~Cancelled Travis~

I had an appointment with Travis today

and had to cancel.. I just don't feel good

at all.. Penny came and got us all clean

and made some spaghetti sauce for later.

I am so tired and just not up to anything

and I have NO idea why.. I just don't feel

good and cant say exactly why..All I know

is I'm ready to head back to my bed for a

rest.. I'm wondering if it could be these

new sleeping pills.. I don't know.. I know

I still have this cold and sneezing like

crazy..


Tomorrow my nurse comes and I will talk

to her..My bath lady is sposta come too

but I think I will cancel I'm just not up to

that either..I'm miserable and I'm tired of

it .... I want desperately to feel good again.

I'm hoping that day will come...

I'm closing this post and gonna go take a

rest..I'm just tired but..I'm still a GORGEOUS
WEEBLE and I'll try to be back tomorrow..

Keep well and keep me in your prayers..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Im Bored~

There has never been a time in my life

that I can ever remember being bored

because I cant do anything.. I can see

lots of things I could do, but I know if I

try to do them, sewing or knitting, my

arms and hands would drive me insane

so then I do nothing.. My day now is one

of just sitting here in this chair or on my

bed staring at the TV which I really DONT

enjoy that much..

I spend most of my time here at the table

watching the birds and cats and of course

our wonderful weather..My new sleeping

pills do put me to sleep, but I still don't

stay asleep constantly.... I know I was

awake 3 times last night and finally at 6

I just got up...If I don't I toss and turn

and act like a fish otta water which is

not fun at all...so I get up and find some

thing for breakfast so I can take my 11

pills. I did get some of that POM juice,

its quite expensive..I paid over 10 dollars

for about 16 oz. It doesn't say how many

oz on the bottle..it does taste good.. I

looked on line about it but it doesn't tell

you a lot there either..all I care is if it

works and I sure pray it does...

Its a dark gloomy day but its not snowing.

I fed Graybelle this morning and I feel so

sorry for her.. She wants to come inside

so badly and I would let her but I'm just

scared at what my boys would do to her.

they fight between themselves and I hate

to break up cat fights... I sure wish I could

or find someone to take her.. shes a gray

tortoise shell and just a sweetie.. She got

hit by a car or someone and her little mouth...

is damaged ..I worried so badly for her that

she could eat, but shes ok.. even gaining

weight..When I see her coming I look for

some meat or leftovers to give her...poor

kittie.. I wish I knew who she belonged to..

she had to at one time..she has a flea

collar on,been on for 2 years since she

first started coming here.. Cats don't

belong outside..Id never let mine out...

lots of people do but its not safe for

them...

Anyhoway..I'm gonna close this for today.

I still have a cold and I'm sick of this runny

nose.. One day hopefully it will go...Me, I'm

gonna go find something for lunch and

remind you I am still a most GORGEOUS

WEEBLE and I'll be back,,Keep well..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~New Sleeper~

I took my new sleeping pill last nite

about 9.. I woke up at 5 wide awake

and have been up since. I slept sound

and don't remember waking up but

one time to check the time, it was 2:30.

I changed positions and went back to

sleep... About 9 I got really tired and

crawled back up on my bed after I

took my11 daily pills.. I slept for about

an hour and got back up to eat some

thing as my stomach told me I was

hungry. I made a steak sandwich with

sauteed onions on a fresh onion roll..

no cheese tho.. It was really good and

I could almost taste it! I have some Sara

Lee Cheesecake bites in the freezer for

desert..THEY are wonderful..and I CAN

taste them... :-)

Other than that I have no plans for today

and I'm not expecting anyone..In fact its

almost 1 and my phone hasnt even rung.

No one must wanna talk to me :-) I plan

to get my bites and go back in my room

and see if maybe there might be a good

movie on that I havent seen, or I watch

animal planet.. I sure give those angels

with the SPCA's that rescue animals credit

what some animals go through is just

awful ...That some people can mistreat

a dog or cat ...how can they live with

themselves.. My boys are like my family

and God help anyone that hurt them OR

my outside kitties and I knew about it.. I

do try to send a small donation to them

or I go to the aspca website.

Well I'm gonna go watch TV.. I still have

this cold but I did have Penny get some

orange juice for me maybe that will help.

Other than that I'm ok.. tired a lot but I'm

having a good day and I'm grateful.. I'm

still a GORGEOUS WEEBLE, and I will

be back..:-) Keep Well...

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Blah Days~

Yesterday and today havent been my

best days. I just feel totally blah.. I got

my test records from when I was in

Borgess Hospital in Kalamazoo.. It was

so full of stuff that was not true! I was

amazed.. I want Laura to read it.. One

part said I was 55 years old AND a

BELOW knee amputee! How stupid..

Penny came today and got us all ready

for the next few days.. We decided she

will shop for me at Meijers instead of

this store here, Village Market. It never

has what I need or want and lots of the

stuff is outdated... I'm tired of it..Penny

shops for herself usually on Saturday

and doesn't mind picking up stuff for me.

Plus Meijer is a lot cheaper on stuff than

the store here...

This is a short post, but I'm ready to take

a 5 and get out of this chair.. My butt has

no open areas so why it hurts like it does

I don't understand but it does.. Even wakes

me up at night. I did get my new sleeping

pills, Penny got them on her way here, so

tonite I will try one and see if its better than

the trazadone I have, that doesn't work at

all .. A full nights sleep might make me

feel a lot better..

So.. I'm gonna eat some lunch, tomato soup,

and then take a 5, well maybe a 10 :-) Y'all

remember though that I'm still a MOST
GORGEOUS WEEBLE and I'll be back,

hopefully tomorrow :-) Keep well..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

Meet Katrina~

Katrina is my bath aide. She will be coming

twice a week to keep me clean. :-) She is

very nice and will be coming on Tuesday

and thursdays..I'm glad cuz for me to wash

is a major deal for my arms..I usually take

what I call a bird bath. I fill the bathroom

sink with water and wash myself. The sink

is high and I have to hold my arms up which

makes them ache. So I'm glad I don't have

to worry with it anymore.
I still have this miserable cold and my head

ache is still there. I wish I could get rid of it.

My nose is so sore from constantly wiping it

cuz it steady dribbles.. Plus the constant

sneezing.. I'm beginning to wonder if its

alergies..:-) I know I sure would feel better

if it was gone...

Penny came today, I was so glad to see her.

She was afraid to pull all the way up under

the pine tree..Its so full of ice and snow..She

did get her electric back though, which is a

good thing.. She fried some potatoes and

onions, which is a favorite.. They sure tasted

good, and I'm so glad I could taste them. I

have such a bad taste in my mouth, from

what I don't know. Everything I eat or drink

has a icckky taste and I hate that. Makes

me not want to eat...

I'm ready to go and take a five to get out of

this chair. I got up about 7, so its time.. My

butt is letting me know its time to get off of

it :-) Anyhowway, I'm still a GORGEOUS
WEEBLE and I'll be back ! Keep well...

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Snow Again~

I bet we got over 6 inches of snow. Right now the sun is

out and its stopped snowing.. I'm snowed in, ive not had

my driveway plowed or the walk shoveled.. If Penny comes

tomorrow she has my shovel in the trunk of her car and

she will shovel her way in. She phoned last night and

she has no power..and they said it might be a day or so

before its restored.. That ice storm really caused a lot

of damage where she lives and three rivers too.. We

were lucky to not have a power outage..

I made sure my chair is charged just in case the power

goes out. Id have a hard way to go if I couldn't charge

my chair, then I'd have to get in my manual which sure

would cause me some severe arm aches..

Other than that... I'm bored. All I do is just either sit here

in the kitchen or go in on my bed and watch TV. I want

so badly to do some sewing but I know if I do my arms

will hurt so badly that its not worth it to try to sew.. So,

I stay bored.. There is only so much I can do online

and just sitting here watching the birds and kitties, I

still am bored after awhile..

I still havent gotten my sleeping pills as no one has

been here. I'm up at least by 3am until past 4 some

times 5.. I go back to bed and am up again at 7.

My butt is still sore which wakes me up if I stay in

one position too long. I have no open areas but

it still hurts and even Laura the nurse has no reason

why.. I sure wish it would ease up..

Well enough of my whining for today..At least I can

still say I am a MOST GORGEOUS WEEBLE and

I shall return! Keep well...

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Meet Andrea Kimberly~

Meet my great granddaughter, Andrea Kimberly.. Isnt

she just a cutie..Kelli, her mom says she is a very good

baby, hardly cries at all..Her brother Alex likes her too.

Sometimes its so hard for the other kids to accept a

new baby, but hes doing good..Kelli just went back to

work today, was first day back.. I know she misses

being home with the kids.
Ive not heard from Donnie, if hes found out anything as

to what his health issues are. They arent sure hes caught

something from the bats or not..He coughs just awful and

hes not been to work for over a month, which, if you knew

him, you know this is driving him nuts..Hes a workalcholic,

like Kelli..

I looked outside and it sure is bad out. Penny wont be here

as they are telling everyone to stay off the roads they are

so ice covered.. I about fell out when I saw my tree out back.

Those huge branches are on the ground as you can see in

that photo..AND its not over..we are due to get even more.

Not ice, but snow today and tonite.. Kelli went to work and

I told her to make sure she kept an eye on the weather. She

has 4 wheel drive, but on solid ice its still slippery.. Plus I

don't think its as bad in Indiana as here..I'm about 30 or 40

miles from the Indiana border. I watched the guy across the

street as he SLOWLY pulled into his yard. He got out of his

car and he did the nicest whoopdedoo and fell right on his

butt. I laughed but I bet that hurt! :-)

I have no plans for today and I'm not expecting anyone with

this weather like it is.. All I plan to do is sneeze .. :-) My

poor nose is so sore.. BUT I am still a GORGEOUS
WEEBLE !! :-) AND I'll be back.. Keep well..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~I Have a Cold~ :-(

I have the worst cold...my nose is so sore and red. I

sneeze constantly and my nose is so drippy its driving

me nuts.. not counting the awful headache! I'm just

pure d miserable.. I even sent a mean letter to my son

yelling at him for not writing.. I'm such a bad mom.. I

get into these poor me moods, no wonder I have a

raging headache...I did write and apologize to him..

so I hope he bears with me.. hes a good kid. His dad

died in December.. so hes going thru a bit of a rough

go..plus trying to find a job and provide for his family.

I'm not sleeping worth a hoot either, I was up at 1:30

until almost 5..went back to bed and got back up at 7

sneezing my head off.. I'm miserable...Penny might

be coming today and maybe she can go and get my

sleeping pills at the drug store so I can sleep at least

better..wont guarantee I will feel better but it might help.

I feel so useless and just not worth nothin.. I cant even

comb my own hair my arms hurt so bad.. They start to

ache at the shoulder then it radiates down my arm to

just below the elbow .. The closest pain I can compare

it to is a horrible toothache.. I want to sew so badly but

I know how much my arms would ache and so I don't..

The more I use them the more blocked they will get..

My dear friend Raife phoned today and he couldn't have

picked a better day..It sure lifted my spirits talking to him.

Hes in the UK and to make an over seas call is not cheap,

so I appreciate it when he does phone.. He uses SKYPE

which is a lot cheaper rate than using a phone line...I

phoned my son in London and I was surprised how cheap

it really is.. You just put money into the SKYPE account

and just dial.. its thru the computer but I can phone a

land phone which is so great..

Well we are under a winter storm warning. rain, cold and

freezing sleet it says. I kinda think it will be worse north of

us than here.. But it is such a gloomy dark day ..makes

me even more discouraged.. I'm kinda glad I signed up

with hospice but then I sure don't like being reminded of

my limited time.. I think about that enough on my own..Oh

well back to the window..then after I have some lunch,

left over meat loaf..I will crawl up on my bed and just

relax, I'm not a TV person and I get bored watching some

of the ickky shows they have on.. My best fav is Two

and a Half Men.. I love that show and I think its one of

the best on TV.. I don't care what they say about Charlie

Sheen, his private life should be left alone.. Hes still a

great actor just like his dad.. Plus hes such a Cutie..:-)

I'm gonna post this and eat but don't forget I will be

back AND I am still a most GORGEOUS WEEBLE..

Keep well and God Bless..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~New Doctor~

Snow is almost gone.. Yipppeeee .. spring is springin' :)

Meet Kay
Yesterday I just did not feel good.. I think this sleeping

so badly is getting to me and making me even more

tired.. My new doctor came yesterday, Dr. Hyde.. He

was very nice and asked a lot of questions.. He did

prescribe Ambien for me for sleep, but I have no way

to get them till Monday when Penny gets here.. I am

expecting Kay today, shes a social worker with

Southern Care.. I have no idea what her duties are.

Thats Kay in her PT Cruiser.. I LOVE that car..

I'm writing this post early, its only 9:15 am right now,

I got up about 7 and then just end up sitting here

staring out the window..3 of the kitties came for

breakfast and I fed them too.. My boys follow me

around till I feed them, once the dish is on the floor

they both run into the living room by the papers I

have on the floor and give them some of their treats.

If I don't its amazing what a naggy cat Dutch can be.

He will follow me and get in my face with some very

loud MEOWs till I finally get the message he wants

treats.. LB, he will glare at me and say MOM!!!! he

does.. many have heard him talk.. hes more vocal

than Dutch.. they both stick to me like glue since I

got home...

Our snow is almost all gone and its really nice out.

Very windy but warm and springlike.. We are due to

get rain and possible snow tomorrow , but I hope not.

I'm ready for spring and to be able to open my door..

Me, I feel kinda ok today, but tired..I wish I could do

more but my arms ache so badly, like a awful toothache.

The least little thing I do they start to ache from the

shoulder down to the elbow.. I even have to take breaks

in typing.. using just my hands will cause pain.. I wish I

could sew but I know how badly they will hurt.. My great

grand daughter, Kirsten is in need of some clothes for

her baby that I gave her for Christmas.. Penny is going

to walmart today to see if they might have some.. I sure

hope so.. Kirsten phones every night asking.. She is so

smart.. She told me shes gonna have a baby brother..

Donnie didn't tell me..but the babyboy is due in June.

Kirsten is excited about it.. I think she will make a good

big sister.. he will be my 6th great grand.. :-)

Kay just pulled into the driveway so I am closing this post

Thank you all for the great comments and I will be back

tomorrow.. Lord willing.. Just remember I am STILL a

most GORGEOUS WEEBLE... :-)


Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Laura~

Meet Laura, my new nurse :-)

I have been worried about the possibility of having to

go into assisted living and giving up this place, which

I really don't want to do...So.. I called Southern Care

which is a hospice. Their plan is to keep clients at

home as long as possible.. I met with Mandy and I

now have a new nurse, Laura that will be coming

twice a week and not Gail...Laura is so very nice

and has my best interests at heart which I am most

grateful...

So many think of hospice as dying, which in a sense

I am on limited time..but I told her I hope I have at

least the 20 years more that I want.. Hospice takes

the place of the expensive hospital or institution care.

They provide helpers for daily things and a nurse and

are on call 24-7 which makes me feel better..I think I

did the right thing in doing this.. Travis called them

for me first and then they came to evaluate me..This

is a good thing ... Oh, that's Laura's photo.. shes so

pretty and has a 4 year old daughter that is a beauty,

I saw photos.. Plus Laura has 2 cats and a dog.. I

sure wish I could have a dog, but I'm not sure how my

boys would react..they hated Jerky..Sad news about

Jerky, Dawn let him out, he ran into the road and was

killed.. Poor dog.. he was a good one..

Today I am feeling better, I got into a heated discussion

and had to file a complaint with COA.. Sonia came for

my 6month interview, since I get meals on wheels.. I

told her I was feeling REALLY bad and I was in a very

bad mood.. Apparently she went back to COA and told

her boss Katy that I was crabby and in a bad mood who

THEN told the driver that delivers the meals! Well the

driver told Penny when she brought the dinners what she

was told.. I got SO MAD! That Katy had NO right to relay

that info on to the driver, and I told her so.. They violated

my rights.. Katy apologized, which to me is useless its

only words and cant erase how mad I got... I don't need

this stress.. I know it better not happen again...

47 degrees at 9 am this morning and the sun is out. I'm

glad spring is on the way, My boy promised to build a

deck for me when the snow is gone.. I cant wait...

That's all the news for today I had to bring y'all up to date

on me as to what is happening.. I still have a cold that is

making me feel crappy hopefully it will clear up and I

will again be the GORGEOUS WEEBLE !! :-) Iwill be

back !


Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Lotsa Company Today~ :-(

Besides everything else I have a cold.. I woke up

feeling so bad I cant stand my own self.. It has been

a steady parade of people today and it has NOT

helped the situation..


The COA sent a lady, a 6 month interview, the guy

with my new oxygen came and THEN my new nurse,

Laura, of course Penny was here today as well.. It

has been a stressful day and I'm ready to go back

to bed...

I wanted to write though just to say hello and of

course to remind you that I am still a GORGEOUS

WEEBLE and I will try to be back tomorrow..:-)


Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Im very Tired Today~

Today I am really feeling the strain of trying so hard

to feel better. I have been in bed all day.. A lady called

and is going to try to set up hospice for me.. I have

seriously considered assisted living, but the cost would

leave me totally penniless with no money for anything.
I cant do that.. Hopefully I can find someone to live with

me or maybe hospice can help and come in the after

noons.. I just don't know what to do or to really expect

from all this..All I know is I am extremely tired..

I will keep trying to come here and post every day tho. I

have to have a purpose and I need to read all the nice

caring things y'all write to me...This means a lot to me..

I'm gonna close for today .. please don't feel bad if I

don't reply in the comments, I do read every one of

them.. Hopefully soon I will feel better.. I do have a

cold now which sure makes me feel bad as well.. I

know that will go away,, I wish these heart problems

would.. I'm gonna try the pomegrante juice .. according

to online it will unblock arteries... I sure could use it ..

Keep well and thanks again..I'm still a most GORGEOUS
WEEBLE and I will be back...

Always, Lois ****

.

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~ Not Well Today~

I am not well today at all.. I think I am trying too hard.
Gail, my nurse was here and said today was the worst
she has heard my heart beat and we seriously discussed
my going into assisted living somewhere... I need to
think about this... I like being alone, but it is so scarey
when you are so ill... I have not been this sick ever
before and I will be honest I am very scared to be
alone..I have my boys but I have NOT been able to
teach them how to dial a phone in case I need 911...

The boys have not left my side, every where I go they
follow..The hardest part that puts the most stress and
strain on me is the transferring.. If I didnt have to do
that I would be better.. Just to sit up from laying down
is hard.. I have a long piece of ribbon tied to my chair
and when I have to get up I use that to help me..with
no legs I have no leverage...

I was laying in bed and decided to come out here and
write this for today I almost didnt but I took a little
nap earlier as I didnt fall asleep last night till after 3am.
I had even taken a sleeping pill...trazadone, 25 mg..
not strong enough.. But the nap helped..Penny came
and went to the store so I am all squared away until
she or someone can come by..

Thank you for all the wonderful comments, I just
dont have enough stamina to reply today as soon
as I sign off here I am headed back to my bed..
but thank you so much ..Y'all are my strength and
I am most grateful for all of you..

I am still a most GORGEOUS WEEBLE and I will
be back tomorrow hopefully..

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Remember Me~

I had a lot of time to think whilst I was laying in the bed and I am surprised at where my mind took me.. Specially the thoughts of just what do I plan to do with however many days my Lord will grant me to survive... Just what do I want to do with them... I have so many thoughts and of course the first is WHO can I help...and what can I do so my friends will WANT to remember me.... I read KC's comment last night and my staunch supporter Mary.. Made me think.. that is a good legacy to be remembered as a helper not a hindrance... I want to be remembered with a smile and missed... Theres a lot Id like to do but financially unable..but I can give encouragement and be a friend ...I have so much stuff here and as I look around I need to do a good cleaning...After I'm gone I KNOW whomever comes here to take my things will most likely say "Lord, this woman was a pack rat" :-)... I have so much stuff and I AM going to get rid of it... I have too much. Ive already started, I gave Penny 2 of my gorgeous brass lamps. I don't use them, in fact MOST of this stuff I keep I keep for the same reason the rest of you do.."Well, you never know, some day I might need it and then Ill have it".. Right? I am SO bad at using that excuse, which is just what it is.. I am trying to give myself a reason for keeping something that I KNOW I wont use... My granddaughter Amber lost most of her belongings to a fire, she has Kirsten, who is 4, what a girl.. I have to honestly say that I can talk to that 4 year old angel and carry on a better conversation than I can with some adults.. She is such a beauty , sadly I don't have a up to date picture HOWEVER that..will soon be fixed.. But I know when she moves out of Donnies she may need some things to set her house up again and I believe I can help.. Kelli and our new baby girl Andrea are doing wonderful..I know Kelli's maternity leave is about done and I know she would really rather be home taking care of her and Alex.. Our boy will be 3 in April..where has the time gone..Donnie loves that boy so much, well its the boy hes always wanted.. He is enjoying Kirsten though.. She says "my papaw is baby sitting me today and we are having a good time"...I still don't have a picture of Andrea THAT will be fixed too ! I HAVE SPOKEN ! now as soon as the boy gets up I will call and fix that problem.. Donnie has been out of work for almost a month on medical leave he is really coughing and sounds awful..Hes such a determined man that there is NO keeping him down, I talked to him this morning to thank him again for helping me and to let him know how much I enjoyed him being here, the 3 of us had a great day... But.. guess where this kid was going? To ride his snowmobile !~ his excuse.. "gran, soon the snow will be GONE , I gotta ride..I hope he got new boots since the dog ate the others :-) Well my ramblings for today are done.. I have decided to set a pace for myself and go slow then I KNOW I will get back in shape.. I lost over 25 pounds which I don't like how I lost it..but again the Lord knew what he was doing, as weak as I am I am transferring a lot easier than when I had that 25 pounds on me! :-) I'm still a GORGEOUS WEEBLE, well you can see that on that photo.. I'm glad y'all liked it... So anyhoway.. I'm gonna close for today and remember now, I WILL be back ! Always, Lois **** "God Bless You" is my prayer today, I'm honored to call you 'friend'. I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...

~I Overdid~

I overdid yesterday and am paying for it today..This is a

very short post but this GORGEOUS WEEBLE had to

come by and say hi... :-) God luv ya. I do :-) I WILL be

back ~!~

Always,

Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

I slept last night, but a restless sleep.. I woke at 6 am to

the beep beep of the smoke detector..Needless to say

I got up... Sadly however when I rolled out into the kitchen

I was SEVERELY nauseated..so after throwing up nothing

for about 15 minutes the feeling passed..One of my major

problems during all this was the nausea, no matter if I eat,

drink or taking pills is the worst, I throw up..Well then I got

that -C-Diff or whatever that made my body fluids toxic

waste and no one could come into my room unless they

had a gown and gloves on.. I was miserable..
THEN~! it gets better ! I got a UTI..urinary tract infection!

I was having a hard way to go.. That picture up there is one

Penny took at Fairview..With that c-diff I had to be in a

private room......I HATED that.. HAHA ! I was glad.. I dont

do good with room mates...:-)

When I was wheeled on a stretcher into Fairview I had a

most horrible vision of a repeat of a bad movie..Sure

reminded me of the Hell home.. I wasn't happy.. at the hell

home I never had a room to myself they always gave me

the room mates from hell...That was a major issue there.

The personnel at Fairview were exceptional..and it was

like at the hell home, someone was steady coming by..

The night before I left there was a steady stream of aides

and nurses coming by to give me a hug and to wish me

well.. One nurse Alita was a doll.. she and I hit it off right

from the start. Her husband has cancer and told 4 years

ago he was on limited time...I pray for him every day..

Across the hall from me was a young black kid..well he

was 23 or so.. He had been in and out of rehabs since

he was 8, when he dove into a lake and broke his neck

he is a vegetable.. Every day I looked at him..they faithfully

got him up and made him a part of the daily living.. I looked

at him and thanked God I was me.. I may have problems,

but at least I KNOW it.. I can appreciate every day..this

poor guy, knows nothing and is kept alive with a feeding

tube as he stares vacantly into space.. God has a special

place for him and I think hes to remind the rest of us just

how lucky we are....

Well so much for todays post.. Graybelle had to come visit,

her poor mouth still is not completely healed.. Penny has

gone to the store and my boy just called to say he is on the

way..Hes bringing my humidifer ..the boys and I spark each

other so bad, its amazing we don't catch on fire.. Hes gonna

fix the smoke detector and replace the lightbulb in the bath

room. Penny is such a tiny thing she cant reach it.. :-)

So anyhoway, I'm done for today.. I'm still a GORGEOUS
WEEBLE and I will be back ! :-)


Always,

Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~ A Question For You~

I am not going to post every day for a while..when I feel

up to it I will...I had an extremely rough night and I am

very tired today, plus my nurse came and its been busy.

I have a question to put to you all.. "If you had a year to

live, what would you do? How would you live your life?

What would you change? What kind of memory of you

do you want people to remember you by? Ive thought

about this a lot and boy the wide range of emotions

trying to decide HOW do I want whats left of my life

to be... Think about it...

Me I wanna be remembered with a smile, as a lady

that can be your best friend or your worst enemy..

but will love and forgive you no matter what..

I do know one thing I'm doing and that's writing my

will.. not that I have a lot but.. well theres some things

I want to go to special people that mean a lot to me.

OK I'm done for today,, I'm gonna lay this tired body

down for a few..wanna take a nap with me? :-)

Remember I'll be back and I'm still a GORGEOUS
WEEBLE...

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...

~Im Home Again!~

I'm home again...very weak and not in the best of

condition, but I made it through the fight of my life

this past month and a half, I am pleased and proud to say,

I don't think I have been through worse than this other

than when I was fighting that horrible infection in my

left stump for a year that time.. This was a shorter

fight but the outcome is not near as good as it was

with the infection..but I'm still here and the fight is ON! :-)

Here is the scoop.. My heart is blocked in 2 places which

are not able to be fixed..Both arms are severly blocked

and cannot be fixed, which I am grateful I have my power

chair.. I cannot operate my manual but a few feet with out

excruciating pain in my arms.. My abdomen is blocked

and cannot be fixed..Ive already had 2 abdominal bypasses,

no chance for a 3rd.....

My Dr. ,Saltile, sat down in my hospital room, on my 66th

birthday and told me this.. He said I "possibly have a year

ahead". I don't need to tell you what I did.. I cried of course.

I had so been planning another 20 years...Some dreams

don't come true...

I know 2 little boys that are happy to have their mom home

and they have not left my side since I got here...LB was a

bit mad at first , Dutch well, my little man cried he was so

happy and showered me with kisses.. LB came around

later and hes not left me either...

I have to have almost daily help now.. If you know of some

one wants to come and live with me let me know.. I still need

lots of care...

So there you have the update on me.. This is a most interesting

subject "what would you do if given only a year to live..." I have

had so many bouts of tears and sadness its amazing..l I hope

you will continue this journey with me...

I read all the comments and I wont name all of you, but your
special words and dear caring thoughts made me cry and ever
so grateful that I have all of you out there praying for me..With
out your prayers I would not have survived... Thank you...
And Bev, my sweet girl...you are a good daughter to me and
your mom.. I love you dearly......

I lost about 25 pounds, but guess what? I'm still a GORGEOUS
WEEBLE.. God love ya and I shall be back... :-)

Always Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...