on this chair..take a knife..oh I DID lock down first..and hold on

with one hand and bend wayyyyyy over so I can DIG these jelly

beans out of the groovies of my tires..talk about a mess my tires

were so sticky..maybe thats why Im rolling slow? lol..no its the big

tire thats slow, Im pretty sure lol...*SIGH* fun fun fun...chair life is

SO EXCITING lol..I just LOVE it :-D well I dont hate it with out this

chair i wouldnt HAVE a life..Id be stuck ..so I complain about it

but its a lifeline for me and a major one..I just wish they were easier

to clean..I sure hope Raelynn will have time to clean this one...it

sure needs it.! .did you know cat hair sticks to jelly beans too? My

tires were a mess took me quite a while..its hard to stay bent over

like that to clean them then roll a little bit..then dig and wipe...Ya..

this aint easy..specially with sticky stuff like jelly beans...wish money

would stick to me as good as those buggars stuck to my tires

i'll tell ya lol.. :-)

I wasnt too hungry today and took a short nap this after noon..I stayed
up as long as I could..till about 1 then I had NO CHOICE but to drag this

jelly beaned chair over to my bed and drag this scorched body up on

that bed..lol..I slept good for a hour maybe. then had to get up...just

didnt work between my stump and my back..I dunno..but maybe the

Easter bunny will figure out a solution, and ill sleep good when I go back
over there in a few....nitey nite...:-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear?LUV Ya..& thanks..

ALways, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...